In fact, at the very beginning, Lin Xiaohuan didn't want a result.
She is afraid, fearful, disgusted, and despises her natural sexuality, because it is not allowed or accepted in the eyes of others, at least on the surface.
Lin Xiaohuan has always remembered a scene. She couldn't remember exactly which year, month and day it was, but she only vaguely remembered how old she was. One day, her brother talked about three words at home, maybe it was because her brother didn't I know where I read it, maybe my brother heard it, but it made my parents furious.
They angrily reprimanded Lin Xiaohuan's brother, and warned the two children that they must never have that dangerous, abnormal and disgusting thought.
Homosexuality is abnormal and should be burned to death.
At that time, Lin Xiaohuan still couldn't understand what those three words meant or what it represented, but she just firmly remembered the scene, including the tone and expression of her parents.
But when puberty began, she found that her attention was completely different from other girls.
She had despaired, spurned, and struggled with herself, but these were useless. She couldn't fall in love with a boy, and couldn't become a "normal" person.
Going online is a good choice at this time, because there will always be a group of people who are the same as her on the Internet. They communicate with each other's thoughts and worries, although they are far away, and they don't even know what the other person looks like. Layers of screens, but warm each other's hearts.
Lin Xiaohuan once saw such words. A child asked his mother what homosexuality was and what to think about it. Her mother explained: Men and women are like the poles of a magnet. Only by overcoming a lot of resistance can we embrace each other.
How difficult it is to hug each other.
It was the first time for Su Xin to receive such a memory. Although she couldn't remember the past clearly, she was inexplicably certain that this was the first time she had received such a memory.
Maybe it wasn't the most hopeless, humbling, and angry memory she'd ever received, but it had to be the saddest by far.
Su Xin couldn't remember what kind of people she had been with, but at least she had a feeling that she must have been in love with some people.
And those people should be girls, and they are very good girls who will spoil her very much.
She felt that her concept had changed, not abruptly, but subtly.
How can Su Xin not know her own temperament, it is impossible for her to serve others.
And that person, or those people, must not be arrogant or awkward, because she doesn't like it, and being in love like that is too tiring, and she is lazy.
She is more arrogant and self-centered. She is more arrogant, arrogant and awkward than her. She does not conform to the three views, does not exist in love, and panics.
"I… "
Chu Muyu got stuck and didn't know what to say.
"I don't blame you for not responding to my liking. What I hate is that when you clearly know that I like you, you still tell me that Wu Yubing broke up and loves you again. I hate that you gave me hope to kill it with your own hands. As long as you If you take my feelings into consideration a little bit, you won't be like this."
"Thank you for your reminder, let's hang up."
Chu Muyu didn't hold back her anger anymore, but panicked again.
She wanted to go in, find Su Xin, and explain the matter clearly.
But even if she went, it would be impossible for her to understand, or in other words, they would not have discussed the results before.
Chu Muyu felt a little bit guilty, but it was only a little bit.
Even if Su Xin said so, she didn't feel how much she was wrong in her heart.
Su Xin knew that this was the case, so she couldn't expect this person to feel guilty and have a disturbed conscience.
Chu Muyu is not only used to Lin Xiaohuan being nice to her, but also used to being supported by everyone around her.
Of course, this area is not the vast majority.
When Chu Muyu returns home, or when she sees some people, she will feel very inferior.
And this kind of inferiority complex, she will not show it exactly, but will seek an emotional shelter from the people around her, making her feel loved, needed, and cared for.
This is also part of the reason why she always changes boyfriends, the main reason is that she is promiscuous.
So it is very difficult for her to realize her mistake.
Chu Muyu thinks that if others like her, they have to endure her badness and bear her emotional catharsis, even if they are not in a relationship.
She thinks that liking someone and paying for her is a matter of course, so she enjoys other people's kindness to her with peace of mind and does not respond accordingly.
Therefore, Lin Xiaohuan's devotion to her is nothing more than a necessary part of a secret love in her opinion.
Lin Xiaohuan likes her, so she has to be bullied by her, and has to endure her badness.
What a wayward and unreasonable selfish person.
Su Xin went out from the bathroom and returned to the box.
"What do you want to tell me?"
The dishes on the table have been removed, and the table is clean.
"I really want to talk to my aunt."
Su Xin likes to talk to smart people, smart people don't need to say anything, just look at her, she will know what it means, and she can understand it.
"Auntie, did you send someone to follow me?"
"What? Is someone following you?"
Chu Yanxi was surprised.
"Last time when I was shopping, through the reflection of the glass, I saw that person taking pictures of me. Wherever I went, he followed me. So it wasn't you, Auntie? I thought..."
"How do you think it's me?"
"Because it's never happened before... I thought you were worried about me and Chu Muyu, so..."
Su Xin was at a loss on his face, and complained wildly in his heart. It's pretty serious to pretend, but the fourteenth master said that the follower was sent by Chu Yanxi.
"You think I need someone to follow you for this?"
Chu Yanxi turned cold and looked unhappy.
"I'm sorry Auntie..."
Chu Yanxi saw the uneasy expression on the face of the girl sitting opposite, and her expression eased a little.
She was a little funny in her heart, but she couldn't show it on the surface, and she still looked serious.
"I didn't expect you to think so, when did you find out that you were being followed?"
"several days ago."
"Then think about whether you have encountered anyone or anything. This matter cannot be ignored. It is chaotic and dangerous outside now."
Chu Yanxi pondered for a while and said, rubbing her fingers together for a while. "No, I'm pretty sure I didn't, because I hardly meet anyone, so I remember everything very clearly."
Su Xin shook her head.
"Could it be people and things that you have never noticed? There are many bad people in society now, some of them are mentally ill, and being followed is very dangerous. Do you need me to hire some people to follow you to ensure your safety? .”
"No, Auntie, thank you."
Su Xin shook her head quickly, what on earth did this person want to do? It's not enough to send one person to follow her and secretly take pictures of her, how many more are needed
"Then please remember my contact information. If something happens, you can call or send me a message for help."
"Auntie... this... is too much trouble for you."
Su Xin shook her head, but her expression was questionable and grateful.
"Are you wondering why I should be so kind? I don't look like the kind of person to talk to you like that?"
"Um… "
"I just don't want me to regret it. You've already told me about it. In the future... I won't forgive myself."
Chu Yanxi spoke beautifully, and her expression was very good, but this could not conceal the fact that she sent someone to spy on Su Xin and asked for Su Xin's contact information in a fair manner.
"Okay, thank you, auntie."
Su Xin smiled. At this time, not only could she not slap the table angrily and say mmp, but she also had to cooperate with the other party in the role, showing a somewhat happy expression.
"Also, I'm not worried about things between the two of you."
Chu Yanxi said leisurely.
"Do you think the two of us can never be together? Because we're both girls?"
"It's not."
Chu Yanxi shook her head, but she didn't discriminate.
"Why… ?"
"I don't discriminate, they are no different from normal people."
Regardless of gender, it is our birthright to be able to walk in the sun hand in hand with the one we love.
That's what Chu Yanxi thought. Anyway, two girls won't get sick when they're together. It's reasonable, if all the women go to Ji Ji and eliminate the way of blood transmission, women won't get AIDS at all.
"Anyway, it's impossible for us to be together in the future. There is no possibility between us. Auntie, please rest assured."
"Auntie, I'm leaving first, goodbye."
"Goodbye, if you have anything to do, remember to contact me, no matter what your relationship with Mu Yu is, but the matter between you and her does not prevent the two of us from communicating, you should know the relationship between me and Mu Yu, don't be too Don't worry, if you have trouble, you must say it."
"good."
Su Xin nodded, Chu Yanxi means she appreciates her? No matter what Chu Muyu does, it has nothing to do with her
Su Xin really didn't think that Chu Yanxi cared so much about Chu Muyu, she was just surprised, Chu Yanxi let people watch Chu Muyu to prevent her from getting into trouble, why would anyone follow her
Su Xin walked out of the restaurant, and Chu Muyu walked out.
"Are you okay? My mother didn't make things difficult for you, did she?"
"Auntie is reasonable, why would you make things difficult for me?"
Chu Yanxi's acting skills are superb and she has a thick skin, she is simply stinky and shameless.
"That's good... Do you want to go home? Let's go back together."
"Whatever you want, by the way, I want to tell you something."
"What?"
"The contract we signed with the landlord is about to expire, and I don't intend to renew it."
"Are you moving out?"
"Change place to live."
"Because of me? You want to stay away from me that much?"
Su Xin didn't speak, it was the default.
"Lin Xiaohuan, you..."