like you.
Love you.
want you.
Su Xin opened her eyes in confusion, feeling that she seemed to have heard that sentence thousands of times.
It was as if someone kept telling her that she couldn't remember the time, place, or face, but there was a voice in her mind.
Su Xin shook her head, and those voices disappeared in an instant.
Very strange.
Master Fourteen, do you know what's going on
[It may be a weak memory remaining in the host's mind. Memory blurring is not a panacea. Some memories are firmly remembered by the host, and they will still be triggered after being blurred.]
Su Xin understood, it was probably what she said to her about her previous relationship, the person she liked who liked her.
And the key point of this being triggered is the liking that Chu Yanxi said
"But there are so many people who look better than me."
"Beauty is in the bone but not in the skin."
"You don't care about appearance?"
"I only care about you."
"I don't understand."
"The first time I saw you, I knew that you should be mine."
Chu Yanxi turned over and looked at Su Xin's back.
"love at first sight?"
"It's deeper than that."
"But it makes no sense."
"Love doesn't make sense."
Su Xin maintained the sleeping position just now and did not move, she knew that Chu Yanxi was watching her from behind her.
Su Xin's emotional intelligence is not very high, she can't learn how to tactfully make a person who loves her not love her, and she can't do what she thinks is good and harmful to others.
She is more direct, almost unreasonable.
"Then how can you not like me?"
Chu Yanxi's hands tightened suddenly, her eyes darkened.
"Is my liking bothering you?"
"No... I like it, it's just..."
Su Xin was a little irritable. She wanted to explain things clearly, but she didn't know if it was appropriate.
"Just what?"
Su Xin hates procrastination and ambiguity.
She is the kind of person who will say goodbye to something clearly, because she will show her cards, she doesn't like misunderstandings, and she doesn't like to leave others delusional, and there is no reunion after a broken mirror.
Such decisiveness and directness may be too selfish, but Su Xin, insist on being yourself.
Su Xin sat up from the bed, and when Chu Yanxi saw her move, she also sat up, and the two faced each other.
"I may not live long, can you not like me?"
"What nonsense?"
Chu Yanxi frowned. She couldn't see the expression of the person opposite in the dark, but she heard the indifference in her tone.
"It has been checked and confirmed. I know my physical condition, and you understand what I mean."
"Are you not afraid at all?"
"I've been there once."
Su Xin shook her wrist.
"Are you afraid that I will be sad?"
"yes."
"You care about me?"
"A little bit."
"That's enough."
Chu Yanxi reached out and hugged her little girl in her arms.
"Why are you so calm?"
"not at all."
Chu Yanxi's other hand was trembling slightly, but her voice remained unchanged.
"so… "
"So you agreed to my pursuit?"
"Aha?"
"If... I mean if... you like me, but I'm about to die, let me tell you, go find someone else to like me, will you agree?"
"Of course not, if you like me too, then you can be there for a while...you..."
Su Xin was surprised that this person would think the same as her.
Simple statement, not to win sympathy and love.
"Don't be afraid of the end, so you don't want to start. You really understand me."
Chu Yanxi kissed Su Xin on the forehead.
The most uncomfortable thing is not the yin and yang separation after being together, but when she was alive, she could be together, but she didn't have the chance.
If we are together, we will miss them for the rest of our life, but if we are not together, we will have endless time to miss them, because we can't ask for them.
Su Xin is not very selfish, she can completely hide from Chu Yanxi, and then fall in love with her, but she can't do it, her conscience can't bear it, she will feel uncomfortable.
So the premise is good, we can be together, but I will die.
Whether we want to be together or not is up to you.
Su Xin likes to give this kind of choice to others. She has no conscience. Anyway, she is not the one who suffers.
To be happy in life is to be happy, don't let the golden cup be empty to the moon.
"Then now..."
"Just be together, how much time do you have left?"
When she asked this sentence, Chu Yanxi felt her heart was bleeding.
But her tone was still normal, and she couldn't see her sadness.
Every minute and every second should not be wasted, Chu Yanxi let out a breath, and hugged Su Xin tighter in her arms.
"Probably a few months."
Su Xin was vague, and she was not sure.
After a long silence, Chu Yanxi said good night.
"Good night."
"Good night."
Su Xin didn't sleep well all night, and was still a little flustered.
Chu Yanxi didn't sleep all night, her head ached from drinking, but because she didn't sleep all night, her headache became even worse.
"Why don't you sleep?"
Chu Yanxi twitched the corners of her mouth, but said nothing.
She can't sleep.
As soon as I close my eyes, some bad pictures will appear, I dare not sleep, and I am reluctant to sleep.
Obviously knowing that it won't be lost in the next second, but it is also uncomfortable.
"That's why I didn't want to have a showdown with you before."
Su Xin half-kneeled on the bed and pinched Chu Yanxi's face.
"If liking me makes you feel uncomfortable, then I wish I never appeared in front of you."
It's not that I'm afraid of ending, so I don't want to start.
It's because I'm afraid that the person who loves her will feel bad, so don't start at all.
"No."
Chu Yanxi leaned on Su Xin's body, her face was very ugly.
"Then be happy and get a good night's sleep. I'll call your assistant and tell you that you won't be going this morning. Is that okay? If it's urgent, you're not in a good condition right now."
"I can contact the best hospitals at home and abroad..."
Warm kisses fell on Chu Yanxi's forehead, face, and lips.
"I said I know my body, I don't like you if you do this, go to bed, I'll sleep with you for a while."
"good."
Chu Yanxi lay down, but Su Xin still had her eyes open.
Fourteenth Master, do you think it is possible that what I like and what I like are all the same person
Su Xin just guessed at random. This inexplicable sense of dependence and trust made him feel a strange sense of certainty and goodwill.
It didn't happen, but it seemed destined.
Before Fourteen could answer, Su Xin smiled and denied her thoughts.
How is that possible, it's ridiculous.
How can there be such a coincidence, so many planes and worlds, she has a system, it is impossible for that person to have one too.
The fourteenth master was silent and did not make a sound.
The truth you don't know is a truth more absurd than a lie.
Chu Yanxi was resting at home, and Su Xin went out to have dinner with Chu Muyu.
After making an appointment, Su Xin arrived at the destination.
Xia Tian wore light clothes, Su Xin wore a white shirt, which slightly covered the marks on her neck, but as long as she raised her head, those marks would be fully exposed.
Chu Muyu beckoned, smiling brightly.
"A new grilled fish restaurant has opened, and they say it's very delicious, let's eat there today."
"good."
Su Xin nodded and followed Chu Muyu.
"Isn't it hot to wear a shirt to cover yourself in such a hot day?"
"fine."
The atmosphere between the two was slightly awkward, Su Xin would occasionally strike up a conversation, while Chu Muyu was racking his brains to think of topics.
They don't seem to have much in common. What Chu Muyu is more familiar with is bags, shoes, and cosmetics, but Chu Muyu also knows that Lin Xiaohuan doesn't know much about those things. If he said that, it would be meaningless.
Lin Xiaohuan may be more interested in what kind of books, but Chu Muyu basically doesn't read literary works very much.
"There are several dramas that are on the air recently, which one are you watching?"
"No, I've been chasing something else recently."
"What drama?"
Chu Muyu showed interest.
Su Xin said the name of an American drama, and Chu Muyu nodded quickly.
In fact, Chu Muyu prefers to watch Korean dramas, just like other girls.
"Guests, your drinks."
The waiter took a large cup of sour plum soup and put it on the table, breaking the embarrassment.
They have already ordered the fish just now, so they just need to wait. There are not many customers at present, so they should be able to serve them soon.
Chu Muyu felt very distressed, it was really difficult to coax a girl.
She has already made plans for the next step, for example, ask Lin Xiaohuan to go to the movies, it is not comfortable to go shopping in such a hot day, and Lin Xiaohuan doesn't like to go out too much, why not go to a movie and relax, she has already checked which one to watch Movies are more appropriate.
Su Xin took a sip of sour plum soup, wiped the sweat from his forehead with a paper towel, and unbuttoned one button of his shirt, but then hurriedly buttoned it back as if thinking of something suddenly.
Chu Muyu already saw something sharply.
"What's on your neck?"
"It's just a big bag bitten by a few mosquitoes."
Chu Muyu doesn't quite believe it, it's not like she hasn't done that kind of thing before, and she can still tell whether the bag that the mosquito is about to come out or the mark that someone else made.
"What kind of mosquito bites so well?"
The inexplicable annoyance made Chu Muyu let out a cold snort.
"Who knows, maybe they prefer this location."
Su Xin's expression was unnatural for a moment, and Chu Muyu who was opposite had a panoramic view of his reaction.
Chu Muyu snorted again, bit her lip and sat upright.
How long has it been? Lin Xiaohuan is just so... so... casual
Chu Muyu was unhappy after eating a meal, of course, Su Xin was quite happy, thinking that it was really delicious.
Anyway, Chu Muyu is not happy, so she is happy.
"I am leaving."
"Oh, bye-bye."
Chu Muyu clenched the paper in his hands irritably, and walked back and forth several times in one place.
Tsk, which wild woman is it that hooked up with Lin Xiaohuan so quickly
Su Xin didn't go far before receiving a call from Chu Yanxi.
"Finished?"
"Um."
"Then come back, I'll wait for you at home."
Holding the phone, Su Xin vaguely felt that someone seemed to be always at home, waiting for her to go back.
Reluctantly, the flowers fall, and the familiar Yan returns.
The author has something to say: [Correct Interpretation of Poems] All the good things that are bound to disappear cannot prevent their disappearance, but there are still good things reappearing at the same time as they disappear, and life will not become nothingness because of disappearance. It's just that this kind of reappearance is not equal to the unaltered reappearance of beautiful things after all, it is just "deja vu". [Applied Interpretation] Love is always going to die, life will wither sooner or later, but what is similar but not the same is my spotless sincerity to you.