My name is Sun Yixiao, a name that looks very free and easy.
But I don't know if it's some kind of strange language, girls who are usually called quiet are actually not very quiet.
I call it a smile, but I can't just laugh it off, for some people, for some things.
2014.04.01, I died, I did not expect.
It's like I didn't expect that I would fall in love with Miss L at the beginning.
Ms. L is a very nice girl. When I was bullied by some girls on the ground, she came over and kicked her one by one. I think she is very handsome, although I was bullied even more by those girls. I'm still very happy, look, someone once stood up and helped me.
I played an insignificant role in her life. To her, I might just be an ordinary passer-by, but she didn't know that she was as warm and conspicuous as the sun in my world.
I have been secretly following her, a bit like a pervert.
But I don't worry about her, she looks so good-looking, what if something happens to her.
In the end, something really happened. The driver who ran a red light ran into her. I don't know where the strength came from, and I rushed over and knocked her away, and then I became a meatloaf.
Well, it's a disgusting description, and it's not a good way to die at all.
I thought I was going to go like this, but I didn't expect to hear a strange voice. It turns out that there really is a system in this world.
Sure enough, do good people still get rewarded
I have always felt that to live in the world, we must have hope.
So even if my dad committed suicide because of gambling debts, my mom ran away with others, was rejected, and lived alone with my hated grandma, I don't think it's a big deal.
When I was beaten and bruised all over, I also thought about why I didn't want to die. It would be over once and for all, but I didn't want to die.
Later, when I met Ms. L, I realized that it was the right choice not to kill myself. Maybe I insisted on living for no reason, because I would meet her
In fact, I am so happy that I could die for her.
I don't know why, but in the first world, I saw someone very similar to her.
While taking care of my tasks, I chased after her.
I always believe that the flower of love will bloom here.
Yes, love.
I like her, but she doesn't like me.
System Fourteen is very good, and having tasks is also very good, I won't put my whole heart on her heart, and feel disappointed.
I know it's worthless, but it's uncontrollable. I always want to find my own value in others.
It seems that with the affirmation of others, I have the motivation to live.
I chased my love again and again, and sometimes I got what I wanted, hugged and desired.
But in the end, it is always abandoned.
She didn't fall in love with anyone else, she just didn't love me anymore.
It's really disappointing.
But I won't give up.
If you give up easily, how can you be worthy of my hard pursuit.
One day, Fourteen told me that it had brought a new host, and I talked to the girl named Su Xin. At that time, I was in her arms, and I was very happy.
Listening to the voice, I feel that Fourteen's new host must be a very confident person, which is great.
I also want to restrain myself from being dependent and entangled like a dodder, but there is no way, I can deal with others freely, but except for her, I will throw away my armor.
Then hold the softest part of yourself in front of her and tell her that I love her.
I really like her so much, I like her almost to death.
But I was still abandoned.
When I was dumped for the eighteenth time, I went to drink and talk to the fourteenth in my mind. In the eyes of others, I might be crazy.
I'm probably crazy.
So I'm trying to clear myself up a bit.
I smashed the bottle on my head until it was bloody.
I smelled wine, and blood.
It hurts, but still not awake enough.
I burst into tears and fucked love.
I knew that I must have been in a mess at that time, like a bereaved dog. Others would only think that I was drunk and crazy, and would not understand how sad I was.
But anyway, I didn't intend to let anyone know.
Fourteen clumsily comforted me, and I cried and laughed.
It would be nice if Mr. System had an entity, then I would definitely hug him and thank him.
I'm not stupid, there is someone like her in every world, it can't be a coincidence.
But time and time again, he was rejected and abandoned again and again.
I am pretty tired.
Sorry, I really can't hold on this time.
I chose to resign and started a life of traveling and relaxing, but in the end I couldn't help but return to her.
Even though he had never owned her before, it seemed that he had lost her thousands of times.
In the real world, I plucked up the courage to confess to her, and started another entanglement.
After being rejected for the last time, I chose to give up completely.
She's really nice, I'm not good enough for her.
I am very grateful to her for coming and staying in my darkest time.
As the cold sea water poured into my body, I heard the voice of my former partner again.
This time I chose to decline.
I have no motivation to live anymore.
I don't hate this world, although it has brought me so much harm, but I am still very grateful, it brought me Miss L.
Even if I die, I still love this world very much.
It's really nice after all, it's just that I didn't get what I wanted.
Insignificant love, nothing more.