"That winter, the weather was very cold. I felt like I couldn't hold on any longer. I finally earned some money for the trip and took a train to the north to find you."
"After searching for a long time, I finally found Fu's house, and I was so lucky to see you in the park near Fu's house."
"At that time, you were wearing a dark blue down jacket, sitting alone on a park bench, looking into the distance with a sinister look on your face, your eyes full of hatred. I felt so distressed, it hurt more than the pain I was suffering from."
"I noticed that the corners of your mouth were broken and there were wounds around your eyes. At that time, I knew that you were not living well in the Fu family."
Looking at the things on the table, pairs of cotton shoes, insoles, neatly stacked movie tickets, and a few lonely train tickets, Fu Jingyao finally couldn't help it.
With shaking hands, he picked up a train ticket with a blurred train number and only the name of the destination vaguely visible, and his eyes moistened: "Then why don't you recognize me?"
If she had appeared in front of him at that time, she wouldn't have had such a hard time.
And he will not always be brooding over what happened back then.
Su Qiao sat on the single sofa at the side, was silent for a moment, looked up at him: "But at that moment, I gave up the idea of looking for you."
"I think you're already having a hard time. How can I drag this sickly body along to add to your burden?"
"If I died someday, would you be sadder? Would you think the world is darker?"
This was the clone’s truest thought at the time.
By then, she had already experienced the ups and downs of life.
She thought that he might not have a good life in the Fu family, but at least he had food and clothes, and if he was sick, he would get good treatment.
That's good.
"I squatted in the bushes and stayed with you for several hours, waiting for the Fu family to come find you. Then I slowly left with heavy steps."
"The winter nights are particularly bleak and cold. I walk alone on the streets of the north, hugging my shoulders, but my heart is colder than the ice and snow on the ground."
When the clone Su Qiao went to the north to find him, he was almost at his wit's end.
She went there with hope, but finally chose to leave.
But the world is so big, and there is no place for her.
In the end, I had to beg for money to buy a train ticket and leave.
"sister!"
Fu Jingyao couldn't bear it any longer, and hugged her tightly in his arms, tears filling his eyes.
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! It's all my fault for not finding you sooner!"
Su Qiao patted his shoulder slowly to comfort him:
"Later, my illness recurred and ugly red spots appeared on my face and body. Even when I was setting up a street stall, no one dared to buy my goods. Everyone avoided me like the plague."
"At that time, I probably even disliked dogs!" Su Qiao said with a hint of self-mockery.
"Later, I couldn't make any money and had no money to buy medicine, so I came here now."
He raised his eyes slightly and looked at the wooden hut, "This turned out to be a small shabby house abandoned by someone else."
“Living here, I can avoid the crowds, I don’t have to look at anyone’s face, and I don’t have to be pointed at or driven away.”
"You can cultivate some land and vegetables, dig herbs from the mountains and boil them for yourself, or you can dig some herbs and bring them to town to exchange for money to live on."
Pushing the man away slightly, Su Qiao looked at him gently and seriously:
"You said I never considered you a relative and never put you in my heart, but you don't know that every year on your birthday, as long as I can get up and have extra money, I will take a train to the north to see you."