[April 12, sunny.
Skin hunger and thirst, this is the result given by the doctor.
When I heard this result, I was not surprised. What was surprising was that this mental illness would only attack me when I saw her.
The doctor said that I need psychotherapy, because the disease is too serious, it will cause a lot of irrational behavior, I refused, because I will not pay too much attention to a nasty woman.
Yes, Xia Fengguang is a woman I hate.]
[April 18, sunny.
It's been seven days since what happened on the bridge, and six days since the mental illness report.
When I woke up today, the bed was still wet, and my dream still hadn't changed at all. It wasn't a good dream...but it was a strange dream that made me addicted.
I cracked the password of Guo Ming's network disk, and watched all the explicit videos in the folder of study materials. The rude actions of those men and the deliberate screams of those women made me feel very boring.
I don't understand, Xia Fengguang is also a woman, her body structure is no different from these women, why I only have sex/fantasies about her inexplicably, even in a dream, it can make me extremely excited.
All of this must be due to skin hunger.]
…
[April 22nd, overcast.
I am in love with this dream.
In the dream, her skin was so white and tender, and her voice was so beautiful.
I have no reason to reject this comfortable dream.]
[April 23rd, overcast.
I made her cry.
I did not do it on purpose.
Why would she help that man so kindly
I'm jealous.
Very jealous.
But I regret it because she cried.
She is not a bad woman.
She is the most difficult secret hidden in my heart.]
[April 24th, overcast.
I changed all the webpages, and everyone who clicks on the webpage will see that she did not do those things, and she was wronged.
Among the people who wronged her, there is me.
Will she be happy
She wants the blue flower, she wants the silver squirrel, I can give it to her.
Guo Ming said that girls like heart-shaped things, so I put these things in the shape of a heart.
Will she like it?]
[April 25th, sunny.
She didn't play the game.]
[April 26, sunny.
She didn't play the game.]
…
[April 30th, rain.
Today, I couldn't help but peeped at her.
I took control of the camera on her computer, which was facing her bed.
She was wearing a nightgown and was lying on the bed reading a book. She suddenly turned over and lay on her side with her head supported by her hands. Groove, I want to touch it, because I miss the feeling of her pressing on me that day.
Her thighs were also exposed, very white, as white as jade, and I saw the pink corner between her legs.
She is wearing pink panties, which is her favorite color.
I didn't hold back, imagining her crying in my dream, and I released it in my own hands.]
[May 1st, sunny.
Today she is wearing a yellow dress. She likes to wear skirts, because she looks very beautiful in skirts, which are dignified, playful and cute.
I want to take off her dress.]
[May 2nd, sunny.
She went to bed a minute earlier than usual today.
Is she in a bad mood
Or is she uncomfortable
I want her to sleep in my arms.]
…
[May 13th, sunny.
I went to a class that I never attended before, because she came to class today, and I had to reserve a seat for her.
Her body is really fragrant, even more intoxicating than I imagined.
There are so many people here that I resist the urge to hug her.
She wrote my name and wrote it several times before she got it right, but I liked what she wrote so much that I locked the paper in the safe.
Because of Zhou Lie, I successfully had a legitimate reason to walk with her.
She said that I was her boyfriend in front of Shen Wuyan, and I was very happy.
I will be her future husband.]
[May 14th, sunny.
I can't let her know that I'm just doing my own way, and I'm going to keep it a secret.
I know she doesn't eat breakfast every day, it's not good for her health, so I will make breakfast for her.
The thirty-seventh egg roll and the twenty-eighth vegetable steamed bun were finally perfect, and she liked them very much.
I decided to make her breakfast every day.
She is very good at pretending to be very strong. When I heard what she said to Zhao Xiaolu, I couldn't help but took her home. I wanted her to rely on me more, so that I would feel that I was important to her. is very important.
I kissed her, she enjoyed it, but she refused my further movements, I respected her, but holding her hand solved it.
It's different from doing it by yourself, releasing it under her hands is terribly comfortable.]
[May 15th, sunny.
She still knows.
Knowing the secret I wanted to keep from her.
She doesn't believe me.
I suddenly couldn't hear my own heartbeat.
Am I already dead?]
[May 16th, overcast.
I'm not dead yet.]
…
[May 20th, sunny.
Today I got two cuts on my hand again with a knife, the color of the blood is beautiful.
But I still miss her.
Want to see her, want to touch her.]
[May 26th, sunny.
The injury will heal soon.
I think wounds are not enough.
I want to imprison her.]
[May 28, sunny.
She is going abroad, she is leaving me.
Can't…
I won't let her leave me!]
[May 29th, sunny.
She still came back.
Come back to me.
She is willing to start over with me.
I am alive again.]
…
[June 17, sunny.
Because Guo Ming found a job, he moved to the dormitory assigned by the company. We returned the rented house, and I bought a room in an apartment building near the university, because Feng Feng finally agreed to live with me.
Today we got married in the game, and Dao Youxin also came to watch the ceremony. He has changed his name to Dao Wuxin, and I heard that he often brings that woman named Mengguoer back to life.
Fengguang is very interested in him, but after I told her that Dao Wuxin is actually Zhou Lie, she has no interest in him at all. She hates Zhou Lie, and I am very happy.
Even Shen Wuyan didn't know that Dao Youxin was actually his cousin.
As I said, as long as I want to, I can know the identity of everyone.
The scenery said that I am very powerful.
I will let her know what is stronger in bed tonight.]
The scenery in the kitchen shouted: "Ou Xun! Let's make dinner!"
"Okay." Ou Xun answered. He put down his pen and got up, and closed the diary. He was going to put it in the safe, but he suddenly changed his mind.
He pushed open the cabinet, and there was another dark space behind the cabinet. He bought this room at the beginning because he liked this secret compartment. It is said that the original intention of the design was to allow the host family to hide in case of danger.
In a small space, an iron cage is filled with pink dolls. If you can ignore that these dolls are piled up in the cage, everyone will think that these are just dolls for little girls.
Ou Xun threw the diary in the cage, he turned around and went out to restore everything to the original state, when Feng Jing called his name for the second time, he had already hugged her from behind.
There are some things that she will never know, as long as she stays by his side forever.