"Eh?" Lin You was surprised, paused and asked, "... right now?"
"Well, I'm sorry." Xiao Xiao seemed really sorry.
Lin You quickly waved her hand: "It's nothing, since it's a friend's business, let's give priority to that."
"Although it's a pity that I can't see the fireworks show. After the ban on fireworks, they are not allowed to be released during the New Year..." The ice cream on the skirt still felt sticky after being wiped off. Lin You let go of her hand and said with a smile, "But next time It's good to be together again."
Xiao Xiao: "...um."
She usually has less time to be free all day like this. This "next time" may have to wait until next year. Lin You should also know this.
Obviously it came to make her happy, but the ending was not satisfactory.
Xiao Xiao pursed her lips slightly, and finally just said: "I'll take you to school."
The way back was much quieter than when we came. Xiao Xiao is not someone who is good at finding topics, once Lin You does not speak, there is usually only silence between them.
Lin You usually doesn't hate this kind of situation, as long as she stays with Xiao Xiao, she feels very happy, even if they each do their own things, it's natural, but today there is a little bit more wordless silence for no reason.
When she was about to arrive at school, Lin You bowed her head and typed on her mobile phone, and asked the people in the dormitory if they wanted to bring food, sighing inwardly.
She knew that the atmosphere was not good, but she couldn't bring herself to resolve it.
The car was parked at the back gate of the school, where they met today. Lin You cheered up and bid farewell to Xiao Xiao, but she stopped her.
"Grapefruit."
"Um?"
Lin You turned her head, Xiao Xiao's white fingers rested on the steering wheel, she clenched and then released her, her black and white eyes looked at her, and said again: "I'm sorry about today's matter."
This is the third time she has apologized.
Lin You curled her hair and smiled at her: "You don't need to apologize, I'm really not angry, so I feel sorry for it."
Xiao Xiao said: "But you are not happy."
"..."
Lin You paused slightly, and said, "No. I'm just a little pity, and it will be fine after I go back to sleep."
Xiao Xiao didn't speak, just looked at her silently, as if judging the truth of her words.
After a while, her cell phone rang again. Xiao Xiao glanced at it, and didn't pick it up immediately, but said to Lin You: "... I see."
... What do you know
Xiao Xiao drove away.
The highly anticipated date ended in a not-so-good atmosphere, Lin You covered her face and sighed softly.
Lin You didn't lie, she didn't feel angry, and she wasn't unhappy because Xiao Xiao ended her trip early because of something urgent... just a little bit unwilling.
Even she was surprised. After Xiao Xiao said that, Lin You's first reaction was "she actually has other friends". Then, compared with the disappointment of the interruption of the date, the needle-like sourness stirred up in my heart one step earlier.
Lin You understood that this was jealousy.
Jealous of the person who knew Xiao Xiao earlier and walked into her life earlier, and felt a little bit wronged by being left behind.
Really bad.
Lin You stood there for a while, then walked towards the cafeteria.
She comforted herself: it is normal for friends to be jealous if they have someone who values them more. When she was a child, her best friend Song Yuan went to play with other children, and she was also very upset... So, it doesn't mean anything.
... But what's the urgent matter, Xiao Xiao, who is far away in the suburbs, must come back to solve it
No matter how I think about it, the unhappiness of trying to monopolize the treasure being excavated by others is still lingering. There is also a slight anxiety, reminding that things seem to be going differently than she thought.
Lin You returned to the dormitory with dinner.
The other two roommates went out, Luo Chuchu was waiting for her meal, saw her expression froze for a moment, and asked cautiously: "You got dumped? So soon?"
Thinking about something on her mind, Lin You poured herself a glass of water. She drank half of it before she came back. She choked and replied speechlessly, "...that's nothing, and what does 'so fast' mean?"
Luo Chuchu: "It means that the man who condemned you for dumping you has no eyes."
Lin You: "They say they're not in a relationship!"
She sat on the chair and lay down on the table, then raised her head after a while, and asked Luo Chuchu: "...is it so obvious?"
Luo Chuchu nodded: "It's rare to see you so low."
Lin You: "I mean... did I look that much like I was in a relationship before?"
"Of course there is!"
Speaking of this, Luo Chuchu has a lot of things to say: "It's not just me, the other two people think so too. First of all, you have been going out early and coming back late recently. You wake up at six o'clock in the morning and smile all day long. You said you were studying in high school If you are so diligent, can’t you try to get into the next door? You keep looking at your phone, smiling silly at the screen, and sometimes laugh inexplicably when you see plants, and go out with people all day long without saying who they are. Prepare at least two hours before going out for the first time... ”
Lin You wailed: "Ah——Okay, okay, don't talk about it, I understand."
With a heavy heart, she changed her clothes and went to wash the skirt, reviewing her recent behavior while washing.
Before the lights were turned off at night, Lin You was still thinking about Luo Chuchu's words, so she took out her phone and posted a post on the forum: How can I be sure whether I like someone of the same sex who has a good relationship, or just relying on friends
There were very few people who replied, Lin You refreshed for a long time, and finally saw a point of view that should be useful.
Nameless A: It depends on whether you want to have sex with her, if you think about it, you like it, if you don't, it means friendship.
Do you want to do it? Lin You thought for a moment, what should the two girls do? Do you use your hands
Xiao Xiao's hand...
After taking a shower, Luo Chuchu came out to look for a hair dryer, and suddenly heard Lin You's low-pitched scream. She was taken aback, and asked blankly, "Why? Your favorite character died again?"
"No!" Lin You poked out her red face and retorted softly, "They will live a long and happy life."
Luo Chuchu: "...OK."
Lin You, who retreated into the bed, was holding the phone, and she couldn't calm down no matter what. She felt that she couldn't meet Xiao Xiao for two days before she forgot about it, otherwise she would never be able to look directly at Xiao Xiao's hand again.
After thinking about it, she contacted her best friend.
Yuzu: Yuanyuan, what would you think if I fell in love with a girl
Is it a real dog:
Is it true dog: you have a crush on me
Grapefruit:…
I really can't talk today.
Lin You and her talked for a while before talking seriously. After talking about the matter with Xiao Xiao during this period, as well as his own mental journey, there was silence for about ten minutes.
It's a real dog: Actually, I want to persuade you to give up as soon as possible
real dog: but ok
It's a real dog: I'll always be by your side
It's a real dog: But I think you have to think clearly, let's not talk about the difficulties after being together, people are probably just friends with you, don't hold too much hope
Lin You was silent.
She had also thought about this question, if Xiao Xiao couldn't accept it, then her intentions would only embarrass the relationship between the two of them.
But Lin You couldn't give up without trying. If she gave up so early, she would not be able to accept the thought that Xiao Xiao would love, marry, or have children without her.
Lin You returned to the WeChat interface, and the chat box was still the voice recording of her and Xiao Xiao's meeting in the morning.
After she came back, she had been struggling with this matter, and she didn't take the initiative to contact, so it was quiet over there.
It was my sister who sent me a message to thank me for the tickets to the last concert. Lin You saw a photo of the concert scene posted in her circle of friends, with the caption: Accidental and a beautiful day.
It seems that the state is much better than when he just returned from resignation. Lin You has one less thing to worry about in his heart, and he is relieved.
Feeling sleepy after feeling relieved, Lin You closed her eyes thinking about Xiao Xiao.
Just give it a try. Before falling into a deep sleep, she thought this way, try it out, let Xiao Xiao realize that she is not just someone who can be friends...
—Although he thought so, Lin You couldn't think of any good solution.
With more things to care about, the problem of the amusement park was left behind by Lin You the next day, and she returned to the usual way of getting along. However, she found a few opportunities to insinuate Xiao Xiao and ask her about homosexuality, and the results she got were pretty good.
Next, how to go further...
"Grapefruit?" Xiao Xiao called her.
Lin You regained consciousness: "Ah, here we come."
She is shopping with Xiao Xiao.
Today is Lin You's birthday, and it is also Christmas. The shops along the street are covered with Christmas decorations, and there is a tall Christmas tree in a small flower bed on the street, decorated with colorful lights. It should be very beautiful when it is lit up at night.
Xiao Xiao's gift has been prepared long ago, it is a Christmas gift box of brand-name cosmetics, simple and crude. But Lin You is an ordinary person, and she still likes this gift better than the reference book Xiao Xiao gave her as a return gift like the Botanical Encyclopedia.
It just so happened that Xiao Xiao was also free today. After having dinner with friends at noon, Lin You asked her out to play with her, and by the way enrich Xiao Xiao's wardrobe full of various styles.
Halfway through shopping for clothes, Lin You saw a dessert shop by the roadside.
"These two Christmas limited editions are so cute—"
She hesitated before the display window outside the shop.
The chiffon cake roll wrapped in chocolate is made into the shape of a tree stump, and the bright red strawberry is dotted with cream to make a simple villain, next to it is a white chocolate elk standing sign; on the other side, there are soft little houses and Christmas tree, gift box ribbons under the tree come to life.
They are all so beautiful...
Xiao Xiao decided for her: "Buy them all."
"I can't finish eating." Lin You said, "I'm just a little tired, let's rest here. You can change the cakes one by one, anyway, they are not big."
Xiao Xiao completely depends on her decision.
When they walked into the shop, Xiao Xiao asked her which one she liked better.
"Well, then I choose..."
Lin You swayed from side to side, glanced over the window, and saw a pair of durian layers. The fresh yellow color is particularly conspicuous in the colorful shape, with mango sandwiched in the middle, and the most important thing is the cream decoration with chopped nuts sprinkled on it, the two pieces together seem to be a love heart.
"..."
It's for couples. She changed her tone: "Xiao Xiao, do you like durian?"
Xiao Xiao: "I don't hate it."
"Then this is it."
Under Xiao Xiao's suspicious eyes, Lin You chose the same pair of durian mille-feuilles, ordered two cups of coffee, and sat in a quiet corner of the shop.
They put their things down, and Lin You took a bite of the cake with a small spoon, and pursed her lips slightly - she really didn't get used to the taste of durian, let alone the mango sandwich.
Xiao Xiao, who was paying attention to her, was slightly silent: "...youzi."
"Um?"
Xiao Xiao said, "Why did you choose this? Yuzu doesn't like the taste of durian and mango."
"Eh? This..." Of course, Lin You couldn't say that it was because of her petty thoughts about mounting flowers, so she denied her words, "It's okay, I don't particularly hate it, I just want to eat today."
"You don't like it."
Xiao Xiao ruthlessly exposed her: "The last time you bought fruit, the boss recommended durian to you, and you frowned; last month, when I bought Xue Mei Niang, I specifically said that I don't want mango stuffing."
Lin You: "..."
She didn't know whether she should be happy that Xiao Xiao would write down her preferences, and insisted, "Occasionally, there will be times when I want to eat."
"..."
Xiao Xiao looked down at the exquisite cream decoration on the cake, and what she thought about was Lin You's recent abnormality, and what she said when she mentioned Lin You to Bai Hong when she saw Bai Hong last time.
"It's not like a friend, does the little girl like you?" Bai Hong seemed to be joking, but her tone was somewhat serious, "Xiao Xiao, children are ignorant, you can't mess around, it's better to ask clearly."
Yeah
Xiao Xiao didn't know how to describe his current mood.
She didn't intend to follow Bai Hong's suggestion, but she did want to understand Lin You's thoughts. So she directly asked: "Is it because you are with me? Yuzu likes me?"