[46]
Chi Qiu looked at the rose beside him, his eyes were astringent. He rubbed his eyes, went to the living room and called Xiao Yan, then he brought a cup of hot tea into the bedroom, sat quietly by the bed and waited.
There was a sound of water coming from the bathroom, but this time, Lu Ming came out soon after.
When Chi Qiu heard the sound, he stood up embarrassingly.
He opened his mouth to Lu Ming, hesitated for a moment, then closed his mouth silently, hesitated to speak, and never let go of the hands he held together. Chi Qiu was very nervous, and his whole body became stiff, and he didn't know how to speak the first sentence to Lu Ming.
Lu Ming looked away and saw the cup of hot tea on the table.
Seeing that he was in a stable mood, Chi Qiu said, "Last time, you told me that when you are in a bad mood, it will be more comfortable to drink something hot. I also asked Xiao Yan to buy milk tea. Drinking something sweet should make you feel better." It will get better too." He simply finished speaking in one breath, "The milk tea will arrive in a while, and I will bring it to you. You have a good rest, I, I will go to the living room."
"You can call me if you need it." Chi Qiu decided to leave, so he found a suitable way of saying, "I have nothing else to do. If I'm idle, I'll be here whenever I'm called."
Chi Qiu comforted him with kind words, but did not get a single word from Lu Ming in response. He had no choice but to bite his lower lip, put away his smile wisely, and walked out by touching the wall.
Lu Ming called him suddenly: "Chi Qiu."
Chi Qiu's heart twitched, as if it had been reshaped by powder meeting water, he immediately stopped to respond, and asked with concern, "What's wrong?"
Seeing that Lu Ming stopped talking again, Chi Qiu reminded him in due course: "I'm here."
Lu Ming looked at the good-tempered Chi Qiu, the ice layer on his face seemed to have been melted by the sun, and it actually loosened a little bit. Guilt suddenly arose in his heart.
He shouldn't have yelled at Chi Qiu.
But why he yelled at Chi Qiu and lost his temper with Chi Qiu, yet Chi Qiu could still be so gentle to him
He remembered that when he was a child, he lost his temper with Lu You, and Lu You cried until he hit his head against the wall, accusing him of not wanting him anymore; he also remembered that when he was a child, he lost his temper with Lu Rongtian and asked why the other party ignored Lu You. His father slapped him hard.
The scars given by the original family continued to bleed and fester, and never healed for a moment.
At the age of 17, he was abroad, and because of the death of his mother, he became moody at that time. Grandfather and grandmother cried all day long, holding Lu You's photo and sighing with regret.
Lu Fengshen handed Lu You's belongings to him, and said with a tired face, "Lu Ming, your grandparents are getting old, don't make them sad anymore, okay?"
The silent pressure made Lu Ming collapse. No one would tolerate his emotions that he didn't know how to put down, including his relatives.
Silence and patience seem to be things that Lu Ming should have learned from birth.
But Chi Qiu was different, he was different from anyone Lu Ming knew.
Lu Ming couldn't understand love, and he didn't understand what it was like to fall in love with someone. He knows that Chi Qiu loves him and loves him alone, so can he tolerate everything about him unconditionally
He tolerated Chi Qiu because they had a relationship of interest. He positioned each other as roles of "exchanging needs" from the beginning.
In this marriage, Lu Ming was actually the most relaxed person.
But is Chi Qiu's "tolerance" just because of love
Lu Ming looked at Chi Qiu blankly, and unconsciously clenched his hand. In front of the gentle Chi Qiu, Lu Ming couldn't say what he should say for the first time, he was at a loss like a child.
But Chi Qiu's heart was soft, and after feeling Lu Ming's slight loss, he immediately made a decision. Chi Qiu didn't want to leave the bedroom anymore, even if Lu Ming didn't like it, he would stay by Lu Ming's side to accompany him.
Chi Qiu generously admitted that he was being shameless. Only in this way could he approach Lu Ming step by step.
He pretended to hit the wall, and purposely squatted down in a muffled voice: "Ah—"
Lu Ming really thought he had bumped into it, so he stepped forward a few steps and knelt down to check.
Chi Qiu frowned and cried out for pain, and naturally grabbed Lu Ming's arm with both hands. After a whirlwind, he was picked up by Lu Ming and sat on the bed.
Lu Ming couldn't find the bruise on his feet, so he asked him, "Where does it hurt?"
Chi Qiu became addicted to drama in an instant, sniffed, and his eyes were red with grievance: "My heart hurts."
Lu Ming didn't understand what he meant for a while.
So, Chi Qiu leaned over and hugged Lu Ming, and touched the back of Lu Ming's head with his hand: "So I want to hug you."
Just hug it.
It was the same last time, as long as he hugged Lu Ming, Lu Ming would calm down. Indeed, "hug" seems to be a secret in Lu Ming's heart, which directly hit Lu Ming's lonely heart. He was lonely, longing for someone to hug him.
Could that person be Chi Qiu
Lu Ming wasn't sure.
Within a minute of Lu Ming's silence, Chi Qiu lowered his head and kissed Lu Ming's forehead: "Don't be angry, okay? I will worry about you."
Faced with Chi Qiu's weakness, Lu Ming had no reason to continue to be anxious. Chi Qiu was like someone who could soothe the spikes all over Lu Ming's body, smoothing Lu Ming's emotions one by one.
Lu Ming smelled the aroma of lemon shower gel on the opponent's body, and there was a crack in the solid city wall.
For some reason, he wanted to confide in Chi Qiu, wanted to talk a lot with Chi Qiu.
But sometimes he is so stubborn that he can't say a word. Lu Ming raised his head and looked at Chi Qiu who was very sincere to him, he couldn't help reaching out and hugging Chi Qiu back.
After a long time, he whispered, "Sorry."
Lu Ming thought that the apology was not enough, he said in a muffled voice, "You can scold me, beat me, whatever you want."
Chi Qiu blinked, he didn't expect Lu Ming to say such a thing.
"Can I still hit you?" Chi Qiu asked curiously, "Then if I hit you, won't it hurt you?"
"I'm not afraid of pain." Lu Ming was used to pain since childhood.
But what Lu Ming didn't know was that in Chi Qiu's eyes, the current self really looked like a child who needed comfort and care. Chi Qiu couldn't help pursing his lips. He didn't mind Lu Ming's abnormality. He stroked Lu Ming's hair meticulously, and said in an extremely gentle voice, "No, I can't bear to scold you, let alone beat you. Besides, people are prone to lose their temper. It's all good once you send it out, and you haven't done anything bad."
"Lu Ming, it's okay." Chi Qiu said, "Have you forgotten? We are partners."
They are companions with a constant bond. He will accept all the side of Lu Ming that cannot be shown to the outside world, and will lick the wound for Lu Ming until it heals.
Chi Qiu kissed him again.
There is an ambiguous tenderness in the air.
After Chi Qiu kissed him, Lu Ming kissed Chi Qiu eagerly, again and again, rubbing his ears together in the daylight.
Unlike the previous indifference, this time Lu Ming called Chi Qiu's name. His voice fell beside Chi Qiu's ears, it was a beautiful note, it was a rush of raindrops, and it was deeply lingering.
Chi Qiu became a spring of water in his heart. While quenching his thirst, he tasted sweetness.
This afternoon, Chi Qiu failed to make a dried flower.
After the intimacy, Yu Wen was burning hot. He and Lu Ming hugged each other on the soft bed. Lu Ming's voice was hoarse, and he told him something about his childhood.
When the incomplete memories are pieced together, it is inevitable that there will be inexplicable loopholes and violations. Lu Ming himself thought it was funny, so he only said a trivial part.
For example, Lu Rongtian lost love to Lu You from a very early age; for example, how unstable Lu You's mental state is;
He avoided the important ones and didn't mention anything about being abused by Lu You.
"My childhood seems to be very boring, there is nothing to say." Lu Ming said a few words, but he was unwilling to continue. There seemed to be a sinking weight in his throat, "There are many things, I don't remember much. gone."
Chi Qiu didn't mind, just a few words, he listened more seriously than anyone else. He didn't comfort or interrupt. As a listener, Chi Qiu was dedicated and focused.
They spent a relatively peaceful lunch break.
The only difference is that Chi Qiu didn't fall asleep. He looked at Lu Ming's handsome face in his sleep, and raised his hand to gently stroke the outline of Lu Ming. He moved closer and kissed Lu Ming.
Even if Lu Ming didn't say anything, Chi Qiu knew that Lu Ming's childhood was not a happy one.
Chi Qiu knew about this when they first met.