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The patter of rain outside was getting bigger and bigger. With the rumbling thunder, half of the sky was illuminated, like daytime. The curtains were not closed in the bedroom, Chi Qiu looked through the window and saw dark clouds covering the sky, shaped like a rolling vortex, entangled in Chi Qiu's eyes.
"Boom—"
A bolt of thunder flashed past the window, approaching Chi Qiu, as if it was directly in front of him.
He had never been so afraid of thunder, and his heartbeat rose rapidly, as if the heart was hanging in his throat. Panting, he clutched the ring box in his hand, and fell to the ground.
Lu Ming desperately wanted to help him, but he swung him away desperately.
Chi Qiu resisted Lu Ming's approach. He hugged his knees and curled himself up into a ball, buried his head on his knees, his forehead was covered with fine sweat.
"Chi Qiu."
"Chi Qiu!"
"Chi Qiu—"
Regardless of Chi Qiu's refusal, Lu Ming insisted on picking him up and putting him on the bed. Lu Ming kept calling him, wiped off the cold sweat from his forehead, and held Chi Qiu's hand tightly.
Chi Qiu whimpered, his head spinning with nausea. He begged Lu Ming not to care about him anymore, and not to approach him hypocritically.
Deceit is a sharp knife, and it has already cut him. Chi Qiu was afraid of the pain again, so he tried his best to resist, even under the fright of the thunder, he had the illusion of unconsciousness.
Suddenly, he heard a young man's shout coming from his ear, his voice was crisp and clear.
"Chi Qiu—"
Chi Qiu raised his head, and he remembered the scene ten years ago.
It was also such a thunderstorm day. In the clinic, 17-year-old Lu Ming ran forward with his back on his back, shouting as he ran, "Chi Qiu, hold me tight, don't fall!"
15-year-old Chi Qiu gripped her folding guide stick tightly, and obediently lay on Lu Ming's back. The heavy rain poured down, and the ferocious raindrops were like stones, which hurt his fair skin. But he wasn't afraid at all, and the corners of his mouth curled into a nice curve.
The sudden rainstorm caught them off guard.
Lu Mingren was tall and had long legs, so he carried Chi Qiu to the clinic in a short while. Seeing that the two children were drenched in water, Luo Yun hurriedly asked them to change clothes in Chi Qiu's room, and asked his assistant to prepare ginger soup for delivery.
It was the first time Lu Ming entered Chi Qiu's room, so he was a little shy. He took the underwear that Luo Yun handed him, took off his sneakers, and stood at the door of the room foolishly: "I..."
Luo Yun was helping Chi Qiu to dry her hair. She thought Lu Ming was embarrassed and didn't want to change clothes in front of them, so she pointed to the bathroom in the room and said, "The bathroom is over there. You should go take a shower first."
Lu Ming thanked him politely, and as soon as he took a step, he walked back honestly: "Chi Qiu, wash it first."
Luo Yun smiled and said: "My room is next door, Chi Qiu can go to my place to wash. You go in quickly, or you will catch a cold."
Lu Ming nodded and hurried into the bathroom.
After about ten minutes, Lu Ming changed into clean clothes. These clothes and pants seemed to belong to Luo Yun's nephew, and he was wearing them just right. He had his hand on the doorknob and was about to get out, but was stopped by a bruise on his own arm.
Lu Ming didn't want to be seen by Luo Yun, so he dawdled in the bathroom for a long time until Chi Qiu came back from the shower next door and called him outside: "Lu Ming, Aunt Luo went to work, you haven't finished washing yet. ?"
He stepped out of the bathroom in a hurry and stared at Chi Qiu carefully.
Chi Qiu in front of him was wearing pajamas, his freshly blow-dried hair was soft and limp, lying on his forehead. 15-year-old Chi Qiu is so young, he is cuter than an immature fruit hanging on a branch.
Lu Ming looked at him, blushing shyly.
Chi Qiu sat on the carpet and blinked ignorantly. Lu Ming saw it, and immediately sat down next to Chi Qiu generously, next to Chi Qiu.
Chi Qiu pushed him: "You squeezed me."
Lu Ming scratched his head, his ears were red, and said playfully, "Is it crowded? I don't think so." After finishing speaking, he changed the subject embarrassingly, "You, your room is quite clean."
"This is not my own room."
"Oh..." Lu Ming felt lost.
Chi Qiu heard his displeasure, and touched his arm affectionately with his elbow, avoiding Lu Ming's bruises: "Next time you come to my house to play, I have a lot of books in my room. Can...can teach you Braille."
"Okay!" Lu Ming's enthusiasm was easily ignited. After he was invited by Chi Qiu, his whole body was like a star rising in the night sky, even the light in his eyes was shining.
Seeing him happy, Chi Qiu laughed too. As a result, there was a thunder outside the window, and the light of the lightning made Chi Qiu's eyes very uncomfortable. He quickly shrank his shoulders and hid behind Lu Ming.
Only this action, Lu Ming misunderstood.
When the next thunder sounded, before Chi Qiu raised his head, Lu Ming hugged him and stuffed him into his arms with unfamiliar movements.
Chi Qiu gasped, and was so shocked by Lu Ming's boldness that he remained motionless. He poked Lu Ming's back carefully with his fingers and called him, "Lu Ming?"
Lu Ming hugged him tightly and turned Chi Qiu's back to the window. At the same time, Lu Ming patted him on the back lightly, with a very gentle tone, with the feeling of a child pretending to be an adult: "It's okay, don't be afraid."
The next thunderclap sounded again.
Lu Ming let go of Chi Qiu's hand, covered Chi Qiu's ears, and faced Chi Qiu face to face. The close distance made Lu Ming's cheeks warm up, and he lowered his eyes, not daring to look directly at Chi Qiu. So Chi Qiu looked at him boldly until Lu Ming's face became redder and redder, as red as a tomato.
Chi Qiu thought to himself: It's so interesting.
Lu Ming still pretended to be calm, lowered his head and said, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."
"I, I was also afraid of thunder when I was a child. My mother would hug me like this and cover my ears."
Chi Qiu wanted to say, I'm not afraid. But after a while, he was infected by the gentle Lu Ming, pursed his lips, put his hands on the back of Lu Ming's hand slowly, and said softly, "Well, I really don't have to be afraid now."
Lu Ming breathed a sigh of relief, showing a smile like the sun.
Chi Qiu didn't want to take another look, for fear of deceiving himself. So, he put his head on Lu Ming's shoulder, and the two lonely children hugged each other, cuddling each other in this thunderstorm day.
Chi Qiu couldn't help rubbing Lu Ming's clothes, and asked him curiously and naively: "If there is a thunderstorm in the future, will you stay with me like this?"
Lu Ming vowed, "Yes."
Chi Qiu said dejectedly: "Liar, you are going abroad soon, and it will take you a long time to come back."
Hearing the loneliness in Chi Qiu's words, Lu Ming unconsciously twitched the corners of his mouth, and hugged him tightly: "Didn't I say that when I return to China, we will move out together, and I will definitely accompany you."
"Are we really going to live together?"
"Are you going to go back on your word?"
"No! It's just... I, I can't cook, I can't clean, and I can't make money. If I want to move out, my mother won't give me pocket money when she gets angry, so what should I do?"
How are they going to live? The little boy has never seen anything in the world since he lost his eyesight. He is afraid of everything and dare not take a step forward. In his head, there is still the childish idea of "pocket money".
And the outside world seems to be full of difficulties.
Lu Ming saw his worry and made a plan a long time ago: "I have money, and I have saved all the money given by my grandfather and grandpa. In the future, I will make more money. I will take you Get your eyes treated first, and when your eyes are healed, we will travel around the world and play wherever we want."
Chi Qiu's heart was beating, and he was a little worried: "Then... will you lie to me?"
"I won't lie to you if I lie to anyone." Lu Ming saw that the lightning outside the window had disappeared. In order to let Chi Qiu hear more clearly, he let go of his hand, hooked Chi Qiu's little finger with his little finger, and spoke seriously. Say, "I swear, I will never lie to you."
The innocent Chi Qiu secretly bloomed in his heart, engraved a spring day, and treasured it up.
He hooked Lu Ming's little finger, pursed his lips, and nodded vigorously: "Yeah!"
Now, ten years have passed.
Chi Qiu was covered in cold sweat. He was wearing a thin coat, his fingers were cold, and every breath he took was as numb as if he had stepped into the cold winter.
He missed Lu Ming ten years ago so much.
He once relied on these thoughts to spend his most difficult time.
Since he lost his sight, he has been completely trapped in a small space, unable to get out, and not many people are willing to come in and make friends with him. His life is so monotonous and empty, even the fairy tales he writes have the shadow of his longing for freedom and light.
It was such a boring and lonely life that made him never forget the only first love that illuminated and encouraged him like the sun, and made him miss this short spring day for a full ten years.
Therefore, even though Chi Qiu's heart was ashamed, he still had a little fantasy.
Under Lu Ming's care, Chi Qiu gradually calmed down his breathing. He clenched the wedding ring box tightly, and his tone was no longer strong, but more pleading: "Lu Ming, did you really love me?"
Different from Chi Xia's question just now, Chi Qiu has wanted to ask this question for a long time.
Lu Ming hesitated for a moment, and it was this moment of hesitation that completely killed Chi Qiu's expectations. The eyes of the two are facing each other, they are different, one is the ashes of the burned wood, and the other is the dead silence of thousands of miles of glacier.
did you love me
Such a simple question opened a crack in Lu Ming's heart. Lu Ming's fingertips were numb, but he couldn't feel the pain, so he didn't know that his wound had already bled and scabbed, and healed itself 10,000 times. Just like when he was abroad, he silently missed Chi Qiu ten thousand times.
When you think about it once, it hurts once.
Lu Ming clenched his palms and pinched himself. He looked at Chi Qiu, who was hopeless, and knew that he shouldn't lie to him anymore. After a while, he opened his mouth, only to answer truthfully: "I don't know what it's like to love someone."
Chi Qiu shivered. In fact, he wished Lu Ming could say, "Although I lied to you, I love you."
Even if he won't believe it, then lie to him. I have been lied to so many times, is this time worse
It's a pity that Lu Ming was so mean to him.
At a loss, Chi Qiu finally understood. In the final analysis, whether it is Chi Xia or herself, they are all pawns in Lu Ming's hands to fight for the family property. Chi Xia's chess piece is already a discarded piece. This piece of chess is an important "blind chess" that Lu Ming holds in his palm.
Without the Lu family's property as a guide, he and Lu Ming would never meet again anyway. The first love that has been separated for ten years is a rotten fruit that falls on the ground. Only a hungry person will pick it up and eat it, chewing out its sweetness.
What's even more tragic is that at the moment he knew the truth, his "chess" had already become a potential risk and lost most of its value. Businessmen know the gains and losses best, and so does Lu Ming.
Chi Qiu suddenly realized that Lu Ming might not love him long ago.
Lu Ming, who promised not to lie to himself ten years ago, no longer exists. The true feelings of the year have been obliterated by a long time. Lu Ming left the garden in his memory a long time ago, and "grew up" through and through. Just leave yourself stagnant, and draw the ground as a prison.