Speaking of this, Qi Ziheng's voice suddenly softened, and there was pleading in his weakness, "I'm not him, you can't... you can't blame me... no, you can blame me, but you can't treat me as him, I Not him! No!"
Seeing that he was so eager to explain, to get rid of it.
Yun Hua couldn't tell how she felt, should she be happy? Glad that he himself denied the former himself
As for the rest, she no longer believed it.
For her good? Want to protect her but use the wrong way
She never knew that to protect a person, she needs to protect someone by hurting and ignoring her... Hehe, it's so ridiculous!
Probably because the disdainful expression on Yun Hua's face was too glaring, Qi Ziheng became emotional again.
"Huahua, I'm not him, I'm really not him."
Qi Ziheng said eagerly, "During the time I was in a coma, I kept having that dream, a dream I was in, which made me even think that I was that idiot. But I'm really not him. I won't be like He will never do that! I will not protect the person I like in such a stupid way."
"He is paranoid, and he is also cowardly. He doesn't have enough self-confidence to protect his lover, but he refuses to let go, and stubbornly locks her by his side. He obviously likes her, but he never says he loves her." her; he thought he had done too much for her, but in fact he didn't know what she wanted at all; What… "
"He is so stupid, so stupid. Everything that happened to her was caused by him! He is not qualified to say that he likes her, and he is not qualified to love her."
Qi Ziheng's eyes were earnest, and he even looked at Yun Hua pleadingly, "But I'm not him, and I'll never be like him. He's blind, but I'm not, I'm neither blind nor blind, I'm not him!"
"Huahua, I'm not him, I'm really not him..."
Qi Ziheng's voice was very low, pleading with pain, "That was just a dream of mine, or maybe it was a dream of yours. He was the person who looked exactly like me in the dream, but he wasn't me. Hua, he is not me, and I am not him... You can blame me, but you can't really treat me as him, it's not fair... "
Yun Hua fell silent.
Qi Ziheng's eyes were deep, and the pain spread in his eyes, "You can't treat me like this. Huahua, from the first time we met until now, you have always treated me like him. Knowing the situation, I bear your hatred for him... It has been so many years, do you know how confused and painful I am every time I face your disgusting eyes?"
"Huahua, you will never know how uncomfortable your disgusting eyes will make me." Qi Ziheng's throat choked up, and his voice became deeper and hoarse, "The person I like so much, use that looking at him with eyes of disgust... this is probably the harshest punishment."
"I always thought it was something I did wrong, or that I was too annoying, otherwise why would you look at me like that. Even if I would give up my life to save you, I couldn't get you A look of concern…”
Qi Ziheng took a breath, looked at Yun Hua and smiled slowly, "Hua Hua, you don't know how many times I have disgusted myself. It must be my fault, otherwise why would you look at me like that? But I also I don’t even know what’s wrong with me, and you won’t even tell me where I’m wrong! I keep examining myself, but there’s no result, I’ll just fall into the lowest level of bigger and deeper disgust…”
Qi Ziheng suddenly reached out and hugged his head.
His voice was muffled, low, and hoarse, "I finally know now that I was right, not my fault. The person you hate, the person you detest, is him, not me..."
As he said that, Qi Ziheng suddenly looked up at Yun Hua, "Hua Hua is like twins. My brother did something wrong and made you hate him, but what does it have to do with my brother? My brother just looks exactly like him. Except for this face, I am completely different from him, completely different! Don't you feel it? I am not him!"
"I'm not him!"
Qi Ziheng yelled out the last four words almost with all his strength.
Yun Hua finally remained, a little moved.
Don't you feel it? I am not him.
Yun Hua pursed her lips and fell silent.
She replied from the bottom of her heart: Yes, I feel it, you are not him, but...but I can't help it...
When she was facing the same face, she really couldn't separate the current Qi Ziheng from the Qi Ziheng in her previous life. She also knew that maybe she shouldn't get angry with Qi Ziheng, after all, Qi Ziheng had never done her any wrong.
Qi Ziheng in this life is different from Xiao Ruyue in this life.
The former didn't hurt her at all, or in other words, he didn't have time to hurt her.
But the latter, Xiao Ruyue, actually attacked her again and again, so her revenge was logical.
What about Qi Ziheng
Whether he didn't have time, or he didn't know how to attack her at all, it doesn't matter. The important thing is that this Qi Ziheng has never done anything wrong to her. She has always been unilaterally hostile to him, ignored him, ignore him...
Isn't it fair
Maybe, but she really couldn't treat him as someone other than Qi Ziheng.
"It's because of this face, right?" Qi Ziheng looked at her and chuckled, "Just because this face is exactly the same, you can't separate me from him, right? Then I don't want this face, okay? "
"What are you going to do?" Yun Hua frowned suddenly.
"Don't worry, I won't do anything to embarrass you." Qi Ziheng smiled, "Since you can't tell me apart from him because of this face, then I'll change my face to help you tell the difference."
"Qi Ziheng!"
Yun Hua frowned fiercely, "Don't do this!"
"Oh, by the way, there is also a name." Qi Ziheng smiled. "Not only the face, but also the name. Qi's surname cannot be changed, but the name doesn't matter. What kind of name do you like? Or can you choose one for me?"
"Qi Ziheng!" Yun Hua pursed her lips, "Why are you doing this?"
"You don't understand!" Qi Ziheng looked at Yun Hua and shook his head slowly, "You don't understand, how much I want to be someone else in your heart, not the Qi Ziheng who hurt you the most. I'm not him at all, I wasn’t originally his, I was never his…”
Yun Hua closed his eyes.
She wavered.
Whether a person is true or false, now she can tell clearly.
She could see Qi Ziheng's struggle and pain.
She also fully understands.
Indeed, the Qi Ziheng in this life is not the Qi Ziheng in the previous life. He had never personally experienced those things. Even though he suddenly had memories of his previous life, to Qi Ziheng today, it was as if he suddenly had the memories of his twin brother. He watched his twin brother do it. He doesn't agree with so many things, he doesn't think it's him...
It's like a double personality.
But there is a difference.
Psychological dual personality, most of the two personalities do not know each other and do not remember what the other has done, and a small part is that the main personality does not know the existence of the sub-personality, but the sub-personality knows the existence of the main personality .
If counted according to the dual personality, Qi Ziheng who can control the body in this life is obviously the master personality, and the memory of that previous life is a sub-personality for him. The problem now is that the sub-personality is dead and no longer exists. , but the main personality has more memories of the sub-personality.
And Yun Hua, because of what that sub-personality did, angered him, the main personality...
For Qi Ziheng in this life, his personality was indeed wronged. He had never done anything, but he suffered Yun Hua's hatred...
"sorry."
Yun Hua looked at Qi Ziheng and said softly.
Qi Ziheng, who had a broken face and eyes full of pain, suddenly raised his head and looked at Yun Hua in disbelief, "You... What did you say?"
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't treat you the same way I treat him, and I'm sorry, I can't control myself. So... that's why I try to stay away from you and try not to have contact with you, otherwise, I'm afraid I can't help it ... hurt you, even kill you!"
Yun Hua's voice was very weak. She was saying sorry, but she didn't feel much guilt. She was just stating a fact.
However, for Qi Ziheng, this was enough.
He couldn't believe it, and then he was ecstatic, his hands trembled slightly, "Don't, don't say sorry to me, what he did ruined your life... No matter how angry you are, it's normal... It's normal for you to vent your anger Yes, after all, to you, I am him, him in another world... "
"Don't say I'm sorry." Qi Ziheng's expression couldn't hold back, he wanted to laugh but also wanted to cry, "Huahua, I... I'm sorry, I didn't know anything before, I shouldn't force you. No People know how miserable you are, with those crushing memories, you don't get darker, you get better and better... You really don't have to say sorry to anyone, especially me! I don't deserve it. I should say sorry to you…”
Qi Ziheng cried uncontrollably.
For a big man, crying like this really ruined his image, but Yun Hua could clearly feel how excited he was at the moment.
At this moment, Yun Hua was really relieved.
This world is different from that world after all, everything is different.
At this moment, Qi Ziheng sniffed, and looked at Yun Hua, "Do you know how I got this angina?"
Yun Hua blinked, "Did you get it in a dream?"
Qi Ziheng smiled wryly, "It's him."
"Um?"
Yun Hua was puzzled.
(end of this chapter)