Yuhua Temple is full of incense, and many carriages have been parked in front of the temple gate.
He Yan and Xiao Jue got off the carriage, and Fei Nu drove the carriage to the side to wait. Neither of them had any maids and servants with them, and they were both very eye-catching. People who came in and out to worship Buddha couldn't help but want more. Take a look. If you don't know people, you just look at them. If you know Xiao Jue's family members, they guess He Yan's identity after recognizing Xiao Jue, but they don't dare to talk about anything in front of you, so they avoid it from a distance. .
The rules of worshiping Buddha are simple. Ordinary people donate some sesame oil and rice grains, and those in richer families donate some silver taels. The silver money of the Xiao family is not bad, and Fei Nu has already prepared it. After receiving the incense from the monk, he would enter the temple and bow down.
Xiao Jue did not go in.
He Yan asked him why he didn't enter, and he just said, "I don't believe in Buddhism."
He Yan: "..."
I have walked to the front of the mountain gate, and said that I don't believe in Buddhism in other people's territory. This person is really arrogant and lawless. But this kind of thing, believe it or not, also can't force Xiao Jue to worship Buddha. She let Xiao Jue stay outside and entered the hall by herself.
He Yan knelt down on the futon. The golden Buddha statue, which was made up by her and built for a wealthy businessman, looked down at all beings mercifully. She bowed her head devoutly, and said in her heart, she didn't ask for anything else. I pray that those who have been harmed by He Rufei and have been burdened by themselves can be reincarnated earlier, and their next life will be safe and healthy, free from disasters and misfortunes.
After the incense was served and the lantern was lit, He Yan walked out of the palace gate. Xiao Jue waited for her in front of the palace gate. Seeing her coming out, he asked casually, "What wish did you make?"
"I hope there will be no more wars in the world," He Yan clasped his hands together, pretending to be serious: "I hope the prosperous world is peaceful, you and I can relax."
This is not false. The Uto people's affairs have not been fully resolved. I heard that the main battle and the main peace in the court are still arguing, and there is still no result.
Donated incense money, worshipped Buddha, and even had a fasting meal in the temple. Yuhua Temple's vegetarian meal is also a must, but He Yan was blind and bitter when he came here last time. Even if it was mountain delicacies, it was tasteless, and he had long forgotten what it was like.
The guest house with vegetarian meals has to pass the ancient trees behind the Yuhua Temple. When passing the ancient trees, you can see the huge ancient trees rooted beside the mountain temple. The branches are as vast as clouds and mist. When I got closer, I could see that the red on the top was all red silk, and there were handwriting on the red silk, which was probably the wish of the writer. It is said that if you hang your wish on an ancient tree, the ancient tree will appear.
He Yan thought that he had hung red silk here before, and couldn't help but stop.
"This ancient tree is very spiritual." She said to Xiao Jue.
Xiao Jue said leisurely, "Are you going to make up a story again?"
"No, it's really smart." He Yan smiled and thought to herself, she had hung a wish on a tree in her previous life, hoping to see the moon again. When she wrote this line on red silk, I feel like a fool's dream. Not to mention the moon, her eyes can see the light again, and that alone sounds incredible.
However, just at this impossible time, even after her death, she could be reborn again in a desperate place, and she saw the "moon" again.
"In the future, I will have more money," He Yan said, "I will buy a lot of fertilizer and water this ancient tree specifically to show my gratitude and sincerity."
Xiao Jue choked, "Your sincerity is really different."
The guest house of Yuhua Temple is a little in front of the courtyard where the monks live in the back. Those who donate less have many people eating in one place, and those who donate more have special courtyards, probably one house per household, with fewer people and a more elegant environment.
Although he was somewhat speechless about this kind of discriminatory treatment, it was a good thing that there were fewer people these days. He Yan didn't want to eat a fasting meal and be watched secretly by everyone. Now, because of Emperor Wenxuan's marriage, to appear in front of the world together with Xiao Jue, it also takes a lot of courage for her. Even though he was an influential figure in the past, at that time he had a mask to cover it up, but now there is no cover at all. In broad daylight, it looks like a white peacock brought by a sea merchant from a foreign country, and everyone should look at it and talk about it.
I sat down in the guest house. After a while, monks in Tsing Yi sent many plates of vegetarian dishes, which were really rich, such as steamed white jade bergamot, sweet and sour bitter gourd, steamed winter gourd with wild pepper, purple-clothed potato cakes, fairy tofu... The top of the mountain is much colder than the bottom of the mountain. After rushing the mountain road all morning, I was already hungry. Now the hot vegetarian food was in front of him, He Yan couldn't help but have a big appetite, and gave Xiao Jue a pair of chopsticks, saying: "The sesame oil money It's not for nothing... Governor, if you're not full, can you ask for another?"
Xiao Jue: "..."
He said, "At will."
He Yan became rude. She eats heroically. In contrast, Xiao Jue's eating is much more gentle and elegant. Not long after she started eating, there was a knock on the door of this guest house, and a monk led two more people. people come in.
For a wealthy family like them, the guest house for eating is small and exquisite. Generally, one family is enough. However, the weather is good today and it is Mid-Autumn Festival. There are many pilgrims who come to Yuhua Temple to offer incense. They could only squeeze with Xiao Jue and the others.
Xiao Jue frowned slightly, and was about to speak when He Yan said, "It's alright, let them in. I eat quickly, so it's fine."
It was easy to gain a little fame in Shuojing City, and she had never played against He Ru informally, so she didn't want to rush to send it to others with a domineering and arrogant pretense.
Xiao Jue thought for a while, but didn't say anything.
The two the monks brought in were two women. One was older and the other was younger. He Yan originally only glanced at it a little, but when he saw the older woman's face, his heart jumped, and he couldn't control it in an instant, and the chopsticks in his hand fell to the ground.
He Yan hurriedly leaned over to pick it up, hiding the shock on his face by the way.
The sound of movement also attracted the attention of the two people who came in. The two women stopped, and Qi Qi looked towards He Yan. He Yan just picked up the chopsticks, and the monk came over and said, "Donor please wait a moment, the little monk will go and get a clean pair for the donor."
Before He Yan said anything, the young woman had already seen Xiao Jue following He Yan's side, and blurted out, "General Feng Yun!"
He Yan looked at Xiao Jue subconsciously, Xiao Jue frowned slightly, seemingly displeased.
He Xinying was very surprised. He didn't expect to see Xiao Jue here after going up the mountain. Speaking of which, she has only seen Xiao Jue once. Once, she went to the street with a friend to buy things, and saw a group of people in the city riding horses through the street. Handsome and outstanding, a friend by her side told her at that time: That was General Feng Yun of the Great Wei.
It was probably because the man was really handsome and his impression was too clear, so when he saw Xiao Jue, it overlapped with the shadow in her memory.
It's just that everyone in the world knows that this Dudu Xiao has a bad temper. For a while, He Xinying supported Mrs. He, neither entering nor retreating. For fear of being careless, I will offend this ruthless jade face.
On the other hand, Mrs. He didn't care about this, she just dragged He Xinying in and sat down at the table next to He Yan and the others.
He Xinying looked at Xiao Jue curiously. There are a lot of rumors about this Governor Xiao, but there is one rumor that has never changed, that is, he is not close to women, but this rumor happened at the celebration party a few days ago. was broken. His Majesty personally gave him and a woman a marriage, and Xiao Jue was in the hall, facing the woman's protection and affection in the presence of civil and military officials. broken.
On the day Xu Zhiheng came back from the celebration banquet, he was in a bad mood and did not tell He Xinying about these things. Therefore, these things were heard on the street the next day by the maids who bought them in the house, and then they spread to the whole house. Speaking of which, Xiao Jue's fiancée was also a not-so-simple woman who dared to disguise herself as a man on the battlefield to kill Utuo people, and became the first female marquis of the Wei Dynasty, Marquis of Wu'an.
The most coincidental thing is that this Marquis of Wu'an has the same name and surname as her deceased sister, Grandma Xu, who died earlier, also called He Yan.
It's just that her sister, He Yan, is weak and weak. She has to grow up in Zhuangzi for many years and take medicine every day. Not to mention killing Utuo people on the battlefield, she even takes a few steps to catch her breath. The name is the same, but the temperament is completely different.
He Xinying looked at the woman beside Xiao Jue. The woman was also young and beautiful, and her brows were full of heroic spirit. He Xinying guessed in her heart that it was neither The eldest grandmother of the Xiao family should be his "favourite" fiancee, Hou Heyan of Wu'an.
When He Xinying looked at herself, He Yan just lowered her head and pretended to eat seriously, but her heart was full of thoughts, and several times she couldn't help looking at the person who was facing her - Mrs. He Er .
That was her biological mother.
Regarding Mrs. He Er, He Yan was not very impressed. Compared with He Yuanliang, Mrs. He doesn't like to go out much. On weekdays, unless it's a festival, she only stays in her own yard. Or maybe it's a woman who is soft-hearted. Mrs. He is afraid that something will go wrong. He Yan can often see her. He Yuanliang had very few chances to see Mrs. He Er. But since He Yan knew his true identity, he often wanted to see what kind of person his biological mother was. Vaguely feel that she is a very quiet and gentle woman, sometimes she seems a little dull.
He Yuanliang was always smiling and liked very much by women. There were also several concubines living in the second room, and some concubines and concubines were born. If it is said that he is favored, Mrs. He is by no means the person who is most favored by He Yuanliang, but He Yuanliang did not neglect Mrs. He, nor did she do anything to spoil his wife, at least before He Yan joined the army in his previous life, Mrs. He Had a good time at home.
One year at a family banquet, when He Yan was eating at home, he sat at the same table with Mrs. He. She was not very old at that time, she was only ten years old, and she was sitting opposite Mrs. He. She was probably too curious. She raised her eyes to see Mrs. He more often. At the later family banquet, He Yan and He The second lady no longer sits at a table.
She did not expect to meet her biological mother here without warning. Rao hates the He family no matter how much he has no emotion. When facing Mrs. He Er, He Yan's mood is not as indifferent as it seems on the surface.
He Xinying carefully tugged at Mrs. He, and whispered, "The one across from him is General Feng Yun, Governor Xiao, and the person beside him is most likely the Marquis of Wu'an, Heyan, whom His Majesty gave marriage a few days ago."
As soon as these words came out, Mrs. He Er took the chopsticks and looked up at the opposite table.
Now the news of Xiao Huaijin's marriage is known to the entire Shuojing, from the dignitaries to the ordinary people, even the street beggars know that his fiancee is called He Yan, and it is impossible for Mrs. He not to hear it. Suddenly hearing about the person with the same name as his dead daughter, he couldn't help being stunned.
On the other end, Xiao Jue noticed He Yan's sudden silence and asked her, "Why don't you speak?"
Before the mother and daughter came, she kept chatting, but after she came, she stopped talking. So what if he was recognized, He Yan was never a person who looked at people's faces and acted in the past.
Afraid that Xiao Jue could see the clue, He Yan smiled and searched for a random topic, and said, "Commander, the black jade you gave me before is always with me, is it really okay?"
"What's wrong."
"I just think it's too expensive." He Yan stuffed a potato cake into his mouth, staring at the table, not looking at the other two people in the room, "But your parents will really name you , Jue, means double jade. The empress dowager gave you two-color jade, which is really suitable."
Xiao Jue smiled, "Your name is not bad."
He Yan thought for a while, his lips moved, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything and bowed his head to eat.
Mrs. He Er stared straight at He Yan's movements. He Yan is fond of sweets, so when he eats, he always puts beets first. Although he is not polite and reserved, he is very frugal, and not a grain of rice will fall. If she encounters a dish she doesn't like, she won't throw it away, she just pauses for a while, as if giving herself some courage, then eats it all in one go, and never touches the plate again.
Mrs. He's expression gradually changed as she watched, her eyes that were empty and numb now became more and more excited, as if she could not help crying.
Xiao Jue turned her back to Mrs. He and the others, so she did not see Mrs. He's strange behavior. He Yan saw it, pretended not to know, and changed the words to talk to Xiao Jue.
He Xinying asked in a low voice, "Mother, why don't you eat?"
The girl seemed to be aware of it, and looking this way, Mrs. He hurriedly lowered her head, picked up chopsticks, and took a bite of rice, no one saw a drop of her tears fall into the bowl.
In this meal, apart from Xiao Jue and He Xinying, Mrs. He and He Yan all ate with their own thoughts. He Yan and the others came earlier and ate quickly. After the meal, He Yan put down his chopsticks. , Xiao Jue had already eaten, and when she was like this, she said, "Let's go."
He Yan nodded, and the two walked out together.
Not long after leaving, suddenly, someone's voice came from behind: "... girl stay!"
When He Yan looked back, Mrs. He Er trotted towards her with her skirt in hand, and He Xinying, who was behind her, was a little stunned, as if she didn't expect her mother to make such a move. Mrs. He Er was not in good health, and after running a few steps, she gasped in a low voice. Among the ladies of the official family, her actions were already a little rude. However, Mrs. He Er didn't care about this and came to this end.
Xiao Jue frowned: "Who?"
"I'm... the wife of the second room of the He family in the capital." Mrs. He glanced at Xiao Jue. The young man's expression was indifferent, making her feel a little timid. Even so, she still stared straight at He Yan, half a minute. Couldn't bear to look away.
He Yan nodded and smiled: "Mrs. He."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He Xinying also caught up, and secretly pulled Mrs. He's sleeve, with some anger in her eyes. As soon as He Yan left, they had not finished their meal, and He Xinying was about to tell Mrs. He about the two when she saw Mrs. He suddenly stood up with determination and chased out.
It all happened so fast that she didn't have time to stop it. But He Xinying knew that it was good, so don't provoke the Governor of the Right Army, Shuojing City official's family, who doesn't know that Xiao Huaijin is not easy to provoke. If you pursue it, don't cause trouble to the He family.
"What's the matter with Madam?" He Yan asked politely.
Mrs. He Er looked at her, and seemed to be looking at another person through her, her voice was soft, as if she was afraid of disturbing the girl in front of her, and as if she was coaxing her three-year-old daughter, "You... your name is He Yan. ?"
He Yan looked at the woman in front of him.
The second Mrs. He in her memory was still very young. Unlike Mrs. He who was meticulous and strict, Mrs. He had a soft and gentle face, and at first glance she was a person with a good temper. She had also seen her sister He Xinying smash a very precious vase. Not only was Mrs. He not angry, she would hold He Xinying in her arms to see if her hand was scratched by the vase fragments.
He Yan was very envious at that time, and felt that his own mother was really better than "mother".
Later, she returned to the mansion after fighting the war, and changed back to "He Yan" again, and Mrs. He also came here several times. But they missed each other so many years that even sitting in the same room, they felt embarrassed and alienated. On the day they got married, Mrs. He was going to see her off. He Yan sat in the room, and Mrs. He said a word when she helped her cover her head.
She took He Yan's hand and said slowly, "A He, you have to be well in the future."
In a word, He Yan, who was under the hijab, wet his eyes.
It is a pity that even the simple wish of "good" was not fulfilled in the end. Even if she was blind at Xu's house, Mrs. He Er was "ill" and never came to see her.
The woman in front of her was already much older and no longer as young as she remembered. He Yan could even see the faint gray between her temples.
She is old.
He Xinying looked at Xiao Jue, nervous in her heart, and hurriedly explained to He Yan: "Sorry, Miss He, it's because you have the same name as my sister, so my mother..."
She didn't know what to say. If He Yan had the same name and surname as a dead person, who knew if the lady would feel unlucky and unhappy.
Mrs. He looked at He Yan and asked tremblingly, "Miss He... Why is your name He Yan?"
He Yan stared at her, and after a while, he smiled indifferently, and replied casually in a relaxed tone: "Who knows, how can ordinary women take the word 'yan' Yes, He Qinghaiyan, maybe my parents knew when I was born that I would definitely go to the battlefield to protect the safety of the people, so the name is quite different from ordinary people."
She was a bit self-deprecating in what she said.
"He Qing Haiyan" sounds naturally prosperous and clear, but she went to the battlefield herself, and her relatives who are related to her not only do not feel distressed, but they have to squeeze even the last trace of her value here, which is chilling. He Yan originally thought that her desire for family love had been wiped out at a very young age. If there is no hope, it will not be too sad when disappointed. Now that she is in another He family, she has received the warmth that she never had before. When she met Mrs. He again, all the complaints and grievances that were deliberately buried deep in her heart were all born.
After speaking, He Xinying didn't feel anything yet, but Mrs. He's expression changed, the blood on her face faded in an instant, and she was almost shaky.
He Yan nodded at them, "If there is nothing else, we will go first." She gently tugged at the corner of Xiao Jue's clothes and walked forward.
Behind He Xinying waited for the two of them to walk far enough before complaining in a low voice, "Mother, what's the matter with you, you suddenly rushed out and startled me. It's not like you don't know what kind of person Dudu Xiao is. , fortunately they didn't care about it just now, if they were angry, neither the eldest brother nor the husband might be able to do anything... Mother, mother?"
He Xinying suddenly stopped talking, because she saw the woman in front of her, and a large drop of tears welled up in her eyes. The tears ran down the corners of her fine lines, like the cold dew in the middle of the night, with broken sorrow.
He Xinying knew that Mrs. He was thinking of her eldest sister who died. After He Yan's death, her mother's health has been in bad condition. The doctor always said that it would be good to take care of herself, but He Xinying knew in her heart that it was a heart disease. Mother's heart is always thinking of the death of the eldest sister, that's why.
It's just... She also has something she doesn't understand. She always thought that her mother was always indifferent to her eldest sister, probably because He Yan had been recuperating in Zhuangzi, and had never been close to her mother in the mansion, so it was difficult for her to develop the same feelings as her over time. But it turned out that after He Yan's death, her mother was so grief-stricken that she realized that she was not ruthless.
But since that's the case, why did she take her so far away in the first place
And his own father, He Yuanliang, was very kind to everyone and always smiled and looked very kind, but he didn't feel as sad as He Yan's death.
All in all, He Yan seemed to be a delicate existence in the He family, and He Yan's death made those seemingly ordinary things finally reveal the weirdness underneath. She was full of questions, but no one could answer her.
No one will answer her.
He Xinying held Mrs. He's hand, but she didn't say anything. She wiped the tears from her mother's eyes with a handkerchief, and whispered, "Mother, let's go back."
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