The moonlight reflected on the snow, and in the flowing light and shadow, the two stood opposite each other.
No need to cover up.
He Yan's eyes fell on the Yinqiu sword in her hand. At this moment, she realized that the long sword was so heavy, so heavy that she was holding it right now, and she felt that it was almost impossible to hold it.
"When did you know?" she whispered.
"He Wanru's nanny was found by me." Xiao Jue replied.
He Yan suddenly looked up at him.
His expression was as calm as ever, as if he was talking, but it was a trivial matter. Thousands of complicated emotions surged in her heart, sour, flustered, nervous, and finally all turned into a sigh of relief.
"Sorry," He Yan tried to make himself look relaxed, "I didn't mean to lie to you."
But why lie, even she herself can't give an acceptable reason.
Xiao Jue leaned over and picked up the sword that was broken in two on the ground. The long sword in his hand was cut into two by He Yan's Yin Qiu.
He Yan watched his movements quietly, and when he bent down and stood up, he said, "You already know everything?"
"Almost." Xiao Jue's eyes were clear and light, "You are Xu Zhiheng's deceased wife, and He Rufei wearing a mask."
As soon as the word "dead wife" was uttered, He Yan's heart shuddered violently, as if the secret that he was most unwilling to be discovered was exposed, showing a bit of embarrassment for no reason. She has been brave to move forward all her life, and she is never afraid to face thousands of troops on the battlefield. Only when facing this person in front of her, at this moment, gave birth to the heart of retreat.
But she couldn't run away, and since she was discovered, she had to face it. Whether it's a past full of conspiracy calculations or a future with no way forward.
"That's right," He Yan said, "I am He Yan and He Rufei, your classmate."
Xiao Jue's eyes moved slightly, and after a while, he asked, "Why did you become the daughter of the Chengmen Colonel?"
"If you have found Qin mama, you should already know how I died." He Yan smiled bitterly, and looked not far away, there was ice hanging on the tree, like dripping tears, hanging in clusters. Shaotou said, "After I die, when I wake up, I will be this 'He Yan' now."
"Maybe it was God who saw me as pitiful and gave me another chance," He Yan shrugged, "Even if I say it, no one will believe it, and maybe some people will think I'm talking nonsense. However, since you have found me, I think you have already believed this matter."
"Why did you exchange identities with He Rufei?"
He Yan was stunned for a moment, her always bright eyes were now like a layer of fog, giving birth to a little confusion.
"Xiao Jue, no one can decide their own destiny when they are born. The same is true for me. As long as I can remember, I have been 'He Rufei'." She said slowly, "I only know that I My eldest brother won't live long, if I don't do 'He Rufei', the title of the He family will be taken back, so I must live in the name of 'He Rufei' and live like this for the rest of my life."
"However, at that time, I was too young to succumb to this fate, so I left the He family and went to the Fuyue Army. The eldest brother, who died early, is not dead, and is even safe and healthy, so when I return to Beijing, everything belongs to everyone. He is Hui He Rufei, and I am Hui He Yan, which is very good. "
There's nothing wrong with this, although at the time, I felt a little wronged, but this was the best ending I could think of. Whether it was He Rufei or He Yan, they could all get out.
He Yan raised her head slightly, as if to force back those tears, she smiled and said, "He Rufei is the famous Feihong General, and Er Er Miss He is just a sick seedling with poor health. With He Rufei's name, he found a good marriage for himself, and the matter ended here."
"It's just that they were afraid that I would show clues and drag down the entire He family, and they didn't trust me, so after that, they would kill me." He Yan laughed at himself, "This should be God's punishment for me. "
Those who resist fate are eventually wiped out by fate. If she still acted obediently as "He Rufei" in the He family back then, did not go to the battlefield, did not compete for military merit, and was not the general Feihong, maybe when the time came, she and He Rufei would return to their positions, and she would not have lost her life.
But…
If someone asks, if time can be reversed, will she have a chance to choose again, will she still leave the He family? He Yan thought, she should still know. It is precisely because she has embarked on a path that is completely different from the established destiny that she will discover that the vastness and fireworks of the world are completely different from those hidden in the four houses.
"your eyes… "
"It was the He family who made him blind." He Yan interrupted him, "but they probably didn't expect that I would be able to live well without my eyes later. It's all thanks to you." She smiled slightly, "You I remember what he said to me after Yuhua Temple that day. Even if I am blind, I will be the most different of the blind."
Xiao Jue took a deep breath.
What he said did not hurt He Yan. If He Yan was just blind like that, after losing the threat to the He family, he might be able to save his life. It was precisely because of her refusal to accept her fate that she made the He family uneasy again and took her life.
"Xiao Jue, don't blame yourself." He Yan seemed to see what he was thinking, "I don't regret my choice at that time. If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't even have the courage to live. On the Mid-Autumn Festival night in Yuhua Temple, there should be no 'He Yan' in this world."
Fate is cruel, but fate is also mysterious. Every seemingly inadvertent choice creates unpredictable results. Now that she has become He Sui's daughter, she is no longer blind. The old people appear in front of her one by one, and she cannot tell whether she is more regretful or more fortunate.
"I'm He Yan, and I'm He Rufei too." She smiled slightly, "When I woke up, I accidentally bumped into Liangzhou Guard's recruit camp and told you that it's not a lie if I want to make achievements, because only standing Only at the same level as He Rufei can he expose his lies. My life doesn't matter, but because of me, He Rufei has killed many innocent people, which is unforgivable. I owe me, myself Take back."
"Now that I've become the Marquis of Wu'an, I have the ability to fight against him. What I'm going to do next is also these things. I'm sorry Xiao Jue, I didn't mean to deceive you, it's just that some things are absurd to say. Maybe it's because I'm timid and don't know how to face you."
"You've been lying to me," he said.
He Yan curled his fingers slightly and took a deep breath, "I'm sorry."
"Are you lying to me about your liking for me?" he asked.
He Yan suddenly raised his head, he stood in the wind, his posture was upright and straight, as in the past, but it seemed that he had returned to the beginning, a distance that could never be reached.
"No."
Xiao Jue looked at her indifferently.
"I didn't lie to you." He Yan paused, swallowed the sourness in his throat, and continued: "When you were working as He Rufei in Xianchang Pavilion, you took care of me a lot, gave me medicine, and gave me advice. Swordsmanship. When you were He Yan in this life, you always protected me."
"You always show up when I'm in trouble, Xiao Jue, I used to like you, and now I like you even more."
Once some words are said, it seems that all concerns are gone. He Yan knew very well in his heart that Xiao Jue was a person who hated betrayal and deceit, which had something to do with the Xiao family's accident. That's why when she was in Liangzhou Wei, she was so sensitive when she found out that she was a woman pretending to be a man to deceive people. But now, she was hiding a bigger secret that was revealed. For Xiao Jue, from the moment she met her, it was a complete lie.
She has no right to ask Xiao Jue to forgive.
"I'm not the real Miss He Da," she took a deep breath and showed a pretended relaxed smile, "It's not what I want to involve you. You can do what you can, I didn't expect that between you and me, it would come to this stage. Your Majesty gave you and me a marriage, and I couldn't resist, but... But..." She looked at Xiao Jue, "You don't need to take this one. Take marriage to heart. You only treat us as a cooperative relationship. If you have a girl you like in the future, I will explain to her that the relationship between you and me is just a show. When the time comes, if you want to dissolve the engagement or divorce me, both It doesn't matter."
Xiao Jue's eyes suddenly became cold, and he slowly asked: "Have you been divorced?"
He Yan pretended to be indifferent and sighed, "Actually, getting married doesn't mean anything, really. You don't think Yan Nanguang is so happy, but you think getting married has many benefits. I've married someone myself, and if I think about it, it's better before I get married. Be happy. Maybe I'm more suitable for one person, two marriages are so bad," she joked: "When you divorce me, I will end all the grievances, and I will ride one by one and travel all over the world. It's better than living an ordinary woman's life in this mansion. It's not very good. It's just a pity for you." She seemed to be genuinely worried for Xiao Jue, "It's good, and your marriage was blocked for nothing."
Xiao Jue said coldly, "He Yan."
"Don't look so angry." He Yan smiled and said, "It's me who should be sad. It was so easy to deceive a marriage, but it was exposed now. Fortunately, I am a very broad-minded person, and I always do everything. If you think about it, once today is over, you and I will be normal classmates. Xiao Jue," she said earnestly, word by word, "Thank you, both in the past and now."
She smiled relaxedly, and looked like she didn't care, like a heartless young man in Liangzhou Wei. However, only He Yan himself knew that when he said these words, every word was like a knife cutting flesh in his heart.
She likes a person so much, and she has experienced a lot with this person. Xiao Jue gave her the warmth and respect she had never had before. She thought that she had captured the moon, but in fact she just captured the reflection of the moon under the water. Now, she should get back on her own path.
Don't give birth to greed in a relationship. If there is no greed, maybe it won't be so sad when we part now.
He Yan raised a big smile, thought for a while, and reached out to Xiao Jue, "Well, this is your drink of autumn, and now it's back to the original owner."
The young man didn't move, his beautiful eyes were fixed on her, and there were emotions that He Yan couldn't understand. The next moment, he strode forward, and He Yan handed Yin Qiu back to him.
He didn't take the sword.
That hand grabbed He Yan's arm, pulled her gently, and hugged her into his arms.
He Yan was shocked. Under the black robe that looked cold, it turned out to be an extremely warm embrace. Just like the bravest general, with the softest heart.
"Xiao Jue, you..."
He Yan leaned against his arms, and could hear the other party's heartbeat clearly and powerfully, more intense than ever, as if to reveal the unknown feelings of the young man. She raised her head and saw Xiao Jue's chin. He supported He Yan's waist with one hand, and pressed He Yan's head to his chest, as if to comfort her, but also as if she was afraid of her escape.
"sorry."
"what?"
The young man's voice was forbidding, hoarse and low, "I didn't recognize you the first time."
In an instant, He Yan's eyes were wet.
For a long time, it was like she walked alone in the dark for a long time, no one found her existence, and no one cared about her sorrows and joys. No one apologized, no one cheered, happiness or sadness, beginning or end, is her own story.
Until one day, someone found her.
The only person in this world is her light, the source of all her splendor.
"Hey," she wanted to lighten the atmosphere, "Xiao Huaijin, I will be reluctant to let you go."
He hugged He Yan even tighter, and whispered in her ear, "I missed you twice."
"This time, I won't miss it again."
He Yan was stunned.
She broke away from Xiao Jue's arms and looked at him in surprise, "I'm not Miss He, I'm He Yan."
"I know."
"I lied to you, from my last life to the present."
"I know."
"I've already married someone." She seemed to be hard to say, "Xiao Jue, even so, are you the same as before?"
She doesn't think that if you marry someone, you are inferior. There are so many women who are divorced and abandoned, and they are no worse than others. It's just because of bad luck, or because of involuntarily, they chose a wrong marriage. does not hinder their right to happiness.
But it turns out that when people face the person they really like, even if it is a fairy, they will secretly worry about whether they are compatible with each other. Joy makes people timid, timidity makes people humble, not to mention... She has received too little love, even very little affirmation.
In the darkness of the night, the young man's eyes were like autumn water, all the indifference and ridicule faded away, and the warmth was unbelievable.
Xiao Jue smiled: "Why are you so unconfident, even if you are married, in my eyes, you are just a girl."
He leaned down slightly and looked into her eyes.
"What about General Feihong, I'm only here for He Yan."