Luo Cheng's body froze suddenly, he lowered his head and said nothing.
"I have a good relationship with him. I don't like to look at people's past, I like to look at other people's present and future. Luo Cheng, compared with Song Chuci, your skills and wisdom are much worse than his, even if I give you exactly the same You will not be able to become Song Chuci in this life."
Los Angeles was silent.
"It doesn't mean that you are not good, you are very good. He Chaoman and I both think that you are a very good person. But if He Chaoman has to choose between you and Song Chuci, she will not choose you who are innocent. She will choose Song Chuci."
Wen Ya poured tea aside and didn't speak.
Xi Ze continued: "A person's life, when he was first born, is a blank sheet of paper, but then, there will be various colors stained on it. Song Chuci was a person who was once stained with dust, and now there is only one left. A picture of light, and your color is too simple, beauty is beautiful, but you need to be careful. He Chaoman and you broke up the engagement, although both families think that the baby kiss is just a joke, but in fact, as a woman, she does not want to to take care of your husband."
After a pause, Xi Ze said again: "You think Song Chu is dirty, you think the things he did are disgusting..."
"I didn't!" Luo Cheng suddenly retorted with red eyes for some reason.
Xi Ze lowered his head and looked at Luo Cheng who clenched his fists, only to hear him whisper: "He has been with many people, I only feel jealous and jealous, but... But I don't think he is dirty. I know, he and I He grew up in a different environment. My sister said that his mother was a..." After hesitating for a moment, Luo Cheng said, "She was a prostitute. I know that he has had a difficult life since he was a child."
"But you still think he's dirty, he's disgusting and lowly."
"That's because he used me, and he just wanted to use me to climb up! He also let the woman he once dated abort, and just for his future, he murdered his own children and killed countless others. Woman! Xi Ze, he is also taking advantage of me, I will only come back this time when I love him, but now he wants to use bitter tactics to win my sympathy!"
"You still don't believe him."
These words made Luocheng silent again.
Xi Ze stared at Luo Cheng with red eyes, and after a while, he said, "I said before that half a year ago, he almost died. What do you think he almost died because of? Because of a car accident, because of an accident, because he got it What disease?"
Luo Cheng raised his head and whispered, "I don't know."
"Because of anorexia."
This answer made Luo Cheng's eyes widen suddenly.
Xi Ze looked calm and said very calmly: "I have very few friends, and Song Chuci has very few friends. After he fell ill, Ding Bo and I went to see him a few times. In the first month after you left, he was I spent it in the hospital. I couldn't eat anything, I couldn't drink water, I lived on a drip every day, and I quickly lost weight."
Luo Cheng's fingers trembled slightly.
"I've seen him want to eat a bite of food, but the bite of it just went into his throat, and he kept coughing and vomiting, and then spit it out. I don't like to show things, and I don't want to tell How terrifying your scene is, but you only need to know that from the first day after you left, he went on a hunger strike on his own initiative. Half a year ago, he almost died, he survived, and for you, survived. "
Luo Cheng's fingers clenched tightly.
"You have been together for two years. During these two years, have you ever felt that Song Chu loved you?"
Luo Cheng wanted to nod, but finally shook his head.
Xi Ze closed his eyes, and finally looked at Wen Ya who was beside him: "Do you think Song Chu loves him?"
Wen Ya was silent for a moment, and finally said: "Love. Mr. Song said that he would confess to Luo Cheng on his birthday. He lost the bet this time. He served as Luo Cheng's servant for one day. together."
The gentle words made Luo Cheng pale.
But Xi Ze continued: "Song Chuci is very timid and has low self-esteem. I have known him for so many years, but I have not understood what he wants. Is it the editor-in-chief of "Muse"? Or a higher status? Luocheng, Song Chuci has hidden his heart deeply, you can't feel it, but others can feel it. What he wants is not higher power and money, what he wants now is only you."
Gritting his teeth, Luo Cheng kept repeating: "But he was just using me, he planned our encounter, and he killed his children for power..."
"Luocheng! Do you have no heart? Until now, you still refuse to believe him?!"
Three hours before the plane took off, Luo Cheng came to Song Chuci's door.
He stood at the door for half an hour, still refusing to knock. What he didn't know was that a man was also standing behind the gate, looking down at the image on the screen, silently refusing to move.
In the end, when Luo Cheng turned to leave, Song Chuci suddenly smiled. He gave up his self-esteem today and asked Xi Ze to find Luo Cheng, but even so, the other party still refused to believe him.
While laughing, tears fell down the corners of his eyes.
Song Chuci kept laughing, laughing and crying, until suddenly, a doorbell rang in the room.
Song Chu was stunned for a moment. He looked up at the display again, and saw the young man grit his teeth and rang the doorbell.
After a while, Song Chuci opened the door.
Inside and outside the door, the eyes of both of them were a little red.
Everything was so similar to a year ago, it was night, Song Chuci was inside the door, and Luo Cheng was outside.
A year ago, the first sentence this young man said was "You are the dirtiest dirt, and there is a world of difference between us". Today, however, Luo Cheng lowered his head and did not speak for a long time. After Song Chuci asked in a hoarse voice, "What's the matter with you?" Luo Cheng clenched his fingers and whispered, "Song Chuci, I believe in you."
In a word, Song Chuci couldn't help closing his eyes any longer, and tears flowed down the corners of his eyes.
one Year.
Over the past year, the phrase "worlds apart" seemed like a sharp dagger, cutting his heart constantly. His heart was already full of wounds, and he was devastated. Every time he woke up from a dream in the middle of the night, the phrase "worldly difference" echoed in his ears, and there was an endless darkness in front of him.
one Year.
Song Chuci almost never felt the feeling of food slipping into her esophagus. In the past six months, his condition has improved, so he can eat more, but his main food is still glucose.
Whenever food slid down his throat, he suddenly felt a burst of dryness in his heart.
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts.
The pain in the heart seemed to be transformed into the pain in the whole body. That night, Luo Cheng's ruthless gaze, that night, Luo Cheng's cruel words flowed wildly in his veins, cutting his body into pieces, letting every person who had just entered the entrance flowed wildly. The food was spit out involuntarily.
Half a year ago, he felt the coming of death.
Even though he knew he might die if he couldn't eat any more, he really couldn't eat anything. He wants to eat, his reason tells him you have to eat it, but in the next second, his body will actively spit out anything.
Only when he really lost did he realize that he had loved so deeply.
Six months ago, when the best doctor was about to give up on him, Xi Ze came. Song Chuci had few close friends, and Xi Ze was one of the few. Xi Ze told him that in half a year, at most half a year, he would definitely let Luocheng return to Huaxia.
In the haze, listening to Xi Ze's promise, he finally began to eat.
The name Luocheng is a kind of poison to him.
When he was in pain, he was heartbroken, and when he was happy, he was delighted.
Before meeting Luo Cheng, he had thought about meeting countless times. But in the end, he still chose to pretend timidly, pretending that nothing had happened, pretending that he was calm, pretending that everything was a cloud, and pretending that he didn't care.
It wasn't until Luo Cheng smoked for 20 minutes in the cubicle that Song Chuci waited outside for 20 minutes and finally couldn't bear it any longer.
He was in there and forced himself to Luocheng.
Along with the physical pleasure, he watched the people below him keep crying. Luo Cheng's heart was cold, but his heart was already dead. He died in the murderous eyes of Luocheng, he died in the murderous words of Luocheng, he died for more than a year, just waiting for this rebirth.
And now, after waiting for more than a year, he finally got the phrase "I believe in you".
Song Chuci's reluctantly maintained dignity collapsed into pieces under the sentence "I believe in you".
He had already thought about it, assuming that Luocheng was still unwilling to let go this time, what would he do with dignity? He will chase to the airport, he will hold this person, he will tell him what the truth was, did I use you, and what did I do!
Please, even though I'm dirty, I like you, give me a chance.
But now, before his dignity is about to be completely lost, the person he loves most gives him a chance.
Song Chuci opened the corner of his mouth with a low smile, and reached out to embrace the young man in front of him. His embrace was very warm, his embrace was very gentle, he gently rubbed this Erha's soft hair with one hand, and his tone was softer than ever before.
He said, "L.A., I tell you all the truth."
He is the most pickled sludge in the world, he is disgusting, he is dirty, he is scumbag.
In order to become a gem under the light, he tried his best, he did not sacrifice his means, there were endless bones under his feet, and countless wronged souls in front of him.
Is such a Song Chuci eligible for love
He didn't!
So this love is what he bought with his life and dignity.
Love is just a firework, Luocheng's love is simple and reckless, and Song Chu's love is so utterly ashes.
Burning life, burning self-esteem, before flying into the sea of fire, Song Chuci held Luo Cheng in exchange for this relationship.
He told Luo Cheng that their first meeting was the greatest happiness in his life, and there was never any calculation. He also told Luo Cheng that no matter how numb and ruthless he was, he was not an executioner, let alone killing his own children.
Hearing the end, Luo Cheng grabbed Song Chuci's clothes and asked him in a low voice, "Have you ever hated me?"
Song Chuci lowered her head and kissed the lips of her sweetheart, and answered him with a smile: "I hated it, and then I loved it more."
Only if you believe in me, then my life has meaning.