An Luo locked the door with his backhand in the bedroom, his pale fingers tightly gripped the wheelchair, the suffocating feeling in his chest, like a surging tide, drowned his entire heart without any space.
With every breath, the lungs seemed to be twisted up by a pair of hands, and there were bursts of soreness between the nose, and there was a warm mist floating in the eye sockets, but he desperately pressed it back—
Endless Love, unending, unresponsive, hopeless love...
An Ze asked him what he thought of this feeling, and how should he answer? What to do when you fall in love with someone you shouldn't love, someone who can never be answered? What can be done
When he met An Yang in his previous life, he was still an ignorant and ignorant young man, but An Yang was already tall and graceful. In my memory, An Yang always likes to wear white suits and looks elegant and calm. Growing up in a wealthy family, he has an innate noble temperament, even if he sits there and doesn't say anything, It will instantly attract people's attention.
An Yang has a twin sister named An Fei. The relationship between the two brothers and sisters has always been very good. Whenever they attend various cocktail parties, the gentle and handsome brother An Yang and the beautiful and moving sister An Fei will always become the most attractive in the audience. The focus of attention.
Their brothers and sisters are often invited by handsome guys and beauties to dance an elegant waltz on the dance floor, moving, spinning, gorgeous dance steps accompanied by beautiful music, handsome An Yang, beautiful An Fei, a pair of children will always be the father’s greatest pride .
And An Luo, who couldn't dance and didn't know how to socialize, could only stand silently in the corner drinking.
Cup after cup of ice-cold liquid flowed down his throat, not even a trace of warmth in his heart.
Drinking is the first thing that young An Luo learned after returning to his home.
My father said that men must have a good amount of alcohol. In the future, in business, you can only pretend to be drunk, but not really.
The young An Luo was forced to drink all kinds of wine, white wine, red wine and wine by the bartender invited by his father. His father asked him to learn to distinguish the degree and brand of various wines within a month. He didn't even care about An Luo before that. Never been exposed to alcohol.
An Luo didn't know how to drink at first. The strong irritation of the cold liquid poured into his throat made him choked to tears, and his stomach felt as if it was burning. He vomited on the side of the toilet, and even vomited out his entire stomach, until his mouth was full of sour water... The feeling of twisting and throbbing in the stomach was deeply imprinted in the memory of young An Luo. .
After vomiting, An Luo, who was pale, dragged his tired body back to the bedroom in embarrassment, sleeping on the bed with only a splitting headache... In such a painful and tormenting night after being drunk, there was no one to accompany him.
Only the gentle An Yang will bring him a glass of warm water when he wakes up the next day.
The warm water was sent to the stomach, and the only warmth seemed to be sent to the bottom of my heart.
He would fall in love with An Yang, perhaps because of the greedy warmth that An Yang gave him.
An Luo is the illegitimate son of his father outside. He has been fostered at his grandmother's house since childhood. Even when he returned to An's house, he was picked up by the housekeeper secretly. He thought that his elder brother, An Yang, would hate his unidentified younger brother, but he did not expect that An Yang treated him very well, without any prejudice, and cared and cared for him like an elder brother treated his younger brother.
However, to him, An Yang is only a brother's feelings towards his younger brother.
An Luo is very clear that the dazzling An Yang is the real successor of the An family, and his An Luo is just a spare tire that his father brought home to cultivate. The An family has business in both black and white. If something happens to An Yang, there will be no successor if An Luo is there. Father wants to hold two trump cards, one in the light and one in the dark.
But even if it only existed as a "spare tire", An Luo never blamed his father and brother, and followed An Yang's back at ease as a small follower, trying hard to learn everything An Yang taught him. The days were not peaceful, but An Luo's mood was very peaceful. He stayed by An Yang's side as a spare tire, helped him, and shared the pressure for him. This was very good, and he was very satisfied.
He originally thought that he could always be by his brother's side as a sidekick, but he didn't expect that An Yang would fall in love with Su Zihang—the one who stayed by his side as a bodyguard, but was actually a young police officer who was sent by the police to An's house to go undercover, Su Zihang.
The love between the two of them is vigorous, An Yang loves Su Zihang so much, and even wants to leave all the underworld business for Su Zihang, take him abroad to get married, do some small business abroad with peace of mind, and live a peaceful and peaceful life...
When An Yang smiled and said to him: "Xiao Luo, I proposed to Zihang today, and he agreed. I plan to take Zihang abroad to get a marriage certificate, and then settle there. After that, An family's business will be I'm going to give it to you..."
An Luo can never forget his feelings at that time.
It was a feeling of a heart being torn to shreds and thrown on the ground.
He remembered that he struggled to squeeze a smile, and forced himself to say calmly, "Don't worry, brother, there will be no problems with the An family..." Perhaps only he knows how bitter his heart is.
An Yang patted his shoulder lightly and said, "Brother believes in you."
The spot on his shoulder that he had patted was as uncomfortable as a needle stick. An Luo didn't know how to react. He couldn't laugh or cry. He could only stand there silently, watching An Yang's back disappear into a blur. in sight.
—Brother, you decided to marry Zihang abroad, what about An Luo? He has to take on the heavy burden you entrusted to him, and use his young shoulders to support the huge family business, and he doesn't even have to do your valet, right
Later, many accidents happened. An Yang did not take Su Zihang abroad as he wished. Su Zihang's undercover identity was suddenly exposed, and he was brutally killed by Anjia's underworld accomplices in the apartment where the two lived together. When An Yang came home and saw Su Zihang's body Almost collapsed... And An Luo could only calmly force his broken brother away.
Later, a car accident with a conspiracy made An Yang's legs almost crippled. An Luo took his brother abroad for treatment. From then on, An Luo, who was the spare tire, officially became the successor of the An family.
An Luo's temper became more and more indifferent, but whenever he faced his brother An Yang, the indifference barrier that tightly wrapped himself would melt and dissipate involuntarily...
Because An Yang was the only person who gave him warmth in the long darkness.
Until the moment of his death in an air crash, An Luo's lifelong love finally came to an end.
Since his rebirth, An Luo has decided to forget the past and start a new life.
Everything about An Yang became more and more vague under his deliberate neglect.
However, An Ze's question today instantly brought back the most secret scar buried deep in his heart.
The memories of the past quickly churned in my mind, and the long-lost pain surged out once again from the gap dug in the bottom of my heart... The empty heart seemed to be filled with a fierce cold wind.
Unending, unresponsive, hopeless love.
It turned out that he never really forgot.
***
An Luo sat in the bedroom and took a long time to calm down.
Turning the wheelchair to the bathroom, he washed his face with cold water, and looked at himself in the mirror. His pale face was so similar to An Luo who woke up from a nightmare in his previous life.
Why do they look so similar even after being reborn? In the end how can we completely abandon the past An Luo
When An Luo finally sorted out his emotions and came out of the bathroom, he just heard a knock on the door.
"Brother, I'm out for dinner." An Ze's voice was so low that he couldn't hear any emotion. He just knocked on the door, then turned and walked away.
Listening to his low voice, An Luo suddenly felt that he had overreacted just now. Maybe An Ze just asked casually, but because he touched his sore foot, he lost control of his emotions and slammed the door in front of his younger brother. It does look a little childish.
But Anze was not angry, and went to the kitchen to make dinner...
An Luo opened the door and turned the wheelchair to the restaurant. Sure enough, there was a table of food on the table, all of which were his favorite dishes. There was also a fragrant peanut and chicken foot soup in the clay pot specially used for soup.
Beside the fragrant dining table, An Ze's face was not as gentle as usual, but rather cold and stiff. Looking at the sumptuous meal on the table, and remembering the scene of getting angry at him just now, An Luo felt a little ashamed, so he gave his brother a rare smile. It's a pity that the younger brother is holding his meal with his head down, ignoring his older brother at all.
An Luo is not a person who is good at words, let alone apologizing to his brother. Since An Ze didn't speak, An Luo didn't want to take the initiative to break the silence, so he had to take a bowl and eat on his own.
I don't know how long it took, the two of them ate face to face in silence, the dishes on the plate were quickly eaten up, and there was only one spare ribs left. An Luo's chopsticks stretched out, trying to clamp the last remaining spare ribs, but it just collided with An Ze's chopsticks.
Raising his head, he met Anze's unusually deep gaze.
Both of them were holding a piece of ribs, and neither of them would let go first. After a stubborn confrontation for a while, An Luo felt that it was very naive to grab the ribs with his younger brother, so he had to take the initiative to let go.
An Ze picked up the spare ribs and gently put it into An Luo's bowl.
An Luo heard him whisper: "It was originally for you, brother."
The corners of his lips were slightly raised, as if he was smiling, but that lonely smile made An Luo feel worried.
An Luo wanted to say something, but heard An Ze's phone suddenly rang. The unique ringtone seemed to be their army's summoning order. He immediately stood up and said, "I have something to go out for a while."
An Luo asked suspiciously, "Is there an urgent mission?"
Anze said, "Yes."
He turned around and took off his military uniform from the hanger, quickly put it on, and put on his hat. The young officer's resolute and handsome face did not show any expression. He only looked back at An Luo and said, "Brother, go to bed early after dinner, don't wait. I am back."
An Luo looked at the tall and straight back of his younger brother in the military uniform. The black belt around his waist perfectly showed his model-like inverted triangle figure. The neat military uniform without a trace of folds seemed to add a touch of majesty to his body. .
Although he looks resolute, upright, calm and mature, he is already a major at a young age, but he is also a younger brother three years younger than him... The younger brother still needs the elder brother's care, and it must be dangerous for him to go out to perform tasks urgently.
An Luo thought for a while, but still said what a brother should say: "Anze, pay attention to safety."
An Ze stopped, his back unnaturally stiff.
If you care so much... how long has it been since you heard it
After a moment of silence, An Ze regained his voice and said in a low voice, "Don't worry, I won't let myself get into trouble until I don't get what I want." After a slight pause, he turned to look at An Luo, "I'll be back safely to see you, brother."
After saying that, he turned around, closed the door and left.
His words just now had a strange and tough aura, and even gave An Luo the illusion that "no matter what this younger brother wants to get, he will never escape from his palm".
An Luo looked down at the last piece of spareribs in the bowl - when he and Anze clamped the spareribs together just now, the first thought in An Luo's mind was "he wants to eat it too, so he came to grab it", and took the initiative to let go The chopsticks were given to An Ze, but he didn't expect that An Ze was going to give him the chopsticks.
He picked up the last spare ribs, but put it in his brother's bowl.
The complicated An Ze, the incomprehensible An Ze, what exactly is he wanting