"That day was May 22, and the next day was your birthday. I was assigned a very dangerous mission. Before leaving, I suddenly thought that if I die, there is a secret that will be taken to the grave by me. Nobody knows."
"So I asked you out to meet, I want to spend your last birthday with you, and I want to tell you that I have always loved you. I know you won't accept it, but I think, at least this way, you will always remember Anze. "
"You will remember that the little brother you don't care about silently... has liked you for many years."
Speaking of this, An Ze's expression darkened, and the smile on the corner of his lips also carried an undisguised bitterness, "I just didn't expect that I came back safely, but something happened to you. You lost your memory, you don't remember that I kissed you, and I don't remember my confession to you..."
"Aren't you weird, why am I being so nice to you during this time?" An Ze paused slightly, and said earnestly, word by word, "Because I like you, I take your affairs more than anything else. important."
"..." Looking at An Ze's serious eyes, An Luo was so shocked that he almost lost his ability to think.
This, how is this possible
I always thought that An Ze just loved his brother purely as a younger brother. I always thought that the relationship between their brothers was very good, so An Ze would care about his brother so much. An Luo did not expect that An Ze actually had a crush on his brother...
"Are you surprised?" An Ze looked at An Luo and whispered, "Since you are so stubborn in wanting to know the truth, then I might as well tell you the truth. No matter how you look at me, I like you, this cannot be changed. fact."
"..." An Luo froze in place, unable to say a word.
Looking at An Luo's shocked and dazed appearance, An Ze suddenly felt a slight tingling in his heart.
He has long known that whenever the truth is told, his brother's reaction can only be surprise, anger, and disbelief. Although he was already mentally prepared to be rejected, Anze still felt very uncomfortable when he looked at him in shock like a monster.
The suffocating silence lasted for a long time. Seeing that An Luo had not spoken, An Ze could only whisper, "It's getting late, you should rest first."
After speaking, he turned and walked out of the bedroom. When he reached the door, he stopped again. An Ze did not look back, but lowered his voice and said calmly, "I'm sorry, I have never been a brotherly love to you."
The door was gently closed, and the room fell silent again.
I have never been brotherly to you...
An Ze's words echoed repeatedly in his ears, hitting his head like a blast of thunder. An Luo finally recovered from his shock. Looking at the closed door, he swallowed, but couldn't speak. In a word.
He sat on the bed with a complicated mood for a while, stretched out his hand and touched his lips that had been rubbed from the intense kiss, and there seemed to be a fiery temperature on his lips that was almost burning him, and this temperature also clearly reminded him. An Luo, was indeed kissed by An Ze just now, all this is not a dream, but an unbelievable fact.
The fact is, An Ze actually loves his brother deeply...
An Luo suddenly felt that one of his heads had become two big.
I wanted to sort out a thought in a pile of chaos, but found that my brain was in a mess, and it was impossible to maintain a consistent calm.
Not to mention that this kind of relationship between their brothers is unworldly and contrary to ethics, the more critical problem is that he is not his brother. It doesn't matter if An Luo plays the role of his brother, but if it is a lover, it will go beyond the bottom line.
The strong kiss just now caught An Luo by surprise, and now his heartbeat is still a little irregular... This kind of loss of control must never happen again in the future.
An Luo rubbed his swollen temples. He originally wanted to tell An Ze the truth slowly after the case was over, but now he had to advance the plan. Because An Luo is very clear, the longer this kind of entanglement is dragged on, the more unmanageable it will become.
***
That night, An Luo tossed and turned in bed until 3 o'clock in the morning.
In the vague dream, he saw some very strange pictures again.
It was a western restaurant, and he saw himself sitting in the corner, eating with a woman.
The rich aroma of the steak on the table, the delicate makeup of the woman on the opposite side, the soothing light music in the ear, and the waiter's signature smile... All of them are as clear as being in the scene.
The strange thing is that An Luo watched everything like a bystander in the dream, and he could even clearly see every expression of An Luo in the dream.
In the dream, An Luo seemed to be in a hurry and was always looking down at his watch. He didn't hear what the woman on the opposite side was saying until the woman suddenly stopped, stared at him, and said in a serious tone: "An Luo, you Are you listening to me?"
An Luo came back to his senses, looked up at her and said, "Sorry, Xiaotong, I'm in a hurry, can we talk another day?"
The woman called Xiaotong smiled helplessly and said, "Okay, since you have something to do, let's go first." Then she waved to the waiter, "Pay the bill."
When I came out of the restaurant, it was in the evening, and the golden sunset gave the whole city a dreamy color.
It was a beautiful road. It was straight and had no end in sight. Large plane trees were planted on both sides of the road. The sunlight leaking from the branches and leaves scattered beautiful golden fragments on the ground. There were many couples walking leisurely on the road holding hands, but An Luo had no intention of admiring the beautiful scenery. He seemed to have something very important, so he went straight to his car after going out.
When I opened the door and sat in the driver's seat to start the engine, someone suddenly knocked on the window. An Luo turned back suspiciously and happened to meet An Ze's dark eyes.
An Ze smiled at him, then opened the door and got into the car, sitting in the passenger seat.
An Luo turned back suspiciously, "Anze, why are you here?"
An Ze said: "Brother, tomorrow is your birthday. I went to the nearby bakery to buy a box of your favorite matcha cake. Let's have dinner together tonight and celebrate your birthday in advance, okay?"
An Luo was silent for a moment, and said calmly: "Take the cake back, I have already eaten dinner."
An Ze's eyes suddenly turned cold, "Is it with Lin Xiaotong? Did you really listen to your father and date her?"
"..." An Luo was about to speak when his phone suddenly rang. He ignored An Ze, lowered his head and took out his mobile phone from his pocket. The words "Please enter your password" seemed to be written on the screen. An Luo's fingers quickly pressed a few numbers on the screen, then entered the mobile phone system and glanced at the screen. Central name.
The name on the caller ID became blurred in front of his eyes. An Luo wanted to take a closer look at the name, but he couldn't see it clearly. And at this moment, An Luo in the dream glanced at his name, pressed the reject button, and put the phone back.
An Ze asked in a low voice, "Who's calling? Why didn't my brother answer it?"
An Luo said coldly: "Go back, I still have things to do, I'll talk about it another day."
An Ze continued to ask: "What's the matter with you? I see that you are restless, brother, did something happen?"
An Luo frowned impatiently, "It's none of your business."
An Ze suddenly turned his head to look at him. Although it was just a dream, An Luo felt that the complex gaze seemed to be directly looking into his heart. He was stunned by the gaze and forgot for a while what to say.
He saw An Ze's Adam's apple rolling up and down, and then a low and calm voice slipped out of his throat: "The person you like is with someone else, why don't you say it's none of my business? I'll be jealous too, brother."
An Luo was stunned, then asked in surprise: "Who do you like? Do you like Lin Xiao..."
"I like you." An Ze interrupted him directly.
As if to prove this sentence, An Ze's lips suddenly pressed down, and he even put his tongue into his mouth recklessly, and his fingers also clasped the back of An Luo's head, bringing the distance between the two to the closest.
"Well… "
An Luo was caught off guard by the kiss.
He probably didn't expect to be kissed by his younger brother at all, and froze in place.
The space in the car was originally very narrow, and An Luo had already fastened his seat belt, and he was completely pressed on the seat by An Ze, and there was no room for escape at all.
An Luo stared blankly at An Ze's face enlarged in front of him. After being stunned for a while, he realized that his tongue was entangled in him, and finally he realized the terrible fact that he was "kissed by his younger brother".
An Luo blushed with anger, pushed An Ze away, and punched him in the face by the way, "Bastard! You are crazy!"
Because he was too angry, An Luo's lips were even trembling slightly.
An Ze was punched firmly, and there was a dazzling trace of blood on his lips, but he didn't care, he wiped it with the back of his hand, looked back at An Luo, and said seriously, "Brother, I'm not crazy, I Very sober, I asked you out today, just to tell you the truth, I like you, I have liked you since a long time ago... "
"Enough! I'm your brother! How can you..."
"So what?" An Ze interrupted him, "There's nothing wrong with liking someone. What's more, I never thought I could be with you. I just like you silently, isn't that okay?"
An Luo said coldly, "Get out of the car now, I don't want to see you."
"elder brother… "
"Don't call me brother." An Luo looked back at An Ze, his eyes were as cold as a sword, "Now, immediately, get out of here."
An Ze looked at An Luo's icy eyes, was silent for a long time, suddenly tugged at the corners of his cracked mouth, and said in a low voice, "If, this may be the last time we meet... You will also let me get out of here immediately. ,Is it right?"
"An Ze, get out of the car right away, I don't want to say the third time." An Luo's face was very ugly, and his lips were white with anger.
An Ze raised his lips slightly, "I know, you never cared about my brother. But it doesn't matter, you finally know my feelings for you now, at least, you will always remember me. And... remember me kiss." After speaking, he leaned over again and kissed An Luo lightly on the lips.
"you… "
"I can't accompany you on your birthday tomorrow. Let me say in advance, happy birthday, brother."
After Anze said that, he opened the door and got out of the car, and took the box of matcha cakes he bought.
An Luo could clearly see that in the dream, on the box of cake, there were several beautiful characters written in red jam: "Brother, happy birthday".
The familiar handwriting should be An Ze's handwriting. Perhaps, he made the box of cakes himself. Unfortunately, in the end, he threw the elaborate birthday cake into the trash can next to the parking lot and fell into a puddle of mud.
An Ze straightened his back and walked to the street in the distance, never looking back.
But An Luo in the car kept watching his back.
The picture that looks like a farewell, under the rendering of the golden sunset in the evening, seems to have a strong sadness.
The city did not know when the wind blew, ruffled Anze's black hair, the leaves of the plane tree swayed with the wind, and the fragments of sunlight sprinkled on the ground trembled gently with the rhythm, dazzling people.
The whole dream became more and more blurred later, like an old movie with faded colors, but the back of Anze's departure was always clearly magnified in front of his eyes, becoming the focus of the whole world.
In the dream, An Ze's back looks so lonely.
The road was long, Anze straightened his back, and walked for a long time. The tall back of the young man gradually narrowed into an invisible black spot in his field of vision.
He walked out of An Luo's sight step by step like this, as if that separation had really become a farewell.