He bit his lower lip, thinking of his second uncle's disdainful look at his father, of hiding behind the rocks and seeing his father's lonely figure locked outside the family banquet, and of the scene where the sweeping servant pointed at him and said he was a good-for-nothing kid. , at that time, he was still an ignorant naughty boy. He didn’t know what a good-for-nothing kid meant, and he excitedly ran to ask his father...
"Absolutely not!" Gu Hai said again, biting his lower lip and leaving a bloody mark.
"Brother, the three of us are together, wearing the clothes we make and eating the food we earn. No matter how difficult the life is, we can straighten our backs in front of others. Why do we have to live by relying on other people's looks?" Gu Shi Ba Niang took a deep breath.
She remembered something an old servant of the Shen family once said. She didn't know why, but this ordinary statement was particularly clear in her mind at this time.
"It's better to have it yourself than anyone else..." she murmured.
"Yes!" Gu Hai said loudly, "Yes, we can rely on ourselves! Don't rely on them! Don't ask for charity from them!"
"Brother, study hard and strive for fame." Gu Shiba Niang said holding his arm.
"Yes," Gu Hai nodded solemnly, raised his fist and shook it, "I want to gain fame and earn a royal wife for my mother. Let's see who dares to look down on us and bully us at will!"
As he said this, he remembered that in the past six months, he had missed many classes due to worries about family affairs and absent-mindedness. There was not much time left before next year's autumn exam.
"Sister, I'm going to school." Gu Hai dropped the woodcutter and ran out.
"Brother, I'll wait for you on the mountain behind the school. After school, let's chop wood together!" Gu Shiba Niang shouted from behind with tears in her eyes.
Gu Hai waved his hand from afar, turned the corner and disappeared. Gu Shiba Niang stood in front of the door and stared blankly for a while. She didn't wake up until the neighbor's aunt greeted her and closed the door.
Looking at the simple but life-filled courtyard, Gu Shiba Niang clenched her fists and took a step towards changing her destiny. It was not enough to keep the house and no longer depend on others.
She knew that her family had no savings, and she must have borrowed foreign debts for her medical treatment, and then there were the food, clothing and living expenses for the three of them. Her mother alone could never support it by doing needlework, starch and washing, let alone My brother still wants to study...
Money..money…you have to have money to survive, she needs money.
At this moment, she hated that she was born in a girl's body. She couldn't lift her shoulders or lift her hands. She couldn't do it as a female celebrity. The only thing she had gained was ten more years of life experience. That experience was just like a rootless duckweed floating around randomly. Before getting married, she hated herself. People of the same family obeyed their mother-in-law after they got married. Even in the pharmacy she got after the separation, as the hostess, she also obeyed the shopkeepers... Apart from listening to other people's words, she knew nothing.
Emotions of sadness, anger, and depression were pounding in her heart. Could she just watch what happened happen again
Then why does she need to be reborn
Gu Shiba Niang knelt in the yard, buried her head in her knees and cried muffledly. Every night, she was tortured by the memory of her "past life" and wanted to cry loudly, but she couldn't because her mother was sleeping next to her.
She was afraid that her mother and brother would die in front of her again, and she was afraid of hearing the name Jiankang, but thinking that that man was living in Jiankang at this time, she wanted to rush over with a knife and kill him, kill him...
After crying happily for a while, the vented emotions slowly calmed down. Gu Shiba Niang looked at the blue sky and took a deep breath.
In her previous life, she was an ordinary woman. Although she had read many books, she had never seriously thought about the principles in the books. But now she is thinking about those life experiences and the books she has read, especially her father's seriousness. Her mood gradually calmed down after what she had been taught.
She couldn't be impatient or impatient. She had to believe that God wouldn't be playing tricks on her when he asked her to be reborn. Furthermore, looking back on all the past events, she asked herself, Gu Shiba Niang, that if she was not a criminal and a criminal, God wouldn't want her to be reborn. It comes from going through pain again.
She straightened her clothes, knelt down under the pomegranate tree in the yard, kowtowed devoutly, put her hands together and prayed, Gods and Buddhas above, bless the Eighteenth Niang.
Ms. Cao hurried back after selling her needles and threads. She was about to cook for Gu Shiba Niang, but she saw that the rice had been placed on the stove and the yard was clean and had obviously been cleaned.
"Mom, eat quickly. I'll deliver food to my brother." Gu Shiba said, holding up a small basket.
Cao couldn't help but burst into tears.
When her husband was alive, although the family situation was not good, there was still enough money to support their son to eat the cheapest meals in school, so they did not send meals. But since her husband died, the family situation has plummeted, and Gu Hai secretly starved in school to save money. When she found out, she cried and started to send meals.
She only sent her twice. Firstly, Gu Hai would come back before noon every day and help her with her work at home. Secondly, she was really overwhelmed and didn't feel comfortable letting her daughter go. She naturally knew that this would ruin her son's homework. ,But…..
As a mother, she felt really guilty.
Now, her son asked her to bring him meals, which meant he had started to study normally again and was focused again, and her daughter also took the initiative to take care of her brother, so she felt relieved.
"Mom, don't worry. I'm fine. I can do anything at home." Gu Shiba Niang looked up at her mother's face, which was getting older due to overwork and melancholy, and felt the same sadness.
"Okay." Ms. Cao nodded and gave her daughter a loving smile, "Be careful on the road."
She did not express concern about her daughter's health. As her daughter was so considerate to her, she also had to be considerate of her daughter's need to worry about her mother.
Gu Shiba Niang nodded, carrying the basket, and picked up the woodcutter, "Mom, I'll be waiting for my brother after school and chop wood with him. Don't worry."
Mrs. Cao also thought about her injury, and looked a little hesitant, but looking at her daughter's firm eyes, she nodded, "Okay, you... be careful, you are weak, just pick up firewood..."
Gu Shiba Niang responded with a smile and stepped out.
"Hey, Madam Gu..." Aunt Liu wandered over and greeted Mrs. Cao standing at the door with a smile, "What do you think about that matter?"
There was some hesitation on Ms. Cao's face. She hesitated for a moment and then said: "Madam, please bother me... I won't buy this house for the time being..."
"What?" Aunt Liu's smile froze on her face.
After hearing this, Gu Shiba Niang looked back slightly, a slight smile appeared on her lips, but it quickly disappeared. Now is not the time to smile.