"January 26th, XX, New Year's Eve. Firecrackers have sounded outside the ward. I am now in the intensive care ward of Beijing 301 Hospital. I didn't expect this diary to be written after more than two years. For many people, I have been missing for more than two years, but for me, I have only passed one day. It should be a day, or August 19th which belongs to me. I think I may never be able to Escape from these two days until death."
"After hesitating for a long time, I still decided to write down the experience in the mystery, and stay with the thing I got in the mystery. Many mysteries can only be solved in the future, but I guess I can't see it anymore. "
"After entering the maze that day, the button floated up, always pointing in one direction. This is a fascinating building, with twists and turns and houses in a mess. It is impossible to walk in a true straight line. Before moving forward, I have been thinking about it. One question is, if there is a house in front of me, should I just run into it or make a detour. If I make a detour, then I am not going straight ahead. In the words of the old man, I will get lost in this ghost place. But if If I hit it in a straight line, I think I should drive a tank instead of the current jeep."
"But, I obviously thought too much. Going in the direction of the button, I have been walking on the road without hitting any houses in the way. I have not turned a corner or bypassed the road, I have really been walking in a straight line! Among those roads that I thought were seven turns and eight bends, there was a straight road leading to the innermost hidden. But whether it was during construction or when observing with a binoculars outside, I had not found this road. If it were Without button guidance, I might never find this way. This place is really weird."
"It's still the same as last time, the more you move forward, the more pale, the ground, the building, everything seems to have been painted with a layer of white paint, so white. I start to feel tired, and my heartbeat is getting faster and faster. Breathing is getting faster and faster. I looked at the watch. The watch stopped again. But this time I have another reference. The fuel gauge in the car. But when I saw the fuel gauge, I found the fuel gauge. It didn't even move at all. It's been a long time since it's been opened, and I'm still driving forward, but the oil meter doesn't move at all! This place is really weird."
"I remembered what Qian said and didn't dare to stop. When I was sleepy and tired, I chewed the chili that I brought out, slapped myself, talked to myself, and finally slapped myself with a dagger to stay awake with pain. I feel like a lunatic. This complex of buildings that I personally presided over seems to have no end. I just drove down like this, it seems that I have been driving for many years, I have not eaten, and I don’t feel hungry. It’s special. I was very tired and wanted to stop and rest. In the end, I couldn’t hold it anymore. Since the car can keep going in a straight line, it shouldn’t matter if I lie down on the car and sleep. The belt was tied to the steering wheel to ensure that the car could keep moving forward in a straight line, and fell asleep on the steering wheel."
"I don't know how long I slept. But when I woke up, I found that the car was still moving. However, there was no color except white. The roads and buildings were as thin as paintings on paper. If not, If you look closely, you may not be able to find it at all. I noticed that my car and everything on the car were white, including my clothes and me. Before I set off, I took a small mirror and took it out to take a photo. I found mine The face is also white, and the facial features become a little fuzzy. I suddenly thought of a problem. Pan Haisheng and Xiao Wu will have an accident. It may not be their cause, but my cause. I entered the puzzle, and then came out to go back and forth between these two. When it was heaven, I brought something out at the same time. So in the end Pan Haisheng would ask me how many times I have experienced this incident. Obviously he has no such repeated memory, but he knows that this kind of thing will happen. If I go back again, I will commit suicide, and I won’t hurt anyone."
"Going forward in white, I'm completely numb. I don't look at the direction, but just keep looking in the mirror. My face is getting paler and lighter. It seems that it will disappear completely before long. I'm particularly scared. If my face disappears Does it mean that I will become something else like Pan Haisheng and Xiao Wu? I don’t want my face to disappear. My mental state must be very abnormal at the time, and I wanted to cut my face with a dagger. Come down, thinking that as long as I cut off my face, I won’t disappear."
"The dagger pierced into the face. It didn't hurt at all. On the contrary, there was a very strange sense of refreshment. I cut into the mirror little by little, and peeled off the entire face. No blood came out, and the face was peeled off. After that, it was not muscles and veins and blue veins that were exposed, but a mass of black paint, just like the kind of monster Pan Haisheng turned into after being headshot. Sure enough, I became that kind of monster. But I am still. He has his own mind and his own judgment. It is right to cut off the face. The face that was cut off is thinner than paper, and the facial features are no longer visible. It belongs to the position of the eyes and mouth, and there are only three black holes. ."
"This is my face and the last support of my sanity. Don't lose it. I found two ropes to string together the sides of my face to make a simple mask, and then hide it next to my skin. The monster that came came out and crawled around in the car. There were many small white worms that kept falling down like maggots. I could see this scene, and my sanity was still sober."
"Little white worms and monsters quickly filled the entire car. The car slowed down as it drove. No matter how much fuel was added, it slowed down and finally stopped completely."
"I got out of the car. There is nothing in front of me, only an endless whiteness. I can't tell the difference between up, down, left, and right, south, east, and northwest. The only thing that guides me is the button. It is still floating forward, telling I am not in the wrong direction."
"But I'm a monster now, even if I see a little girl, can she recognize me? When I see her, can my sanity still stay awake? I am in the past, after all I want to help her, Will she still kill her? Just like Pan Haisheng did to my comrades in arms, killing everyone mercilessly. He said at the time that it has nothing to do with me personally, and it has nothing to do with our world. At that time, I I don’t understand, now I think I understand. This monster, this monster lurking in my body, targets the little girl. It only has something to do with that little girl and doesn’t care about us people.” (End of this chapter)