"I don't want to go any further.
Going on like this, when I see the little girl, I don't know if I will save her or kill her.
I picked up the gun and shot myself in the head.
That is no longer my head, but a nest of monsters.
As the bullet passed through my head, I heard an angry cry.
I found myself flying out of my body, floating in mid-air, looking down at my body condescendingly.
It can no longer be called a body, but a monster, a monster with sharp teeth and eyes, which is a thousand times more disgusting than the ugliest thing I have ever seen in my life.
The monster waved its tentacles, and all eyes looked at me.
My layer of human skin could no longer cover it. It was torn apart and fell to the pale ground, turning into black mud-like stains.
I said to the monster, I can't fight you, but I can absolutely determine my own life, and I will never let you use my body to hurt the little girl, so let's end it now.
The monster made a hoarse voice with a lot of noise in it. He was scolding me, what a stupid low-level creature, a hateful time crawler, and said that I didn't understand what kind of existence he was. He represented time and space. The true will, and the little reptile jumping around, is the betrayer and the guide of the invading forces.
I didn't understand what he was saying, but I could feel the anger and unwillingness in his tone.
He is angry, that's right.
The chairman said that the enemy scolded me, and the harsher the scolding, the better. The harder the enemy scolds, it means that we are hitting their vitals. So they are furious. This is a good thing.
Now this monster is furious.
The monster's waving tentacles wanted to catch me, but the tentacles passed through my body and couldn't touch me at all.
I found that my body had become translucent now, and changed back to my original appearance. Wearing a green military uniform and a hat, it became the only bright color in this pale white world.
I laughed at the monster heartily in the air, calling him ugly and pitiful.
The monster was so angry that it changed into various shapes, and then came to grab me, but it passed through my body every time.
The monster became even more angry and scolded me even harder.
It seems that I chose to commit suicide, and the harm I did to him was really extraordinary. Otherwise, as he showed when he was on Pan Haisheng, I wouldn't have said so many useless things to me.
Only when there is no alternative, will he choose to abuse.
The monster changed its shape how many times, until one time, he turned into a weird tree full of tentacles, and his tentacles stretched out and immediately entangled me.
The monster laughed triumphantly, saying that I am still a member of the infinite time and space after all, and see where I run.
Only then did I understand that the monster was changing back and forth, and it turned out to be looking for a form that could catch me.
This is really a terrible monster, can he damage all enemies? Just keep changing the shape.
But I am not afraid at all.
The chairman has said that people are inherently dead, or heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather. I now dare not say that I die more heavily than Mount Tai, but it is always worthwhile.
The monster pulled me closer, all the tentacles drilled into my body, it looked like he still wanted to borrow my body to harm the little girl.
But now I don't even have the strength to commit suicide.
But my body is transparent now, even if he gets in, he can see clearly.
The monster seemed to know what I was thinking. He laughed at me and said, as long as I can't jump out of infinite time and space, my body is his best cover. As long as I get in, the little girl can't find him.
He also said that the little girl has been wandering in time and space for too long, and the way he sees creatures is different from mine. As long as he can get into my body, he will be able to get close to the damn path guide, completely wipe her out and eradicate her. The possibility of invasion by foreign invaders.
The monsters squeezed into a mass and all got into my body. I could clearly see that my body was a dark mass, constantly changing and squirming. It was really evil.
But I could still control my own body, so I sat down and stopped walking.
The monster angrily said that if I don’t find the little girl, I will be stuck here forever and never get liberated. If I am willing to cooperate with him, he can give me a chance to liberate again, and he can arrange for me to choose whatever I want. The life I live, whatever the glory and wealth, all the beauty of money in the world, all the best things, I can get as long as I want.
I told him that I like all of these and I want to enjoy them, but if I really value these, I won't hold my head and follow the chairman's birth and death to build this brand new country. He doesn't understand people like us at all.
The monster again made me think about my family, about the unfinished business, and about these regrets.
I told him that although I regretted, I never regretted my choice.
The monster kept pounding me in various ways, but I refused.
In the end, the monster said that if I didn’t cooperate with him, he would return to the time and space where I was, and wipe out the entire mankind, and destroy the entire world. In this case, everything that the little girl did would have no meaning, and she would have to After starting again, he still has a chance to destroy her.
I think this monster is not telling lies, he should have this ability.
But so what, I just need to do what I can do.
The monster was really angry. He crawled out of my body again and turned his tentacles into sharp blades. He said that if you tear me up, a little bit, but not let me die, let me stay forever. Here I feel the greatest pain all the time, and I regret doing it right with him.
At this moment, the little girl suddenly appeared behind the monster, as if she had been standing there all the time.
She was still wearing that very western skirt, and the colors on her body were particularly bright, illuminating the whole world.
She frowned, looked at the monster, drew a very long sword, and cut the monster in half with one sword.
Only then did the monster realize the existence of the little girl, and waved its tentacles to catch the little girl.
But the little girl took the sword and smashed the monster easily.
The monster finally told the little girl unwillingly that she would not succeed because it represented the will of this time and space, and no one could interfere.
The little girl said that there is nothing that cannot be interfered with. If he is really the will of this time and space, then she only needs to solve the reason why this time and space produced his will.
The monster said it was impossible. She would definitely fail. Just like the pathfinder sent by the invader before, she would die here. He had countless chances to come back, but she couldn’t. When she died, she would die. NS.
The little girl shook her head and said that the monster didn't understand what he was facing, and didn't know anything about real power.
Then the little girl raised her hand and shot out a light, not to hurt the monster, but as if to show something to the monster. There were so many strange symbols in the light, which kept flowing down like a waterfall.
After the monster looked at it, little by little, it turned into the same symbol as in the light, and finally all disappeared.
The little girl won.
I was happy from the bottom of my heart, but the little girl was not at all happy. She frowned and looked at me for a long time, as if she was making a decision.
I think it might be because the monster had come into contact with it, or it might be because I kept repeating those two days, which caused her trouble.
I told her if there is any embarrassment, then kill me, I have no opinion.
Anyway, I'm already dead, and it's uncomfortable to be immortal in the way I am now.
But the little girl said she could not kill me because I did her a great favor, otherwise she would be tricked by this monster. Although this monster is not her opponent, if it does too much damage to her, she will have to Temporarily suspend her investigation, but in that case, some things will become uncontrollable.
She told me that this is the starting point and the end of everything. As an ordinary human being, getting involved in it is not good for me, but in order to repay my help to her, she can send me back and promise My descendants and I have been wealthy for at least 30 years, not at most 30 years. After that, we can only look at my own destiny and my descendants. She cannot interfere indefinitely for too long.
I said she looked down on me too much, and again, if I wanted to enjoy my fortune, I wouldn't be born to death with my family and my head.
Those of us who value most have never been these, but more ambitious ideals.
The little girl said that she understands our ideals, but she disapproves her expression very much, probably because our ideals are very small in the eyes of people like her. But this ideal is great enough for us.
The little girl thought for a long time, and finally said that she would still send me back, but I have to be tight-lipped about what happened here, and I can’t disclose it to anyone for at least 30 years. If I disclose it, it will lead to some unpredictable things. happen. She also talked about my notebook and said that she would leave it to me. I can write down these things, but I can’t show it to anyone for 30 years. She also warned me that when I go back, I can’t bring anything here. .
Of course I didn't bring anything.
The little girl gave me a push, and I started flying back.
No, it's not flying back, but I'm going backwards.
I stepped back into my body, back into the car, and started driving the car back.
But this only stopped when I started to skin myself.
I seemed to hear the noise of the monster's hiss, which seemed a little proud and a little angry.
The sound came from my body.
Then the pale world before him began to shatter.
I lost all consciousness.
When I woke up, I was already lying in the ill in the 301 Hospital.
They said that I have been in a coma for more than two years.
I asked them what happened.
They said that there was an accident on the May 11th Project and a collapse that did not understand the reason. My comrades and I were buried under the rubble. When it was dug out, only I was still alive and everyone else had died.
This is completely different from what I experienced.
But everyone said so, and they showed me pictures of the scene.
Many people came to see me, and leaders at all levels also came. The chairman also sent his secretary to see me. It also gave me peace of mind to heal my wounds and continue to work when I was ready. The boss also came, and I wanted to ask him if he remembered what happened before, but I didn't dare to ask. If you ask this question, I have to talk about those things. The little girl warned me very solemnly that I can't talk about these things.
Old Qian also came here in person, but he sat on the edge of my hospital bed, just looked at me, did not speak, and finally sighed and said that this was fine.
I asked him what was good.
Mr. Qian told me that the May 11th Project cannot collapse. Unless someone makes it collapse, then the people who die there are destined to die. Since I am not dead, something that outsiders don’t know must have happened. . He warned me that if I still remember these things, then don't tell them, don't tell anyone, just put the secrets in my stomach and take them to the grave.
Old Qian must know something.
I asked him if Kirovsky’s prototype was obsessed with the success of other countries
Qian Lao asked me who told me this name.
I said he told me.
Old Qian laughed, didn't tell me anything else, patted my hand and left.
I think this matter has come to an end here.
After writing this diary, I will hide this diary so that no one will read it.
No, not just this notebook, there is another thing.
My face!
When I was awake, I found that my face, which was peeled off and made into a mask, was sandwiched in a diary and pressed under the pillow.
I think it was given to me by the little girl, otherwise it is impossible for no one to discover it.
I don't know why she returned this face to me, but since it was given to me, it has her intentions.
However, I didn't have the courage to put this face back on my face again.
I already have a face again, so let's hide this one with my diary.
The May 11 Project, for me, is over.
Goodbye, little girl.
Goodbye, May 11 Project.
Goodbye, Kirovsky's prototype puzzle.
I will probably never touch these things again.
However, I am always unwilling. If possible, I still want to learn more. "
Logically speaking, the diary should end here.
However, when Zhou Yang turned over this page, he found that there were still some content in succession afterwards, but the span of these content was larger, and it was only memorized once in a few years or even more than ten years.
And this long time interval record shows the change of Xie Zhengkun's mental journey.
Although he bid farewell in the diary, Xie Zhengkun couldn't forget those things together, which also made him have a strong interest in mysterious powers throughout his career for decades. (End of this chapter)