- "Manman, I can't accept it."
Zhang Man was speechless, but raised his head and eagerly kissed the stubble that had just grown on his chin.
She reached out and pressed her chest.
Looking at him like this, her chest was so sore that she almost suffocated.
The boy calmed down a little and continued, "They came to me just now."
"Before you came, the two of them, appeared at the same time, stood in front of me, and kept talking to me in my ear."
What he didn't say was that he had just lost his mind for a short time, and he himself didn't know what he was doing.
When he came back to his senses, she was already by his side.
As he spoke, he closed his eyes, as if he had suddenly given up his struggle.
"Manman, what they said is true, I am really, a lunatic."
"For so many years, I have delusional two people who don't exist at all."
He lowered his head and buried it in her neck, desperate and painful, his voice almost inaudible.
"Do you still want me, Manman?"
He is a madman, even his own grandfather was afraid of him and abandoned him.
Even he hates himself.
Will she still want him
Will she be afraid? Will... leave him
"If you want to leave me..."
Then I'll let go and let you go.
He couldn't say the second half of the sentence, because if he said it, maybe his heart would burst because of the pain - she was his only one.
If she left him, would he still be alive
Listening to the boy's words, Zhang Man eagerly covered his mouth.
"I won't leave you, Li Wei, do you remember what I said to you on the playground? I said, I will always be with you and never leave you. Don't worry, You're just sick, like a cold and a fever, and you'll be fine."
She looked at him silent, afraid that he would not believe it, and eagerly stretched out her hand: "touch my arm, when I listened to you, I didn't get goosebumps at all. Really, I'm not afraid at all."
"Actually, the day I came to your house, I found out about your illness on the day Nick was 'in'. I was calmly 'greeting' with him at that time. I really wasn't afraid at all."
Li Wei was shocked.
So much happened today that he subconsciously ignored it.
So, she has always known about his illness? She knew all this, but she still chose to be with him
Even if she knew this, she still hugged him so tenderly and kissed him back sweetly
He looked up at her eagerly, the girl's face still had clearly visible tears, and her red eyes looked at him stubbornly, as if to see him believe it.
Such a familiar stubbornness reminded him suddenly that in order to convince herself that she was really ill, she stretched out her hand to show him the eye of a needle in her hand.
His Manman treated him the same from beginning to end.
Even if the whole world abandoned him, she still wanted to be with him - she didn't abandon him like everyone else.
The boundless severe pain and panic in the young man's heart gradually dissipated, and he suddenly began to feel fortunate—he was fortunate to hold her in his arms despite all kinds of misfortunes.
He hugged her tightly and gently rubbed her heart with his chin.
"Manman, go to sleep, you must be tired today."
"I don't, do you not believe me?"
Zhang Man stubbornly raised her head to look at him, she was very tired and sleepy, but she couldn't sleep at all until she got an answer.
"Well, I believe it."
This time, he thought, he had to be selfish. He gave her a chance, since she said not to leave, then he will not let go.
The boy patted the girl in his arms on the back, trying his best to restrain the surging emotions in his heart.
When Zhang Man got his answer, he breathed a sigh of relief.
As long as he can let her accompany him, no matter how difficult it is, she will accompany him to overcome it.
Worrying about it all night and running in the snowstorm for so long, her mental torture and physical weakness made her head groggy at the moment.
She wanted to open her eyes to look at him, but she couldn't restrain herself and fell asleep.
…
Outside the window, the snowstorm that had roared all night quietly stopped at this time, and the city fell into a peaceful sleep after the heavy snow.
In the room, the bedside lamp was turned to the lowest brightness, and the yellowish light shone on the faces of the two of them, quiet and warm.
The air conditioner entered a quiet sleep state at this time, working silently.
The tranquility of the night has come.
Zhang Man's breathing became more and more steady, but the boy beside her didn't dare to fall asleep at all - he still had lingering fears, he was afraid that after he fell asleep, the real warm body in his arms would become his delusion again.
At this moment, he suddenly heard very light footsteps.
"Da da da… "
On such a quiet night, it was eerily eerie.
The boy opened his eyes abruptly and found that Nick was standing at the head of the bed.
He suddenly had a face.
He smiled wickedly and looked at him defiantly—his hands, folded in a dangerous position, rested on the neck of the girl in his arms.
He wants to hurt her.
The boy felt the blood all over his body ignited, and the nerves in his forehead kept beating. Before the violence in his heart reached its peak, he grabbed Nick's wrist, pinched him hard, and pulled him out fiercely.
He doesn't allow anyone to hurt her.
He was extremely powerful and merciless, so in the next second, he unexpectedly heard the other party's exclamation.
But that voice wasn't Nick's.
He suddenly woke up, only to realize that what he had just pinched turned out to be Zhang Man's wrist.
Like being electrocuted, he immediately let go.
"What’s wrong with you?"
Zhang Man rubbed her sleepy eyes. She had just fallen asleep for a while when she suddenly felt a pain in her wrist and woke up with an exclamation.
The teenager gritted his teeth, trying his best to control his voice not to tremble.
"Nothing, I... just had a nightmare."
Zhang Man's heart sank.
This incident hit him too hard.
She pressed her temples, trying to force herself to wake up.
"Li Wei, go to sleep first, okay? I'll sleep after you fall asleep. Don't worry, I'll always be by your side, and I won't leave. Don't think too much, the sun will rise tomorrow. , everything will be fine."
"… Um."
The boy said, closed his eyes, and seemed to listen to her.
Zhang Man opened his eyes and gently stroked his shoulder, coaxing him to sleep. She forced herself to lie down for a while, listening to his longer and longer breathing, and then heaved a sigh of relief.
The young man's profile was calm and delicate in the faint light, his brows stretched, and his long eyelashes quietly cast two shadows on his cheeks.
He fell asleep as if he had not experienced any misfortune and pain.
It's good to fall asleep, as long as he doesn't think about it, everything will be fine.
Zhang Man leaned over and gently kissed the corner of his lips.
She felt the warmth and softness of his lips and couldn't help kissing again.
Then he leaned into his ear and said very lightly, "Boyfriend, you must get well, I will always be by your side by your side."
- She has to accompany him until she grows old.
After she finished speaking, she couldn't hold back her sleepiness and tiredness, she turned over and fell into a deep sleep.
At this moment, the boy who seemed to have fallen asleep suddenly opened his eyes that had been tightly closed behind the girl, and he started shaking uncontrollably.
- When he just recovered, he found that one of his hands was tightly holding her wrist, while the other hand was placed on her slender, fragile neck.
It turned out that it was not Nick who was going to pinch her, but himself.
The boy's heart was filled with a wave of fear that made him horrified.
The pajamas behind him were completely soaked in cold sweat, and the cold touch brought by the evaporation of sweat made him shudder violently.
He suddenly thought of that day when his father hung him on the drying pole on the balcony, and he was so delirious. He smiled and said to him, "If you get wet and don't dry it, you will catch a cold, you will get sick and die..."
Then, he was hung on the balcony with a rope around his neck, and he was left to struggle desperately and painfully, and never bothered again.
—If he hadn't been discovered by his neighbors, he would have died long ago.
The feeling of suffocation came violently, and the knot of fate tightly restrained his throat again at this time. Yes, how could he forget, he and his father are the same.
They are just as crazy and just as dangerous.
Therefore, it is very likely that one day in the future, the person who is struggling and on the verge of suffocation will likely become her.
The teenager stretched out his hand to cover his mouth and curled up in pain. In such a quiet night, he gasped silently, his fingernails had already been pinched into the palm of his hand. An indescribable burning sensation suddenly developed in his stomach, so uncomfortable that he almost vomited.
He looked desperately at the sleeping girl in front of him.
She has a slender back, and her long silky hair spreads all over the pillow. She slept on her side, with her back to him, giving him her entire back with great confidence.
She was not wary of him at all.
The teenager raised his hand tremblingly and placed it under the bedside lamp.
Through the yellowish light, he looked at his hand carefully—the hand of a slender, strong, skeletal man, capable of doing many things it wanted to do, such as cutting off the one in front of him, slender and slender. Soft neck.
His upper and lower teeth kept shaking, and he suddenly felt cold.
A penetrating cold.
He wanted to reach out and hug the source of warmth in front of him, but the moment he touched her soft hair, he withdrew his hand.
How dare you, touch her again
You just wanted to let her stay with you for the rest of your life? How can you bear it? Let her be beside a lunatic every day, frightened, and even face all kinds of deadly dangers.
The boy closed his eyes, curled his index finger, and bit his knuckles with his mouth open. The sharp teeth easily bit through the skin, and blood gushed out, salty and bitter.
Only in this way can he slightly divert the pain in his heart, the pain that made him dying.
He knew that it was all over.
Let her go, you let her go, she is a girl who is even more beautiful than an angel.
How are you, bear it
She accidentally ripped open a hole in his world from the outside, and then got in with a hot spark, so caught off guard. But he knew that maybe he wouldn't be able to get out in his whole life, so he couldn't keep her inside so selfishly and accompany him into the boundless darkness.
He was so fortunate to be able to suddenly meet this lost girl one day and fall in love with her. She stumbled into his darkness, and now he had to send her out with his own hands.
At this moment, the young man was helpless, trembling, and his eyes were red.