The two walked back from the beach. Zhang Man originally wanted to stay at Li Wei's house for one night and go to school with him for the final exam tomorrow, but Zhang Huifang kept calling to urge her, so she had to say goodbye to him.
Still a little worried, she accompanied him to the store to buy a new mobile phone, and put the calling card on it: "Boyfriend, you want to text me at night."
The boy nodded obediently, with a smile on his lips: "Well, Manman, I'll take you home."
When she got downstairs to her house, Zhang Man just wanted to go upstairs, but heard the boy calling her behind her.
"Manman."
His voice was hoarse, and he couldn't hear much emotion.
Zhang Man turned his head: "What's the matter? Can't bear me?"
The boy was silent for a long time, but in the end he didn't speak.
He smiled and waved at her, and the strong emotion in his eyes seemed to have a different temperature in such winter.
Zhang Man's heart was hot, she walked over and kissed him lightly on the cheek, her eyes were bright: "Well, then I'm going upstairs, don't think about it when you are at home, just call me if you have anything, okay? ?"
"Well, go up."
Maybe it was the sea breeze that had been blowing all afternoon, and the boy's voice was a bit thick and nasal.
His smile was so warm that Zhang Man's heart felt slightly at ease.
Things are always going in the right direction, aren't they
The warm sun, which is slightly hot in winter, is quietly melting the thick snow. The sturdy ice ridges on the eaves kept dripping down.
"Tick, tick, tick."
The water drops on the light gray concrete floor, encircling a thick color.
Everything was eerily quiet.
A lot of times, people don't feel it when they are in a calm state, and then there may be a storm.
The two kept in touch that night. Zhang Man sent a text message to Li Wei every few minutes, and he replied in a proper manner. Although he didn't talk much, Zhang Man could feel that he was much calmer than before.
Li Wei even sent her a paper for the physics exam. Zhang Man looked at the densely packed questions and felt a little warm in his heart.
At this time, he can still think about what he said before to help her.
He seemed stronger than she imagined.
…
On Monday, Zhang Man arrived at school early.
The final exam was very tight, with two and a half hours of Chinese in the morning and mathematics in the afternoon. The next day's exam is divided into liberal arts and sciences, liberal arts students are politics, history, geography, science students are science, chemistry, and students.
There are different exam rooms for each grade, in the empty teaching building on the other side of the school.
Zhang Man went to the classroom first, and there were not many people in the classroom.
Li Wei was not there either.
He usually arrives earlier than Zhang Man. As long as she walks into the classroom in the morning, she can see him sitting quietly and reading a book.
But today he is not there.
Looking at his empty desk, Zhang Man suddenly had a bad feeling in her heart. She asked the boy who was sleeping on his stomach at the front desk: "Jin Ming, have you seen Li Wei?"
Jin Ming just lay down to sleep, when he was pulled up, he rubbed his sleepy eyes without being irritable: "Well, I just saw him coming. He took a document bag and went out. Should he go directly to the examination room?"
Today is the final exam. There is no early reading class. Many students will go directly to the exam room to review.
Zhang Man breathed a sigh of relief.
She pressed her temples and shook her head helplessly.
Or she was too sensitive. He still had the mind to give her a question paper last night, so he should be in a much better mood.
As long as it was related to him, her nerves began to tighten.
At this time, Chen Feier called her at the back door of their class: "Manman, what are your ink marks? Go to the examination room. There are still more than 20 minutes. It will take a while to walk from here."
Zhang Man nodded, packed his stationery bag, and went to the exam room with her.
In order to prevent cheating, schools are classified according to liberal arts and sciences and randomly ranked for such large-scale exams. She and Li Wei were not in the same exam room, but happened to be in the same exam room as Chen Feier.
Before Zhang Man entered the examination room, he deliberately turned to the examination room where Li Wei was, and looked in from the window.
She saw him right away.
The teenager didn't flip through the book as nervously as the others. He lay quietly on his seat, as if he was making up for sleep.
Zhang Man didn't disturb him, he breathed a sigh of relief, and scolded himself for being nervous, and then dragged Chen Feier through the long corridor, upstairs, and went to their own examination room.
As Chen Fei'er walked, she pouted and muttered dissatisfiedly: "I said why did you walk from the second floor, it turned out to be to see your dear boyfriend. How is it, does the back of his head look good?"
Zhang Man was amused.
She thought of the girl's resentful expression when she told Chen Feier that she was with Li Wei that day.
It hasn't changed until now.
Chen Feier saw that the grudge strategy didn't work, so she changed it to coquettish, holding her arm and swaying back and forth: "I don't care, if this goes on, I think you will abandon me. Manman, you are not allowed to focus on sex over friends!"
Zhang Man looked at her, feeling much better, smiled and rubbed her head: "Well, I promise you."
Chen Fei'er became happy.
"Well, then when you two get married, I will be your bridesmaid."
Zhang Man suddenly thought of his past life.
When Chen Feier got married, she was her only bridesmaid.
She still remembered that Chen Feier was wearing a delicate crown and a gorgeous floor-length wedding dress. She stood on the stage and threw the bouquet in her direction while crying: "No one is allowed to rob her, Zhang Man, you must be happy!"
Zhang Man's heart is warm, maybe she will really get married earlier than her in this life.
…
The last subject of the two-day exam is physics.
Due to an extra page of additional questions, the test time has been extended from two hours to three hours. Of course, students who do not do additional questions can submit their papers in advance.
Zhang Man glanced at the title and was a little surprised—it was really close to the question paper Li Wei sent her two days ago.
She finished it smoothly, handed in the papers half an hour in advance, and walked briskly to the classroom.
There are no lunch breaks and evening self-study in the two days of the exam. Whether it is after lunch at noon or after the exam in the afternoon, it is all free time. Li Wei seemed to go straight home after each test, and when he waited for the next test, he came directly to the test room and never went back to the classroom at all.
So during the two-day exam, she hardly had any time with Li Wei—although before each exam, she could see him in his exam room and said a few words, but it was just a few minutes in a hurry.
Thinking of this, Zhang Man accelerated his pace and turned into the first-year teaching building.
Today is the winter vacation after the exam. Li Wei will definitely go back to the classroom to pack up. She plans to go to his house to have dinner with him at night.
There were already quite a few students in the corridor at this time, probably all of them who didn't do the additional questions and handed in the papers ahead of time.
Several boys walked in front of Zhang Man, shoulder to shoulder, discussing the paper just now.
"The question this time was given by the head teacher of the first class. It's too difficult, isn't it? Don't mention the additional questions. I only have two questions in front of me. How about you?"
"Isn't it? It's the question from Liu Zhijun's paralyzed face. I said why it's so difficult... I'm done."
"If you are unlucky again, will I be unlucky? I really did it today. Wasn't Li Wei the one sitting in front of me in the examination room. I heard that he got full marks in physics every time. I was thinking of taking a sneak peek. Missed the exam."
- "Classmate, did you just say that Li Wei is out of the exam?"
As soon as the boy finished speaking, he heard anxious voices behind him. He looked back impatiently, only to realize at this moment that it was their school flower classmate, who suddenly became enthusiastic.
"Well, he missed the exam."
"How is that possible? I saw him sitting in the exam room before I took the physics exam."
"This... I don't know. He came to sit for a few minutes. Before the test, he said something to the invigilator and left. Oh, I think he handed the invigilator a leave of absence."
Fake article? He didn't tell her.
She ran back to the classroom immediately, pulled out the phone in her schoolbag, turned it on, and called Li Wei immediately.
"Hello, the number you dialed has been switched off, please try again later."
Just like last time, the cold mechanical female voice.
A boundless panic suddenly rose in Zhang Man's heart, and this feeling was even more serious than last time.
Her eyelids began to twitch wildly, and the sensitivity that had been restrained for two days erupted at the same time.
Where did he go
At this moment, the mobile phone beeps the message "DiDi".
It is an email reminder for your mobile phone email.
She opened her inbox and found an email with no header.
Zhang Man's heart beat wildly when he saw the sender's email address.
It's Li Wei.
She shook her hands and opened the email.
Since they knew each other, she had seen him type the most words, a page full.
"Manman, the school and I applied for a leave of absence and went to another city for medical treatment. Maybe we won't come back. Let's... break up."
"If you want to refute, will you listen to my three reasons first? First, I've been thinking about it for a long time these two days. For me, the most important thing is to cure my schizophrenia and other things. , including physics, including you, I don't have the energy to take care of it"
"Second. Manman... I know you may not be able to accept what I say to you now, but... Do you remember the beach I took you to the day before yesterday? That beach, I used to go to that beach a lot when I was alone. Actually Alone, sometimes it's good, I can think calmly in my own world."
"Actually, I never said it. I admit that I liked you madly for a while, but when you were there, it hindered my calmness. When a person is immersed in love, it is easy to be carried away. Mind, deviating from its original track, I think after I was with you, I did a lot of things that I would not have done before, this kind of change is not suitable for me."
"Forgive me, forgive me for wanting to go back to square one."
"Thirdly, people like me are actually more suitable for living alone. Manman, do you know about my father? When I was still in the hospital, my father committed suicide at home... For him, Because of the harm his mental illness caused me, he couldn't accept it, so he chose to commit suicide. Manman, I don't want to repeat his mistakes. In other words, I may not like you as much as I thought. "
"I don't want to take such a big risk for you"
"Manman, maybe in your heart, I'm very special, it's not because of me, but the first love is very special to everyone. You are still young, you haven't experienced so many stages in life, you don't I know, the current liking is not enough to support us throughout our lives. In the future... you will meet people who are a hundred times better than me."
From the beginning to the end, he didn't say anything for fear of dragging her down or hurting her. Every reason he made was himself, and everything showed a chilling politeness, coolness, calmness and selfishness— Any 16- or 17-year-old girl will be so disgusted that she can't eat or sleep, thinking that her feelings have been let down, and then gradually forget it in pain and anger.
— just like in her previous life.
Zhang Man trembled after reading this sentence, unable to restrain the discomfort and panic in his heart.
They're all farting... What's the reason, huh, there's no logic in each one, where does it seem like he can say something
His tone seemed so calm, so well-founded, as if it had been well-thought-out, but some sentences weren't very smooth, and he even forgot to add the punctuation marks he usually obeyed.
- He was just playing her as a sixteen or seventeen-year-old boy.
No wonder, no wonder he suddenly took her to such an expensive restaurant yesterday and took her to the beach. It turned out that he was saying goodbye to her.
He had already made up his mind to leave her.
She knew him so well.
The calmer he is and the more distant he wants to draw a line from you, the more his heart collapses.
This young man who has suffered through hardships and misfortune, he doesn't want to impose those hurt and despair on her, even if he leaves, he wants to leave disgustingly.