The next afternoon was the last physics exam.
After all, it is an experimental class, and most of the students chose to do additional physics questions. Therefore, Zhang Man, who handed in the papers half an hour earlier, was still a group of people who returned to the classroom earlier.
After her, one after another, students entered the classroom after handing in their papers.
Everyone's faces were filled with joy and excitement, and some students even tore up the test papers they had just taken out of the examination room and threw them into the trash.
Everyone is excitedly discussing the next winter vacation.
"Finally liberated! The winter vacation has begun, great! I'm going home to fight the red police."
"Would you like to go to KTV at night? I won't go home if I don't play until midnight today!"
"It's still midnight, Liu Chang, aren't you afraid your dad will hit you?"
"What's the matter, I'm on vacation, what can he do to me?"
After all, high school students have been suppressed for too long. For them, vacation is the most worthy of celebration.
All the students around were revelling, but for Zhang Man, it was complete panic and helplessness.
She read the email carefully from beginning to end, and suddenly had a feeling that this time, she might really lose him, just like in her previous life.
The nerves on his temples began to beat violently, and Zhang Man was lying on the seat, shaking uncontrollably.
The mind is extremely confused.
He used to be in the dimly lit playground, asking her if she liked him.
But now, he said calmly in the email, Manman, let's break up.
He said he was going to another city, alone, and didn't know when he would be back.
He said so, he said he was leaving her.
Can she still find him
She suddenly remembered the previous life, the whole semester when he disappeared after his depression broke out.
As in his previous life, he disappeared once again after learning of his mental illness.
He was so well disguised, so flawless, that he pretended to be trying to overcome the blow.
He not only deceived her, but also deceived the doctor.
Zhang Man squeezed the phone tightly, her heart seemed to be missing a beat at a certain moment, and her irregular heart palpitations made her almost breathless.
She suddenly remembered a lot of details. That day, when he looked at the sea, his eyes were briefly confused and empty; he was in the hospital, deliberately pretending to be calm and natural; and he sent her downstairs and called her reluctantly. .
By now, she is almost certain that Li Wei's depression has completely broken out, just like in her previous life.
Even if he didn't think the world was fake as he did in his previous life. However, all of this hit him too hard after all.
He began to not understand the meaning of his life, and he began to paranoid that as long as he was by her side, he would hurt her.
So this young man chose to leave her.
That's not the case. The doctors have said that he has no signs of dementia at all, not to mention that although his delusional symptoms are serious, there is no sign of harming anyone.
He is just extreme self-denial after the collapse.
Although he disappeared for a semester in the previous life, he finally suppressed severe depression and came back to continue his studies, but in this life, many things have changed, and his outbreak has been advanced, who knows if the ending will change.
It's too dangerous to leave him alone.
Zhang Man's heart was extremely painful.
In her mind suddenly flashed past life, the picture taken by reporters after his suicide on Weibo.
So much blood, large patches of dazzling red, dyed the entire bathtub red.
He lay in the blood, a cold corpse.
This picture used to be her nightmare that tortured her every night for a long time. She thought that in this life, she was with him, and he was worried, so it was impossible for him to commit suicide.
But now she was suddenly not sure.
If... If I lose him again...
The panic and despair in his heart continued to spread, Zhang Man stood up from his seat, packed his things hastily, and ran out of the classroom.
The physics exam started at two o'clock, and it is now four forty-five. It has only been more than two hours since he left school. She handed in the papers half an hour in advance, so could it be that he was still packing his things at home and had not had time to leave
Zhang Man quickly ran to the school gate, stood at the intersection and stretched out his hand to take a taxi.
It was the rush hour, and at the intersection with the green light on, a car sped past, among which there were many taxis with red lights on, and she ignored her beckoning at all.
There are no empty cars in N city at this time.
Time passed minute by minute, Zhang Man looked at the time anxiously, it was five o'clock...
It's five past five.
Sometimes a crash really just needs a fuse.
Zhang Man crouched down and cried uncontrollably. The panic and heartache that were about to suffocate reached their peak at this moment.
Obviously everything is going well, and it is developing in a good direction; obviously she thought that as long as she was by his side, she would be able to accompany him through all difficulties.
Where will he go alone? He has lost everything, all the people he loves.
What would he do without her by his side
Could it be because of these few minutes that she will never find him again...
"Manman, what's wrong with you?"
At this moment, a car slowly stopped beside her. The back door of the car opened, and Chen Fei'er came out anxiously from inside - she saw her squatting on the side of the road in the car, and she almost burst into tears.
Chen Feier's heart was shocked.
Knowing Zhang Man for so many years, she has never seen her like this - crouched and squatted on the ground, her shoulders shaking helplessly, crying bitterly, so collapsed, so desperate.
In her eyes, Zhang Man has always been a very calm person. She doesn't have too many emotions about anything, and it's not easy to be laughed at or made to cry.
How could it be like this today - like a man who was about to drown, subconsciously calling out to the world for help.
"Did he bully you?"
Except for Li Wei, she really couldn't think of anyone who could make Manman become like this.
Chen Feier's father also got out of the car, came over, and asked Zhang Man with concern: "Manman, what's wrong?"
Zhang Man heard the voice, raised his head, grabbed Chen Feier's sleeve, and looked at her straight: "Fei'er, Uncle Chen, can you take me somewhere?"
The sadness and eagerness in her eyes shocked the hearts of the other two.
In the end what happened
"Okay, Manman, don't cry, tell uncle where you want to go?"
Zhang Man immediately reported the address of Li Wei's house.
When she got in the car and felt the speed of the car, her emotions calmed down a lot. She leaned on Chen Feier's shoulders tiredly, and controlled herself not to continue choking. Can't be calm.
Soon, the car arrived at the gate of Li Wei's residential area, Zhang Man hurriedly thanked the two of them, and ran upstairs.
She frantically rang the doorbell.
"Li Wei, are you at home? Open the door, okay?"
Her voice was hoarse, and she was already crying.
The doorbell was rang again, and the door was knocked again, but no one answered.
At this moment, the cold and hard door seemed like a silent rejection, telling her plainly that there would never be such a young man again who came to open the door for her with sleepy eyes. The moment he saw her, his eyes lit up. With infinite tenderness, she was welcomed in.
She has been completely rejected by him.
Seven or eight minutes later, Zhang Man squatted weakly at the door, patting the door in desperation, perhaps because there was too much movement, the door of the apartment next door opened.
The person who opened the door was an aunt in her 40s and 50s with chopsticks in her hand, probably having dinner.
She was disturbed by the non-stop clapping of the door and lost her appetite. Just as she was about to scold her, she felt a little soft-hearted when she saw the crying sad little girl at the door.
"Oh, little girl, why are you crying at night, it's heartbreaking and scary."
A burst of hope rose in Zhang Man's heart: "Auntie, have you seen the boys in this family today?"
Auntie recalled: "Oh, you said that young man, I saw it. I just went out to take out the garbage and saw him walking out with a suitcase?"
he has gone…
Zhang Man's brows twitched, and he asked eagerly, "What time is it?"
"Twenty minutes ago, with a very large box, I asked him if he wanted to move, and he said yes."
Auntie said, looking at Zhang Man's eyes flashed a trace of clarity.
Probably got into trouble with her boyfriend, and then the little boy left in a rage.
She shook her head and sighed inwardly.
Today's young people can really toss.
Zhang Man listened to her words and walked down in despair.
She didn't catch up.
He's gone, what to do, where should she go to find him? Will he wait until she finds him, he's already...
There was a fine cold sweat on her forehead, and her legs were shaking so much that she couldn't stand still, and she could only force herself to calm down.
Yes, go to the airport first.
There is no high-speed rail in N city, so if you want to go to a distant place, you must go to the airport.
No one just happened to be stuck at the airport. He only walked for 20 minutes. Maybe he went to the airport, but he hadn't taken off yet. If she goes now, she might be able to catch up.
Zhang Manqiang supported and ran to the gate of the community to take a taxi. Fortunately, he got into the car after waiting for a long time.
The airport is on the outskirts of N city, very far from the city, and it takes about an hour to get there by taxi.
Zhang Man was sitting in the taxi, looking at the dark night gradually rising outside the window, and the streetlights lit up one after another in the city, his chaotic heartbeat could not calm down for a long time.
The sun rises and sets, and nature operates day after day according to its specific laws.
The same is true for this city. In such a cold winter night, it lights up at the same time as yesterday, and turns off the lights at the same time. It will not change because of anyone leaving.
The airport in City N is not big, with only one terminal building. At this moment, it stands brightly lit in the deep night. Passengers who come and go are pushing large suitcases and queuing up at the check-in gate, waiting for check-in and luggage.
As soon as Zhang Man entered the door, he saw the huge LED display in the waiting hall. On the black screen, the following shifts were written in dazzling red scrolling letters.
She glanced at it, and the number of shifts made her scalp tingling—Beijing, Shanghai, Chengdu, Hangzhou… the whole world.
The world is so big and there are so many cities, many of which she hadn't even been to in her previous life - it's too easy to hide someone.
The one she loves, where will he go
Zhang Man pressed his temples, which were beating "chutu", and ran eagerly in the airport until he searched all the waiting rooms and several check-in gates.
without him.
Finding someone is always a pain because you expect it.
Every time you look in one direction, you will look forward to it in your heart, maybe the person in your heart will appear in the next scene.
But often the next second, you will be disappointed because you didn't see him, and then a new round of expectations will arise, and you will not be able to escape.