Time passed day by day, and the Chinese New Year was coming soon, and Zhang Man still didn't get in touch with Li Wei. He seemed to have completely disappeared from her world.
N City, which had been dry for many days, suddenly began to rain lightly in the afternoon of New Year's Eve.
Zhang Huifang went to the vegetable market to buy food. In the evening, the mother and daughter agreed to go to Uncle Xu's house for the Chinese New Year.
Zhang Man lay on the bed, listening to the rain outside.
In the community downstairs, a few naughty boys were setting off firecrackers. On such a wet and rainy day, it took a lot of effort to light a firecracker—it was time-consuming and laborious, but they still enjoyed it.
This age is really good, carefree, nothing to worry about, listening to the sound of a firecracker, simple happiness can last for a long time.
Zhang Man looked at the windowsill, because more than half of the Phalaenopsis had withered because he had not watered for several days.
twelve days.
It has been twelve days since he left her.
When I was with him, every day went by so quickly, but since he left, the days have been counting and passing by each other.
"Zizzi."
The phone on the bedside suddenly vibrated. Zhang Man bounced like an electric shock, and quickly took the phone and opened it.
It is the end-of-year bill of mobile phone users.
She stared at the text message for a long time.
Disappointed
She curled the corners of her mouth and smiled.
She didn't seem to be too disappointed, she didn't seem to expect it to be him.
With the passage of time, the expectations in her heart gradually declined, and perhaps one day, she suddenly accepted his departure.
The hardest thing every day now is watching the news from all over the world.
Weibo, newspapers, Netease news... She browses news through various channels every day, and she is obviously trembling with fear, but she still forces herself to read it.
Fortunately, fortunately, I didn't see any reports that made her worry all the time.
No words like "teen suicide," "depression suicide," etc.
Zhang Man sat up, bent his legs, and buried his face in his knees.
It really takes a lot of courage to find someone. I heard Zhang Huifang say that the family of the grandmother in the next unit has sold the house and is looking for their children in the world.
She is the same, she really went to many places in order to find him.
Two days ago, she even went to Z city alone.
She went to the aquarium, and after visiting all the venues by herself, she thought he might go there, and she didn't dare to blink, she kept looking, kept looking, and didn't watch any performances or projects.
She also went to the hotel where the two of them went together. The old man heard that she couldn't live in the hotel, but just asked someone and said coldly that he had never seen him.
Worried that he was lying to her, she squatted at the door of the hotel and waited for hours.
It's still snowing in Z city, and the temperature is minus seven or eight degrees, and it's bone-chilling cold.
She didn't wear the earmuffs he gave her, the cold sea breeze blew against her auricles, and the piercing pain made her shift the despair and helplessness in her heart to some extent.
The harder thing than that is thinking of him.
Thinking about him all the time, like now.
How is he doing alone
Did you eat well, go out to sunbathe, or go to the hospital every day for treatment, listen to the doctor, and take medicine as he said in his email.
She wanted to tell him that depression requires more sun exposure. Only by looking at the sun will she feel that there is hope in life.
City N and City Z, rain or snow, have no sun.
At this moment, she even thought, fortunately, he was not in N city and went to another city.
Maybe the city he is in is different from City N and City Z, or maybe the city he is in has sunshine.
and many more…
Fortunately, he is not in N city.
How can she be sure that he is not in N City
Zhang Man suddenly raised his head.
He said in the email that he would go to another city for treatment.
Ever since she saw his email, she had firmly believed that he had gone to another city. What's more, when she went to his house that time, the neighbor said that he went out with a large suitcase, which made her thinking once again fixed.
The information of Lila at the police station that day suddenly flashed in his mind. The information showed that he did not have any travel records of planes or trains.
impossible.
If he wanted her to find him completely, he would definitely go far away, so how could he possibly take a car.
This inefficient and slow method is impossible for him to choose.
So, there is only one possibility.
He lied to her.
He is still in City N at all.
He deliberately guided her thinking, but hid it in the place closest to her.
Zhang Man's heart trembled, her temples throbbed "suddenly", she immediately jumped up from the bed and went downstairs.
On New Year's Eve, there are no cars on the road.
She got on the bus. This year, not every household in City N has a car. Many people take the bus to buy New Year's goods, and there is no place at all. She stood all the way, was squeezed out of breath, and finally reached Li Wei's house.
He eagerly took the elevator upstairs and frantically rang the doorbell, but still no one responded.
Zhang Man bit his lip, not giving up.
She thought about it and knocked on the door of the next door.
It was the same aunt who opened the door last time, who obviously still remembered her.
"Little girl, haven't found your boyfriend yet? Auntie hasn't seen him recently, so she probably hasn't come back."
Zhang Man was suddenly discouraged, and sat down on the steps uncomfortably.
Could it be that she was wrong? Did he actually go to another city
Impossible, it should be right.
If he is still in N city and doesn't live at home, where can he live
Her thoughts were extremely chaotic, and a flash of light suddenly flashed in her mind, thinking of what he said on the balcony that day.
"Don't worry... The balcony of that year is not in this house."
"That year... before the accident, our family lived in another place... "
No, Li Wei's family is in N city, and there is more than one house.
She immediately opened the phone and called Chen Feier.
"Fei'er, do you know some classmates who lived in the same community with Li Wei's family when you were young?"
Chen Feier heard about Li Wei's situation from her before, and knew that she had been looking for him, so she immediately hung up the phone to help her ask.
Soon, Zhang Man got the address, which is a luxury villa area in N city, far from the city, facing the most beautiful and clean sea on the winter side of N city.
Zhang Man took a deep breath.
She stood up forcibly and slowed for a long time, and the dizziness in her head lingered for a long time.
Holding the handle of the stairs, she resisted the strong dizziness in her head and walked down, her legs trembling uncontrollably.
She was too tired, both physically and mentally. In the past two days, looking for him had become a habit of her life.
How good would it be if we could find him this time
When she finds him, she will start to eat well and sleep well.
I can't torture myself like these days.
…
There is no direct bus to the villa area, Zhang Man can't get a taxi, so he can only take the bus to the nearest stop there. She glanced at the mobile phone map, and there were still three kilometers.
Three kilometers.
Only three kilometers.
Zhang Man looked at the winding road, shook her head and smiled. Fortunately, the rain stopped, otherwise she didn't even bring an umbrella, she would be in a lot of embarrassment.
The winding mountain road is built against the mountain and is built on the blue seaside.
This sea is different from the bay where people come and go in the center of N city. It is very quiet. The large golden sandy beach has not been developed or disturbed by tourists. It exudes primitive and wild beauty. At this moment, the sun is going down, and the street lamps on both sides of the road are gradually turning on every ten meters.
The sea is still ebb at this time, doing the simplest simple harmonic motion.
The original ecological nature seems to isolate the festive atmosphere of human society.
Whether it's New Year's Eve or an ordinary day, it's the same for it.
The villa area is halfway up the mountain. There is no sidewalk on this road. It seems that it is not built for pedestrians. In the villa area halfway up the mountain, no family will have a car. Zhang Man kept walking along the deserted winding mountain road. As she walked, the icy and biting wind made her breathing hard, and her knees began to ache.
Climbing the mountain is always much slower than walking on the flat road. After more than an hour, the night was getting darker, and Zhang Man finally saw the brightly lit villa area.
The community has a vague sense of luxury, with unique buildings standing on the mountainside, overlooking the entire N city.
She had to swipe the card at the entrance of the community. Zhang Man waited in a remote place at the door. After a few minutes, someone finally entered the door. She immediately followed a proprietor into the community.
The villa area is not big, there are only a few dozen households in total, and she walked up the path, one by one facing the house number.
Five, seven, nine.
right here.
The villa in front of me covers a large area, and the shape is very luxurious and elegant. The huge courtyard has no walls and is designed in the style of a small European garden. There is a very old wooden swing in it. In the yard, the two-story small house is milky white, atmospheric and delicate.
There were no lights in the villa.
Zhang Man stood bewildered at the door. The night air was icy cold, and the cold air stimulated from the trachea to the lungs, causing unbearable pain.
She squatted down slowly, held her head, and took a deep breath helplessly.
After walking such a long distance in extremely cold weather, her head was getting dizzy at the moment.
But the physical discomfort is nothing compared to the collapse of the heart again.
Curtains were drawn at every window of this villa, which, unlike the houses around it, lit up with red lanterns, looked dead.
Apparently there is no owner.
he's not here.
Zhang Man squatted at the door, clutching at the clothes on his chest. She could feel the pain of her heartbeat even through several layers of fabric. She must have guessed wrong.
The boundless despair hits like a tide.
Where are you... why can't I find you... I travel so much, I read the news every day, check my phone, worry about everything that might happen.
Why don't you just give me a message.
Even if you don't tell me where you are, can you report safety? I just want to know if you are safe and have a good meal.
If you are like this, how can you let me live...
I can't eat or sleep every day. I can think of you when I close my eyes, and I want to find you when I open my eyes... I am full of hope and disappointment again and again. Can't find you.
How will I live in the days after that? Or as in the previous life, living in confusion until more than 30 years, will you live on the spot
It's New Year's Day today, and every household hangs up red lanterns. How can you celebrate the New Year alone
Zhang Man finally burst into tears again, despairingly, at the gate of the courtyard.
"Boom..."
At this moment, a sudden loud noise startled her.
When she turned around, it turned out that someone set off fireworks on the coast.
Big red fireworks exploded in the dark sky into a full, gigantic flower—seemingly celebrating the passing of a year and the beginning of a new one.
The little sparks then landed and disappeared into the dark night, full of the best wishes for the New Year from people who have worked hard for a year.
Zhang Man rubbed his eyes.
The young man she was thinking of was standing at the intersection not far away, under the fiery red fireworks, looking at her deeply.
Although the hair is messy, the beard is unshaven, and the trim is not trim, but fortunately, there is no lack of arms or legs.
Zhang Man stood up, breathing very lightly, wiping away his tears.
Complaining, pain, longing, and collapse are all indescribable at this moment.
She walked over, pulled his sleeve, and pointed to his back.
"Li Wei, look, the fireworks on the coast are so beautiful."