Early the next morning, Zhang Man went out with a stack of books and exercises. Li Wei lives in the city center, about half an hour away by bus from her home.
The bus came very fast, and there was almost no wait.
This year's N city has not yet connected to the subway, Zhang Man sat on the bus, looked at the familiar scenery outside the window, and started to be stunned. Many of the previous memories have been somewhat blurred, but about him, because of the repeated dreams in the following years, I remember it clearly.
In a previous life, she came out of Li Wei's house very late after finishing her class, and he proposed to take her to the station for the first time.
It was late winter, the green belt by the road was still covered with uncleaned snow, and the street lights were dim, but fortunately there was a clear full moon hanging in the sky.
The two walked along the asphalt road, and the biting evening wind rustled the branches on both sides of the road. At that time, she liked to walk on the narrow road beside the green belt, but accidentally stepped on the frozen ice, slipped her feet suddenly, and lost her balance.
She remembered very clearly that Li Wei hugged her from the side to save her from falling.
Under the faint moonlight, the heartbeats of the two of them were getting faster and faster at the same frequency. She had sharp eyes and saw his reddish auricles.
Neither of them said a word, but they seemed to be tacitly understanding each other.
So ah, so she couldn't accept it at all after that, he lied to her. The anger of being deceived was overwhelmed, and she asked her to deny all the previous things, so she was so angry at him, and even deliberately went out with other boys in front of him.
Zhang Man remembered the dark pupils of the boy, and in the last period of time before her transfer, she almost lost all her vigor. He became more and more loner, withdrawn and paranoid, and the relationship between the two never returned.
A proud person like him must have struggled, but he finally gave in. In his love letter to her, he asked himself if he could accompany him all the time.
But got no reply.
She once gave him a piece of candy but took it back, deceiving him with a heart.
. …
When the car arrived, Zhang Man walked into the neighborhood next to him, found Li Wei's house according to his memory, and rang the doorbell. It took three or four minutes for someone to open the door. When the boy saw that it was her, he nodded to let her in, and took a pair of ladies' slippers for her from the shoe cabinet.
She put on slippers and followed Li Wei to the study.
His home is large, but empty, with very little furniture. There are no entertainment tools such as TV in the living room, only a small transparent coffee table.
But it was clean and there was no odor at all.
Li Wei took a chair from the living room into the study and placed it next to his seat. The desk is very large, so two people can use it together without interfering with each other at all.
"If you want to drink water in the refrigerator, do your homework first, write it down if you can't, and ask me after an hour." After he finished speaking, he continued the unfinished derivation at hand.
Zhang Man wanted to find a topic: "Li Wei, what shall we have for lunch in a while?"
The young man frowned. His last thoughts were cut off here last night. He is in a bad mood now and doesn't want to be disturbed.
Suppressing the irritability in my heart: "There is food in the refrigerator."
Zhang Man heard that there was a meal, and became interested, and continued to ask, "Did you make it?"
"My mom did... shut up." He finally lost all patience.
Didn't expect to hear this answer. Zhang Man's heart was empty, and he clenched his schoolbag tightly. She carefully restrained her breathing without showing any clues.
She sat for a while, with a vague guess in her heart, so she excused herself to go to the bathroom and went out of the study to the dining room.
The refrigerator door was opened, and there were two dishes, one meat and one vegetable, which were properly placed in the porcelain plate. She went to the kitchen again, and the kitchen utensils were as clean as if they had never been used. So she glanced at the trash can, and sure enough, there were two takeaway boxes thrown in it.
Zhang Man closed the refrigerator door, leaned on it and breathed deeply, only by clenching his palms could he restrain the unpleasant trembling. The cold and panic triggered from the bottom of her heart made her feel that he was in the study a few steps away from her, but it seemed so far away.
…
After she calmed down, she returned to the study as if nothing had happened, took out the textbook and exercise set and began to study.
The physics of the first year of high school is very simple for her now. In her previous life, she was admitted to a normal university in the province, where she majored in physics. At that time, several classmates, including the teacher, did not understand her very well, because among all subjects, her weakest point was always physics.
Zhang Man didn't know why he chose physics, and finally stayed in the high school in H city and became an ordinary physics teacher.
Having taught physics for so many years, she has long been familiar with these simple kinematics topics. But the more she knew, the less he could teach her.
So Zhang Man casually picked one of the pages, and randomly ticked the options.
Because of doing something that I am completely proficient in, an hour is really hard.
After Zhang Mancao selected the multiple-choice options, he filled in a few formulas at random below some major questions, raised his hand to look at his watch, and the time had only passed ten minutes. So she looked up at Li Wei while pretending to be thinking about the problem.
He still bites the pen habitually, and his brows are not as tightly wrinkled as they were at first, it seems that he has a new idea of the current problem. On his right earlobe, there is a small red mole that looks very sexy. His lips were clearly creased and looked a little chapped. The long eyelashes flickered when he was thinking about the problem, and the dark pupils were so bright that they seemed to contain the entire universe.
He picked up the pen and made a quick derivation on the paper. The smooth thinking made him quickly write a full page. Zhang Man looked at the formulas on the paper, she could only understand a few bits and pieces, and knew that it was probably the content of quantum mechanics.
He is a physics genius.
His perception and insight into the world are almost a hundred times better than others. Such people, after having a certain reserve of knowledge, can often find new ideas in boring topics.
And his ability to associate is very strong. A complex physical formula, in the eyes of ordinary people, is a step-by-step mathematical derivation, but in his eyes, it is a vivid physical image. He can naturally map those dead formulas to intuitive physical phenomena. This keen intuition allows him to take many detours less than others.
Zhang Man gradually began to be in a daze.
In my previous life, I also met some good boys in college, including later working. But she would always subconsciously compare them with the teenager in her memory, and no one could make her heart move like him and never forget it.
She used to love his sharpness, and now she also loves the other side of his sharp mind.
She was probably so absorbed in her thoughts that Li Wei tapped the table in front of her with her right hand, and she came back to her senses.
The boy was leaning over to examine the exercise set in front of her, his thin lips were gradually pursed, and he even snorted in the end.
He put down the exercise set and pushed it further away from him, as if he never wanted to see the appalling answer again.
"You should transfer to liberal arts next semester, you are not suitable for physics."
"… "
Zhang Man opened his mouth, secretly saying that it was bad, patronizing the wrong option, forgetting that the extreme is the opposite.
I can only force myself to respect myself: "I'm actually still very interested in physics, but I'm just a little uncomfortable in high school. And although I have a poor foundation, my brain is not stupid. If you teach me, I'll definitely do it."
Hearing her sincere words, the young man's expression softened a little. He took back the paper and looked at it carefully.
After about ten minutes, he turned sideways and looked at her earnestly, his expression a little angry: "... I can't summarize your question, you are wrong in every question, and there is no pattern. Zhang Man, alone The thinking and logic, whether right or wrong, are at least the same. But your answer does not reflect logic at all, so there is only one possibility, you are all randomly selected."
He stood up as he spoke, packed her books and exam papers with a blank face, and put them in her bag.
"Go back, don't come again in the future, your mind is not on study, I don't want to waste our time."
Li Wei was very disappointed, it seemed that the fair trade in his eyes had already changed. What she wants may not be what she said at the beginning.
. ... really can't fool him at all.
Seeing that he was going to drive her away, Zhang Man was in a hurry, stood up and stopped in front of him: "Li Wei... don't be angry, don't drive me away, I admit that I just wrote it scribbly. I didn't understand what the teacher said at all. I understand, but if I don’t write it, I’m worried that you will think my attitude is bad. So, I just wrote it all.”
She lowered her head, carefully pulled his sleeve, and said in a low voice: "Li Wei, I don't want to be transferred to the regular class next semester, only you can help me..."
As he spoke, tears flowed out involuntarily. The emotions that he had just tried to suppress were mobilized at this moment, and all kinds of distress and worries about him were manifested at this time, which seemed to be misunderstood grievances and uncomfortable.
Her tears fell on the floor and soon became a small puddle of water, as evident on the light-colored wooden floor. The young man stared at the water stain, and his heart suddenly twitched.
He squeezed his palm.
He has seen many people cry, sobbing softly, bursting into tears, hysterical... The world is full of changes, things are impermanent, and there are always all kinds of unsatisfactory things. But those crying never stopped him, because to him it was just the helpless vulnerability of the incompetent when faced with a problem that he couldn't handle.
But now, she was pulling at the corner of his clothes with red eyes, and weeping in front of him, he suddenly felt the same way, and a corner of her heart felt strangely sour as she sobbed.
-Did he talk too hard, or that he shouldn't ask her for his own demands, and he shouldn't be too confident to speculate on her mind.
He lowered his voice as low as possible, took a few tissues from the table and handed them to her, and said uncomfortably, "Don't cry... If you still want to learn, let's continue."
Fortunately, after the girl in front of him heard what he said, she slowly stopped crying, wiped her face clean, sat down, took out the book and exercise set again, and spread it among the two of them.
Her eyes were wet just after crying, and her mouth was slightly pouted, as if she was still a little aggrieved. She sniffed and poked a question on the exercise book with the tip of her pen: "This."
Bai Nen's fingers held the pen, in stark contrast to the black ink on the exercise book.
Li Wei suddenly felt a little itchy in his heart, he hurriedly turned his eyes away, not daring to look at the girl's red cheeks.