The past scenes, like fleeting glimpses, put an end to her short life. The scene of the man kneeling devoutly before her, humbly begging her for salvation, was engraved in her memory like thick ink and heavy colors, and would never fade.
In fact, she didn't believe it.
How could a man like Si Yuanzhen, who had been in the endless hell for millions of kalpas and had no hope of escape, lay down his butcher knife and become a Buddha for her
But she deceived herself into believing it.
She accepted the excuse he found for her, went against her faith in Buddha, and went to hell with him.
She always thought that she would be punished for betraying Buddha.
Now, retribution has finally come.
She lowered her head with difficulty. The bright and glaring red on the cheongsam with pear blossoms embroidered on a green background hurt her eyes. The pear blossoms, pure and clean like jade, were stained with blood, looking extremely enchanting.
Si Yuanzhen said that she was like a pear blossom, with the purity of ice and snow, the elegance of a graceful young lady, and the purity of white jade.
The pear blossoms on this green cheongsam were embroidered by Ye Wan herself. The bright white pear blossoms were spread all over the green satin, pale and bright, reflecting the prime of youth.
When youth ends, it withers.
She thought again of the fate that Master Lingji had predicted for her: Deep love does not bring longevity, and extreme wisdom will lead to harm!
Deep love does not bring longevity! So this is what it means.
Everything is destined.
“Awu…” Si Yuanzhen held Ye Jinwu’s blood-stained body in his arms, and roared like a trapped beast fighting desperately, but it was just a dying struggle.
Ye Jinwu opened her mouth and blood gushed out like crazy.
Si Yuanzhen covered her mouth in panic: "Awu, don't talk, it's okay, you will be fine, I won't let anything happen to you, don't be afraid, don't be afraid..."
He spoke in a coherent tone, holding her body which was gradually getting cold due to blood loss, and shivering continuously.
When a person's fear reaches its limit, he or she will no longer feel afraid.
Because the panic in my heart has replaced the fear and is constantly tormenting my will.
Ye Jinwu raised her weak arms with difficulty, blood staining her jade-like hands red: "In this life... meeting... meeting you... falling in love with you... I... I will never... regret it."
Her blood-stained hands trembled as she touched his still handsome face. She couldn't help but think of the stunning scene she had caught a glimpse of him on the mountain path to Lingji Temple.
In a flash, ten years have passed.
That year, after she was rescued by him, he conquered her fragile heart.
Finally, despite Ye Wan's repeated persuasion, she insisted on marrying him.
The days after marriage were full of love and affection.
He doted on her in every way and treated her like a treasure. Although he failed to fulfill his vow to lay down his butcher knife, he really began to reduce his killing.
She abandoned Buddha for him, took care of her husband and children, and although she could not completely let go of the knot in her heart, she spent all her money, bought incense and flowers, and did charity with a sincere heart, just to alleviate his sins and eliminate his karma.
The tears that Si Yuanzhen had been holding back in his eyes instantly fell on her face: "Awu, don't talk." He shouted towards the door: "Doctor... Why hasn't the doctor come yet..."
Blood gushed out of her mouth, flowed down her jaw, and to her neck. Si Yuanzhen's black pupils, which were like the abyss of hell, were filled with bright colors, dazzling red, and terrifying enchantment, which made him extremely sad. At this moment, his will quickly collapsed.
Ye Jinwu suddenly felt very cold and had difficulty breathing. She tried to breathe harder but found that she had no strength: "Ayan... you must... take good care of... Ayan... I... I'm sorry for him..."
Thinking of her seven-year-old son, her lifeless eyes suddenly filled with tears. At this moment, her heart was filled with reluctance to part with her husband and son.
Yan—brilliance!
It describes the light and heat of the sun, meaning it is brilliant and shining.
She hoped that he could grow up as she expected, and not be like his father, holding a butcher knife, full of sins of killing, and condemned to hell forever.
"Awu... don't leave me... I can't lose you, otherwise I will go crazy..."
Si Yuanzhen hugged Ye Jinwu tightly, his eyes were full of bloodshot and spider webs, but dry and tearless. It was because he was too sad that even tears could not flow.
In this life, he held the butcher knife and committed too many sins.
Entering the Five Avici Hells, committing the Five Avici Fundamental Sins: killing, stealing, adultery, lying, slandering the Dharma, and doubting the Three Jewels. There is no way out of hell, and there is no escape.
He thought about his own ending.
Some died a violent death, some died without an intact body, and some were cut into pieces.
However, he did not expect that God would punish him by making him lose his beloved woman.
Ye Jinwu was breathing out more than in, but she was fighting with her last breath: "The name of the Tathagata of Medicine Master Liuli Light, with the power of Buddha, all sufferings are liberated, all senses are sharp, wisdom is extensive, constant pursuit of superior Dharma, frequent encounters of good friends, forever breaking the snares of the devil, breaking the shell of ignorance, draining the river of afflictions, liberating from all the sorrows and sufferings of birth, aging, sickness, death, and grief..."
She held Si Yuanzhen's hand, blood was flowing from her mouth, her pupils had lost their luster, but she insisted on chanting the name of Bodhi Buddha and reciting the "Medicine Buddha Sutra" to pray for blessings, eliminate disasters, and eliminate karma.
This was the last time she recited sutras for him in her life.
May your life be smooth and happy, and may all your sins, karma, killings, and evil deeds be repaid on her body. In the next life, I wish to be a beast and serve the Buddha to repay this cause and effect.
Si Yuanzhen roared madly: "Don't talk, Ah Wu, don't talk... The doctor will be here soon. You promised me that you would grow old with me and love me for the rest of my life. Ah Wu, you are a Buddhist believer. According to the Five Precepts of Buddhism, those who tell lies will not attain the Mahayana of Bodhi. Ah Wu, don't lie to me..."
The only sound in the room was Si Yuanzhen's sorrowful roar.
Ye Jinwu could no longer utter a word. She looked at Si Yuanzhen reluctantly, the dim light in her eyes fading bit by bit.
Si Yuanzhen went completely crazy and yelled, "Awu, if you dare to die, I will follow you. No matter whether it's the end of the sky or the end of the underworld, we will always be together..."
Ye Jinwu's pupils trembled slightly, and finally closed silently. She held Si Yuanzhen's hand and let it fall weakly.
The last bit of will in Si Yuanzhen's mind collapsed as Ye Jinwu closed her eyes.
He hugged Ye Jinwu's already cold body, lowered his head and put his face against hers, closed his eyes, and tears kept rolling down his cheeks.
“Awu, wait for me, I will always be with you in hell or underworld…” Si Yuanzhen picked up the gun and put it against his temple resolutely.
"Bang—"
When the gunshots rang out, he, who had originally wanted to die, suddenly opened his eyes wide, with shock, doubt and relief in his eyes. Finally, he saw his seven-year-old son, and was left with only a heart full of guilt and regret.
It is impossible to escape the disaster of this life.