How easy is it to quit drugs
When she first became addicted to drugs, she locked herself in the room and tied her hands and feet. For three whole days, she endured the most difficult and fragile withdrawal process of the drug addiction. Just when she was determined to quit drugs, she was blinded by family affection and was deceived by Ning Shuqian, and her drug addiction became more and more serious.
In the subsequent process, she has been quitting drugs intermittently.
However, all of them failed.
Not long after, her grandfather died. She completely realized the indifference of the Wen family towards her, and also saw clearly the ugliness and greed hidden under the hypocritical masks of Ning Shuqian and her daughter, and the vicious calculations hidden in their sweet words and hearts. She lost all her support and was pushed into the abyss of depravity step by step by Ning Shuqian and her daughter. There was no way out, and in the end she could only live in despair.
The reason she fell into this situation today was not only because of her own naivety and stupidity in believing in the so-called family affection, but more because of the instigation of Ning Shuqian and her daughter.
No one wants to live like this.
As long as there is a chance to struggle, the instinct for survival will not be given up.
If she wanted to quit drugs, there was no way she could hide it from Ning Shuqian and the others.
She couldn't die yet.
She wanted to live, even if it was in this miserable, barely surviving, zombie-like way.
Xu Chenyu said angrily: "Ning Shuqian and Xia Ruya, those two vicious women, have already destroyed you for their own greed and ambition. What else do they want? Are they really unwilling to even give you a chance to live?"
Those two women schemed against Xinya, turning her into an abandoned child of the Wen family, all for the Wen family's huge wealth. Now that their goal has been achieved, they are still unwilling to let Xinya go.
Wen Xinya smiled sadly: "Because as long as I am alive, they will feel like a lump in my throat and unable to sleep or eat."
For Ning Shuqian, her existence constantly reminds her of the disgraceful fact that she was the mistress. And for Xia Ruya, it constantly reminds her that she had taken away everything that originally belonged to her, turning her from the noble eldest daughter of the Wen family into an illegitimate daughter, and from the heir of the Wen family into an adopted daughter.
Therefore, the more miserable her life was, the happier they were.
Xu Chenyu was completely stunned: "I didn't expect your situation in the Wen family to have reached this point."
He thought Wen Xinya gave up on herself because of Mo Gong's death, but he didn't expect that she was forced to do so.
Wen Xinya smiled sadly: "Xu Chenyu, in the Wen family, in this upper class society, and even in this world, I am isolated and helpless. Grandpa is greedy and materialistic, grandma is mean and cold-blooded, Wen Haowen is ruthless, Ning Shuqian is ambitious and greedy, Xia Ruya is vicious and framed, Ning Yuya is arrogant and domineering, everyone speculates about me with the greatest malice, I have been forced into a dead end, and my life was bought by selling my dignity."
One wrong step leads to all wrong steps.
If she had not been blinded by the sudden family affection, she would still have a chance to turn things around.
But there are no ifs in this world.
"I want to live like a human being, but I can't."
After her grandfather's death, she faced the reality and knew clearly her situation. It is true that she became degraded due to self-blame, guilt and regret for her grandfather's death, but she also did it to live.
Make your life even more miserable.
Xu Chenyu couldn't explain what he felt in his heart, so he hugged her in his arms: "Don't worry, no matter what happens, I will be with you."
This was the only promise he could make to her and the only thing he could do for her.
His embrace was not thick, but it was very warm, with a hint of mint fragrance, clean and refreshing, making Wen Xinya indulged for a moment.
But soon, she regained her senses, stretched out her hand to push his embrace away, with a sharp look in her cloudy eyes: "Xu Chenyu, put away your sympathy. Even if Wen Xinya dies, I don't need anyone's sympathy." Her gorgeous red lips curled slightly, and her thin face was full of sarcasm: "Do you think I'm more pitiful than you, so you can stand in the position of superiority and sympathize and pity me wantonly?" She laughed "haha", with a hint of ferocity on her face: "Do you still remember what I said to you four years ago? For a woman like me, if someone treats me a little bit well, I think they have ulterior motives."
After saying that, Wen Xinya turned around and left without any reluctance.
Such a promise of wholehearted protection is indeed very touching and addictive.
However, she didn't care for any feelings mixed with sympathy or pity.
Over the years, Xu Chenyu has indeed been with her and protecting her. Her heart is full of gratitude towards him and she regards him as the most important person in her life.
However, Xu Chenyu's sympathy and compassion for her from time to time made her unable to let down her guard towards him.
Xu Chenyu was startled, then he reacted, quickly pulled her arm and explained: "Wen Xinya, I know you have your pride, I just want to be good to you and take care of you, that's all."
In fact, he himself couldn't explain clearly what kind of feelings he had towards Wen Xinya. Perhaps it was just as Wen Xinya said, mixed with sympathy and pity, so it became complicated and deep.
However, one thing cannot be denied, he really likes Wen Xinya.
Wen Xinya turned around suddenly, her thin body exuding an aggressive aura: "Be good to me? Take care of me? How are you going to take care of me in the future? How long are you going to take care of me, five years, ten years, twenty years, or a lifetime?"
In this world, apart from couples, no one will take care of someone for a lifetime, and no one will always be good to someone.
Xu Chenyu was stunned and didn't know how to answer for a moment. He really hadn't thought about these questions.
Wen Xinya smiled, but her thin face didn't look very pretty when she smiled. "You and I both know that none of us can predict the future. My fate is at the mercy of others, and you can't control your own fate either. You keep saying that you want to take care of me and treat me well, but in fact it's just cheap charity in your boring life. You can't give me what I want, and you won't give it to me."
Admittedly, Xu Chenyu's feelings for her were not pure, but she was still grateful in her heart. At least this was the only warmth in her life.
But she didn't want Xu Chenyu to live in this muddle-headed way all his life.
"Xinya, you misunderstood me, I..." Xu Chenyu instinctively wanted to explain, but when he opened his mouth he didn't know what to say.
In a sense, what Wen Xinya said was right. The Xu family was already very unhappy with him hanging out with Xinya all day long. His father had frozen his bank card. Even if he liked Wen Xinya in his heart, he didn't dare to make any promises to her because he knew very well that it was simply impossible.