Yao Xiuyuan opened the wine and poured a glass for each of them. Ying Nian tasted it, and it was true that the alcohol content was very low, and it was more of the sweet and sour fruit wine.
"It's quite delicious."
Yao Xiuyuan doesn't like drinking fruit wine very much. This kind of wine looks like a drink to him, so he never drank it when someone gave it to him. If he didn't see Ying Nian drinking it today, he would have forgotten that there is such a bottle of wine .
He added some more to Ying Nian, "Just as long as you like it."
Ying Nian glanced at him and asked him, "Aren't you going to sleep?"
"I'll sleep again later, I'm not busy these two days, so I can go later in the morning."
Ying Nian sighed, "I feel like I've been bothering you for the past two days."
"Why are you being polite again?" Yao Xiuyuan looked at him, "You won't change after repeated admonition?"
Ying Nian smiled and shook his head, "No, that's all I think. Have any of your friends told you that you are quite gentle?"
"There must be." Yao Xiuyuan took a sip of wine, "I am such a good person, how could no one say that."
"It's also quite narcissistic."
"It's self-confidence." Yao Xiuyuan retorted.
"With your conditions, you haven't talked about a girlfriend?" Ying Nian asked curiously.
"We talked about it when we were in college, then we got separated, and then we were busy with work, and we didn't meet anyone we liked, so we didn't talk about it."
Ying Nian was a little surprised, "Did you have a girlfriend in college? I thought you should have a rich love history."
Yao Xiuyuan laughed when he heard the words, the tails of his eyes lifted slightly, with some pride, "I should look very feminine, right?"
"Isn't it?"
"Yes or no, I'm not Shao Yong, just like a butterfly."
"Does Shao Yong know that you say that about him behind his back?"
"Said he still needs to say it behind his back?" Yao Xiuyuan took the beer opened before Yingnian and bought himself a glass, "I have told him in front of him that he doesn't know how many times, but this kind of thing, the concubine loves it." , love between men and women, the two parties are in love with each other, and outsiders can't control it."
Yao Xiuyuan took a sip of wine while talking, Ying Nian watched him drink, and drank a few sips himself. Probably because of drinking a few glasses of beer before and the fruit wine in his hand, under the influence of alcohol, although Ying Nian was not drunk, he let go a little more than usual, and said if he felt something: "Yeah, it's about feelings. , in the end, it’s up to you.”
He took a sip of the wine, the sweet and sour taste made his taste buds relax, but his mood was heavy again by this sentence, so that he unknowingly refilled himself two more wines.
Seeing that he didn't speak suddenly, Yao Xiuyuan just kept drinking, reached out to hold his hand, and persuaded, "You drink too fast, take it easy."
Ying Nian looked up at him, his water-clear eyes were a little sad and bewildered under the light.
Yao Xiuyuan let go of his hand unconsciously, and asked him, "What's wrong with you?"
Ying Nian didn't speak, but just looked at the wine in the glass. Yao Xiuyuan felt sensitively that he was in a bad mood, and it was hard for him to say anything. There was a moment of silence between the two of them.
After a long time, Ying Nian sighed, shook his head, smiled at him, and said, "It's nothing, just remembering some past events."
Yao Xiuyuan guessed that the past in his mouth should be related to Tang Yu. He looked at Ying Nian and asked tentatively, "Are you willing to tell me?"
Ying Nian didn't seem to expect him to say that, and was a little surprised for a while.
Yao Xiuyuan smiled, and said softly: "Things that are kept in my heart will only accumulate more and more. Sometimes, it will make me feel better if I say it out. It's like the tree hole post on the Internet. I promise, I will only be a tree Dong, I won’t tell you about you.”
Ying Nian listened and looked at him in a daze, but didn't know where to start or what to say. He has never been a person who likes to trouble others, let alone tell others about his feelings. He could love Tang Yu without reservation and let Tang Yu know that he loved him, but he couldn't tell others about his feelings. He is used to loving, bearing, and sharing his emotions with another person. For him, it is not a simple and common thing.
Seeing that he seemed unable to speak, Yao Xiuyuan thought that he was unwilling. After all, emotional matters are always relatively private, so he pretended to be chic and said, "I don't seem to look like a tree hole. In this way, you When I come back from buying you a tree hole next time, you will whisper to it at that time."
Ying Nian's face, which was still at a loss just now, was instantly tainted with a smile under these words, he unconsciously lowered his eyes, but slowly raised his head to look at Yao Xiuyuan. Yao Xiuyuan still had that gentle and gentle look, as if he wouldn't mind whether Ying Nian said it or not.
But Ying Nian found that in his subconscious, he seemed to want to say something. Those things had been accumulated in his heart for so long, precipitated and decayed, and he carried the past alone, and occasionally looked down, those things dragged him down like a quagmire, making him feel heavy and embarrassing.
If you can say it, maybe... it will be better.
Ying Nian drank a glass of wine, Yao Xiuyuan didn't stop him, he drank another glass, and when Yao Xiuyuan was about to speak to persuade him, he slowly said, "I actually...", he looked at the wine in the glass, blinked, He whispered, "Actually... I don't know what to say."
Yao Xiuyuan thought he didn't intend to tell himself, but he just didn't know how to say it, "You can say whatever you want, you can say whatever you want, you can say whatever you want."
Is that so? Ying Nian thought, he was silent for a while, and slowly began to say, "I am not from here, my hometown is in a village in the county next to the city, it is very small, from the beginning of the village to the end of the village, there are two When I was young, I didn’t even have running water, so it’s good to have a well in the yard of my house.”
Yao Xiuyuan knew that he was not from the local area, but he didn't know that his hometown was so impoverished. "Then it's not easy for you." It is good to have a well in the yard.
Hearing the words, Ying Nian felt a little uncomfortable, not because Yao Xiuyuan's words made him feel uncomfortable, but just thinking back to his childhood, those days seemed to resurface before his eyes.
"When I was admitted to junior high school, my parents were gone. I was not yet an adult at that time. My aunt didn't want me, so my uncle took him to his house and became my guardian. My uncle was right I’m actually okay, I’m allowed to continue studying, my family also takes care of my food and lodging, and his children get along well with me. Although my aunt doesn’t kiss me, she doesn’t beat me or scold me, so, in general Said, their family is not bad to me."
Yao Xiuyuan was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect Ying Nian to drop such a bombshell as soon as he came up, he knew that Ying Nian was not from here, so he thought that Ying Nian's parents were in his hometown. Unexpectedly, it was gone early.
He was startled, but quickly concealed his surprise, and hummed in response.
"When I was a child, my parents taught me to study hard. In our kind of place, studying is the only way out. I have always worked hard. I have been in the top three in junior high school for three years. Our junior high school is the county The best junior high school here, No. 6 Middle School here, will go there for self-enrollment before the senior high school entrance examination. Only the top three will be selected. Those who meet the standard are lucky, and there will be sponsors to help you afford the tuition fees for three years of high school. Our In the first class, I was the only one who met the standard, and I was very lucky. The teacher told me that someone was willing to sponsor me to go to high school. That person was Tang Yu's father."
"No wonder you said in the ward yesterday that if you do it all over again, you would rather not have his father's support than know him."
Ying Nian thought of the scene in the ward yesterday, what happened yesterday, and their first acquaintance and love, and he just felt his chest swell, as if being pinched by someone with his hands, and the colic was unbearable.
"I was very happy at that time. I was really happy. I thought that although I had a bad life before and my parents were gone, I could still have a good life in the future. I think my parents were right. , people really want to study, you see, don’t I already rely on my studies to go to the city?”
"I went back to my uncle's house very happily, and told my uncle about it. I packed my luggage, and my aunt helped me with it, and then she sent me out. I was walking to Tang Yu's father's house In front of the car, my aunt said to me, "Xiao Nian, since you are going to study in the city, don't come back. You can also see that the situation at home is like this. It is already difficult to raise two children. I still want to raise you. Your parents left us suddenly and didn’t leave much money for us. In the past three years, my aunt has done her best. If you leave, don’t come back.”
Yao Xiuyuan was stunned for a moment, this was a follow-up he didn't expect. He looked at Ying Nian quietly, and Ying Nian looked at the wall in front of him, but he didn't seem to be looking at anything. His eyes shone brightly under the light, and Yao Xiuyuan felt that he was about to cry.
But he didn't cry after all.
Even after so many years, Ying Nian still remembers this passage clearly, and he also remembers the bewilderment and panic he felt when he first heard this sentence. His aunt looked at him calmly and peacefully, without any parting emotion in her eyes, as if what she said was not "don't come back again" but "today's weather is good".
Ying Nian worked hard to express his emotions, saying that he wanted to come back, he had no home now, and this was his home. But his aunt refused, she said, "You are not a child of our family, you will always leave."
On that day, Ying Nian left his uncle's house and the hometown where he grew up. His uncle phoned him twice after he arrived in the city, but never asked him to go home. Ying Nian knew that he was abandoned, not only his aunt did not want him to go back, but also his uncle.
He hid in the quilt and cried all night, sobbing silently, not daring to let others know. Then when the alarm clock rang the next day, he got out of bed and washed his face, and Ying Nian comforted himself that it’s okay, as long as he studies hard, he will have a good future. He persisted without his parents before, and now, he will definitely be able to well done.
He carried his schoolbag and went to school, but after school one day, Tang Yu's father took him back to the Tang family.
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