Yao Xiuyuan scratched his neck in embarrassment, "Of course not, I just occasionally, occasionally have such thoughts."
Ying Nian was puzzled, "Why? Because I didn't give you a sense of security?"
"No." Yao Xiuyuan denied, "It's my own problem. When it comes to dating, it's normal to worry about gains and losses."
Ying Nian shook his head, "That's not what I said."
He said seriously, "Today, when Ji Tang, that friend of mine, asked me about my relationship status, I realized that I really shouldn't be in my relationship with you. Friends around you, They all know me, and we all know the relationship between the two of us, but the friends around me, except for Qingzhou, other people, you don’t know them, and they don’t know you, just like I’m talking about Ji Tang to you now, you don’t know me at all. It's like knowing who she is. This, is my problem."
"It doesn't count." Yao Xiuyuan gave him a reason, "It's not that you and I are in two circles, it's normal if we don't know each other."
"But you and I have known each other for more than two years, including now that we are together, but they still don't know who you are, it shouldn't be." Ying Nian said seriously, "It's very bad for you. unfair."
"In the relationship between the two of us, you have always been actively promoting the development of this relationship. What about me? You like me, you chase me, there is no problem. But when I also like you, and you After being together, I shouldn’t continue to let you work hard alone, I should also actively contribute. But, I actually didn’t.”
"I haven't told you that I like you, have I?" Ying Nian smiled, "Because I didn't dare to say it, I was afraid that if I did, in the end, we would end up with nothing in the end. would feel embarrassed."
He said, laughing at himself and lowering his eyes.
"In fact, I was not like this before. I was a very strong person. I liked that I was in an invincible place in my relationship, so I was willing to give, and I dared to give. Even if I failed, I would still be the winner in terms of reason. Because I don’t owe anyone. But now, I’ve become tied up, thinking a lot, and thinking that if I give everything, it’s still nothing, wouldn’t it be pitiful.”
"You know, I didn't intend to fall in love so soon, I just can't refuse you. But how can I be sure that you will always like me? I'm just an ordinary person, but you are more important than Tang Yu Great, how can I guarantee that we will always be together?"
"You should trust me." Yao Xiuyuan said.
"But aren't you also worried about this?" Ying Nian said, "You should also believe me, but aren't you worried too?"
Yao Xiuyuan shook his head and said calmly, "That's different. What I'm worried about is that you and Tang Yu have a past that I can't get involved in. I'm jealous of him, and I'm also afraid that you will soften your heart after seeing him change for you, and go back to him It's not that I don't believe you, I'm just afraid of your past."
It was the first time Ying Nian heard him say such words. He looked at Yao Xiuyuan, feeling a little distressed because of the phrase "fear of your past".
In fact, he had really put Tang Yu down, no amount of feelings could withstand the constant pull and hurt again and again. It's just a change of place. If Yao Xiuyuan had an ex-boyfriend who he had talked with for so many years and would still linger on after breaking up, he would probably be afraid.
"Then what can I do to make you feel at ease?" Ying Nian asked.
Yao Xiuyuan was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect him to say that.
"It's okay," he smiled. "This is my own psychological problem. Don't worry. I'll adjust myself and I'll be fine in two days."
Ying Nian didn't listen to him, "Yao Xiuyuan, I think we should trust each other more. I want to believe that you and I will have a future, and you also have to believe that we will have a future. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't let You touch me."
"I know." Yao Xiuyuan sighed, "You don't need to do anything, really, as long as you are by my side, I won't think about these things. I met Tang Yu that day and was stimulated by his words, so I just Worrying about gains and losses. But it's not a big deal, as long as you like me, that's enough."
"Then do you need me to formally tell you that I love you?"
Yao Xiuyuan couldn't help laughing when he heard the words, "How can you say such things through the screen, next time I visit you, you say it in front of my face."
"Okay." Ying Nian replied, "After a while, I'll see if I can spare time for Ji Tang and Sun Yao to have a meal with you. I don't have many friends, except Qingzhou, Quan There are only these two friends here. Forget about Guan Han, he is from Tang Yu's side, I just need to talk to him on WeChat, otherwise Tang Yu will definitely trouble him."
"Okay, you look at the arrangement." Yao Xiuyuan said, afraid that his tone would be too excited and Ying Nian would blame himself again, and quickly added, "Actually, it's not a big deal. Of course it's best to see your friend. But what do you guys do?" Celebrities are busy, so it’s normal not to see them. Our situation is different. It wasn’t when we were in love or even before you lived in my house. You knew Ah Cheng and the others. You don’t have to feel guilty about this, you Look, didn't I mention that too?"
Ying Nian felt that he was really considerate, "Mr. Yao, you'd better remember a saying - when you are comfortable, you tend to be lazy. If you continue to be so considerate, I will probably lie flat in the future. The relationship between the two of us Little buggy, you're the only one whipping and driving."
"That's just right, so even if someone else comes after you in the future, if you see the other party's pony car and drive it yourself, maybe you will come back to me."
Ying Nian laughed, "Aren't you tired?"
"If you're the one sitting in the carriage, I won't mind it."
Ying Nian unconsciously lowered his head and laughed silently.
He felt that Yao Xiuyuan didn't need to worry that he and Tang Yu would get back together or that he would be with other people, because he was already very good, and anyone who met him and was loved by him would stop for him. Just like myself, even if I didn't have the idea of falling in love at first, I would silently agree because it was him who proposed it.
Ying Nian felt that they should give each other more trust and confidence.
After hanging up the video, Ying Nian sent WeChat to Ji Tang and Sun Yao, asking when they would be free, and his boyfriend would like to treat them to a meal.
Sun Yao expressed surprise at the fact that he had a boyfriend, while Ji Tang took a picture of his notice sheet for him. Ying Nian looked at his schedule, then asked Sun Yao, and temporarily set the time after the filming of this movie.
After meeting his friends, Yao Xiuyuan should feel more at ease, Ying Nian thought. What else could he do? Ying Nian thought about it for a long time, but there was still no result. He looked at the time and decided to rest first and think about it tomorrow.
On the second day, Ying Nian saw Ji Tang's new play character in Moments, and sent her a WeChat message as if thinking of something.
Ying Nian: Does tattoo removal hurt
Ji Tang was playing with his mobile phone, so he replied quickly: It should be quite painful, I haven't washed it before, and tattoos seem to be quite troublesome to wash.
Ying Nian: Okay, I see, thank you.
Ji Tang: Why did you suddenly ask me this? If you want to get a tattoo too, then I will recommend you the one where I got the tattoo. The boss is my best friend, and I will give you a 20% discount if you give me my name.
Ying Nian thought about it: You can push her WeChat to me.
Ji Tang was surprised and said: Are you really planning to get tattooed
Ying Nian: It's not impossible.
Although it is impossible to disclose and obtain a certificate now, it is still possible to get a couple tattoo. Ying Nian thinks this is the best way he can think of to reassure Yao Xiuyuan. Although it is a bit naive, being in love makes people naive.
When Ji Tang heard that he was going to get a couple tattoo, he was shocked: You are crazy! Couple tattoos are the most unreliable thing! You can't tattoo this on anything! Otherwise, what if you break up in the future
Ying Nian said calmly: So we can't break up even more.
Ji Tang is helpless: You can control whether to break up or not.
Ying Nian replied: I can't control it, but I can do my best to maintain it. After all, it's up to people to plan things.
Ji Tang persuaded him for a long time, but seeing that he insisted on going his own way, he stopped persuading him, and only hoped that he would not regret it in the future.
Ying Nian began to think about where and what pattern the tattoo should be tattooed on.
He thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to tattoo it on his wrist, so that he usually wears a watch and can cover it without affecting his image. The pattern doesn't need to be complicated, boys, just keep it simple.
Ying Nian had an idea in mind, and spent a few days drawing out the tattoo he had conceived. The main body of the tattoo is very simple, because it is tattooed on the wrist, so Ying Nian referred to some bracelet designs, but on this chain He designed some tricks, hiding his and Yao Xiuyuan's initials in these tricks.
He was very satisfied with the pair of tattoos, and after finishing the painting, he showed the tattoos to Yao Xiuyuan. Yao Xiuyuan was a little surprised that he designed a pair of tattoos, "Do you want to get tattoos?"
"Don't you want to?" Ying Nian asked him back.
Yao Xiuyuan looked at the pair of tattoos on the table, of course he thought about it, but, "It hurts to get tattooed."
"Are you afraid of pain?"
"I'm afraid you'll be hurt." Yao Xiuyuan looked at him, "You look so weak, can you bear it?"
"Don't worry, I'm not afraid of more pain, but I can still be afraid of this."
Ying Nian thought for a while, "Still, you don't want tattoos?"
"How could I not want to?" Yao Xiuyuan said without concealment, "I just didn't think of it before, otherwise I probably would have dragged you to get a couple tattoo."
"Then it's fine." Ying Nian made a final decision, "That's it."
Seeing this, Yao Xiuyuan coughed, and asked him unnaturally, "You suddenly said that you want to get a tattoo, is it related to the conversation you had with me that day?"
Ying Nian didn't shy away, nodded and asked him, "Do you feel a little bit more secure when I'm like this?"
Yao Xiuyuan looked at him, although he guessed that he did it because of himself, but after hearing what he said, he felt guilty unconsciously.
"Niannian, you actually don't need to do this. I can adjust my mentality myself. You don't have to do this for me. You see, I have not been so worried about gains and losses in the past few months."
"I know." Ying Nian said, "but I am willing. Whether it is necessary is one thing, and how I want to do it is another. I want you to feel more secure."
"Have you really thought about it?" Yao Xiuyuan glanced at the picture on the table, "Tattoos are such a thing, it's not easy to wash them off."
Ying Nian smiled, "Why, according to what you said, you still plan to let me wash it in the future?"
"You know I don't mean that."
"Then what do you mean?"
Yao Xiuyuan looked at him without saying a word.
Ying Nian said calmly, "I know the consequences of getting a tattoo, and I think it through very clearly. In fact, when Tang Yu and I were just together in high school, he asked me if I wanted to get a tattoo together. But I refused. , because I think it is very naive, and I also think it would be ironic if we break up after getting the tattoo now."
"Then why do you want to get tattoos now? It's because of me?"
"It's not just because of you." Ying Nian looked at him with gentle eyes, "Actually, all the couples who get tattoos are the same. They all think they can be together forever and want to be together forever. Me too, I also want to be with you forever."
He said softly, "I don't believe this, and I don't like or dislike tattoos, but getting tattoos hurts, you shouldn't have the heart for me to hurt you like that."
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There will be Tang Yu in tomorrow's chapter, and it should be the highlight, so the little angels who don't like it can dance tomorrow. Not surprisingly, this episode will end the day after tomorrow, and this time it was successfully controlled to around 30 chapters, happy! I feel like I'm making progress! And the progress is remarkable! Ha ha ha ha!
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