No, what do you want? "Ji Qingzhou felt like his chest was stuffed with a ball of cotton, and he was so stuffy that he could hardly breathe, "We agreed when we came here, you wanted to sleep with me at first, didn't you?" Why don't you want anything now? "
"I wanted to sleep with you at first," Chu Cheng looked at him, "but that was in the past. People have feelings when getting along. I really wanted to sleep with you at the beginning, because I didn't care about you at all at that time. Your future has nothing to do with me. But now, we have been together for so long, I have watched you grow up a little bit, I hold you, protect you, I have not even said a serious word to you, I hope Hello, I hope you come clean and leave clean, your life is not stained, do you understand?"
Ji Qingzhou shook his head, he didn't understand, "Do you like me? Why do you think so much for me if you don't like me, and why do you let me go if you like me?"
Chu Cheng looked at him, with mixed feelings in his heart, "Of course I don't like you, I just hope that you will be better in the future, Ji Qingzhou, as I said, I hope you are well, I really hope you are well .”
"But, I'm not well now."
Chu Cheng hugged him, and coaxed him softly, "Don't do this, I know you have been mentally preparing for the last step, and now I suddenly say no, you will be surprised or even not understand, but this is me I don't want it anymore, so you will be better off in the future."
"Then what do you want?" Ji Qingzhou asked him blankly, "You have collected all seven cards, but you don't want them anymore, so what do you want?"
Chu Cheng let go of him, looked into his eyes, and said softly, "Give me a kiss."
Ji Qingzhou looked up at him, put his arms around his neck, and kissed him slowly. He closed his eyes and hid his tears under his eyelids. He opened them where Chu Cheng couldn't see, and his eyes were full of grievances and sadness.
That night, Ji Qingzhou slept very restlessly. He dreamed that Chu Cheng had left. He searched many places, but he couldn't find this person again. He murmured why, and someone answered him because it was time. He woke up from the dream in an instant, looked at Chu Cheng beside him in a daze, his eyes slowly turned red.
Ji Qingzhou got out of bed, walked to the living room, sat down quietly on the sofa, tears could not stop falling down.
He has never been so sad like today, and he has never realized so clearly that he likes Chu Cheng.
He liked Chu Cheng, so he wanted to give him everything, but Chu Cheng refused.
Ji Qingzhou has always been very clear about his position. He knows that Chu Cheng is his benefactor and he is Chu Cheng's lover. They have no future, so he never expects a future.
It's his own business that he likes Chu Cheng. Chu Cheng pampers him the way a gold master treats a little lover, and he loves him the way he treats his lover. Although the starting point is different, they get along very well.
Until today, until Chu Cheng refused to have a relationship with him, Ji Qingzhou felt that they were different for the first time. For him, having a relationship with his lover is a very normal thing. Even if the two of them are separated in the future, he still thinks it is normal. He never expects a long time, but only wants to live every day right now , so he is willing to do his best when he loves, and he will not regret it on the day he leaves.
When it comes to love, there is always the possibility of breaking up, especially the first love, but as long as the love is sweet enough and no one is sorry for anyone when breaking up, that's enough.
But Chu Cheng thinks from the perspective of a benefactor. He is afraid that his life will be stained, so he rejects him. In Chu Cheng's heart, he always belongs to others. Even if he is by his side now, in the future, He belongs to others.
At this moment, Ji Qingzhou completely saw Chu Cheng's thoughts. Chu Cheng really didn't like him, so he pushed him away. He wanted to give it, but Chu Cheng didn't want it.
Ji Qingzhou cried silently. From crossing to the present, for so long, he never felt that anything really made him uncomfortable, such as Wang Fang's serious illness, inexplicable nurturing, Chen Jiyuan's targeting, Fang Yaoxuan and Luo Yuxin's entanglement , he always felt that it was nothing, and it was not worth his troubles.
But this time, he really felt uncomfortable. He didn't ask Chu Cheng to like him, and he didn't ask Chu Cheng for his love. Give him the first person he likes.
But Chu Cheng refused.
What can he do? He didn't even dare to make this request with Chu Cheng again, for fear that he would ask himself why he was so persistent? Ask him if he likes him? Then terminate the transaction early.
He had no choice but to hide in a place where Chu Cheng couldn't see, and even cry secretly.
He covered his eyes with his hands, quietly, forbearably, without a sound, sobbing silently for his love.
When the light was on, Ji Qingzhou was a little startled, he could put down his hand, and when he turned his head, he saw Chu Cheng not far away.
Seeing his red eyes and wet tears, Chu Cheng woke up instantly, "Why are you crying?" He walked over.
Ji Qingzhou looked at him, tears came down again.
While wiping away his tears with a piece of paper, Chu Cheng asked him, "Why are you crying? Tell me what's the matter, why are you crying?"
Ji Qingzhou shook his head, smiled, and said to him, "It's okay."
"It's okay, are you crying here at night?"
"I'm having a nightmare." Ji Qingzhou said.
"What dream scares you like this?" Chu Cheng asked.
"I dreamed that you left." Ji Qingzhou looked at him.
Chu Cheng was stunned for a moment, Ji Qingzhou looked at him, "I left suddenly, I couldn't find it no matter how I looked."
As he spoke, tears started to fall again. Chu Cheng couldn't help him, so he coaxed him while wiping his tears, "I'm here right now, where can I go?"
Ji Qingzhou looked at him and hugged him.
Chu Cheng patted him on the back and comforted him, "It's okay, it's okay."
Ji Qingzhou leaned against him and didn't speak.
Chu Cheng coaxed him for a long time before saying, "Go back to your room and sleep, I was surprised to find that you were not there."
Ji Qingzhou nodded, and coquettishly said to him in his arms, "You take me back."
Chu Cheng laughed, feeling that he was really clingy, "You are just like a big white rabbit milk candy."
He said so, but still picked up Ji Qingzhou, carried him into the bedroom, and then came out to turn off the light.
Ji Qingzhou lay down again under the quilt, Chu Cheng went to bed and turned off the bedside lamp.
Ji Qingzhou hugged him and said to him, "Kiss me."
Chu Cheng felt that he was probably really scared by that dream, so he was so clingy to him all of a sudden, he lowered his head and kissed him, then hugged him tightly, coaxing, "Is it okay if I don't just kiss you, but also hold you?"
Ji Qingzhou nodded and said to him, "Kiss again."
Chu Cheng had no choice but to kiss him again, coaxing him, "It's just a dream, don't be afraid." He said while kissing him.
Ji Qingzhou was hugged and kissed by him, and his heart was less sad. He said, "Chu Cheng, thank you."
"We still say thank you to each other." Chu Cheng smiled.
Ji Qingzhou smiled and didn't speak.
He cried for a long time, and was tired now, and slowly fell asleep under Chu Cheng's kiss.
This time, he had a very good dream. He dreamed that Chu Cheng said, "Zhouzhou, don't be with others anymore. I like you. You can stay with me."
He nodded hurriedly, Chu Cheng looked at him with a smile, and he also looked at Chu Cheng with a smile.
That was really, really good dream.
When Ji Qingzhou woke up the next morning, Chu Cheng unexpectedly didn't go to work. Ji Qingzhou cast a surprised look at him, "Why didn't you go to work?"
"Didn't you cry last night because you dreamed that I was gone? I'm afraid that you won't see me when you get up this morning, and you thought your nightmare had come true, so you should feel bad again."
"No more." Ji Qingzhou froze for a moment, but slowly raised a smile at him, and said calmly, "No more."
He was too emotional yesterday because he had planned for so long but was rejected by Chu Cheng, so he couldn't restrain himself for a while. Now that he has calmed down, he won't do that kind of thing again.
Ji Qingzhou sat up, "Get up, I seem to have work tomorrow, I have to prepare today."
The author has something to say: I posted this chapter with fear, I was afraid that you would think it was cruel, but I think it’s okay, because this chapter is really a gift from Maggie, both of them are because they like each other and think about each other, Zhou Zhou I like Chu Cheng, so I want to drive with him, just like falling in love, and go all the way. Because Chu Cheng likes Zhou Zhou, he refuses to drive with him, hoping that he will have no stains and have a better future. Both of them like each other, it's just that the second idiot Chu Cheng didn't understand, that's why Zhou Zhou was sad, alas.
When I wrote this chapter, I thought about several versions, and there is also a peaceful transition version that is not like this, because I am afraid that you will feel abused, but in the end I chose this version, because this version is the most authentic portrayal of the two people, and it is also the most realistic portrayal of the two of them. A paragraph that best reflects the feelings for the other party. Chu Cheng wanted to sleep with him from the beginning, but now he gave Zhou Zhou everything, money, resources, favors, and still not sleeping. This is not what true love is! Don't worry, this is the most abusive part of the whole text. I don't abuse Zhouzhou, and Zhouzhou has a good mentality, so he will find a house and prepare to move in the next chapter. As for Chu Cheng, let him chase after him. In front of Zhouzhou, never think about Zhouzhou taking the initiative again!
There is another chapter~
Chapter Go to Chapter 96, Ninety Six
Ninety-six:
Seeing that he had returned to his usual state, Chu Cheng was relieved. He had been worried that Ji Qingzhou would cross the line and develop feelings for himself from a long time ago, so he confiscated Ji Qingzhou's initiative for a while, but later, because he didn't want him to feel uncomfortable, he returned the initiative to him.
After Ji Qingzhou fell asleep last night, Chu Cheng hugged him and kept thinking about his sentence "I dreamed that you left". He didn't expect Ji Qingzhou to cry because he dreamed that he left. He dreamed of I will cry when I leave, so what about when their contract expires and they really want to separate? Will Ji Qingzhou feel so uncomfortable
As soon as Chu Cheng thought of this possibility, he became upset for no reason. He didn't sleep well all night, and he didn't get up on time to go to the office in the morning. He looked at the person in his arms, feeling as bored as if it was going to rain weather.
Fortunately, Ji Qingzhou returned to his usual appearance after waking up, but Chu Cheng didn't know whether he was really all right or if he had put himself under a disguise. He has grown up so much, he has never been in love, and he has never liked anyone. He is afraid that Ji Qingzhou will like him, and he is also afraid that Ji Qingzhou will feel uncomfortable when he leaves.
He sighed silently, lifted the quilt and got out of bed.
The two ate together as usual, Chu Cheng saw that he was fine, so he went to the company. Ji Qingzhou sat on the sofa, thought quietly for a while, took out his mobile phone and sent a WeChat message to Lian Jingxing and Ying Nian: I will move in a month, and I want to rent a house. Is there any reliable house to recommend? Thanks.
Lian Jingxing was probably busy, so he didn't reply him, but Ying Nian quickly called and asked, "You want to find a house."
Ji Qingzhou nodded, "Yes."
His contract with Chu Cheng officially ended at the end of August and the beginning of September. With his current popularity, the house rented by the original owner was no longer suitable. He needed to find a new neighborhood with a better security system. But he didn't intend to let Chu Cheng know about this matter, so he could only consult Lian Jingxing and Ying Nian, otherwise, he could ask Zhou Chengfeng and Yu Anyi.
"Yes, yes," Ying Nian said, "But, didn't you ask Chu Cheng? He must have someone more reliable."
"I didn't ask him, I don't want to trouble him." Ji Qingzhou said.
He has troubled Chu Cheng a lot during the contract period, and now that the contract is about to end, he doesn't want to trouble Chu Cheng anymore, he always has to get used to the days without Chu Cheng.
Ying Nian had an intuition that something should have happened between them, but since Ji Qingzhou and Chu Cheng had always said that they were brothers, he didn't want to ask too much, and said, "The downstairs of the house I live in is renting out, if you If you are interested, you can come and have a look. The environment of the community is good, and the security system is also very good, one elevator for one household, and the elevator directly enters the door."
Ji Qingzhou thinks it's okay, "Then I'll go and have a look now."
"Are you in such a hurry?"
"If it's suitable, I want to settle it directly." Ji Qingzhou said, "No accident, I may move there in September."
"Well, then you come here."
"good."
Ying Nian hung up the phone and looked at his mobile phone, always feeling strange, why did Ji Qingzhou suddenly want to rent a house? Still ask yourself? There should be quite a few houses under Chu Cheng's name, so why let him rent a house? Ying Nian didn't understand very well, I just hoped that I was thinking too much.
Ji Qingzhou came very quickly. He made some disguises to make himself look less like him on the screen. Ying Nian smiled for a long time when he saw him, and took him downstairs to see the house.
The owner of the downstairs house left the house to his younger sister because she went abroad. The younger sister is going to college. She usually lives on campus and goes home during the holidays, so she listed this room for rent. She is not short of money, and seeing that Yingnian and Ji Qingzhou are good-looking, they did not quote high prices, so she said kindly, "If you rent for a long time, you can get a discount."
Ji Qingzhou looked around. This house is quite large, nearly 300 square meters, with a master bedroom, two second bedrooms, two guest bedrooms, and a study room. Although the whole house is large, its layout is reasonable and the decoration is very good. Cozy, the price is also very favorable, and the upstairs is the Spring Festival, which can be regarded as a care.
He thought it was good, and planned to rent it for half a year, which is not a long time, but the sister of the landlord still gave him a fraction of the rent and signed an agreement with him.
"We will be neighbors from now on." Ying Nian said.
Ji Qingzhou nodded, "Maybe I need to ask you to take care of me."
"Okay." Ying Nian looked at his watch, "Have you eaten? It's time for dinner."
"Let me invite you, just thank you for helping me introduce the house."
"also."
The two of them talked and went out for dinner.
During the meal, Lian Jingxing finally replied to Ji Qingzhou's WeChat: I was filming just now, do you want to rent a house? Does Chu Cheng know
Ji Qingzhou replied: He doesn't know, I didn't tell him.
Lian Jingxing didn't quite understand: Did you quarrel? Otherwise why didn't you tell him
Ji Qingzhou: There is no quarrel, but I am also an independent individual, and I don't need to bother him with everything.
Lian Jingxing felt that this matter was not so simple, so he asked Ji Qingzhou: Is it convenient for you to answer the phone? I'll call you.
Ji Qingzhou is still with Ying Nian, so he replied: I am with Ying Nian, it is not convenient, I will call you later.
"good."
Seeing that Lian Jingxing didn't ask any more questions, he put down his phone and heaved a sigh of relief. Lian Jingxing is different from Ying Nian, he and Ying Nian have always said that he and Chu Cheng are just brothers, so he left Chu Cheng to rent a house by himself, which is fine; but he and Lian Jingxing