Bai Songze thought about it for a long time and thought a lot.
In the living room, the ghost claiming to be Su Weixi had fallen asleep. Bai Songze waited for the ceiling with his eyes open, his mind tumbling like boiling water.
It's been almost a month since I couldn't sleep. As soon as I closed my eyes, there was a smiling face dripping with blood. The man called his name again and again, as if begging for an answer.
Meng Baiqing was not the culprit, but herself. Bai Songze's eyes dimmed when he got this recognition. He covered his eyes with his arms and wanted to smoke a cigarette, but when he saw the people huddled in a ball in the living room, the desire to smoke disappeared.
More painful than physical torture, Bai Songzejue's imaginings are his punishment. If a person dies, they will be slowly forgotten, and the murderer who eventually caused the death will also bury the guilt under the wash of time. , then this fantasy that is exactly the same as Su Wei Zhang's is probably the best reminder that he can't forget his crime.
It was he who killed his lover himself, and it was he who caused Suwish's death. Thinking of this, Bai Songze showed an extremely bitter smile.
He secretly went to Su Weixi's funeral. If he followed his usual temperament, he would definitely go there with great fanfare, and he might even take the right to hold Su Weixi's funeral from Su Weixi's parents.
But he didn't, and Bai Songze didn't know what happened to him. Not only did he not grab Su Weixi's body, he even sneaked away when he was buried. When the sound of crying was buried in the mud, Bai Songze completely realized that his lover would never come back.
Xianxian at home has been eating a box of cookies from nowhere. Xianxian is exactly the same as Su Weixi, from appearance to personality, and even some small movements, all of which are Suuweixi in his memory.
However, Bai Songze would never believe that there are ghosts in the world, because if Su Weixi really turns into a ghost, it must be a serious ghost. After all, Bai Songze replaced himself with such a wrongful death. If he was treated like this If it is himself, then he will mercilessly kill the initiator with his own hands.
However, Bai Songze had forgotten an important reality, Su Weixi was not him.
When Su Weixi asked Bai Songze to die, Bai Songze thought about it very seriously for a while. He looked at the man curled up on the sofa with his bare feet and felt a little distressed for some reason. If what was in front of him was really Su Weixi's Soul, is it because of his own reasons that he can't be reincarnated
Bai Songze, who was thinking like this, didn't notice that he had entered an infinite loop.
Long-term insomnia and Su Weixi's death have caused irreversible damage to Bai Songze's spirit. He began to lose his appetite and began to try to explain some of his death to his relatives.
Bai Longqi, as the younger brother who is closest to Bai Songze, naturally sees these changes in his brother very clearly. He watched Bai Songze's original indestructible armor slowly weathering, and Bai Songze became haggard little by little.
"Brother, what's wrong with you?" Bai Longqi has asked this question countless times.
When Bai Songze heard this, he would return to two words without raising his head: "It's okay."
fine? It didn't look like it was okay, Bai Longqi became a little anxious. He wanted Bai Songze to go to the hospital for an examination, but he was afraid that Bai Songze would not agree.
"No need to check." When Bai Longqi first suggested going to the hospital, Bai Songze stopped what he was doing. He glanced at Bai Longqi silently. After a long time, he said lightly: "Long Qi, I can't protect you forever."
"..." Bai Longqi choked, he heard Bai Songze's determination from these words: "Brother, is that Su Weixi so important? Is it more important than me?"
"I should have listened to your advice." Bai Songze frowned slightly and looked at Bai Longqi tenderly: "I regret it now, it's too late, Long Qi, if you meet someone who makes your heart move in the future, you will But don't learn from me."
"...Brother." Bai Longqi said sternly: "He is already dead, but you still have to live. You look like this...Brother, listen to me, don't treat yourself like this, okay?"
"He didn't die." Bai Songze sighed again: "If I don't die, he won't be able to rest in peace even if he dies, besides..."
"Don't lie to yourself, he is dead!!!!" Bai Longqi's temper is very good, rarely when he is so irritable, but Bai Songze's words have completely touched his dead end, he knows He felt that Bai Songze was going to do something he absolutely didn't want to see.
"Longqi, don't be self-willed." Bai Songze stopped paying attention to Bai Longqi after saying this. His energy is very low now, and it is difficult to get distracted to quarrel with Bai Longqi. He still has a lot to do.
On the day of the quarrel with Bai Longqi, Bai Songze agreed to Su Weixi's request.
He looked at Su Weixi, who should have been imaginary, with a familiar smile, and then said to him, "Bai Songze, will you die?"
This is not the first time Su Weixi made this request, but Bai Songze unexpectedly felt shaken. Perhaps it was Su Weixi's gentle tone, perhaps it was a familiar smile, or perhaps he could no longer bear the mental torture, Bai Songze agreed. Sousch's request - to die.
"Give me a year." Bai Songze, who made the decision, was still calm. He said, "Give me a year, and then I will die."
There was not much surprise in his expression, Su Weixi nodded, and then continued to eat the biscuits that he seemed to never finish.
If you had one more year to live, what would you do? Bai Songze has never thought about such a hypocritical question, because in his position, he can live one day at a time, and the distant future is not something he can imagine.
But when his life has a deadline, Bai Songze has no interest in giving up on himself or enjoying life like ordinary people. He still has a lot of things to do, and a year is really not a long time.
Everyone on the road said that Bai Songze was crazy, and it was completely fatal to deal with his opponents. His own safety, which he usually cared a little about, became a cloud in the sky at this time. Bai Songze was crazy, so there was a bloody storm on the underworld.
Bai Longqi finally stopped trying to persuade Bai Songze. He saw his brother's determination and understood that no matter how much he said, he couldn't change Bai Songze's thoughts. Since he couldn't change it, let's adapt.
Bai Longqi began to accept the affairs of the Bai family and began to try to stand in Bai Songze's position.
Only by standing in that position can he truly appreciate what kind of life Bai Songze lived. Bai Long Qijue, who is a doctor, was a nightmare. He tried to keep Bai Songze, who had decided to retire.
"Longqi." Bai Songze didn't tell Bai Longqi what he thought directly, he just smiled indifferently, and repeated the sentence again: "I can't protect you for a lifetime."
"You can do it, brother, you can do it." Bai Longqi almost choked.
"I can't." Bai Songze lowered his eyelashes, his originally beautiful face became severely emaciated due to insomnia and anorexia, and he looked a bit coquettish: "I still have my own things to do, Long Qi, You can't be so selfish, I spent half my life putting up an umbrella for you, now it's your turn."
"Brother..." Bai Longqi didn't dare to believe: "What are you going to do?"
"That's not something you should ask." If it was the former Bai Songze, he would have stood up and left, but after this period of time, his patience has obviously improved a lot. Bai Songze didn't look at Bai Longqi. Straight to: "Now there is only one thing you have to do - learn to deal with these things, you are from the Bai family, and there is such blood in your bones."
Whether Bai Longqi is willing or not, Bai Songze has already made up his mind.
Bai Songze began to pave the way for his younger brother's future, and he began to clean up those who were eyeing the Bai family.
This kind of cleanup comes at a price. When Bai Songze was hit by a stray bullet in the abdomen, he even thought he would die just like that. He came over abruptly, he thought, he must tell the idiot before he died, although he thought it was his own fantasy, but in case it was really Suweisi's soul, he died like this... Suweixi will not Will you be unhappy
The desperate Bai Songze is very scary. He didn't take other people's lives seriously at first, and now he doesn't even want his own life. A desperate lunatic, who would dare to provoke him
During that time, the public security in City C was extremely poor, and large-scale gang fights occurred from time to time. Bai Songze often sat alone on the roof of Shuimunianhua with a gun, staring at the place downstairs where Su Weixi had jumped.
No one knew what he was thinking, and no one knew what he was trying to do.
A year is not long, but it is enough for Bai Longqi to grow up, and it is not too short to say that, but Bai Songze still waited until the date when he fulfilled his promise.
"Su Weixi." Bai Songze looked at the hallucination that had been with him for a whole year, and the first smile at the beginning of the new year appeared on his emaciated face: "It's time for me to fulfill my promise."
"Ah..." Su Weixi ate cookies for a whole year, but he didn't feel bored, but found that there were fewer and fewer cookies on the table: "How fast is a year?"
"It's pretty fast." Bai Songze reached out to touch Su Weixi's face, but passed through his body. He sighed and said, "Let's go, let's fulfill the promise I made to you."
"Really?" Su Weixi tilted his head, he thought Bai Songze had long forgotten.
"Really." Bai Songze smiled like a flower. He hadn't been in such a good mood for a long time. It was like the first time he saw Su Weixi smiling at him. It was so sunny, like the brightest sky in spring.