What is death like, cold or warm? When the warm blood slowly flows from the body, when the body gradually becomes stiff, and some memories that seem to have been forgotten slip through the head, is such a death full of sweet taste for Bai Songze
Bai Songze was sitting on the sofa with a sharp knife in his hand. He looked at Su Weixi who was huddled beside him, with a rare smile on his face: "I wanted to try jumping off a building, but I didn't know. Can you accompany me, or choose another way to die."
"How do you want to die?" Su Weixi chewed on the biscuits and looked at Bai Songze seriously.
"Cut your wrists." Bai Songze's tone was very relaxed, and he said lightly: "It seems that the only way to die is to look better in death?"
"Oh." Su Weixi replied softly, the death of jumping off a building or something was really hard to see.
"You said you were really stupid. Why did you choose to jump off the building? Even if you choose to cut your wrists or take sleeping pills, it looks better than the death of jumping off the building." Counting like a joke, Bai Songze held his right hand mercilessly. The hilt of the knife slashed hard on his left hand.
"...Because I'm a little bit afraid of pain." Seeing a lot of blood gushing out of Bai Songze's wrist, Su Weixi felt unusually uncomfortable. He stammered: "You, are you not in pain? Bai Songze..."
"What kind of pain is this." Bai Songze smiled softly. Compared with the injuries he had suffered before, it was nothing compared to what he had suffered.
"But so much blood..." Su Weixi was inexplicably nervous. He wanted to continue looking for cookies to eat, but found that there were only three cookies left on the table.
"It's okay." Bai Songze's skin was originally white, but now it is almost transparent due to the massive blood loss. With a warm smile on his thin face, he looks like a young man in love who is going to greet his lover.
"Bai Songze..." Su Weixi watched the blood gurgling out from Bai Songze's wrist, and felt that the pain in the heart was unbearable... Indeed, it is not a pleasant thing to witness a person's suicide with his own eyes.
"Don't watch it if you don't want to." Bai Songze's lips also began to turn white, and he breathed softly, "It's nothing to see."
"Bai Songze, I forgive you." I don't know why he said such a thing, but Su Weixi couldn't control himself, it hurts too much... That hideous wound looks too painful...
"Idiot." Bai Songze laughed a little after hearing Su Weixi's words. He raised his blood-stained right hand to touch Su Weixi's face... but he didn't pass through Su Weixi's body.
"...You." Su Weixi was also frightened by Bai Songze's touch.
"It's probably really going to die." Bai Songze was reluctant to let go, he made a funny joke: "Because I'm going to become the same soul as you, so I can meet you right?"
"Idiot!!! You, you, you are not allowed to die!!!" Su Weixi was furious, and he found that he still couldn't accept witnessing the death of others.
"This is really nothing to discuss." Bai Songze laughed haha, then picked up the knife on the table with his right hand, and made a knife on his left hand whose blood was a little coagulated: "Don't you know me, what I decide , when did it change?"
"Bai Songze!!" Su Weixi almost wanted to roar: "Don't think I won't blame you if you die, do you think you can get my forgiveness if you die in front of me??"
"How dare you." Bai Songze's tone was as soft as a floating feather: "Su Weixi, I never ask you to forgive me."
"Then who are you showing this picture to??" Su Weixi felt that he was going to be killed by this bastard Bai Songze... Oh no, he has already been killed by this bastard, and he will not find peace in death.
"..." Bai Songze stopped talking. He lowered his eyelashes and quietly looked at Su Weixi, who was very emotional in front of him. The way Su Weixi felt like he had been stabbed in a big hole - when had he seen Bai Songze so quiet before? like
"Sigh..." The blood dripping from Bai Songze's wrist had covered the floor, and the warm blood slowly emerged from the ferocious wound and flowed down the wrist to the cold floor.
Bai Songze sighed, but he didn't know what to say. He had already said what he had to say. The only thing he had to do now was to wait for death to come. The wound on his wrist was very painful. Get cold.
Hallucinations began to appear in front of Bai Songze's eyes.
He half-opened his eyes and looked at the dead Suweisi wearing a white shirt, smiling and talking to people. Suweixi's tone was so brisk, as if nothing could spoil his good mood.
Then Bai Songze looked at the person who was talking to Su Weixi and turned his head, looking at him blankly, and his breathing became a little difficult, because that person had the exact same face as him.
"Bai Songze, don't die." Su Weixi wanted to wake up Bai Songze, who was about to close his eyes, but found that he couldn't touch his body. It was obvious that Bai Songze touched his face just now, so why is he touching him now? Not yet?
Bai Songze would no longer answer Su Weixi's words. The massive blood loss brought him to the brink of death. He was already addicted to hallucinations and could not extricate himself.
"You don't want to die..." Su Weixi finally witnessed Bai Songze's departure. He wanted to remedy something, but found that the only thing he could do was to eat the piece of music left on the table at the end of Bai Songze's life. biscuit.
"It's really unpalatable..." Su Weixi swallowed the last cookies one by one, the tears on his face could not stop, he wanted to say that he still hated Bai Songze, but he couldn't ignore the shaking in his heart.
In fact, from the very beginning, when he came to Bai Songze's house, he never thought that Bai Songze would commit suicide. He knew this arrogant and arrogant man too well, and suicide was an unacceptable insult to him.
Only the weak will commit suicide, and only the weak will have the idea of escaping this world. Before today, Su Weixi always thought that Bai Songze would not fulfill his promise, but it was not until the moment when Bai Songze raised the blade that Su Weixi finally understood that Bai Songze I really don't want to live anymore.
Why doesn't he want to live? Su Weixi wanted to lie to himself, or find a reason for himself, but the truth was there - it was because he told Bai Songze to die that Bai Songze made such a choice.
So they just got it right? Su Weixi didn't notice that his body became superficially transparent. He was immersed in the bloody scene in front of him and couldn't extricate himself. He didn't even realize that he had finished eating the cookies.
In fact, it is very simple to open here. After eating these cookies, you can leave. In a vague way, Su Weixi heard a familiar voice. He lowered his head and looked at the cookie crumbs in his hands. licked clean.
The warm sunlight came in from the transparent floor-to-ceiling windows. Su Weixi watched as he slowly dissipated into a fine dust. In the end, he said a word to Bai Songze, who was unconscious: "I don't blame you. ."
When Bai Songze died, there was not much pain. Aside from the coldness of the blood loss and some better-than-nothing pain, the death could be said to be perfect.
Bai Songze once imagined the scene after death, and secretly fantasized about whether he could find Su Weixi in the form of a soul, but when he really entered the arms of the god of death, he realized that there was nothing in the world after death.
There is no light, no sound, not even the flow of air. He is like a little dust floating in the boundless darkness. He has self-consciousness, but he can't think about it. He just has a general impression— he died.
Died from excessive blood loss and died in his own home, Bai Songze was floating, and he didn't know how long time had passed. He finally saw a light at the end of the darkness.
"Brother, brother." Someone was calling his name.
"Brother, get up quickly, mom will be angry if you don't get up again." Is Bai Longqi calling him
"Brother!! I beg you, if you are late again, you will definitely be fired." What does this mean
Slowly opening his eyes, Bai Songze covered his face with his arms because of the dazzling light.
"Don't sleep." When he came over a little, he could see clearly the anxious young man in front of him, Bai Songze frowned slightly: "Long Qi?"
"Brother..." The boy was crying, as if he had no choice but to say, "Don't make trouble."
"I'm not dead?" Bai Songze's face suddenly became ugly, but he soon realized that something was wrong... Bai Longqi, this boy looks so small, and he listens to all the words he said. don't know
"What date is it today?" Bai Songze's voice trembled.
"No. 10, school starts today!" Bai Longqi couldn't take it anymore.
"...Which year and month?" Bai Songze's voice trembled more and more.
"...1992." Bai Longqi said angrily.
"..." Bai Songze stopped talking, he stared at the ceiling, and suddenly realized... God gave him a big surprise that couldn't be bigger.
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When Su Weixi woke up, his expression was very grim. He looked at the calendar on the wall, and then looked at himself shrunk in the mirror. He didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
"1992?" Su Weixi tilted his head and muttered, "It's not true..."
"Su Weixi, hurry up, you won't be able to catch the bus any longer." A familiar voice sounded at the door.
"... Yu Linfei." Su Weixi opened the door and saw his old friend.
"Hurry up!!!" Yu Linfei said anxiously, "I won't wait for you if you are dawdling."
"Okay." Su Weixi smiled.
Now that he has been reborn... Then all of this, let's start all over again. No matter what Bai Songze is not Bai Songze, the bastard doesn't know where on earth he is at this moment.