I will never forget that night.
That night, when I acted, I accidentally exposed my tracks, and was chased all the way to the alley in the backyard of Uncle Anjing's mansion.
I remember very clearly that the moon was high that night, and I was seriously injured and I couldn't escape anymore, so I found a low wall and climbed over it, planning to find a place to hide temporarily and wait for Lian Xin to come to rescue me.
I deliberately found a courtyard in a big house that looked dilapidated and dilapidated, and it would not be inhabitable at first glance.
But I didn't expect that just after I hid in a corner, a person quietly came out of that room, and it just so happened that the person walked in the direction of me.
I held my breath at that time, I had already grasped the dagger in my right hand, and I was staring at her closely, with a cold gleam in my phoenix eyes.
Fortunately, the man stopped ten steps away from me and looked up at the bright moon in the sky.
The moonlight was beautiful, and I could clearly see that the person standing not far in front of me was a little girl, to be precise, a very pretty girl.
I never look at a girl because she is beautiful, but this girl is an exception, because... I have to make sure she won't find me, so I keep staring at her, but staring, I feel that this girl is watching It is indeed pleasing to the eye.
The girl looked up at the moon in the courtyard for a while, but suddenly choked up and said, "Father, mother, I want to go home, I don't want to stay here..."
The voice was soft and waxy, which matched her appearance.
Later, the girl suddenly knelt down and hugged her knees and began to cry.
I cautiously hid aside, not daring to disturb the girl who was crying at night.
I was afraid that if she yelled out, she would expose herself.
I just watched her cry for half an hour, and listened to her cry for half an hour.
Half an hour later, a light was finally turned on in the courtyard, and a girl who looked like a maid came out and brought the poor crying girl back into the house. I could still faintly hear the maid complaining, saying that she Disturbed people's dreams.
Lian Xin, who had arrived early in the morning, dared to come out to meet me.
Before leaving, I looked back at the dilapidated house. I was lonely and helpless, and I must be a poor man with a wicked servant and bullying master.
But how many people in the world are not pitiful? He, Chu Yan, couldn't even help himself, so why talk about others
This was just a small episode, one that was not worth mentioning in Chu Yan's life.
I was lucky enough to escape this catastrophe, and within a few days, I heard that my fiancée had changed, from the eldest girl of Uncle Anjing's mansion to fifth girl.
Well, it has changed.
I've never been interested in this kind of thing. It's just a woman. It doesn't matter whether she belongs to the Su family or the Wang family, and it doesn't matter how she behaves, as long as it can calm Xiao Shi down.
Anyway, whoever I marry is the same for me.
"My lord, I heard that Miss Su Wu is quite attractive, do you want to go and see?"
For Lian Xin's joke, I didn't even bother to lift my eyelids, but for some reason, when Lian Xin mentioned the words "Looking Alluring", I suddenly thought of that girl who was crying quietly at night.
Uncle Anjing's Mansion... If I remember correctly, the courtyard I broke into that day is also the boundary of Uncle Anjing's Mansion.
At this moment, my heart throbbed inexplicably.
"Lian Xin, find a way to get a portrait of Miss Su Wu."
It was only after the words were spoken that I realized that these words came from me.
Lian Xin's work efficiency is very high. That night, I saw the portrait on my desk.
Seeing this portrait, I was taken aback for a moment, but the corners of my mouth raised involuntarily.
Because I suddenly have some expectations.
Not long after, I accidentally heard that she was going to a banquet at the residence, so I took a special look at her from a distance.
This is also the first time I saw her appearance clearly, she is very beautiful, even more beautiful than what I saw that night.
In the crowd, once she was dressed in red, she was already a thousand youths just standing there, but she was so beautiful without knowing it, she just timidly followed behind her sister-in-law, at a loss in the face of everything around her.
Silly, but extraordinarily innocent.
At that moment, for the first time, I felt a desire to protect a woman.
That's right, I look forward to marrying her in and taking care of her in my arms for the rest of my life.
A few days later, Prince Jing said that he would choose a marriage partner, and I readily agreed, looking at the word "Su Yan" on the marriage certificate.
That's when I learned her name.
Su Yan.
Su Yan.
Su Yan.
I read it three times until I got the name into my heart before I put away the engagement book.
Time passed by so slowly, and the affairs of the seventh prince and I were gradually getting on the right track. At this moment, the emperor suddenly announced that King Qin would enter the capital, disrupting the court.
This caught the Seventh Prince and I by surprise. During the countless difficult nights when I was exhausted, when I couldn't sleep, I would go back and sit on the wall of Uncle Anjing's mansion for a while.
Because, through that window, I can see her light and shadow.
I don't know why, but just knowing that she is in the house makes me feel at ease.
Later, the situation in the court became more and more tense, King Qin was crowned prince, and the seventh prince had no choice but to draw his salary from the bottom of the pot, and sent me out to do something that could change the situation.
After this trip, I'm not sure if I can come back safely. Before I leave Beijing, I want to see her.
Really meet each other.
Maybe it was a coincidence that I chose the day on the seventh day of July, which is the day when Cowherd and Weaver Girl meet.
I am very happy.
I tricked her out of the mansion, who usually stays out of the gate, and specially wore a blue shirt—Gein, once my mother and concubine praised me for looking good in blue, I think she should also like this color .
At the Lantern Festival, I tricked people to disperse her and her sisters.
And I inadvertently took off the tight curtain on her head.
This is the first time I have made such a move, and to be honest, I am still a little nervous.
It was obviously the first time for that silly girl to encounter such a scene. At that time, she looked around in a daze, as if she was looking for her servants.
I watched quietly from the side, with an unconscious smile on my lips. Seeing that the little girl was about to cry in a hurry, I walked to the front with the curtain.
"This fence belongs to a girl?"
This is the closest time in my life to her. I even rehearsed the tone of my speech many times in advance, for fear of being abrupt.
I was so flustered that I couldn't express it, I didn't even dare to see her reaction, so I left in a panic.
Later, when I recalled that day, I regretted it, regretted that I didn't say a few words to her, regretted that I missed her just like that.
after…
I suddenly dared not say any more.
After that, I asked Lian Xin to escort her home safely, while I left the capital day and night to plan important affairs for the Seventh Prince.
Oh, that's right, it's the so-called big event.
When I left, I was so ambitious, I swore that when I came back, I would marry her in a grand manner and never let anyone bully her again.
But when I return to the capital, I have indeed achieved great things, and I have indeed helped the Seventh Prince to turn the tide of adversity.
At this time, I suddenly discovered that everything has changed.
The moment I heard the news of Su Yan's death, I lost all my sanity in an instant. I seemed to be possessed at that moment. When they arrived at Uncle Anjing's mansion, they almost slaughtered his whole family.
But when I calmed down, I suddenly felt that everything I had done was meaningless.
Even if there are tens of thousands of soldiers in hand, even if one person is less than ten thousand, without her, all of this is meaningless.
Even if I slaughter all the people in the world, she won't be able to come back.
On the day I rushed into the Prince's Mansion, the court was in turmoil, but no matter how cruel and fierce the war in Beijing was, I never paid attention to it.
I just held a jug in my hand, staggered to her grave, brought her out of the cold tomb, and carefully buried her on the other side of the hill where my mother and concubine were. .
I think, the scenery here is beautiful, she must like it, and she will sleep comfortably.
I'll be buried here when I'm gone.
Stay with her forever.
I thought I should set up a monument, so I went to pick a rock myself, carried it back and carved it into a tombstone.
His expression is very gentle when he writes.
The tomb of his beloved wife Su Shi.
A tear fell on the tombstone, and it broke into several petals in an instant.
I don't know how long I stayed in front of her grave, until one day, the turmoil in the capital had been quelled, and the person who became emperor found him.
"Is it worth it for a dead woman?"
I looked back and saw that the man didn't speak, and turned my head to look at the words on the tombstone, a trace of tenderness flashed in my eyes.
Worth it, of course it is.
"Come back with me, don't waste your time here."
As if I had never heard what that person said, I still sat on her grave for a long time, stroking the words on the tombstone over and over again, my eyes full of sadness.
Later, I don't know how long it took, someone told me that there is a great power in this world that can bring people back to life.
I don't know what I was thinking at the time, and I actually believed this kind of nonsense.
I found the monk and tried everything to get him to agree to me.
It's just that the monk said: "Amitabha, since the benefactor is so obsessed with it, then this old monk will help you once. It's just that this is an act of changing fate against the sky, and the benefactor has to bear the consequences caused by this."
I agreed without thinking about it.
Take it, of course I will.
As long as she can survive, I will accept everything.
That night, I had a dream. In the dream, she sat in front of me with a smile like a flower: "Husband, can we be together for the rest of our lives?"
I want to say yes, I want to say a lot, but I don't have a chance to say it.
The night passed, and I never woke up again.
Also on this night, white lanterns were hung at the gate of Prince Jin's Mansion.
Everyone said that Prince Jin's fate was not good, and he died young after he achieved glory.
Only the followers around me know that when I was dying, there was a smile on my lips.
My only pity is.
Until the moment of my death, I never told her that my name was Chu Yan.
My only regret is.
I failed to say to her personally, I am pleased with you.
The only thing I look forward to is.
If she can really come back to life, she can hear herself say it with her own ears.
Su Yan, I am pleased with you.
Su Yan, I am pleased with you.
Su Yan.
I am happy with you.