Reborn to Strive

Chapter 78

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After Guan Baiyu woke up, he never fell asleep again.

The next day he went to the class, and it was dark now.

Seeing him like this, his tablemates were worried: "Guan Baiyu, although you love to study, you should also pay attention to your body, so don't be too tired!"

Guan Baiyu smiled at him: "I'm fine."

Although he said that, he couldn't help but be in a trance when he was in class.

He didn't know if it was time to be thankful that he had previewed these contents before, so even if he didn't listen carefully, he wouldn't miss his homework.

At noon, Guan Baiyu went to the cafeteria as usual, and as soon as he got there, he saw Liang Qinxuan waving at him: "Bai Yu! This way!"

Liang Qinxuan and the basketball team who got along well with him were all there, and the table was still full of vegetables. When Guan Baiyu approached, Liang Qinxuan said, "After my dad left yesterday, let my cousin give it to me. Come here for a thousand dollars, I will treat you today, everyone can eat."

It is said that despite eating, there is not much food in the school cafeteria, and there are only a few meat dishes that come and go.

Liang Qinxuan didn't think it was delicious, so he took a ham sausage to eat.

When Guan Baiyu approached, Liang Qinxuan noticed Guan Baiyu's face and was a little worried: "Bai Yu, why are your dark circles so heavy?"

"I had a nightmare last night, and I haven't slept since then," Guan Baiyu said.

"I also had a nightmare yesterday. I dreamed that I was caught in the video room." Liang Qinxuan grabbed his hair and sighed: "But after I woke up, I turned over and fell asleep again."

Guan Baiyu rolled his eyelids, glanced at Liang Qinxuan, then lowered his head and continued to eat.

If he was just caught, it was nothing to him.

He... dreamed of his brother.

He didn't even know why he dreamed of his brother.

In the dream, he and his brother were still... making out.

Thinking of that scene, Guan Baiyu's movements froze again, and he lost his appetite to eat.

How happy he was in the dream, how terrified he is now.

When he was in junior high school, he didn't live in school, he didn't have any friends, and he didn't read any extracurricular books. He didn't understand many things, even the relationship between men and women, he was ignorant.

He occasionally watches TV and sees a man and a woman kissing together, and then having a child... He once thought that by kissing mouth to mouth and exchanging saliva, he could have a child.

It wasn't until he entered high school that there were eight people in a dormitory, and he began to change his voice, grow taller, and have some physiological phenomena that were unique to men... Only then did he slowly learn something he didn't know before.

But he didn't pay much attention to the girls in the class. He didn't think there was anything wrong with it, he thought he just wanted to concentrate on his studies.

After all, he didn't pay attention to the boys in the class. He always felt that those people were too naive, they were all babbling, and they were not as stable as his brother.

None of these people can match his brother's appearance, how tall is his brother! Eyes, noses, eyebrows, lips, there is not a single place to look bad.

But now... he felt that something was wrong with him.

Guan Baiyu wanted to see Shi Zhen very much, and wanted to ask Shi Zhen what happened to him.

But soon, he realized that he couldn't ask.

He really wanted to kiss his brother, if his brother knew about this... Would he feel disgusted

Guan Baiyu couldn't imagine what his brother would think of him after he knew that he had such perverted thoughts.

He also started to care about more things.

For example, his recent voice is really bad.

Before his brother said it was okay, he was relieved, but now again... I don't want his brother to hear his voice.

Although Guan Baiyu had no appetite, he didn't like to waste it. He picked up some dishes with strong flavors and ate the rice in his bowl mechanically.

His appearance made Liang Qinxuan, who wanted to say something, hesitate several times.

"Is something wrong?" Guan Baiyu asked him.

"Well...it's nothing..." Liang Qinxuan said, "This Saturday is my birthday on the lunar calendar. Would you like to celebrate my birthday?"

"Saturday? I want to go home." Guan Baiyu said.

Liang Qinxuan's best friend now is Guan Baiyu, and he feels that only Guan Baiyu is devoted to him.

He wanted Guan Baiyu to celebrate his birthday with him.

"When the time comes, I will let someone pick you up, and then send you back when I'm done, how about it?"

"Don't be so troublesome." Guan Baiyu said.

Liang Qinxuan was still a little unwilling to give up: "I don't make up the class at four o'clock on Saturday afternoon. Let's go roller skating first, and then go to eat hot pot... Are you really not going?"

"I'm not going," Guan Baiyu said after thinking for a while, "I'll bring you gifts when I come back on Sunday."

"Okay." Liang Qinxuan sighed, but he could understand Guan Baiyu.

Guan Baiyu has such a good relationship with his brother, he definitely wants to go back to see his brother.

As for him... Thinking of outsiders at home, he didn't want to celebrate his birthday at home. He had already made up his mind to invite his classmates to play happily outside.

Originally, he wanted to take his classmates to sing, and he also planned to drink some wine... He has always been curious about these.

But recently, he has been frightened a lot, so he doesn't dare to go to places like that. He only dares to go roller skating and eat hot pot.

It's a pity that Guan Baiyu didn't go to roller skating and eating hot pot.

Fortunately, the few people who went to the video hall with him and established the basketball team of revolutionary friendship were willing to go!

As for his former Hu Peng Gou friends... Haha, none of them barked!

Originally, he did not tear his face with them, and occasionally talked to them, but the video room they recommended to him turned out to be such a place... He wants to break up with these people!

This week, Guan Baiyu has been in a bad state.

In the end, even the teacher came to take care of him, and told him not to work too hard in his studies, but to pay attention to rest.

Guan Baiyu was seldom cared so much before, but now he was touched, but he couldn't help feeling ashamed.

No one knew that he was actually a pervert.

At noon on Friday, Guan Baiyu, who used to be the first to get on the bus, rarely ran away.

Then I didn't get on the first bus.

Guan Baiyu: "..."

There are very few buses in their urban area, and there are not many people on board. He can only wait for the next bus. After finally reaching the station, there is a long queue here, many of which are students who want to go home.

After all this tossing, when Guan Baiyu arrived in Anshan Town, it was already the new hour in the afternoon.

As soon as he got out of the car, he saw Shi Zhen waiting outside.

"Brother!" Guan Baiyu happily waved at Shi Zhen.

A smile also appeared on Shi Zhen's face: "Xiao Yu."

Shi Zhen just let out a cry, then he restrained his smile and frowned: "Xiao Yu, why are your dark circles so heavy? Did you not rest well?"

"It's a little bit." Guan Baiyu was a little embarrassed.

Shi Zhendao: "Although learning is important, you should also pay attention to your body..."

Shi Zhen was just talking like this, and every sentence was full of concern, which made Guan Baiyu feel a little ashamed.

His brother is so good, how could he have such terrible thoughts about his brother!

"Brother, have you been waiting for a long time?"

"It didn't take long." Shi Zhen said, he did wait for a while, but it was nothing.

Now the buses in Changxi City are yellow, very small, about the same as vans. Guan Baiyu didn't squeeze on them, so it's normal to come back late.

"Well." Guan Baiyu lowered his head.

Shi Zhen asked again, "Did something happen to you?"

Guan Baiyu said: "It's nothing, the main thing is that what Liang Qinxuan encountered was too scary, especially scary!"

"What happened to him again?" Shi Zhen asked.

Guan Baiyu talked about the video room, and of course, he emphasized that after he went in, he found something wrong, and immediately took people away.

"It's still Xiaoyu who is the smartest and most alert." Shi Zhendao felt a little sympathetic to Liang Qinxuan.

Seriously, thanks to Bai Yu, otherwise, with his current status, it would be impossible for him to be friends with Liang Qinxuan, nor to help Liang Qinxuan.

If Liang Qinxuan encounters all these things one by one... It would be terrifying to think about.

Guan Baiyu smiled.

Shi Zhen saw that Guan Baiyu was a little sluggish, and thought that Guan Baiyu was frightened by the affairs of Liang Qinxuan's family.

Although Guan Baiyu's living conditions were not good in the past, he had never encountered this kind of calculation and felt that it was normal to be afraid.

Shi Zhen thought so, and comforted Guan Baiyu a few words.

Guan Baiyu gave Shi Zhen a complicated look.

Shi Zhen was going to Wang's house in the afternoon, but Guan Baiyu didn't follow him this time. He was lying on the bed, thinking about all the things that happened in the past.

Actually... he's always been abnormal.

It's just that he didn't know that he had such thoughts before.

And what will he do after that

If he respects his heart... He doesn't want to have other people around his brother, it is best for his brother not to get married and stay with him forever.

And he... He swears that he will be nice to his brother!

But this is clearly not possible.

How could his brother not get married!

Then he... wants to watch his brother get married and have children

In the past, Guan Baiyu was unwilling to think about this, and now he is even more unwilling to think about it.

He took a deep breath and went to Guan Jianguo's side to talk to Shi Xingchao.

Shi Xingchao likes Guan Baiyu very much. After all, Guan Baiyu looks good. The most important thing is... Guan Baiyu doesn't spend his money, why doesn't he like it

This time, Guan Baiyu focused on asking some things about Shi Zhen's past.

Shi Xingchao didn't think much about it, and said a lot. He is a man and always plays with Shi Zhen. Shi Zhen knows more about Shi Ting than Shi Ting.

"Do many people like my brother?" Guan Baiyu asked.

"There are many people who like Shi Zhen. After all, he is so handsome, but his family was poor before, and he didn't even have a house of his own. If people like it, it's another matter whether to marry or not. It's different now. Now, if he goes back, he will take care of the girl who has no target in the ten miles and eight townships." Shi Xingchao said, "Don't say anything else... He has a tractor!" At their place, there is a tractor to pull the wind.

"Does my brother have someone he likes?"

"That's not true. He was still young and had a good eye. When he was a child, he said that he wanted to marry a mother like that... You don't know, he was very beautiful and could read. At that time, when the villagers wanted to write couplets or something, they would look for her. Mom, the mother can write completely different things," Shi Xingchao said of his aunt, a little sighed, "When he was a child, his mother still grabbed him and made him memorize the "Three Character Classic"... I tell you, he will definitely still be Back! Even the clothes made for him look better than others, even if she is not in good health, the doctors there can't see anything, and she will die when she is sick."

Guan Baiyu chatted a lot with Shi Xingchao.

His brother had never been better than him before.

An eight-year-old child suddenly lost his mother, and he knew how uncomfortable it would be. It is better to be like him, who has never seen his mother.

And now, his brother's life has gotten better and better.

It's just bad luck that he raised such a pervert.

Guan Baiyu didn't know what was wrong with him, but it was always wrong. He was entangled in his heart, but he didn't show anything on his face.

While chatting, the sound of the tractor sounded, Guan Baiyu ran out the door, and saw Shi Zhen come back.

He rushed over subconsciously: "Brother!"

But Shi Zhen reached out and stopped him: "Don't get too close, I'm dirty."

The work on the construction site could not be so clean. He was busy for a while in the afternoon, and now he was covered in dust.

Guan Baiyu didn't dare to approach, for fear that he would not hold back and do something terrible.

Shi Zhen said again: "You cook, I'll take a bath."

"Yeah." Guan Baiyu responded.

Shi Zhen has a lot of loose money recently, and he bought some things on the spot at home, such as a rice cooker.

Cooking with a rice cooker is still very fast. When Guan Baiyu was washing rice, he saw a silver carp in a large basin next to the stove.

Guan Baiyu knew that when he was away, Shi Zhen and the others would usually buy pork and scrambled eggs occasionally.

But as long as he comes back, chickens, ducks, fish, etc., Shi Zhen will always get some back.

"You cook the vegetables first, and I'll kill the fish." Shi Zhen walked in again, and when he was about to take a bath, he remembered that the fish had not been killed.

People eat fish these days, but they are not as particular about it as they were later on. They often don't require the fish to be fresh. In towns selling fish, many people sell dead fish.

Even if they bought live fish, everyone would kill them early and hang them on the beams.

However, he felt that the dead fish were not tasty, so he specially bought the live ones.

Now he can kill the fish before he can take a shower.

Shi Zhen worked very fast, and he killed the fish after a while, and then he started to take a bath.

The small shed outside the house has a plastic sheet hanging on the door, which is still warm, but now it is getting colder and colder, and he can't stand it even if he is asked to wash in cold water, so he takes a warm bath with water from a kettle.

When Guan Baiyu came out of the room, Shi Zhen was taking a bath, and there were killed fish in the basin outside.

Basically, without him saying anything, his brother will do the troublesome work and never need him to do it.

The meat dish at night is braised fish, made by Guan Baiyu.

Shi Zhen stumbled over the rice with the fish soup, and ate the new big bowl in one go, as did Shi Xinghuo, so Shi Xingchao didn't do any physical work now, and his appetite became smaller, so he only ate a big bowl.

During the meal, Guan Baiyu kept looking at Shi Zhen.

Shi Zhen looks good when he eats. Although he eats a lot and eats quickly, he doesn't make any noise and moves gracefully.

"What are you looking at?" Shi Zhen asked Guan Baiyu, who had been looking at him just now.

Guan Baiyu responded quickly: "Brother, your hand is injured, you have to be careful in the future."

There was a small wound on Shi Zhen's hand.

"What kind of injury is this." Shi Zhen laughed.

When Guan Baiyu was sleeping, what appeared in front of him was Shi Zhen's smile.

This night, he dreamed again.

This dream was even more extreme than the previous one.

In the dream, he and his brother had been entangled for a long time.

Guan Baiyu suddenly woke up again, changed his clothes and trousers, lay down again with palpitations, and fell asleep again in a daze.

And this time... he didn't do those messy things, this dream was even quite realistic.

He dreamed that his brother hated him and didn't want him anymore.

After waking up, he couldn't remember the specific situation in the dream, but the feeling of being abandoned was still with him.

He even had a terrifying thought about locking up his brother so that no one could see it.

Let his brother belong to him alone.

Guan Baiyu went out and saw Shi Zhen making breakfast, he always felt a little sorry for his brother.

His brother should live a happy and smooth life instead of being coveted by a terrible person like him.

And he, as long as his brother is doing well, that's fine.

Guan Baiyu thought so, but seeing Shi Zhen, all kinds of thoughts could no longer be suppressed, and he felt more and more guilty.

He thought about it and smiled at Shi Zhen: "Brother, today is Liang Qinxuan's birthday. He has always asked me to spend his birthday with him. I promised him."

Shi Zhenyi recalled that Liang Qinxuan's birthday was just recently.

But he couldn't remember the exact date.

He doesn't celebrate his own birthday very much, nor does he have the habit of celebrating birthdays for others.

Guan Baiyu and Liang Qinxuan became friends, and it was good to have a birthday together.

Shi Zhen said, "When are you going? I'll take you to the station."

Guan Baiyu said: "Brother, you can take me to the station now." If his brother was to wait for the delivery, wouldn't he have to trouble his brother to do half of the work and come back specially