"I do have a way, just in case you don't want to."
Tong Qiao had no idea that she had fallen into someone's trap, "I am willing, what do you think I should do?"
Lu Jinshen looked at Tong Qiao's lips with burning eyes.
Tong Qiao blinked, "Why are you looking at me? Tell me, what should I do?"
"You feed me."
Tong Qiao was startled for a moment, then said with a look of realization, "Yeah, why did I forget that I can still feed him? Just wait, I'll find a spoon."
Lu Jinshen, “…”
After a while, Tong Qiao got a spoon from nowhere and fed Lu Jinshen water in small sips.
After drinking the water, Tong Qiao put the water glass on the bedside table, looked at Lu Jinshen and said, "I have something to ask you."
"You ask."
Tong Qiao pursed her lips. She really wanted to ask but didn't know where to start. She was silent for a few seconds and said, "Bai Shao told me everything about Xu Zihua."
"Um."
"Is there anything you want to say to me?"
Lu Jin looked deeply at Tong Qiao, "Don't you have something to ask me?"
Tong Qiao cleared her throat and nodded, "Yes, let me ask you, did you marry Sheng Yufei because of Xu Zihua?"
"yes."
"Because Xu Zihua sacrificed his life for you, so you take care of his fiancée?"
"yes."
Tong Qiao was both happy and confused, "You can take care of her like a relative, why do you have to marry her?"
Lu Jin pursed his lips deeply and remained silent.
Tong Qiao waited for a long time and saw that Lu Jinshen didn't intend to answer her. He just looked at her with deep eyebrows. She looked away and stared out the window for a moment. When she turned to look at Lu Jinshen again, she looked directly at her. One sentence popped out, "Do you love Sheng Yufei?"
Lu Jin was stunned. Obviously you didn't expect Tong Qiao to ask this question.
Tong Qiao felt relieved when she asked. No matter why he married Sheng Yufei, what she cared about most was whether he had loved Sheng Yufei in his heart. Seeing that Lu Jinshen remained silent, Tong Qiao asked again, "Isn't this difficult to answer?"
Lu Jin frowned and considered for a moment, "Qiao'er, there are many kinds of love, the friendship between friends, the affection between relatives, the affection between comrades..."
"I'm talking about the love between men and women." Tong Qiao interrupted Lu Jinshen.
Lu Jin looked at Tong Qiao deeply for a moment, then raised his thin lips slightly and said, "I don't love her."
Tong Qiao's heart welled up with joy, and she simply asked again, "Then do you love me?" After that, she added, "I'm also asking about the love between men and women."
"Love." Lu Jinshen replied without hesitation.
Tong Qiao raised her lips and smiled, as if the dark clouds that had accumulated in her heart suddenly dispersed, and her whole person suddenly became enlightened.
Lu Jinshen took Tong Qiao's hand and said with deep affection, "Qiao'er, don't leave me, okay?"
Tong Qiao took out her hand and covered Lu Jinshen with the quilt, "It depends on your performance. Now, close your eyes and take a good rest."
"You sleep with me."
"No, you're hurt, I'm afraid of touching you."
Lu Jin looked deeply at Tong Qiao, as if I won't sleep unless you sleep with me.
Tong Qiao compromised, "I'm also a sick person anyway, so let's take care of him together."
A smile appeared in Lu Jinshen's eyes, "I asked Ji Ji to vacate your ward, so we can live together."
Tong Qiao only glanced at Lu Jinshen without saying anything. She took off her shoes and slept next to him. Because Lu Jin had seriously injured his back, he had been lying on his side. After Tong Qiao fell asleep, the two of them faced each other. , breath blending.
Lu Jinshen looked at her again without blinking.
Tong Qiao's cheeks felt a little hot and she said angrily: "What are you looking at? Close your eyes and sleep."
"Okay." Lu Jinshen agreed, but his eyes were still staring at Tong Qiao.
Tong Qiao felt uncomfortable looking at him, "Lu Jinshen, are you going to sleep or not? If not, I'm leaving."
"I want to kiss you."
"Lu Jinshen..."
"When I asked you to feed me water just now, I actually wanted you to feed me with your mouth."
“…”
"Qiao'er, kiss me."
Tong Qiao looked at the man with handsome features in front of her, and recalled the scene in the box where he had been protecting her tightly, especially the scene when he was stabbed by someone while saving her, which deeply shocked her.
It wasn't until that moment that Tong Qiao knew that she cared about this man more than she thought. At that moment, she actually had the idea of what she would do if he died.
Now, Bai Shao said that Lu Jinshen might have had an ulterior reason for marrying Sheng Yufei. Lu Jinshen himself also said that he did not love Sheng Yufei, but he loved her!
That's enough, isn't it
Tong Qiao climbed up to Lu Jinshen's neck with one hand and kissed his lips. She didn't just touch the surface, nor did she stop there, but allowed her own thoughts to entangle him.
There was still a faint taste of alcohol in his mouth, which made her want to stop.
Lu Jinshen's big hands clasped Tong Qiao's waist with such force that he seemed to want to press her into his body.
After a fierce verbal battle, Tong Qiao panted and looked at Lu Jinshen, "Are you satisfied with this kiss?"
There was fire dancing in the depths of Lu Jin's eyes, and his voice was hoarse, "Not enough."
"I feel like I'm just scratching my head." Tong Qiao smiled, straightforward and generous but blushing shyly, "When you get better, I'll let you sleep."
The flames in Lu Jinshen's body caused by the kiss suddenly set off a prairie fire, and the blood rushed in his body uncontrollably. His eyes seemed to be filled with fire, which could ignite Tong Qiao, "Sleep now."
Tong Qiao held Lu Jinshen's shoulders, "Don't move, your back is injured."
"It doesn't matter. This injury won't affect my work."
"Don't mess around. You've been here for several months, and it's just a little while?"
Speaking of this, Lu Jinshen's eyes turned resentful, "You also know that you have been neglecting me for several months."
"Who told you to leave me alone when you were getting your certificate? You deserve it!"
The enthusiasm on Lu Jinshen's face faded instantly, and he even loosened his grip on Tong Qiao's waist, "Yu Fei was really in trouble that day, and I can't leave her alone."
Tong Qiao noticed the change in Lu Jinshen's attitude, remembered what he said, and asked him, "What did you mean when you hugged me in the box and said you were a sinner and you didn't deserve happiness?"
Lu Jin looked deeply at Tong Qiao, with a thousand emotions rising and falling in his eyes, and finally turned into a sigh.
Seeing Lu Jinshen fall into silence again, Tong Qiao directly expressed her thoughts, "Do you think that because of you, Xu Zihuacai and Sheng Yufei are separated by yin and yang, and they can't be together, so you can't have your own happiness in this life?"
A trace of surprise flashed through Lu Jinshen's eyes, followed by self-blame and pain. He raised his hand to cover Tong Qiao's smooth and delicate cheek, rubbing it back and forth, "I never get close to women, and I never give myself the opportunity to touch happiness. But you broke into my life in such a way, so unexpectedly, I... I couldn't be prepared, and in just one night, I knew that no matter how difficult it was for me, my heart would never stop flowing."
Lu Jinshen's answer confirmed Tong Qiao's inner thoughts. He was living under the shackles of friendship, unable to be himself. Even having happiness felt like a sin. His thoughts had been put on heavy iron chains. While trying to hold on to the people around me, I feel that it is wrong for me to live happily. No one can explain it, and it will only tighten and tighten, making me breathless.