I want to see you, no matter if the fate of this life is broken, I want to see you one last time...
Black shadows are constantly staggered in front of her eyes, and her tender voice expresses a woman's strongest wish. She is crying, she is begging, her grief is slowly flowing into the consciousness, the sadness makes people want to cry, the pain in the heart, clearly fills my heart, so sour, so painful, teardrops Accumulated into a sea of sorrow, almost drowned her.
For you, I am willing to suffer in reincarnation, and enjoy it. Even if I have to suffer the fate of seven generations of premature death, I am willing to...
No! I don't want! You are not me, you cannot decide my fate so selfishly!
I just want to see you one last time and imprint your image in the deepest part of my heart. I can give up anything but you...
It's not fair!
"Don't—I don't—"
Everything she heard was entangled in Hongdou, and the sweet female voice made her shudder, her body trembled like autumn leaves, and she couldn't escape from the horrified dream.
"red beans!"
A familiar and nostalgic call broke the nightmare, and there was a light of dawn in the darkness, allowing her to open her eyes and look at the gentle and worried face directly above.
It was he who awakened her from her chaotic dream.
"Second uncle..." She leaned closer to him and choked softly. She was so scared, it wasn't a dream! It was a real experience in her past life.
"It's alright." Bai Yunhe patted her back soothingly, and he roughly understood what she was dreaming from her dream.
Beside the bed stood Shi Yanguan with a worried face, pity me, Huang Xing, and Fengshangyi who understood the whole story.
Shi Yanguan didn't dare to touch Hongdou, who was crying abnormally. He could only keep asking Bai Yunhe what was going on with his lips. He made Xiaohongdou cry to the point of fainting? He looked so distressed!
"Let me and Hongdou be alone?" Bai Yunhe whispered to the crowd. Let only the two of them understand the fate of the curse, and there is no need to involve other people's sadness.
"Second..."
"Yanguan, listen to what Baiyun has to say." Fengshangyi hooked Shi Yanguan's shoulders and forcibly dragged him out of the door.
Pity me, looking back frequently, led Huang Xun to exit, and closed the wooden door on the way.
Bai Yunhe wiped away the cold sweat on Hongdou's face and brushed away the blue silk that fell from her cheeks.
"Don't be afraid." Sadly, at this time, he could only spit out these two words.
Hongdou cried while crying: "She said that she wanted to see that man for the last time, and would rather, would rather pay for the seventh life... But I'm not her! I don't remember the man's appearance and character at all, how can she make her own decisions... I don't want it, Uncle Er, I don't want to…"
Her crying subsided, only a heavy sniffling sobs remained.
"Red Bean, that's when you think about it every day, so you will randomly take the pictures in your dreams as facts, those are not real, there is no previous life, no reincarnation, you are Red Bean, no one can use that absurd way to decide you. The fate of this life." Bai Yunhe whispered, cupping her face with both hands, and wiping the tears from her eyes with her thumb.
Feng Changyi is right, he can't mess up, Hongdou's reaction is more intense than he expected, if he can't calm her anxiety and fear, Hongdou will drive himself crazy first!
"It's true! It's true, the voice in the dream makes my heart hurt so much! I... I... I don't know, I'm so confused right now, and I'm afraid... When I think of myself... I only have less than five years left. Life, I'm so afraid." Hongdou bit her lower lip, looked directly at Bai Yunhe with teary eyes, and buried her head in his shoulders. "I miss you, I miss you, I miss you..."
If she really wants to suffer the curse of early death, why not let her be freed in the snow before she realizes love, even when she is abandoned by her own mother? Why does it have to be until she is learning to be his good wife wholeheartedly... In When she was so happy, smashed her sweet dream for only ten days
She doesn't understand, she doesn't understand!
He stared at him with tears in his eyes, his brows furrowed but he didn't say a word, unable to do anything about her helplessness.
Speak! Whatever you say is fine, don't let her worry alone, comfort her, scold her, anything is fine, why is he just pursing his lips and not saying a word
The tingling sensation spread from the eye socket to the palm, forcing her to stare down her neck.
Between the hazy eyes of tears, the vaguely overlapping palms belonged to her and him.
The tightly clenched white pink fist belonged to her, and the big brown palm that covered it lightly belonged to him—the cold temperature and the almost unrecognizable trembling from the palm came from him—she was the calmest , The most self-disciplined, the second uncle who never changed his face when Mount Tai collapsed in front of him.
She is not the only one who is worried.
In front of her, her husband wrapped her securely between his arms, exerting more force than usual, almost hurting her without realizing it. Is it because he doesn't know what to do if he doesn't speak
He is annoyed at his own powerlessness! The tearful red bean squeezed out a smile. She actually began to guess Bai Yunhe's troubled mind.
She can scream hysterically and scream frantically to vent her emotions, but he can't, because he is her husband, her god, the man who must support her suffering and everything; even when she closed her eyes, He will be left alone, suffering the loss of his wife.
Compared to her, he is the hardest and most difficult party.
And she can't do anything, she can't do anything well, but at least, she can't make him worry anymore, can't be a burden to him, can't let him worry about her any more...
She wiped away the tears, forcing herself not to cry anymore.
"I'm sorry... I'm so self-willed, aren't I?" Hongdou chuckled, and Rourou cried until her red nose, and her voice was frighteningly hoarse.
Bai Yunhe understood her forced smile and felt even more distressed.
She jumped up and turned her back to him. "Can't sleep anymore, can you help me comb my bun? I only like your bun now, it's beautiful and dignified." She turned her face back and put on a lively look to act like a spoiled child.
"Red Bean..." Don't face him with this stiff smile.
"Let's go to the kitchen and sneak in some sweets later. I'm a little thirsty," she interrupted him briskly.
"red beans."
For the second time, she spoke first, "By the way, I have to explain it to the little godfather, otherwise he will think that you are bullying me. Second uncle, what excuse do you want to use to prevaricate?" She sat in front of the mirror, wearing a long The blurry bronze mirror couldn't reflect her true appearance at the moment, her voice trembled but she spoke brisk words.
"Red Bean." Bai Yunhe frowned slightly and came behind her.
She chimed in for the third time, "Last time I saw a nice pair of light blue fabric, although you're pretty handsome in a white shirt, but I want to add some clothes for you—"
A large hand was placed on her shoulder, and she was half-forced to shut her mouth.
"Hongdou, don't talk about it." He pulled her shoulders and looked at each other.
From his clear eyes, Hongdou saw his wrinkled little face, that ugly face pretending to be strong.
So ugly, so ugly that she couldn't recognize it herself.
She was downcast, like a deflated ball. "If I don't say it, I'll go crazy..." She kept breathing deeply, as if seeking more courage to face him.
"I will listen, but not those unhelpful diversions, I know that my cowardice can make you afraid, but please forgive me, I...have no way to adjust my disorganized thoughts, I keep trying to be your best Trusted person, I want you to give yourself to me with confidence, but all your efforts have been lost because of the wind and clothes. Seeing your reaction makes me even more at a loss. Express my concern. You are like a fragile doll, how can I hold you in my arms so that I don't hurt you in the slightest? I'm sorry, just a little more time... give me a little more time, I will do better ..." he confided in a low voice.
She was going to take all the suffering herself, but she overheard the conversation between him and Feng Changyi, and for the first time in his life, he tasted the feeling of confusion.
How ironic, he is also known as the "Civil Judge". He can only kill people but cannot control her fate. What he holds in his hand is not the magic pen of the judge that prolongs and shortens the lifespan, but a sharp and ruthless blood sword.
Hongdou shook his head, interrupting his self-deprecating words.
"You've done a very good, very, very good job, more than I can give back. I don't know what to do to pay you more... I'm so bad, I only care about my anger, but I forget there is more You..." She buried her face between his palms and kept scorching light kisses, "I won't cry out of control anymore, I won't."
For him, she will get rid of all her cowardice and not let him worry, that's all she can do.
"sorry Sorry-"
I'm sorry, if I hadn't picked her up from the wind and snow, if I hadn't forced him to get married, if the relationship was shallow... Wouldn't it be so painful when we parted
"It's already a husband and wife, don't say anything foreign." He stared at the little face holding a stick in his palm, she was so calm as if she had grown five years old in an instant, no longer a frizzy red bean, and taught him to bear it.
He originally planned to slowly welcome her transformation and maturity in each period, and slowly share the joys, sorrows and sorrows that must be experienced in those changes, instead of forcibly pulling her to grow and letting her skip the youthful youth.
"Maybe Feng Changyi's prophecy will come true, or maybe he made a mistake in the divine calculation, but that won't change the fact that you are my wife. Think about it, maybe in five years, I will be the first to you One step down from Huang Quan, let you live alone in the world, but it will teach me to feel more at ease." He comforted her.
"No one can tell what will happen in the future." She raised her face and smiled at him. "Maybe we are over half a century old, and we will make fun of each other's overreaction today, right?" , to have the opportunity to grow old with him.
"Yeah." He put his arms around her, although Feng Changyi's prediction was never wrong, he would rather believe in miracles.
"At that time, you have to help me teach Feng Changyi a good lesson. He caused us to shed a big vat of precious tears." She muttered, and the clear tears in her eyes quietly blinked back to her empty heart, sealing them in dust.
"I will help you grab his hands and let you beat him." He promised and prayed for that day to come.
Sticking to him, listening to his steady heartbeat, accompany her with every sound and blow. She closed her eyes, as if she was beginning to let go of the past life she didn't understand... If it was her in this life, she would also be willing to exchange the early days of the seventh life in exchange for getting along with Baiyun a little more, even if it was a glance, she would have no regrets.
No matter how many times of reincarnation, she is still her, stupid and stupid.
Is it because of love? It makes people blind and confused, but men and women in the world have never been able to penetrate, nor can they break free from the net of love.
***
"Noisy at the head of the bed, harmony at the end of the bed." Shi Yanguan jokingly looked at the newly married couple who were inseparable.
In the dining room, Red Bean was almost stuck to Bai Yunhe's body, carrying vegetables and soup, stealing small kisses every now and then, making all the family members jealous.
"Yesterday, I cried and cried loudly and shook the world, but today it's sweet and sweet? I'm not ashamed." Shi Yanguan teased. He didn't understand the real reason for Hongdou's crying yesterday, but Bai Yunhe just dismissed it hastily with "little couple bickering".
"Don't be jealous, here, this chicken leg honors you." Hongdouxiao put the fat, tender and smooth smoked chicken leg into Shi Yanguan's bowl, and added vegetables to everyone on the table.
"You feed yourself first." Bai Yunhe hooked her busy body back to the seat and said disapprovingly. Seeing that she was doing things for everyone, she didn't eat much food.
Hongdou first imprinted him with greasy red lips before saying, "I'm full."
"Hey, it's really different when you're married. You're sweeter and more considerate." Shi Yanguan was quite proud of Hongdou's transformation. Fathers are proud of their daughters.
Bai Yunhe glanced at Hongdou's shy and delicate face. He knew that Hongdou wanted to try his best to show that he didn't care about the prophecy, but inadvertently wanted to release all his emotions in his gestures, just like he knew that he would not have more time with him and others, so he tried his best to put the emotions and desires of his life in Exhausted at this time.
Like the gleam of a dying man. The thought displeased him.
"Hehe, are you jealous? You should also marry a little godmother and come in, be as gentle and considerate as you are." Hongdou looked funny but her tone was serious, she threw herself on Shi Yanguan's back, wrapped her hands around his neck and whispered coquettishly, " I really want a little godmother! I want a little godmother to love, and I want a lot of auspicious red envelopes during the Chinese New Year. I won't eat her vinegar, little godfather, what kind of daughter-in-law do you want?" Hope Let her see the scene of Xiao Daddy getting married and starting a business in her lifetime.
"Oh - the front should be at least this 'big'." Guan Shi Yan stretched out his huge palm, implying that his choice of mate depends on greatness and must be compared with his palm - he has an extraordinary physique, only one palm Fully twice the size of a human.
"Forget it!" Fengshangyi interjected in a muffled voice, always burying his head in hardship and never raising it.
He was guilty, and he hated himself—guilty about his talkativeness; he hated that terrifying power!
Hongdou jumped to Feng Changyi's side, "Uncle Feng, what about you? I'm going to say something ugly. Second uncle is my husband. You are not allowed to touch him."
Hongdou's overly bright smile hit every nerve in Feng Changyi, and he looked back at her slightly apologetically. He really shouldn't have told Bai Yun her fate, otherwise Xiao Hongdou's eyes would not be swollen and swollen, and her smile would be happier and more lovely...
"I know you won't easily lose your love for the second uncle. Of course, my second uncle is so perfect, no wonder you fall in love." Hongdou made a rude gesture to outline Fengshangyi's neck, but the force was quite light.
"I won't—" As soon as he opened his mouth, a small request suddenly fell into his ears, the words were clear.
"If your prediction comes true, please help me take care of him and accompany him until the wound I brought him heals. Please, don't leave him alone..." Hongdou lowered his neck so that only two people could hear his voice.
He raised his head, Hongdou had already sat back to Bai Yunhe's side, smiling, and it was the expressionless begging look that accidentally bet on him.
Why didn't she scold him? She should have kicked him, beat him, bit him, but she just... just told him like her last words...
What is this! Although he likes Baiyun very much, he doesn't want to intervene between them and become a nasty stinky vixen, because he doesn't hate that green, unsprouted red bean either!
"woo..."
It's so noisy, which crook is crying? It's so unpleasant to cry, it's like the sound of killing a pig!
"Whoosh..."
Damn, cry, cry, don't know how big the emperor is to eat? Fengshangyi cursed with a vicious voice.
The noisy dining room fell silent, and the whimper had a tendency to grow louder, gradually spreading to every corner of the Hell Gate.
Why are all the ghosts and ghosts staring at him? Haven't you seen a beautiful man grilling rice? Fengshangyi cursed in his heart.
Shi Yanguan pointed at the tip of Fengshangyi's nose, and a tiger roar burst out: "Old Feng, what are you crying about, a big man?" Is the food at the King of Hell's Gate so bad that it made him cry bitterly
"I..." Fengshangyi was full of tears and snot, and the more she cried, the more fierce it became.
Huh, he was crying? Why? Oh - by the way, he didn't want to help her take over the mess! My husband has to take care of himself, otherwise he will not be responsible for running away with others... woo woo... Tears kept rolling down when he was disobedient, and he was ugly when he cried.
Hate, he doesn't want everyone to see his crying face! Woohoo...
Fengshangyi covered his mouth, flashed out of the hall with a face full of embarrassment, and hid in the corner to cry.
"What did you say?" Bai Yunhe asked in a low voice.
Hongdou stole another kiss before biting his ear.
"I told him that in five years we were going to beat him together, and he would cry." She shrugged innocently.
"Naughty." Bai Yunhe chuckled lightly, without breaking the lie of her other feet.
Shi Yanguan nibbled at the chicken leg, "Hey, when will your husband and wife add a cute little baby to Hell's Gate?" He wanted to be promoted from father to grandfather Luo.
Hongdou didn't expect him to ask this question, and was stunned for a while.
"Don't worry, Hongdou is only fifteen years old. I still want to take her to travel around the mountains and waters sometime, and let's talk about the child's affairs when Hongdou is both physically and mentally suitable for being a mother." Bai Yunhe shook her hand lightly and answered calmly. .
A child? Hongdou smiles in her heart, a child she shares with him? Such a heartwarming description, she wants! She wants a child that belongs to each other.
Her wishes were turned into real words and spit out in the hall.
"I want it." The bright eyes were fixed on Bai Yunhe's face, she wanted a child who looked like him!
"Not suitable, you're not ready, and so am I. Will it be a few more years?"
Hongdou said anxiously: "But I can't wait for—"
Bai Yunhe blocked her slur with his lips, he knew the word she wanted to continue - twenty years old.
"Okay. You promised me, Hongdou?" He coaxed softly, promising to her and also to himself.
She lowered her eyebrows and nodded.
At the end of a relaxed and warm dinner, Hongdou, who had finished bathing, was lying on his side on the Taishi chair and flipping through the book, with a hair of blue silk scattered, and let Bai Yunhe wipe her hair with gentle hand strength.
Whenever she pouted her high lips, his warm masculine breath would come towards him, and the soft and hot lips covered hers, forming a special tacit understanding.
She relied on him more and more, and every morning when she woke up, the first thing she did was kiss him all over his face, and say good morning to him between his lips, like a thirsty kisser.
And in the quiet and quiet night, he always propped up his cheeks and greedily watched her sleeping face all night. Since Fengshangyi's prophecy, she seems to have returned to the unsettled time of her childhood. At night, she has been dreaming constantly, and sometimes she even wakes up with tears and screams. The fear of being frightened, whipped her spirit, and hurt his heart.
Her courage, her strength; his calmness, his silence, all vulnerable. Like thin ice covering the surface of the water, a little force will make the two of them fall into the bone-chilling deep pool.
Neither of the two dared to point it out, because the cover-up at the moment allowed the two to hold hands smoothly.
Holding the hand of the son, grow old together with the son. What a simple sentence, how many people can really get what they want
The soft cat slipped quietly on his face, and she pressed against his chest, winking like silk and exhaling like blue.
"Will I come back to you in the next life, the next life?" Yun Dan asked gently, but it was her most sincere wish.
"You can't get rid of your bad habits." Bai Yunhe stroked and smoothed the silk, but his tone of rebuke was indulgent. "You make this wish in this life. If you are in the next life, and I will do nothing wrong, even if I am only a non-human being, in the next life, you will blame yourself in this life, right?"
His coldness awakened her confusion.
"Uh..." Hongdou scratched her face, she always cared about her future, but she didn't know the importance of what she said. She was like this in her previous life, and her bad habits in this life are still hard to change.
But she really wants to find him again, because she still doesn't love him enough...
Bai Yunhe stood up and pulled the doll that was leaning against his chest together.
"It's my turn to find you." He smiled, not wanting her to suffer from regret again, so let him make a wish in this life. "It doesn't matter if it's a father or daughter, a brother, or a sister. If the fate is enough, it's better to be a husband and wife. I can use whatever status fate can make me love you and pamper you, so let's meet in whatever way."
He made a wish, only for a reunion day in reincarnation. He did not believe in the romantic relationship in the next life, but he hoped that he could use the role of relatives or elders to make up for the lack of this life.
"What if I can't find me?" she asked stupidly.
"Look again. If you can't find it in this life, look for it in the next life, you can't find it in the next life, and then in the next life, until you find it."
"What if... what if I become ugly, bad, different..."
"I will recognize you."
She cried, so sore that she couldn't open her eyes. She let the cowardly water disc in her eyes, and taught her to not see Bai Yunhe's serious expression.
"You can't... You can't just recognize my ugly, ugly face when I cry..."
She wanted to laugh and wanted him to remember her smile firmly. The harder she tried, the more she could not get her wish.
"I remember every expression on your face."
She nodded, letting him wipe away the pearly tears.
She suddenly thought of it, and hurriedly explained, "Still don't come looking for it in the next life, is it okay to spend two lives?"
"Why?" he asked, knowing the answer.
"Because of the next two lives, I'll still..." She paused, not wanting or daring to say it. She still has the fate of only twenty years in two lifetimes. Instead of meeting him and repeating the gain and loss again and again, it is better for them to meet again after the fate of the seventh life, without tears and no regrets. "So... come back to me in two lifetimes, I won't be like—"
The sound disappeared from his lips, and he sucked away her hesitation.
Although he joked that Feng Changyi's prophecy was inaccurate, in fact that prophecy was like a cursed shackle, tightly clasped in the hearts of the two of them.
"No, no..."
Fingers clasped together, like a thin kiss falling from colorful rain, trying to kiss away her anxiety.
Inside the rising hibiscus tent, the passionate gasps from Qingyi's exit seemed to be mixed with sighs...