Cheng Shen entered by pronunciation, and the input method automatically associated the noun "Chen Qingye", and searched for this model.
- Single eyelid. myself too.
- Big and tall. myself too.
- A body of muscles is beautifully sculpted by professional training. myself... almost.
He's so handsome! —Cheng Shen closed the web page and ran to the side to do a few sets of crunches.
Cheng Shen was a little annoyed that he cared so much about Yao Jiaren; he was annoyed that he was addicted to the game of "no emotions allowed".
Chen Gong said that since he agreed, he must obey the rules and do not cross the line, otherwise he will be out of the game.
Cheng Shen didn't want to be out yet.
Cheng Shen is not a person who does not follow the rules, he knows the rules well.
At the beginning of joining HALO, it was a shortcut given by Chen Gong, so after joining the job, he automatically became Chen Gong's cronie; even if there was a director Zheng Yizheng who made things difficult for Chen Gong every day, Cheng Shen kept him at a distance and still loyally followed Chen Gong. .
Later, when Chen Gong fell in love with Zheng Yi, Cheng Shen automatically reserved a place for Zheng Yi on the guard seat.
The rules of human affection, Cheng Shen once thought it was not difficult to understand.
But Yao Jiaren is really hard to understand.
On the day of Yao Jiaren's entry, Chen Gong asked Cheng Shen to come to the appointment, saying that he wanted him to "bring this newcomer".
Yao Jiaren drank some wine that day, and Chen Gong asked Cheng Shen to take him home. In the taxi, Yao Jiaren vomited.
When he got off the bus, Cheng Shen more than compensated the driver for 100, and took the initiative to help Yao Jiaren to take him into the community to go upstairs, but Yao Jiaren refused with a smile: "It's okay, I didn't drink too much - I used to drink a bottle of foreign wine with my clients. not drunk."
Cheng Shen thought to himself that you vomited like this, saying you weren't drunk? So he didn't let go of Yao Jiaren's hand.
Yao Jiaren is not strong enough to break free: "I'm really not drunk."
Cheng Shen coaxed a child: "It's okay, I'm not drunk. Brother Chen asked me to take care of you - I'll take you upstairs."
Yao Jiaren looked at Cheng Shen's upright appearance of "following the boss's orders to the end" and couldn't help but smile bitterly: "You are really difficult."
After he finished speaking, he vomited again - facing Cheng Shen.
Yao Jiaren didn't eat a few mouthfuls at dinner, and his stomach was full of wine; he vomited on Cheng Shen's pants, smeared inside, and was cold for a while.
This time Yao Jiaren didn't resist Cheng Shen "send you home" any more, and led Cheng Shen into the door embarrassingly. Yao Jiaren went to the bathroom first and continued to vomit, and when he came out after brushing his teeth, he was no longer as embarrassed as before.
While Cheng Shen was waiting, he wiped the surface of his pants with a tissue from Yao Jiaren's house. But the vomit seeped into the bottom of the pants, and the feeling of touching the skin was still very uncomfortable. With the permission of Yao Jiaren, Cheng Shen took a shower in the bathroom.
Yao Jia's bathroom door was unlocked. When Cheng Shen was taking a shower, Yao Jia came in once and took Cheng Shen's pants out to clean them up.
When Cheng Shen came out of the shower, Yao Jiaren had already washed his pants and was drying them.
It took less than 20 minutes to spin and dry, and the two of them sat in front of the washing machine and waited. The bottom of his trousers was also dirty, so Cheng Shen only covered a bath towel given by Yao Jiaren, so he was not ashamed.
Yao Jiaren handed Cheng Shen a cigarette case and lighter, "I almost washed the cigarettes in your pants for you..."
Cheng Shen took it and took one out of it: "Can I smoke it? - It's at your house."
"Yes." Yao Jiaren allowed it. When Cheng Shen lit the cigarette, Yao Jiaren reached out and took the cigarette from his mouth: "You can light another one, this is for me - can you teach me to smoke?"
Yao Jiaren didn't seem to find this action ambiguous; Cheng Shen was taken aback by him, "Why are you learning this?"
"I heard that this can relieve stress-then why did you learn it?"
"I..." Cheng Shen said frankly, "I wanted to pretend to be an adult when I was young, in order to pretend to force myself to learn."
This made Yao Jiaren laugh.
After trying to take a sip, Yao Jiaren didn't experience the fun, and put out the cigarette: "If you listened to me earlier, you wouldn't be disgusted by me - I spit on you in the end."
"It's nothing disgusting... If you drink too much, it's like this, and I vomit." Cheng Shen said this while puffing out his cigarette - for fear that Yao Jiaren would be embarrassed.
Yao Jiaren shook his head and smiled: "I really didn't drink too much... Vomiting is a side effect of my medicine."
Yao Jiaren's smile is only charming on the outside, but there seems to be a deep and thick secret hidden beneath it - Cheng Shen frowned: "What medicine?"
"Lithium carbonate, a psychoactive drug—well, my mood management was a little out of whack."
"What's wrong?"
"The feelings are frustrated..." Yao Jiaren laughed at himself after saying that.
Cheng Shen repeatedly asked, "What's wrong?"
"Are you curious?"
"Um."
"Sure enough, it's a child..." Yao Jiaren was one year old Cheng Shen - he had just chatted about this information during the dinner.
Cheng Shen was dissatisfied with Yao Jiaren's words: "It doesn't mean I'm naive—you say it."
Yao Jiaren was quiet for a while, then raised his head and asked Cheng Shen, "Am I good-looking?"
Cheng Shen's trousers were being spun dry in the washing machine, and there was a constant noise - but it made the air between the two quieter.
"Good-looking." Cheng Shen answered Yao Jiaren's question, blushing a little because he felt inexplicable: "Like a girl—nothing else, 'girl' means good-looking..."
Yao Jiaren didn't look like a girl before - not to mention temperament, at least not so much in appearance.
He flipped through the album on his phone and found old photos to show to Cheng Shen—the boy in the picture was lying lazily on the table and smiling at the camera, the lamp on the edge of the soft hair was shining golden, like a tame little animal.
At that time, Yao Jiaren's image was quite different from now - there was no decoration and no aura, just the appearance of a genial teenager.
So I was liked by girls.
At the end of the first year of joining the company after graduation, a girl who resembled Huang Jiaojiao came to the company - "It's... the intern who tossed Deputy Supervisor Chen on the first day I came to HALO. Do you remember?"
That girl likes Yao Jiaren.
"Of course I didn't see it... I was too big-hearted and it was my fault..."
Whenever Yao Jiaren met the kindness released by the girl, she just thought she was a good person. That girl didn't have any other friends in the company, so whenever Yao Jia was invited to hang out with her, Yao Jia would agree.
One day the girl said she was in a bad mood and asked Yao Jiaren if she could sing K with her: "Just the two of us..."
Yao Jiaren said yes, "Don't be sad, I'll accompany you to drink some wine."
That girl drank a little too much that day and sang to express her emotions. At the happiest moment, she took off her shirt and only wore her bra, clinging to Yao Jiaren and crying and laughing, asking Yao Jiaren to hug her.
Yao Jiaren said ok—"because she said she was uncomfortable and wanted me to comfort her..."
"But I told her early in the morning that I came to work in this company because I had a crush on the boss of our company - so I never thought: she has feelings for me..."
When the girl was holding Yao Jiaren, she took out the phone and chose a cat-ear special effect, and wanted to take a photo; Yao Jiaren agreed.
After playing until after ten o'clock in the evening, both of them sang until their voices became hoarse. After coming out of KTV, the girl suddenly proposed to open a room.
Yao Jiaren didn't agree: "Oh, you really drink too much... I'll take you home!"
The girl confessed to Yao Jiaren, which scared Yao Jiaren.
After taking a taxi to take her home, Yao Jiaren went back to her home.
The girl sent a message at night: "I drank too much... You forget everything."
Yao Jiaren teased and said, "What's the matter? Why don't I remember anything? Are you referring to singing out of tune?"
The girl gave Yao Jiaren a [smile] emoji. Yao Jiaren thought that this was the tacit agreement they had reached - "Keep your mouth shut."
But when he went to work on Monday, Yao Jiaren went to the company and realized that everything was different from before.
"Did she talk nonsense to others?"
Yao Jiaren nodded, looking at Cheng Shen, who was fascinated by the story, frowning worried for himself, Yao Jiaren thought for a while that this young man was cute: "It's all your fault, otherwise I don't want to tell anyone about these things. listen..."
"I'll keep it a secret for you." Cheng Shen tapped on his chest.
She distributed the photo to everyone; and everyone subconsciously felt that she was a victim...
Once Yao Jiaren asked the girl, "Why are you spreading rumors?"
The girl sneered: "Because of disgust, because I want to kill a fly when I see it."
In the pile of spittle stars, Yao Jiaren endured another three months.
Yao Jiaren's hair has grown since then - trying to get closer to a feminine appearance seems to be the only way to avoid vicious speculation.
One day Yao Jiaren was cutting fruit for himself at home. When the fruit knife fell to the ground, Yao Jiaren suddenly got angry. At that juncture, Yao Jiaren had an uncontrollable urge to cut off his own organs—“It’s ridiculous, right? I don’t know who to take revenge on, so I thought of taking revenge on myself…”
At that time, Yao Jiaren was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
Cheng Shen was obviously pissed off, holding a cigarette in his left hand, and pinching the temporal bone in his right hand: "Damn... how could you endure it!"
Yao Jiaren reached out and patted Cheng Shen's knee to comfort his irritability: "Don't forget, because I have someone I like there..."
Those rumors got bigger and bigger, and one day Yao Jiaren was called into the office by the boss: "She said you harassed her."
Yao Jiaren was horrified at the time: "I don't have it..."
The boss turned out the group photo and showed it to Yao Jiaren: "Iron proof."
Cheng Shen interrupted: "This boss—is that the 'boss' you have a crush on?"
Yao Jiaren nodded, watched Cheng Shen renew the second cigarette, and smiled: "Yes—his name is Xie Yuan. It's a man."
Cheng Shen took a sip, then tried his best to pretend to be calm: "Oh."
In order to prove her innocence that day, Yao Jiaren was forced to confess to the man she had a crush on: "Maybe you don't believe it - but when I faced her, I never had any bad thoughts; because I'm not straight, I like you."
The boss was horrified.
And Yao Jiaren also felt that he had explained enough, so he walked out of the boss's office and returned to his workstation to work.
But this explanation itself is wrapped in another "gossip", so the rumors in the company gradually become "Yao Jiaren takes all men and women, and now wants to hook up with the boss"...
"Why didn't you resign?"
"I'm not as upright as you - I like Xie Yuan, and I'm even immersed in a kind of absurd 'self-movement': because I love you, I can bear the rejection of so many people."
Cheng Shen felt worthless for Yao Jiaren: "But does he love you? What did he do for you to deserve your stay in that company?"
"After I confessed to Xie Yuan, he would text me 'good night' every day before going to bed..."
"that's it?"
"that's it."
But that's enough.
Yao Jiaren has secretly liked a lot of people since he was a child. He enjoys the feeling of secret liking. He never fights or confesses, and just waits. one to love.
Yao Jiaren doesn't have the guts, but it's not that he doesn't want to be loved.
One day Xie Yuan left Yao Jiaren to work overtime, but did not arrange work for Yao Jiaren.
After everyone left, Xie Yuan asked Yao Jiaren to play and said to take Yao Jiaren to relax.
He drove Yao Jiaren to the suburbs and stopped on the side road to look at the empty farmland. Xie Yuan asked: Do you like me
Yeah, like it.
Xie Yuan said that he had never been in a relationship with a boy, so maybe he could try it for you—"because you look good."
Cheng Shen looked at Yao Jiaren's face and listened in fascination - it was good-looking, like a star.
Yao Jiaren adjusted the drying scale: "I wasn't prepared... I was too hearty, it was my fault... "
Yao Jiaren said this sentence just now, and Cheng Shen sweated on his back: "He... what's wrong with you?"
Yao Jiaren was too scared during that time, so when someone offered a life-saving straw, Yao Jiaren wanted to catch it.
Yao Jiaren knew the meaning of Xie Yuan's words, unfastened his seat belt, and got closer to kiss him.
But Xie Yuan avoided Yao Jiaren's mouth. He said that he couldn't accept this for the time being - why don't you try somewhere else
Yao Jiaren knew what Xie Yuan wanted.
"I kissed all the way down... just to please him."
Cheng Shen was horrified when he heard it - he had not seen this scene in his long life.
The blood was rushing around in the body, causing Cheng Shen's body temperature to rise a little. At this juncture, Cheng Shen suddenly remembered Yao Jiaren's embarrassed appearance when he vomited just now - I wonder if he would also feel uncomfortable to vomit when he did that
At that time, Yao Jiaren was busy trying to please Xie Yuan, but he didn't know that he also took pictures...
"Glamour conquers the same sex - it's a show-off for him. So another photo of me went viral among the men in the company... I just made myself a dirty thing... "
Cheng Shen felt uncomfortable listening to it, and there was a pile of cigarette butts beside him.
"I planted it twice before I left there in a daze--in fact, even if I tell you in detail, I also feel disgusted."
"It's not you who is disgusting..." Cheng Shen didn't want Yao Jiaren to fall into the dark past again.
Yao Jiaren's eyes turned red, and after a long silence, he raised his head: "Apologize to me."
"Me?... What's wrong..." Cheng Shen was puzzled.
Yao Jiaren also felt that his request was ridiculous, and looked at Cheng Shen for a while, then lowered his head: "I was eating just now, when you came in, I saw you through a beer glass—from a distance, I thought it was him..."
It's so similar, let me hear one of his apologies by your skin.
"Oh..." Cheng Shen was a little embarrassed, avoiding Yao Jiaren's sight. The dryer is already counting down, and the pants can be worn soon... Will Yao Jiaren cry when he's gone and only Yao Jiaren is left
So Cheng Shen raised his head, looked at Yao Jiaren closely, and said, "I'm sorry."
Coincidence unexpectedly.
Yao Jiaren looked at Cheng Shen for a long time, and when Cheng Shen finished the puff, Yao Jiaren suddenly kissed Cheng Shen's mouth.
When the smoke didn't have time to pass through the lungs, he only went around the nose, and dispersed in a sudden kiss.
Cheng Shennao interrupted a line - did not resist, and let him beg for redemption at the corner of his mouth.