At dusk in the evening, the afterglow of the setting sun dyed the entire sky into a deep orange and light red. The brilliant and sad color is like the tired heavy makeup on the face of a beauty, and it is like a sigh of a flashy prosperous age before the darkness comes.
Lin Xuan leaned halfway on the white recliner, holding a book in her hand.
The villa faces the sea, and the salty sea breeze blows towards her face, gently blowing her long black and soft hair, causing Lin Xuan's vision to gradually become blurred, and finally she can only see a faint line on the book small print.
"First, it's best not to meet each other, so that you don't fall in love..."
Lin Xuan was slightly taken aback, and couldn't help reading it lightly.
These sad words flowed lightly on the tip of her tongue, and finally disappeared into the sky like white foam on the sea. At this moment of dusk, some past events came one after another like pages turned by the sea breeze...
It's best not to meet each other, so that you don't fall in love.
In this circle for decades, going round and round, with ups and downs, Lin Xuan has had several boyfriends, including artists and directors in the circle, and elites outside the circle. Every relationship has a good beginning, but it is a pity. No end of life. I don't know if it is because of the fortune-teller's approval of "career is in the sky, but love is difficult", or, earlier...
In the early years, the showbiz hadn't formed the scale it is today, and was even controlled by some gangsters, and unsightly things leaked out from time to time.
Even so, being able to become a popular star at that time was still a glorious thing.
Young boys and girls regard you as a myth, and every smile, every tear, and every scandal of yours will arouse their great attention. Some beautiful women with huge debts stepped into this circle without knowing the dangers. Some became famous overnight, some fell into prostitution, and some made a living by taking bad photos...
Lin Xuan felt very lucky.
I don't know whether it is her gentle appearance that made her popular with the audience easily, or her character of never violating the arrangement made the boss quite satisfied. In short, she acted as the heroine from the beginning, and then she was praised as the most popular actress step by step. Welcome to the throne of female artist and best actress. At that time, she was so proud of herself that even the most resisted love affairs of fans could be carried out in secret.
I thought it would always be so smooth, but I didn't expect that everything would be destroyed in one night.
After so many years, she still remembers clearly the feeling of trembling and undecided at that time. Even if you have experienced other big winds and waves in the future.
She never thought that she would really meet a mafia boss, never thought that she would really be dragged to "accompany drinks", never thought that they were such a big group, but even her boyfriend at the time dared not speak out , dare not help her...
What will be after "accompanying wine"? How did those unsightly things come out? The whole life of the rebellious female star in the circle was completely ruined, all of which came to her mind in an instant. Those people are her lessons learned, and she is about to follow in their footsteps! Her reputation, her career, and her life may all be ruined because of tonight. She burst into tears, frightened and panicked, and felt that the whole sky had collapsed.
She doesn't want to go, she doesn't want to go...
The friends who came together, the boyfriends who came together, whoever came to help her, help her!
But those silent silences are like a cruel hand pushing her to a dead end...
No one can understand her mood at that time, no one knows how desperate she was at that time, crying so much that she couldn't stand up. Even after so many years, even if the boyfriend of the year has been regretting and waiting for her, she still can't forgive him, can't forgive that night...
Those were her familiar friends, the man she loved at the time, how could they treat her like this...
That underworld boss was strong and domineering, full of hostility, clamoring that if they didn't accompany him tonight, none of them would have to go back!
At that time, her whole heart had fallen into the abyss!
She has even made a decision that once she is forced to do those unbearable things, she will immediately quit this circle and go abroad! She must never become the joke of this circle, and never be forced to make some nasty films because of this incident!
However, she never expected that at the moment when her heart was about to die, that ordinary-looking male artist would take the initiative to stand up and intercede for her.
Seeing the other party trembling, she still persisted and said, please let her go.
She saw that the other party was beaten up black and blue by gangsters, and she still pleaded for her over and over again.
She saw that the other party was covered in injuries, but her eyes were still persistent and determined, begging the mafia boss to let her go...
Enough, enough! At that time, I was crying loudly.
When those familiar friends dare not speak out, her heart is cold; when the boyfriend she loves dare not stand up to help her, her heart dies. However, when this artist who was in the entertainment industry and had only met him a few times was beaten and seriously injured all over his body because of himself, it once again ignited her heart that was almost hopeless.
Enough is enough, stop beating him, I will go with you, I will go with you! I drink with me, drink with me...
She cried and shouted, tears streaming down her face, big and big tears were boiling hot.
That's enough, as long as she knows that even if there are people in this world who know that they can't control themselves, they will still stand up for her and protect her, that's enough...
That's all she wants.
In her life, no matter what happens in the future, as long as she thinks about that night, she can survive everything; as long as she thinks about that night, no matter how difficult it is, she will still have warmth and kindness in her heart.
That ordinary-looking entertainer.
Maybe he never knew that what he saved was not only her from that night, but also the heart of her life...
The other party had broken several bones and stayed in the hospital for three whole months, during which he was scolded countless times by the brokerage company, either scolding him for meddling in his own business, or scolding him for procrastinating and breaching the contract. Never regretted my actions that night.
Only then did Lin Xuan know that the man was Du Yunxiu.
She visited the other party several times, and asked her agent to help return the liquidated damages owed by Du Yunxiu to the agency company. When the other party found out, she just smiled lightly, but after she recovered from her injury, she filmed a scene and quietly returned the money to her agent.
Her salary is very high, she doesn't care about that little money, but for Du Yunxiu, that money is the salary for making several movies.
She was surprised, and finally couldn't help asking the other party, why did she save her that night? It's not that he admires her, it's not for her money, and he doesn't ask her to do anything because of it, so what exactly is he planning for himself
To be a man is to protect women. Many people will do that.
However, Du Yunxiu just said indifferently.
That afternoon, Du Yunxiu's eyes were clear and clean, like an hectare of green lake under a thousand snowy mountains in the evening, so clear that even the shadow of the sky in June could be seen. At that time, the sun was warm and genial, and the breeze was blowing gently. Although this man was not handsome but the more he looked at him, the more comfortable he looked, at that moment, there was a kind of indescribable freshness and charm...
Many times, what women need is not how handsome you are or how rich you are, but when they need you most, even if you have to throw everything away, you will stand up for them.
A man who can bring her such a sense of security, probably she will only meet Du Yunxiu in this lifetime.
Gradually, she got closer and closer to Du Yunxiu; gradually, she discovered that Du Yunxiu's acting skills were so superb; gradually, she discovered that Du Yunxiu was so gentle and his cooking skills were so good. In the days when Du Yunxiu was with her, she was in a happy mood and her career was in full swing. Anyone who sees her will say, Xuanxuan, you seem to be in a good mood these days...
She asked the sisters about their impression of Du Yunxiu in a circumstantial way, and they didn't think highly of him, thinking that he was not handsome and his stardom was bleak. She also tested her manager's opinion, and the manager said that there is no deep meaning in it, female idol stars are not allowed to have scandals, not to mention, he can't help you..."
It's not that she hasn't been discouraged, and it's not that she hasn't been disappointed, but she still...
In the end her ex-boyfriend ran over to her and said to her——Do you think Du Yunxiu likes you? Big mistake, what he likes is…”
After getting Du Yunxiu's acquiescence, she felt even sadder than a broken love.
Du Yunxiu was still very good to her, but her self-esteem at that time could not accept that fact. She deliberately alienated him, deliberately ignored him, deliberately hinted how many celebrities and rich people like her, Du Yunxiu was only puzzled at first, then understood, and finally stopped contacting her...
But once Du Yunxiu really stopped contacting her, her mood not only did not improve, but worsened.
Just when she was vacillating and went abroad to film, the incident broke out. In an instant, all the media condemned Du Yunxiu verbally and in writing, and condemned Du Yunxiu like a scourge, criticizing him to the point of being utterly shattered!
She heard from friends that Xie Yi's fans smashed up Du Yunxiu's house, and the whole room was smashed to pieces. She heard from her agent that Du Yunxiu was accidentally recognized on the road, and everyone in the street ridiculed and abused him endlessly. She even heard that the entire showbiz collectively banned him and hid him, all the crews were unwilling to accept him, and all the artists were unwilling to be associated with him...
It's clearly a dead end.
However, when I called him from abroad, I still lied to myself, saying that nothing was going on, and told myself not to worry too much...
bastard! lie!
If not, why do I know that you are not doing well even when I am abroad? If not, why would Xie Yi completely disown his relationship with you on TV and in newspapers...
Du Yunxiu, you won't know how I feel.
I hope you are doing well, but it makes me sad to think that the person who is by your side is not me. But when I know that you are having such a bad time, my heart will be pierced like a knife, and I will feel even more sad than you.
You're... you're the one I've worked so hard to convince myself I only think of you as a friend...
How can you be unhappy!
She refused to listen to the manager's advice and the company's orders. At that time, she only had one thing in mind - she wanted to go back to China! She wants to go back to find Du Yunxiu! She begged the crew one by one, and the director one by one, please help him, help him! His acting skills are really good, as you all know..."
Her manager said she was stupid, and her friends said she was obsessed.
But what do they know
If Du Yunxiu hadn't stood up that night and hadn't been beaten for her pleading, where would there be the current her, and the current actress Lin Xuan.
When her trust in this world was about to be destroyed, Du Yunxiu appeared and saved her.
What she paid back was nothing more than the loss of fame and fortune, and the debt of favor.
The so-called worldly matter, compared with a heart that almost became cold and dark, is really too small...
She witnessed Du Yunxiu's years, she witnessed Du Yunxiu's trough.
She witnessed that Du Yunxiu was almost banned from the entire show business circle, and desperately begged others to act in a trick. She has witnessed that even if Du Yunxiu plays a role, he will be discovered by the director. She thinks that his acting skills are good and wants to be promoted to a supporting actor, but after learning that he is Du Yunxiu, she sighs and withdraws her previous decision...
I have a friend who runs a hotel, why don't you help her? Sometimes, even she couldn't bear to watch him hit the south wall again and again until his head was bloody, and wanted to persuade him to leave this circle and find another way out.
But Du Yunxiu just raised his eyes and said, I still want to act...
Du Yunxiu is the purest person she has ever met.
He wanted to act because he really only wanted to act, not for any other additional reasons.
Finally, after several years of witnessing, the ban was lifted.
Du Yunxiu's joy of being nominated for a Kimber Award for his acting skills, and the disappointment he tried to hide after he missed it. At that time, she only thought that Du Yunxiu wanted to win this award too much, but she didn't expect that it was because of Xie Yi...
Xie Yi. Xie Yi.
No matter how popular this person is, no matter how successful this person is, she looks down on him from the bottom of her heart.
Just how powerful and ruthless a person must be to be able to disregard their former friends to such an extent, and stab each other in the other's heart time and time again, forcing the other party to be embattled on all sides...
Du Yunxiu has never shown his emotional vulnerability in front of her, perhaps this is his insistence as a man.
But Lin Xuan knew that during the first two years of being banned, Du Yunxiu couldn't sleep every night, suffered from deep insomnia, and had to rely on sleeping pills every day to barely fall asleep. She also found that Du Yunxiu still maintained his original calmness and smile in front of her, but when he was not seen by others, his eyes showed a kind of deep tiredness, desolation and emptiness.
She was very scared, afraid that Du Yunxiu would not be able to persist.
She was very scared, afraid that Du Yunxiu would be trapped in this swamp of betrayal from now on.
Fortunately, Du Yunxiu was still the same Du Yunxiu she knew.
He didn't cast dust on his heart because the world was hostile to him, and he didn't become cynical because of Xie Yi's downfall. He was still easy-going, caring for animals and being kind to people.
such a nice man...
Every time Lin Xuan looked at Du Yunxiu, she sighed from the bottom of her heart.
That night, they walked barefoot on the beach.
All the stars fell into the sea, and the sea was full of starlight, like broken brilliant diamonds. The fine and soft sand flowed between their toes, and there were night planes roaring by in the night.
Du Yunxiu walked in front, and she followed behind the man.
Step by step on the footsteps left by this man, it seems that there will always be an intimate intersection with this man's life.
That night, they kept walking, kept walking, I don't know how long they walked.
The salty sea breeze blew their thin clothes and their hair. Finally, she couldn't help but put her cheek on the generous and reassuring back in front of her. Feeling warm, she murmured: "Could it be that I don't look good..."
"It looks good." The other party replied in a low voice, still in a gentle tone.
Her face flushed slightly, but she was actually a little shy as a girl in her heart.
"If... we'll be together, okay?" She finally couldn't help saying out loud, but unexpectedly a big wave hit, the wave drowned out her voice, both of their clothes were wet, they were half surprised and half surprised He yelled funnyly and ran away quickly.
"What did you just say?" Du Yunxiu asked, panting, with gentle brows.
She was also out of breath, looking at the silhouette of the other party under the night, but she didn't have the courage to say it a second time...
Never thought that a farewell is forever.
Never thought that that night was actually the last time she saw Yunxiu. It took her several years of courage to say that sentence, but if she had known that she would never be able to see Yunxiu again in the future, she would have used the courage in her next life to tell him that sentence...
When the bad news came, she was stunned.
She, who has always been dedicated to her work, asked the director for a break and asked for leave to return to China for the first time. She was in a daze along the way. She heard what the agent was saying and what the airport personnel were saying, but she couldn't hear anything. Everything turned into a gray background and noise. She just felt that her heart was frozen in ice, and from now on, there would never be a spring breeze to warm her...
Gray stele.
White flowers, the gray sky is very low, as if it is about to press down on people's hearts.
She saw the man coming too.
It's really ridiculous, it's really unfair, Du Yunxiu became haggard and gloomy because of him, because of that incident, but that person is still bright and handsome.
Why did the person who gave sincerely ended up like this in the end, why did this person feel at ease and have no guilt? !
She hated the sky for being unfair, and hated them for taking Du Yunxiu away.
No matter what movie star he is, no matter what his status is, she just can't help scolding him, and can't help getting mad at him.
"Haven't you hurt him enough! What do you mean by coming now!
"At that time, Director Ji asked Du Yunxiu to play the leading role! ——He gave you the opportunity, so you became a hit and won the best actor of the year! Your acting skills are even one percent of his. It's too late, if it wasn't for him, if it wasn't for him loving you, would you have those opportunities, would you be where you are today!
"But—at that time, it was you who pushed him into the abyss!
"You are not qualified to come at all, you are not worthy to come at all..."
The louder and louder she spoke, the more sorrowful she spoke, until finally she couldn't help shedding tears.
Even God felt her sadness, and it started to rain, and the long drops of rain fell on Du Yunxiu's gray stone tablet.
No living person has ever said sorry.
And the dead... are never heard from again.
The person who was friendly to people, loyal to love, and acted with the simplest and most sincere heart is no longer in this world.
Since then, she has lived abroad for a long time.
She didn't want to go back to China, and she didn't want to set foot on that sad land.
The former boyfriend has now become a famous gold agent. He always comes to her and tells her that he is waiting for her. His beautiful sister always tells himself that his brother regrets it. This changed a lot...
However, she would rather start a new relationship and make a new lover than look back.
Because when she looked back, she would remember how Yunxiu saved her back then, because when she looked back, she couldn't restrain herself from missing Yunxiu and the past.
People around said that her temperament has changed a lot in recent years, and her whole person has also changed a lot.
There is less liveliness and more coldness. When not talking, it is as cold as a piece of ice.
She laughed at herself, she is almost thirty years old, how long will she be lively.
However, what she really wanted to say in her heart was:
In this world without Du Yunxiu ever since, who else would make her believe in the warmth in this world? As long as that person is gone, it seems that even the cold can't be resisted.
The salty sea breeze blows.
The water vapor in the air is about to seep into the skin, the sunset is setting, the water and the sky are blending, and the sky full of stars is reflected on this sapphire blue sea water. She likes this place and this sea view so much, because it is as romantic as that night at that time. beauty of.
Lin Xuan stood up, and the sea breeze swayed the corners of her white skirt, outlining her beautiful figure.
The evening glow and starlight made her look like a goddess with a beautiful face and a quiet heart in Greek mythology. The pages of the book around her turned in the wind, and there was a soft hush.
It's best not to meet each other, so that you don't fall in love.
If I hadn't met Du Yunxiu at the beginning, would it be different in the future? Could it be that she would not treat him...
Lin Xuan thought about it and smiled.
However, if I hadn't met you, my world would be barren!
At that time, she didn't know that she would receive the invitation letter to the Kimber Awards ceremony in a few days, and she didn't know that after returning to China, she would see the familiar movie with superb acting skills, and she didn't know It's the leading actor who will stop her from drinking at the party after the Kimber Awards to relieve her embarrassment...