In fact, during the period from New Year's Day to the end of the semester, Qin Xizhen had already felt the undercurrent. When eating in the cafeteria, she would see some teachers talking and looking at her.
There would also be male teachers who would say to her, "Xiao Qin... your band is still going on... it's almost the end of the semester... it's enough to just perform, why are you letting the students continue?"
Before becoming a teacher, Qin Xizhen actually thought that the profession of teacher was quite sacred. Not only because her family was a family of professors, but also because her academic career had always been excellent and she seemed to have met some good teachers. So in her impression, teachers were people who taught and educated people and were upright.
After graduation, Qin Xizhen got a job as a music teacher in a high school with the help of her family's connections. In this era, according to common sense, girls who are still in college should prepare themselves mentally for work, but when they are really in the workplace, they can still feel the reality of society.
The contradiction between Wang Qi and Tan Qingchuan, the annoying people, the people who curry favor with the powerful. It turns out that there is competition among teachers. Female teachers may go astray when chatting with each other. They will deliberately mention the gold rings and necklaces bought by their husbands or boyfriends, how their families are, or how excellent their children are, and they can't stand anyone wearing gold and silver...
Teachers are also human beings, with emotions and desires. They just need to act like role models and preach the truth in front of students. But in the end, this is just a professional identity. The problems in the workplace also exist here, such as friction and conflicts between people. Even if there are no conflicts, there will be people who don’t like you…
Although Qin Xizhen's appearance is a natural advantage, it will also naturally attract some people.
Later, her English teacher Song Jia, who had a good relationship with her, gave her some advice in private, "Xiao Qin, you know Cheng Ran, after the last monthly exam, you were surpassed by others in several subjects. Although you are the first in the class, your ranking has dropped a lot compared to the first half of the semester... Now some people say that it was your band that did it..."
Although Song Jia spoke very subtly, Qin Xizhen understood it as soon as he heard it.
She had also heard a lot of rumors, including malicious speculations that she relied on her looks to flirt with male teachers, that she led students astray, attracted students to music, and neglected their studies.
From childhood to adulthood, Qin Xizhen has endured these criticisms. Being so popular in Sichuan Conservatory of Music, there are bound to be people who are jealous and maliciously slander her behind her back, but she often just laughs off these rumors, so much so that people once thought she was a temperless person.
There is a story that is widely circulated in Sichuan Conservatory of Music, and it is also the reason why Qin Xizhen is still very famous in the music conservatory.
At that time, a senior sister in the senior grade was a famous figure in the school because of her excellent piano skills. However, after Qin Xizhen came in, this title was taken away by her. The senior sister was a little jealous and often acted like a senior and found fault with Qin Xizhen's piano skills in some occasions, openly or secretly. The music conservatory was relatively small, and the matter became known to everyone. Some people sympathized with Qin Xizhen and even stood up for her, but due to the "reputation" of the senior sister, no one dared to support her openly.
Eventually, the incident broke out in the piano room one afternoon. Qin Xizhen and the senior sister made reservations in the same piano room. When Qin Xizhen arrived, the senior sister did not move and played a difficult piece for her, as if she did not play well and asked for some advice. At this time, there were already people watching the fun at the door. As a result, Qin Xizhen walked directly to another piano in the same piano room, sat down, and played for the other party in a completely suppressed manner, just like the senior sister kicked the iron plate. In the end, Qin Xizhen told her that there was something wrong with what she played just now, and the rhythm was not right...
The senior sister's face turned the color of a pig liver, and she changed the topic and played another piece with a hint of gunpowder. Qin Xizhen completely suppressed her again. As a result, that day, the senior sister played four pieces of difficulty coefficient above 9, and Qin Xizhen followed her. Especially the last piece, Rachmaninoff's "Little Red Riding Hood", which the senior sister played awkwardly, was played by her smoothly and magnificently.
After playing, without waiting for Qin Xizhen's "instructions", the senior sister left with a pale face, and she became famous. A long time later, some talents in the music school figured out something. There are so many piano rooms in the music school, how come two people made reservations in the same piano room at the same time, and it was a double piano room? After guessing, people looked at Qin Xizhen again, and in addition to admiration, they also looked at her with a kind of knowing that she was a master.
She doesn't care about the minor criticism. To use her narcissistic words, she is so beautiful that she hurts some people's eyes, so why can't they scold her? But if someone deliberately jumps out to seek attention, don't blame her for fighting back.
So no matter what kind of rumors there were, they were just like the sound of a crow passing by her ears.
This is also her guiding ideology in fighting against this world.
But what Song Jia said this time was different. She couldn't treat it as a boring remark.
Cheng Ran's grades have dropped.
Moreover, others thought he was playing in a band, but only Qin Xizhen knew that if Cheng Ran's performance really dropped, there were other reasons besides the band, such as his and her business... Qin Xizhen felt a little annoyed.
Originally, she thought Cheng Ran was mature enough, and his temperament made her ignore the difference in their identities and even their ages.
But this news brought Qin Xizhen back to reality. She even felt a little dissatisfied with Cheng Ran. As the top student in the grade, didn't he have the least self-awareness and self-consciousness? His grades had dropped, so shouldn't he have reacted and stopped the loss immediately...
But it is more of a kind of regret for myself.
Because I could make money with Cheng Ran, I really focused on making money and ignored other things... This disturbed Cheng Ran and his grades dropped...
How could I be such a woman who holds back...
Hey, there seems to be something wrong with this statement
With all these thoughts in her mind, Qin Xizhen tried to find out Cheng Ran's grades on the day of the final exam. She was not involved in marking the papers and was not in school, but she still asked Cheng Ran's scores through Song Jia, her good English teacher.
It’s just that after the exam, there is no news yet.
Qin Xizhen had already made up her mind. When the results came out and Cheng Ran regressed, she would clearly cut off their business and end it there.
She would still quit her job, but Cheng Ran wouldn't have to worry about supporting herself.
After all, he was still just a 17-year-old boy. No matter how mature he felt, it seemed... that was just an illusion...
He also has things that he cannot transcend...
On the 25th, after dinner, the next day was the day for students to return to school to receive notices, and Qin Xizhen found himself in unprecedented torment.
This is not because of whether the rumors that Cheng Ran's performance would decline because of the band she supported are true. But it seems to directly mean whether the relationship between them can continue...
Like a verdict, she reviewed every detail of this semester and was actually somewhat reluctant to cut it off herself.
But some things must be done. Qin Xizhen, you have to wake up.
She warned herself.
bite!
The phone rang. There was news about Song Jia! She was an English teacher and participated in marking the papers. The results would be summarized in the afternoon. By this time, she should have received news about the grade rankings from Tan Qingchuan.
Qin Xizhen picked up the phone, and Song Jia's voice... came from the other end of the phone.
After hanging up the phone, Qin Xizhen stared out the window in a daze.
After a moment, she burst into laughter.
Then, she revised a poem as she was in high spirits. Although she was a teacher with authority, she acted like a little girl, muttering to herself.
"I was born before you were born, and you were born when I was already old...
Fortunately, we were born at the same time... and took the exam together with you."
…
Song Shiqiu, who was taking the exam together, took a special bath on the 25th, which was probably the meaning of "bathing and changing clothes" mentioned in many famous books and biographies when important events occurred. He returned to school refreshed on the 26th, and arrived at school at 8:30, as the closing ceremony was to be held at 9:00.
Song Shiqiu was in a very calm mood today. He had given his all in the final exam and felt that he had exhausted himself, so he had no regrets at this moment. He even no longer had the indescribable awkwardness and slight humiliation he had felt when he was surpassed by Cheng Ran.
Some things should be taken for granted, and efforts should be rewarded. Cheng Ran might have put his heart into this at the beginning, but he was careless, playing basketball and doing various activities, so he was quite relaxed about studying. Then, he cut off all leisure and entertainment activities, and the one who aroused the cheers and exclamations of the girls on the basketball court had changed to someone else. He worked hard on his studies, and the progress of high school was constantly moving forward. In this process, he had put his heart into it.
As for Cheng Ran, he is in a band, and he is also very close to Yang Xia... He seems to be involved with the music teacher Qin Xizhen, which is normal... He is the top student in the grade for half a semester, so it is natural for him to be popular. In the past, Song Shiqiu had received such treatment, so it was not enough.
But it doesn’t matter, he caught up. He gambled his IQ and honor by studying and practicing questions desperately, and finally caught up.
He walked into the school and saw people gathering in front of the bulletin board in the teaching building.
When he saw the bulletin board, he thought his perfect state of mind suddenly had a shadow, and the panic and helplessness he felt during the midterm exam seemed to reappear... Song Shiqiu realized at this time that he had not gotten rid of that afternoon. This was a demon in his heart, and only today could he get rid of it. He was actually very good. After briefly understanding where his mental obstacles came from, he quickly adjusted himself, and his mentality gradually stabilized as he took his first steps.
Some people looked at him over there on the bulletin board.
Is this a welcoming look
Return of the King
But why are the expressions on these people's faces not one of congratulations, but something like... regret
As he got closer, the list became clearer.
Then he looked over the crowd and saw the rankings on it.
He looked at it and was stunned. It was like a mountain in the clouds, the road ahead was hidden under the clouds, or maybe there was no road under there. He thought he should take a step forward. There should be a road under the white clouds, right? There must be a road...
Then he leaped forward bravely and missed the target.
There is such a fucking abyss under the clouds, there is no way out at all!
At this time, someone in the crowd behind him said, "Who is the top scorer in the grade this time? No doubt about it. 1005 points! Cheng Ran."
Song Shiqiu's head was buzzing, and he seemed to hear someone say to him, "Song Shiqiu, you are second, 992 points! Okay, this time we are only 13 points behind Cheng Ran!"
“There is progress.”
"Keep up the good work!"