Until this moment, Cheng Ran felt that his thoughts were too simple. In his view, the dinner party at Jiang Hongshao's house was perhaps a mutual bombardment between him and Jiang Hongshao's mother. He did not shrink from the identity of such a person, nor did he feel inferior. He just accepted it all calmly and responded.
So he didn't think there would be any follow-up problems. After all, this was also an experience in life.
But his thoughts, after all, came from the background and experience brought by rebirth, which allowed him to deal with all this. But in the eyes of others, such as Jiang Hongshao, how could they not think that as a teenager, he was facing a demonstration from his strong mother. For example, how could his parents not worry about him going to a girl's house
As a reborn person, he is isolated from the world. After all, no one knows what he has experienced, or the river of time he sees in his eyes. But for those who care about him, they don't know how he feels when facing external pressure. They can only see the violent storms he has to deal with with his young body.
How can I not be worried about it
Even if she felt that he was special, as Jiang Hongshao said, even her two more powerful aunts had fallen into the hands of fate. Will Cheng Ran, who is still a teenager, lose all his uniqueness and spirituality one day
And all this was caused by her.
Zhang Yu coughed twice, then laughed, "Nietzsche's words. High school students will take notes on readings and extract wonderful sentences, but life is not writing. It's not that you suddenly have an idea and can write a beautiful article. You are still too young. Do you know what hard work is? What is hard work? Do you know there is a phrase called "matching", what does it mean? ... Do you know what family is?"
Zhang Yu said with a sneer and ridicule, "Li Yun and I tried hard and put all these things behind us. We secretly got a marriage certificate and rented a house outside the school. Anyway, we were both abroad and far away. At that time, we felt that we could do anything through hard work."
"Later, my parents, and even my relatives abroad came to ask me to separate Li Yun. Even my closest people... They knelt down in front of me! They asked me to end this unrealistic marriage. What could I say? Could I say they didn't understand me?" Zhang Yu's eyes were bloodshot.
"No, the people I love the most, they wronged themselves just because they understood me. It was because they saw what was behind Li Yun that they didn't hesitate to beat and scold me, and even begged me to end this marriage and relationship..."
"Do you know what a family is? Who is behind the family that plans to marry her aunt? They are Chinese Americans who do parts business for the military in California. They provide some parts for Black Hawk helicopters. They have many castles in Europe and are political allies of the governor. After Li Yun married him, they planned to return to China to invest in recent years. Do you know how much they will invest at one time? 1.5 billion RMB! They will take over the core land of the provincial capital to build a hotel and comprehensive commercial real estate!"
Cheng Ran said coldly, "So you are afraid?"
Jiang Hongshao was stunned for a moment.
Zhang Yu was a little excited. "Are you scared? Do you know how much I earn a month now? 1,400 yuan. If I were a class teacher, it might be a little higher, but I'm not. There will be some subsidies and bonuses at the end of the year, so it might be more than 2,000 yuan a month. Then you ask me if I'm scared facing all this? What is fear... I've never been scared. I just know that what I can give and what she can have are not comparable."
Zhang Yu said fiercely, "She is a very idealistic person. She wants to invest in dreams, she wants to do construction, and she wants to go further. But with me, I can only provide her with daily necessities. She wants to visit two European countries every year, where can I take her? Or can women also make money? Can they earn enough to start such a big business? Or even if they can, how many years will it take? Does that innocent ideal still exist? Or does she still have to rely on her parents?"
"I'm asking you, in the face of this kind of energy, what is emotion? 'People's hearts change easily, but it's said that people's hearts are easily changed.' This phrase is well said, and it means that people's hearts are things that change easily. What's the difference between me loving you now and me liking you when I was seventeen? One day, it will just be this sentence..."
"From the beginning to the end..." Cheng Ran said, "I only heard a loser's seemingly reasonable excuse for his failure. If you can't do it, just do it down to earth. If you can't do it, just complain like a woman. What? The other party is a wealthy businessman, or a gangster arms dealer. Why don't you just jump into the river first? It's just an excuse a loser makes for himself!"
"Cheng Ran!" Jiang Hongshao shouted to stop him.
Zhang Yu felt as if he had been hit hard, his eyes turned red, his shoulders shook, and he coughed violently.
Zhang Yu did not hesitate to expose his own scars, in fact he was already in great pain inside. Cheng Ran's words were cruel to him.
Cheng Ran looked at Jiang Hongshao who was still talking. The girl's eyes were trembling and there was a slight pain in a certain part of her chest, but her beautiful face was still somewhat stubborn.
Cheng Ran stood up and walked forward a few steps, "I'm going to the playground..."
After a pause, he turned around and looked at Jiang Hongshao, "Are you leaving or not?"
Jiang Hongshao's eyes trembled as she looked at Cheng Ran, and the two of them looked at each other from a distance.
It was probably a few seconds that seemed to last a split second yet also long.
Cheng Ran turned and left.
Jiang Hongshao called out his name from behind.
Cheng Ran didn't look back, so he didn't see the tears flowing sadly from the girl's red eyes.
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Zhang Yu stood aside and saw Cheng Ran walking away without looking back. The lonely Jiang Hongshao covered her hot eyes with her sleeves, as if she didn't want anyone to see her like this.
"Are you okay?" Zhang Yu finally spoke softly.
Jiang Hongshao shook her head, wiped her face repeatedly with her slender fingers and sleeves, her nose turned red, she sniffed, and her face regained some of its clearness.
She turned to look at Zhang Yu, her expression cold, "I don't agree with what you just said... Do you know how my aunt felt after you made that decision? You haven't seen how upset she was, but I have. She told me that she didn't want you. But I didn't expect... that in the end, you were the one who gave up on your own initiative."
"So she'll hate you her whole life."
Zhang Yu looked at Jiang Hongshao's red eyes, vaguely as if he saw Li Yun back then, and smiled bitterly, "So many people who are reluctant to leave, in the end, just live well on their own. Does your aunt feel disappointed with her current life, does she feel that her current life is tormenting? See, actually not, because everyone's ability to adapt to the environment is strong. The so-called hate me is sometimes just a summary of that relationship. Because there are not many words, because in fact, her current life can make her feel stable without having to consider the surrounding environment to consider that relationship, so she can use the word hate me to express the evaluation I deserve for doing something wrong."
"Life is so long, and the world is so big. Let's not talk about anything too high or too far. Just say that the things you were obsessed with when you were ten are not the same as the things you were obsessed with when you were eleven. Your hopes for life at eighteen and your considerations for life at twenty are not the same. The things you loved most back then may not be so-so in the future. People in their twenties can yearn for love, but when they are in their thirties or forties, they will feel that a stable family that suits them is enough. The ultimate destination of life is still ideals and careers, otherwise a person's value and ambition in this life will not be able to be displayed. Even if you marry someone you don't love at the age of thirty, after having children, you will feel that the other person is not so bad. The other person is responsible for the family, loves your children, and gives them a stable support and a role as the pillar of the family. What else is there to be dissatisfied with? People are selfish. Those who live for themselves are only selfish in a small way, and those who live for the blessing of their family and future generations are selfish in a big way.
Even if some things are engraved in our hearts, time will slowly erode these things. Her life with me is meaningless, and my withdrawal is a kind of fulfillment. That kind of life is suitable for her. "
"Maybe. You have your reasons and ideas. Maybe such a result is good for both you and my aunt." Jiang Hongshao said, "But I agree with Cheng Ran."
"So... I should go find him."
Zhang Yu looked at Jiang Hongshao's back after she said goodbye to him and said softly, "Why bother?"