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Seeing that he lowered his head and didn't speak, Su Jing hesitantly reached out and patted his shoulder.
"You are still young, and your previous experience is really pitiful. So when you meet someone who helps you, you will think that he is your life-saving straw. But with all due respect, Bei Mo is immature, and he is not much older than you. A lot of things will be ruined when you are young." Su Jing tapped the table with his fingertips, grabbing Liao Nanqing's attention, "I'm sorry that my ignorant son misled you. Of course, my son It's his fault, and I'll pay it back for him."
Liao Nanqing listened without moving.
"But if... if you're doing this because of your sexual orientation, and it has nothing to do with Beimo..." Su Jing inevitably said, "For this sexual orientation, it's better to find a partner abroad, isn't it?"
Liao Nanqing raised his eyes in a stalemate, speechless.
Su Jing didn't know, his two simple words pierced into Liao Nanqing's flesh like a dagger. Liao Nanqing likes Subei Mo, and it is never a matter of sexual orientation.
He only wants Subei Mo, he only likes Subei Mo. If it were someone else, it would have a different meaning.
Seeing that he was listening and not refuting, Su Jing softened his tone a little: "Go study abroad. As long as you cut off contact with Beimo and stop contacting, I will be responsible for the money until you graduate. As long as it is within a reasonable range. , you can ask me anything I can do."
At the same time, Su Jing looked around the apartment, which was not too spacious, and pointed it out: "Pack up and go back to the school. If you feel uncomfortable living in the dormitory, I'll rent you an apartment outside. About the same apartment." He felt that he had done his best.
But Liao Nanqing still stood there, unable to lift a single step.
Su Jing urged him to do it twice. On the third time, Su Jing opened the closet and took a neatly folded travel bag from the side.
In the wardrobe, the clothes of Liao Nanqing and Subei Mo are very distinguishable, and they are also neatly stacked separately. Su Jing grabbed Liao Nanqing's clothes indiscriminately and stuffed them into the bag regardless. Just this action completely triggered Liao Nanqing's collapse. He rushed over out of control and grabbed the travel bag in Su Jing's hand.
Liao Nanqing shook his head: "I don't want to go abroad."
Su Jing sucked in a breath of cold air, and his chest was tight.
"I don't want to move from here either." Liao Nanqing was afraid that he would use up all his courage. He clenched the things in his hand, his teeth chattering, "Uncle Su, I want to be with Su Beimo."
Su Jing sank his face and sat silently beside the bed without saying a word.
The atmosphere was cold and sharp all the time, Liao Nanqing moved a little, and the cold sweat on his palms was unaware. His limbs are mushy, the soles of his feet are fluttering, and even his vision is vague. His throat was as dry as fire, he swallowed hard, and eagerly assured Su Jing: "Uncle Su, I swear... I, my whole life, I will really be good to Su Beimo..."
"How is it?" Su Jing turned his back to Liao Nanqing.
"I… "
"Bring him the gossip of the town, or keep him from having a normal family in the future? That's what you call it, okay?" Su Jing got up and interrupted him in a flat tone. Before Su Jing came to see Liao Nanqing, he also had a dispute with Subei Mo. The son who has always been sensible and self-reliant has never made him worry about anything, but he has made such a big joke today.
- Homosexuality.
These three words are too sarcastic, he can't imagine whether Subei Mo will regret it in the future, but he can be sure that these two children are both hot now and can't listen to advice.
Liao Nanqing was not good at words at all. He held the travel bag tightly in his hand, his knuckles were white, and he was cold and naked by Su Jing's unfeeling tone. Before the cold winter and the twelfth lunar month, he was already in the ice and snow. Liao Nanqing's thin body was embedded in the shadow of the room, as if he should have stayed there.
The vision in front of him became more and more blurred, and the whole room shook in his mind.
"What, can't speak?" Su Jing was quite tired, with a few bloodshot eyes in his eyes, he hadn't closed his eyes very much since that night, he was full of sadness, "Nan Qing, our family treats you Is it not good?"
Liao Nanqing's fingertips sank into his arm, and the pain disappeared.
He heard Su Jing ask him: "Nan Qing, why did you do this? How much your Grandma Su and Aunt Su love you, and your Grandma Su is not in good health. Have you ever thought about the consequences of all this?"
Liao Nanqing's eyes were full of tears, but they didn't fall.
Su Jing's words were full of despair, even pleading: "Are you trying to destroy our family?"
This sentence is like five thunders.
Liao Nanqing's eyes widened in vain, the eyes that should have dried up burst out the accumulated tears, the beans were as big as raindrops, and they couldn't stop dripping, because the cover of the sluice was pulled.
He seemed to remember that summer many years ago, when the mosquitoes were screeching and the air was filled with the smell of blood. His mother, Li Qin, cried out to him—
"Why are you destroying this home! It's all you, it's all you!"
Liao Nanqing raised his hand rigidly, his hands were covered in blood, and he regarded the cold sweat as scarlet. His brain began to chaotic, the reality and the past merged in his unconscious memory.
—
not me.
I do not have.
I'm a victim too, Mom, I'm a victim too.
…
But Li Qin didn't listen. She covered her face and couldn't see her expression clearly, and her past warmth suddenly fell to pieces: "Why are other people's children all well, only you are like this... why... why are you the only one so abnormal?!"
Such an unprecedented question is full of distrust.
She said, you are not normal, you are not normal at all. There are so many children, but he is staring at you, that Aunt Zhang saw that you ran out of his house wearing that kind of nonsense clothes!
She also said, you are not normal, you ruined the Liao family.
In the end, Li Qin's face was hideous, and he punished his heart word by word: "And now, you are going to destroy the Su family.".
Immediately.
Liao Nanqing lost his strength and suddenly fell to the ground. He panicked and gasped loudly. A pair of hands let go of their hands in a daze, and the travel bag fell to the side, and the clothes inside were scattered and scattered. He stepped back abruptly, tightly protecting his head, and kept saying, "I didn't... I didn't... "
Immediately, he remorseful and deeply blamed himself: "It's me, it's my reason... I fell in love with Subei Mo first, it's my fault..."
Su Jing hurriedly took a step forward, but every time he took a step closer, Liao Nanqing shrank back a little, his back was against the cold wall, and he kept begging for mercy: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Uncle Su, I'm sorry..."
"Nan Qing? Nan Qing, what's wrong with you?" Su Jing suddenly became worried and wanted to step forward and pull him up. The moment he touched it, Su Jing realized that Liao Nanqing was soaked in sweat, and even his clothes were damp. Liao Nanqing resisted and pushed his arm without any strength.
The door outside suddenly opened.
Subei Mo rushed in without even taking off his shoes. His cheeks still had the palm prints left by Su Jing two days ago, and they were still hot and painful.
"Nanqing!" Seeing this scene, he was startled, and without thinking about it, he took off his jacket bluntly, rushed over and pushed Su Jing away, wrapped Liao Nanqing in his arms and hugged him tightly. Su Beimo's eyes were full of anger, and he shouted at Su Jing, "Dad, what did you do to him?!"
"He's like this all of a sudden, and I don't know what's going on." Su Jing was anxious, took out his mobile phone and called, "Send to the hospital first. Quickly, take it to the hospital first."
Subei Mo gritted his teeth, hugged Nan Qing, and pressed his chin to his forehead.
Liao Nanqing had a fever, and it seemed that it had been a while.
Subei Mo kissed his forehead and said incoherently: "It's alright, Nanqing is alright. I'm back, don't be afraid, Nanqing... "
In the hospital, the nurse put an IV on Liao Nanqing, and he slept on the lounge chair in a daze. Subei Mo borrowed a small blanket to cover him and wiped the cold sweat from his forehead.
The nurse asked, "Family?"
"Yes." Subei Mo responded, "I'm his brother."
"Your brother has a fever, and he doesn't seem to have had a good rest recently. He usually pays attention to a light diet, so that he avoids staying up late as much as possible and eats three meals normally." The nurse glanced suspiciously at Su Beimo's slightly swollen cheeks, and gave a few words of advice. gone. Subeimo sat on the rest chair next to him and asked Liao Nanqing to rest his head on his shoulder.
A few minutes later, Su Jing bought an early one, a bag of hot soy milk and a few vegetarian steamed buns.
"You eat, your aunt called me and said you left early in the morning." Su Jing wiped his face and sat across from them. He tried his best not to look at the intimate behavior of his son and Liao Nanqing. It seems that he will be furious just by looking at it, "When he finishes hanging this, go back and put away his things..."
"Dad, what should be said, I have said it very clearly." Su Beimo interrupted him, unwilling to continue the topic.
"Do you have to be so disobedient? You know you..." Su Jingchao glanced around and lowered his voice, "You will definitely regret it in the future, listen to me, I will not treat Nan Qing badly, I will sponsor him to finish university. ."
Subei Mo turned his head in disgust: "I'm an adult, I know what to do."
"What about your grandma? What would happen if she found out at such an old age?" Su Jing hurriedly asked.
Su Beimo closed his eyes: "I won't tell grandma." He never thought that he would be accepted by everyone, but at least, they could not hurt Liao Nanqing.
Su Jing clenched his fists angrily, almost threatening. In the past three days, he had beaten and scolded Subei Mo, and even tried to reason with him calmly.
Unfortunately it doesn't work.
Helpless, he forced Su Beimo: "If I said, if you want to be with him, you have to cut off your relationship with your family?"
Su Beimo was stunned, Su Jing seemed to have grasped his weakness: "Beimo, go home with me. I have saved some money over the years, you can start a business or find a job in a company if you want. ."
There are people coming and going, and for some reason, the hospital today is very crowded. So much noise, human voices, footsteps, all mixed into a ball, into the ears of Subei Mo. They were crowded, piled up in the small space in Subei Mo's brain, and finally collapsed.
Subei Mo twitched the corners of his mouth and quickly calmed down.
His clear voice sounded in his ears, and in the chaotic environment, it was very clear.
"Dad, sorry."
December goes by fast, and life in January is hectic.
All colleges and universities are caught in the tense atmosphere of final exams, and several dormitories are even more endorsed, and Liao Nanqing is no exception.
The company in northern Jiangsu began to enter an endless cycle of overtime, and often traveled on business. But every time he was on a business trip, the information calls between him and Liao Nanqing never stopped. Liao Nanqing knew in his heart that Subei Mo was worried that he was at home alone.
Are you afraid that Su Jing will find him again, or is he afraid that Liao Nanqing will fall into a dead end alone? Strictly speaking, both.
Ge Jun's foot injury was almost healed, so he excitedly came to Liao Nanqing to drink milk tea. Her boyfriend said that even if she becomes a little fat, she will continue to like her. Ge Jun didn't know what happened to Liao Nanqing in those days, and he joked about Gousu from time to time.
Fortunately, with the presence of Ge Jun, Liao Nanqing would not appear too lonely at school.
He seemed to retreat into his shell. Gradually, he stopped participating in school activities and communicated less with classmates in his major.
Ge Yun noticed something wrong with him several times and asked, but Liao Nanqing didn't say anything, and Ge Yun cured the interesting person and stopped asking.
"Hey, you've been boring recently. Xu Jianjian, too, hasn't appeared in group chats recently." Ge Yun completely forgot about the time before and after graduation from high school.
Liao Nanqing had no appetite to drink milk tea, and sat with Ge Yun on the bench in the school flower bed blowing the cold wind.
"Liao Nanqing, do you want to wait for Gou Su to go back during the winter vacation?" Ge Yun joked at him, "If you don't have time, will you bring your Gou Su for a dinner party? By the way, I will introduce Xu Yanyan solemnly."
"I won't go back during the winter vacation, I will stay in City B." Liao Nanqing said apologetically, "I'll invite you to dinner next time."
"Ah? Why don't you go back to New Year's, your house..." Before he finished speaking, Ge Yun automatically shut up.
Liao Nanqing didn't feel anything, and said lightly: "My mother and my stepfather are together, they and I have already broken up."
Ge Jun took a sip of milk tea and said awkwardly, "Sorry."
"It's okay, it's not a secret."
"Well... Then are you going to deliver supper to Gousu tonight?" Ge Jun changed the subject wisely.
"Um."
"Hey, you're just too kind to him." Ge Yun taught him, "Boyfriends can't be spoiled."
"I'm his boyfriend too." Liao Nanqing didn't quite understand what Ge Yun said, and replied blankly, "But he loves me very much."
Uncle Ge Jun seemed to have his legs crossed: "You are a typical poor boy who was sold and helped to count the money."
Liao Nanqing shook his head, thinking, what do you know.
He broke up with my family for me.
…
Just thinking about it like that, Liao Nanqing felt a panic in his heart, and he felt that he had made a huge mistake. And this mistake, with the current situation of stalling and out of control, will spread rapidly and fall into a swamp-like involuntary.
The tip of Liao Nanqing's nose was slightly cold, he raised his head, it was snowing.
The first snow this winter, the first piece, melted on the tip of Liao Nanqing's nose.
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I have to go home for a follow-up on the weekend, so the next update will be on Sunday night~
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