It's already late at night.
After finishing the chat with September Shuangye, Lin Feng closed the chat window and turned off the computer.
Then he continued to sit quietly at the table like this, recalling the conversation he had just had with his old friend, and was slightly startled.
The reunion of old friends should have been a joyous event.
And seeing that after September Shuangye retired, he was able to achieve such a high popularity on the Douyu TV live broadcast platform, and successfully made a name for himself in the anchor circle. As a friend, you should be delighted.
But rather…
Lin Feng was not happy at all.
No, I'm happy with the way old friends are living now, there are still some.
But at the moment, there are more complex and unspeakable emotions in his heart.
Pity.
dissatisfied.
disappointment.
Maybe there are, all kinds of emotions and thoughts cluttered into a ball in his mind, making Lin Feng feel tired but not sleepy at all.
After thinking about it, he picked up his mobile phone and broadcast a phone number and called out.
…
beep-beep-beep-
The call is connected.
A pleasant female voice came from the other end of the microphone, and seemed to be breathing slightly:
"Hello? What's the matter? Call me so late."
Lin Feng's call reached An Xin.
In fact, at such a late hour, the only person he could find someone to talk to was An Xin, who was a childhood sweetheart since childhood.
Lin Feng gave a "um", and then felt a little puzzled:
"What are you doing?"
"It's so hard to breathe-"
The girl on the other end of the phone took another deep breath, then smiled, "It's alright, I just worked out at night~ Now I'm done."
Lin Feng: "Eh? Are you still exercising even though you haven't slept so late?"
The girl pouted as if disapprovingly:
"Then what's the matter, you didn't sleep so late and still called me."
Lin Feng: "Oh..."
The thoughtful girl quickly heard the depression in Lin Feng's tone, her tone was a little slower, and she asked softly:
"What's the matter, are you in a bad mood?"
"Um."
"You big idiot will suddenly be in a bad mood. Tell me, what happened? Oh yes, didn't Sister Xue change the platform tonight to the premiere of Douyu TV? Isn't it going well?"
Lin Feng shook his head: "No, Sister Xue's first performance of Douyu tonight was very good, and it exceeded her ideal expectations by a large margin."
An Xin on the other end of the phone was slightly overjoyed: "Really, that's great - oh yes, then why are you unhappy?"
"It's not unhappy—"
Lin Feng hesitated for a moment, then slowly said:
"Yesterday, I contacted Ye Zizi to help make Sister Xue popular on Douyu's side. I played two games with him tonight, and then we chatted on QQ for a while."
"Leaves?" An Xin was slightly startled when she heard it, and then she reacted: "Is September Frost Leaves?"
Lin Feng nodded: "Yes."
The girl was a little puzzled: "Isn't your relationship always very good, you haven't been in contact for so long, and this time you can get in touch again and play black games together, it should be a happy thing, right?"
Lin Feng shook his head, thought about it for a while, and chose the words he used to describe the content of his chat with Jiuyue Shuangye tonight, as well as some of his own thoughts.
…
"Well, that's basically it."
After speaking to An Xin with some words buried in his heart, Lin Feng only felt that the whole person was relieved a lot.
There were some things he couldn't even say to the person involved.
But you can tell Baozi.
After so many years of childhood sweethearts and acquaintances, he has long subconsciously regarded the girl on the other end of the phone as the person he can trust and rely on the most. Xin went to ask for her opinion.
This time is no exception.
Taking a sigh of relief, Lin Feng remembered that An Xin on the other end of the phone had been listening and had not made a sound for a long time:
"steamed stuffed bun?"
A girl's voice came from the other end of the microphone:
"Well, I'm here."
"So... do you feel a little unhappy because of the leaves?"
Lin Feng was silent for a while, then nodded: "Well, I can't say that I am unhappy, but... I feel a little complicated, and I am also a little regretful and disappointed."
The girl asked softly:
"Then why are you disappointed?"
Lin Feng thought about it for a while, and then gave his real answer seriously:
"I don't think he should have retired so early at the time. If he wanted to, he could choose to play another season, two seasons."
"He won the world championship trophy once, but he is not the championship of the World S League. If he can continue to work hard, he may really get it-"
Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by An Xin:
"But it's also possible that you won't get it, isn't it?"
"That's the risk."
Lin Feng still wanted to insist on saying something, but the girl on the other end of the phone had already continued to say it on her own:
"One is to fight for another year, two years and three years to fight for a World S-League championship trophy, but at the same time bear the realistic pressure of declining professional status, low income, and hard training."
"One is to choose to retire before his career reaches the peak and has not yet slipped, and transform into an anchor, with an easy and generous income guarantee life."
"In these two situations, it should be easy to choose whoever changes."
"Is not it?"
Lin Feng was silent.
And An Xin continued to speak softly:
"Not everyone has the determination and courage to move forward."
"Because this is a gamble, obviously I can't see hope and future, I have to grit my teeth and continue to struggle for one, two or three years..."
"It's too hard to be strong."
"Moreover, for a former professional e-sports player, it was already very difficult to make such a choice to bid farewell to the arena where he swayed his blood and sweat, and bid farewell to the dream of the year."
"If it's Ye Zi... he shouldn't be in a good mood either."
Lin Feng was stunned.
Recalling the content of the conversation he had had with Jiuyue Shuangye on QQ earlier, and the speechless silence of the other party several times, finally touched his heart slightly.
perhaps…
It is true that he is too subjective.
Some things, Ye Ye should have his own difficulties.
At this time, An Xin on the other end of the phone seemed to be somewhat emotionally aroused by this topic, and sighed softly:
"The lifespan of professional e-sports players is still too short..."
"Golden peaks rarely last more than two years."
"If you want to watch your strength slip from the peak, and you can't do anything about it, it is indeed better to make a choice to retire earlier to make yourself a little easier-"
Talking, as if thinking of something, An Xin suddenly chuckled and asked Lin Feng:
"By the way, what if you were?"
Lin Feng: "Huh? What?"
An Xin smiled: "If the leaves were replaced by you, what would you choose?"
Lin Feng answered almost without hesitation:
"In my case, of course I won't retire, and I will definitely continue to be a professional e-sports player."
The girl asked:
"Even if the state of strength slips from the peak, is it the same, is it okay to watch yourself getting further and further away from your dream?"
Lin Feng thought about it and answered seriously:
"Then I will continue to fight."
"If the state of strength declines, it will be better to work harder to make up for it."
Simple and pure words represent extremely serious and firm belief and determination.
The girl on the other end of the phone paused, then laughed:
"Yes."
"You are such a one-of-a-kind, hot-blooded idiot. Sure enough, this choice is your style~"
"Everyone has their own choices, and there is no need to criticize and accuse others about what decisions others make—"
"As long as you know that you are still following your heart and working hard for what you really want, that's enough."
"Isn't it?"
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The update is sent. I will fly to Changsha tomorrow. I have to go to bed early in the evening. Good night friends, thank you for your red envelopes!