When I woke up, I saw the kind face of my mother-in-law. She looked at me with loving eyes. I rubbed my sleepy eyes, and suddenly saw a shallow scar on her left eyebrow. Memory, I just realized that my mother-in-law has aged so much.
"Wen Yi, you scared me to death!"
Liang Yi's voice brought me back to reality, I sat up, looked at him blankly and asked, "What's wrong?"
"You suddenly fainted yesterday, and you didn't wake up until now." Liang Yi breathed a sigh of relief, looked at me and said.
"How do you feel now?" I heard the words and looked at my mother-in-law. At some point, her white hair was all over her head, and the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes became deeper. In the scene where I was missing, her appearance changed again and again, except Still kind.
I didn't stay awake for a long time this time. I just wanted to take a nap but woke up the next day. Once I woke up in the middle of the night. That time I saw a light shining through the door next door, and they faintly heard A heavy voice of conversation.
I vaguely knew that Li Su had gone out and would not be back until a few days later. Unknowingly, it has been several years, and he has grown up. I tried to imagine what he looks like now, but I found no clue.
In the middle of the night, I woke up suddenly again. The moon outside the window was a bit incomplete, and I walked to the window, only to find that the wooden comb I threw out of the window yesterday was gone. Yesterday when I combed my hair, I grabbed a handful of hair. I was a little scared and sad, so I threw the comb away, and I don’t know who picked it up later.
I don't know if it was because the night was too quiet or that boy Liang Yi was too loud. For the first time, I went to the light-transmitting door and tried to eavesdrop. Then I heard a secret that was hard for me to accept.
Through a door, I could also feel how angry Liang was. I could even imagine how obvious the veins on his arms were. Then there was the sound of teapots and cups being overturned. After the dead silence, , I heard Liang Yi ask: "Li Sha, do you have a grudge against Wen Yi? Otherwise, why did you hide it from your mother-in-law? It's Mu Jing's business."
I felt a stabbing pain in my heart instantly, I sat down heavily against the door, and then I heard a creak, the support behind me was empty, I turned my head, and under the dim light, I saw Liang Yi's face in pain, And a look of helplessness. There was a sweetness in my throat, a mouthful of blood spewed out, and then I lost consciousness.
I woke up in the morning of the next day, and the frequency of my coma and waking up became more and more frequent. When I first opened my eyes, my eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of fog, and then it quickly became clear, and then clear. There are memories of last night.
There was a stool next to the bed, and the door of the room was ajar, letting in strong light. An emotion became violent in me, and I opened the door and ran out.
I ran down the mountain road, the downhill wind blew on my face fiercely, I tripped over a stone, and fell heavily on the ground, I stared blankly at the blood oozing from my arm, and then looked at Looking at the rugged mountain road in front of him, his vision became warm and blurred.
At this time, I saw a small dirt slope hidden in the weeds not far away. I remembered that Lisu’s deer was buried here. I suddenly remembered the promise I made to him when I left, every word I said The words and his expression clearly appeared in my mind, and I suddenly felt that this is fine now, and I am ashamed to see him anyway.
My head became dizzy, and it seemed that it was time to fall asleep again. I stood up and continued to walk forward feebly, forcing myself to wake up. Then there was a shout behind me, and I fell down the next second.
I had a dream. In the dream, I was sitting on the edge of a cliff. My mother-in-law pulled me to jump down with her. I opened her hand, and she fell down with the wind. I stretched out my hand in shock but only caught a touch of the wind. Finally, I watched my mother-in-law fall into the bottomless abyss.
I opened my eyes trembling all over, I was still in the place where I fainted, my mother-in-law's face was close in front of me, her eyes were black and blue, and she looked at me leisurely. I called "Mother-in-law", and she came close to my ear and said softly: "No matter what happens in the future, you must live well." After saying that, she fell beside me, and I turned my head, Seeing the blood oozing from the corner of her mouth, she slowly closed her eyes.
I called her hoarsely, she didn't answer, I pushed her again, Liang also pulled my hand away, his eyes were swollen and red, I looked at them helplessly, Lisha knelt beside her mother-in-law , with his head down, unable to see his expression clearly. Suddenly, a leaf floated on my mother-in-law's face, and I stared at her face blankly, crying loudly.
Later, I learned that my mother-in-law transferred my Gu to her body to save me. She died because of the Gu poison, and she also died because of me. Only then did I understand Old Madam Jiang's true intentions at the beginning. She knew very well that the way to undo Gu is to change one life for another. The obsession she couldn't let go in her twilight years was actually me helping her achieve consummation.
I have a deep hatred in my heart, but I don't know who to turn it on. Mrs. Jiang lost her relatives, and there are not many years left. Maybe I should hate Hu Yisan, but I don't know where he is.
We burned incense and kowtowed in front of my mother-in-law's grave. I knelt alone for a long time until Liang Yi pulled me up. At this time, footsteps suddenly came from behind me, I turned my head and saw Li Su.
His eyes were gloomy and calm. I saw him glance at the tombstone and then touch my eyes. I looked away in a panic. There was no sound around me. Then he walked around me to the tomb and knelt down. . He didn't say anything, but with just one glance, I felt his eyes were sharp enough to see everything.
He knelt motionless until it was dark, the night breeze was cool, I couldn't help sneezing, Liang also signaled us to go first with his eyes, Li Sha took off his coat and put it on me, I followed him and left. After walking a few steps, I turned around and saw Liang Yi knelt down beside Li Su again.
I walked back with Li Sha, and after hesitating for a long time, I said to him: "I shouldn't blame you for not wanting to save me. If I knew that I would have to live for another life, no matter who it is, I would not Might be okay."
Li Sha walked in front of me, he didn't say a word to me for several days, and he hasn't said a word until now. I silently followed behind him, the moonlight illuminating the road ahead very brightly.
I lay on the bed and fell asleep unsteadily. Between half-dream and half-awake, I seemed to hear the sound of the window being blown open by the wind, and the coolness hit me, and I curled up into a ball. The window swayed with the wind and made a slight sound. I suddenly opened my eyes, and at the same time I felt a strange breath that seemed to be there.
"Lisu?"
I stared blankly at this indifferent young man under the moonlight. He was dressed in black as if wrapped in the bleak night, and his eyes were long and dim, as if he was full of unspeakable thoughts.
I don't know what kind of words he wants to say. My intuition tells me that he has tried his best not to show his hatred for me. He should hate me. I pushed him to the point of loneliness twice.
We stared at each other silently for a while, and he finally left without saying anything. When he turned around, his robe was blown up by the wind outside the window and brushed against my cheek. I watched his back completely disappear from sight with the sound of closing the door. He justified something, so that our mutual barrier and strangeness can disappear.
I thought of what my mother-in-law said to me before she was alive. She said that Li Su is destined to stay in Fuyang, but we cannot step into Fuyang City. I asked my mother-in-law why, but she looked at me fixedly but just said nothing, then I became dizzy and fell asleep again, and finally I couldn't get my mother-in-law's answer.
The next day, we found that Li Su had left without saying a word. The three of us stood in front of the door looking at the way down the mountain. Liang Yi glanced at us sideways and said, "We should go too, in order to come back later. .”
I nodded, "I'm going to find Aunt Lianyi and ask about my background." Liang Yi heard this and looked at me, then said softly, "Go to Cangdu with Lisha."
"Aren't you with us? Then, I won't go to Cangdu first, let's go to Nanyang City to find Yu Ning, okay?" I looked at Liang Yi earnestly, and I was afraid that he would leave without saying goodbye.
But Liang Yi shook his head and said: "Wen Yi, Aunt Lianyi is your only relative in this world. I know you have always wanted to find out your own life experience, so you can go to her. As for me, I also want to know my real life. Who are my parents and why did they abandon me? I can only find the answers to these things by myself, and you can’t help me." He lowered his head as he spoke, and I followed his gaze and saw the jade pendant hanging around his waist , In the past, he would wrap it in a cloth and put it in his arms. Now, perhaps the person closest to him has passed away, and he finally chooses to explore his true self.
I wiped away the tears that fell down my face, Liang Yi kept calling me "don't cry", but his expression was unshakable and firm, Li Sha, who had been silent all this time, suddenly said to me: "Wen Yi, let's go to Cang first. Both." This was the first sentence he said to me in the past few days, but I would rather he kept silent.