The cold war between Tang Xue and Yu Yan continued until the last day of the provincial championship.
On the last day, it was the finals of figure skating. Tang Xue sat in the corner of the auditorium, wearing a hat and mask, wrapping herself like a zongzi.
There were many ice fans in the audience, and when they saw Yu Yan appear, they couldn't help applauding. Yu Yan has won the individual gold medal in the national youth competition. Although his fame is not as good as those of the famous players, he has also attracted many people's attention as a rookie. The most popular news about him recently is that someone claimed to have bought his medal on Xianyu. This news was voted as one of the top ten jokes of the year by netizens of a post bar.
Yu Yan's face was pale and tired, and Tang Xue felt a little remorse when she saw him like this. Maybe she shouldn't put her grievances on him. After all, it's not his fault that he has a strong and domineering mother. He is not an accomplice, and he may even be a victim.
Yu Yan today's short program is a piece of jazz, and the sexy and charming music has a melancholy temperament by him. Tang Xue didn't understand music, but she could feel that he was unhappy. She was very sad and wanted to run down and say sorry to him.
She was struggling when suddenly, when Yu Yan was doing the Axel triple jump, the ice blade slipped and she fell to the ice uncontrollably.
Boom - Tang Xue seemed to hear the dull sound of flesh and blood hitting the ice surface.
She stood up abruptly.
The risk factor of figure skating is as high as its ornamental factor. When the high-speed rotating body falls, the athletes often have to bear the impact force several times their body weight. It is conceivable how painful Yu Yan is now.
But he didn't hesitate, got up and quickly picked up the action and continued to slide.
Some people are silent, and more are applauding.
…
Although he made a mistake, Yu Yan still won the gold medal. Tang Xue wanted to find him, but she saw him waving to his mother, alas... She sighed and got up and walked out.
In the evening, when Tang Xue returned to the dormitory, she saw Yu Yan outside the dormitory building.
He was wearing sportswear, standing in a daze under the street lamp, looking tall and thin, and his side face looked a little haggard.
When Tang Xue approached, he just turned his head, and the eyes of the two met.
After looking at each other for a while, they spoke at the same time.
"sorry."
"sorry."
Tang Xue scratched her head uncomfortably and said, "Why are you apologizing?"
"I'm sorry for my mother, although I don't know what she said to you, but... Tang Xue, please don't be angry."
"It's alright," Tang Xue shook her head, "Um... I shouldn't have put my anger on you, I'm sorry." She was embarrassed when she said soft words. She didn't look at him now, her eyes shifted. open and land on the grass outside the light.
Yu Yan looked at her face, remained silent, and the two became quiet again.
After a while, Tang Xue asked, "Does your body still hurt?"
Yu Yan quickly shook his head, "It doesn't hurt anymore."
"Well, you still need to see a doctor. Figure skating wrestling is very common, and so many world famous players have fallen. Don't take it too seriously."
"Tang Xue." Yu Yan suddenly called her softly.
"Huh?" Tang Xue looked back at him. She felt that his eyes were not as warm and clean as usual, and he seemed to have a lot more on his mind. Looking at him like this, she was inexplicably sad.
Yu Yan asked Tang Xue, "If you can only choose one of dreams and love, what would you choose?"
Tang Xue opened her mouth and suddenly understood what he was struggling with. There was a burst of sadness in her heart, looking into his eyes, she asked him a little aggrievedly: "Can't you choose both?"
"Can't."
Tang Xue thought about it seriously, and finally sighed: "I will probably choose my dream."
—
When Tang Xue and Li Yubing reviewed their homework together at night, she was always distracted and in a daze.
Li Yubing just thought she was too tired and said to her: "Go to sleep when you are sleepy."
Tang Xue came back to her senses and looked at him with her chin up.
Li Yubing liked the way she looked at him like this, as if she only had him in her eyes.
"Li Yubing, let me ask you a question." Tang Xue said.
"ask."
"If you can only choose one of dreams and love, which one would you choose?"
Li Yubing squinted at Tang Xue and asked, "Why do you ask this?" Could this guy give up Yu Yan for his dream? Mmm, nice job.
Tang Xue urged him, "Come on, what do you choose?"
Li Yubing thought for a while and shook his head: "This question is not scientific, there is only one correct answer, there is no choice."
"Oh?"
"Choose one and give up the other, that's the premise, right?"
Tang Xue nodded, "Yes."
"If you give up love for your dreams, you will get your dreams; but if you give up your dreams for love, you will get nothing in the end."
Tang Xue was a little confused, "Why?"
"Because, if you give up your dream for love, you will count all the loss of your dream to love, and you will feel that you have paid a lot for him. The farther you are from your dream, the greater your resentment towards love. Romance is so slowly and gradually smoothed out." Li Yubing looked inscrutable, like a seasoned liar, and added, "Don't believe it, this is human nature."
Tang Xue felt that Li Yubing's words made sense, but she was even more sad, and asked Li Yubing: "Li Yubing, do you have a dream?"
"My childhood dream was to bully you."
Tang Xue felt a black line, "Don't always bring up things when you were young... Now, what is your dream now?"
"Now..." Li Yubing's tone was quite meaningful, she lowered her head and held the corner of her mouth, smiling without saying a word.
Now, still bullying you.
—
A few days later, Yu Yan was going to Beijing to participate in the China Figure Skating Grand Prix and asked Tang Xue if he could send him off.
He always hoped that he could have the same treatment as Li Yubing, and was always competing.
Tang Xue took Yu Yan to the airport, and the two had lunch at the airport together.
Lunch was beef ramen, which was salty and not tasty at all.
For many days to come, this lunch was Yu Yan's most impressive meal. It was so salty that it was bitter and unpalatable, but he ate it in small bites, reluctant to end it.
After lunch, the two sat opposite each other at the dining table, silent.
I don't know since when, silence has become the norm between them. It seems that something has changed completely, but they are not willing to reveal it.
Yu Yan suddenly pulled out a box from his backpack and pushed it in front of Tang Xue.
"What is this?" Tang Xue asked.
"Give it to you, open it and take a look."
Tang Xue opened the box and saw a half-old, copper globe inside. The globe is exquisitely made, with fine pictures, and the earth turns flexibly with a flick of the hand.
Tang Xue dialed the globe, "This, has it been some years?"
"Well, this is a birthday present from my grandfather when I was five years old."
Tang Xue was surprised for a while, "Why did you give me this?"
Yu Yan lowered his head and suddenly smiled, "Actually, my biggest dream since I was a child was to travel around the world. I wanted to travel to every country and see how people all over the world lived."
Tang Xue was stunned.
"I started figure skating when I was six, and everyone said I was a genius. Genius means you have to live up to everyone's expectations, give more and work harder than everyone else. I spend almost all of my energy on it, too. There is no chance to go out and see the world." Yu Yan sighed and smiled helplessly, "Figure skating is not my dream, but it is the dream of many people. So I will persevere."
Tang Xue felt sad for a while and comforted him: "I will definitely have the opportunity to travel around the world in the future."
Yu Yan looked down at the time, "Let's go."
Tang Xue took him to the security checkpoint. When they were about to part, Yu Yan said, "Tang Xue, can I give you a hug?"
Tang Xue took the initiative to hug him.
Yu Yan hugged her body tightly, he closed his eyes and breathed greedily, revelling in this moment of tenderness.
"Tang Xue." Yu Yan suddenly called her.
"Um?"
"I… "
I like you.
You at first sight, you at second sight, I like you more and more.
You are happy, you are unhappy, you are arrogant, you are lost, you are flirting with people, you are angry, all like you.
I like you so much.
I'm giving up on you now.
"I'm leaving." Yu Yan took a deep breath, and finally just said an ordinary sentence.
"Well, it's smooth sailing."
Yu Yan let go of her, pulled the suitcase, turned around, and walked towards the security checkpoint. When he left, Tang Xue heard him say "I'm sorry" softly.
I'm sorry because I gave up on you.
Tang Xue looked at his back, her eyes were red, and she suddenly stopped him: "Yu Yan."
Yu Yan stopped.
"Actually," Tang Xue said behind him, "everyone will choose like you. So don't say sorry."
Yu Yan turned around and stood looking at her: "Tang Xue, don't you feel angina?"
"I… "
"If you don't feel angina, it means you don't actually like me."
Tang Xue was stunned.
"Tang Xue, don't be deceived by yourself."