The two chatted casually, with a vague sense of estrangement between them.
The plane landed a little late. Between going to bed late and getting up early the next day, Xia Yiting chose to go to bed late. But she regretted it now. The nanny car drove for more than half an hour to get to the hotel. She suppressed the urge to rush into the room immediately. After getting out of the elevator, she activated the teleportation function and flashed into the room and made a phone call.
Without time to move his feet, he leaned against the door, his voice still panting, indescribably panicked: "Lu, Teacher Lu."
Lu Yinbing suddenly felt a lump in her throat and subconsciously wanted to say "I'm sorry", but she knew that saying this would only make the other party more nervous. Even if nothing had happened, Xia Yitong was scared like this by her.
"Teacher Xia Xia." Lu Yinbing said. Her outstanding acting skills made her smile and jokes seem very natural. "Why are you stuttering?"
Xia Yitong propped herself up on the door, slowly stood up, and smiled: "I don't know either. I was just a little nervous."
Lu Yinbing asked: "Why don't you take a shower first? Then we can video chat?"
"Not now?" Xia Yitong said, pressing his fingers on the palm of his hand.
"But I just got off the plane, looking dusty. Do you want me to see you like this?"
"Okay then. I'll go and be back in ten minutes."
"good."
Lu Yinbing put away her phone, rested her head on the pillow, and looked at the ceiling quietly. She was surrounded by an unprecedented guilt. She liked you so much, she did not doubt Xia Yitong's feelings for her, and believed in her more than she believed in herself. It was because of this belief that she could not deceive herself. How unforgivable it was for her to have such an idea of escape.
She likes you so much, why do you want to waver
You like her so much, why do you want to run away
Why, why, why? Countless whys filled her mind. Everyone was shouting at her, but no one could provide her with an answer. She blankly reflected on the necessity of starting this relationship. Was she too impulsive? Did she not like the other person enough? At least not as much as Xia Yitong liked her.
In the end, she wondered: Does she really like her
This thought almost made Lu Yinbing jump up from the bed.
The sound of the video invitation interrupted Lu Yinbing's thoughts. She touched her back and broke out in a cold sweat. She swallowed, looked at her phone, and pressed the answer button.
Xia Yitong's young and beautiful face with water droplets appeared in the camera: "Teacher Lu, I'm done."
Lu Yinbing looked at the time displayed on the top of the screen. It was only six minutes. How anxious she was. In the past, when Xia Yitong was so nervous about her, she might tease her a few words, and sometimes even talk about topics that are not suitable for children. The atmosphere was extremely relaxed. But now, she only felt an overwhelming hesitation. Every loving look from Xia Yitong was torture to her. Every time she looked at her, Lu Yinbing's guilt would deepen.
"Xia Yitong." Lu Yinbing opened her mouth, but no sound came out for the last two words. She had to clear her throat. Even so, her voice became hoarse, as if there was a handful of sand in her throat.
"Do you have a cold?" Xia Yitong immediately asked nervously, her eyes almost drilling into the screen, although that was of no use.
"Don't..." Lu Yinbing cleared his throat again, wanting to say: Don't look at me like that. He swallowed the words back and said with a smile, "Don't be so nervous, I just drank a little wind when I came back last night, and my throat is not feeling well."
As she spoke, she took the cup on the bedside table and drank a sip of water. When she spoke again, her voice had almost returned to normal.
"My hands are so sore. I'll stop holding the phone for now." Lu Yinbing put the phone next to the pillow, with the camera pressing against the pillow. She turned her face away so that they could not see each other.
"Where's the tablet?"
"On the desk. Too cold to get out of the quilt."
"Give my teacher Lu a hug." Xia Yitong knew that Lu Yinbing was afraid of the cold. She also knew that she was lazy and was very spoiled when she was not filming. It was normal for her not to want to pick up her cell phone.
The video call turned into a voice call. Lu Yinbing didn't have to face the face that would make her feel guilty. This made her feel much more comfortable. She curled her lips and said, "Hug."
"What did you want to tell me just now?" Xia Yitong asked into the microphone. Even though she couldn't see Lu Yinbing anymore, her eyes were still on the screen, afraid to miss Lu Yinbing's accidental
People's emotional changes are very wonderful. The moment before, Lu Yinbing felt that the other party brought her pressure, but now she felt that being able to listen to Xia Yitong's voice was like the director who had been working hard on a shot for a whole day and finally shouted "Cut" before dinner time. She relaxed completely.
"What do you usually do every day?" Lu Yinbing rested his cheek on the pillow with his eyes closed.
"Miss you."
"What else?"
"Work."
"What else?"
"Miss you."
"Besides work, you just think about me?" Lu Yinbing asked, obviously not believing it.
"no."
Lu Yinbing said "Oh" and thought to himself: It's sweet talk indeed.
"Besides missing you, I'm busy with work." Xia Yitong smiled.
"What to think with?"
"Think with your heart, think with your brain," Xia Yitong said, suppressing her shyness and making a dirty joke, "Think with... your tongue."
"Can you be more specific about what you want me to do?"
Xia Yitong: “…”
Why did her teacher Lu not respond to her dirty talk and mercilessly avoided the topic? What a failure she is. Did Lu Yinbing not hear what she said clearly? Should she say it again
It’s better not to say such shameful words anymore.
Then again, Lu Yinbing asked her if she said that because she was shy and wanted to hear sweet words
"Do you check your phone every minute?" Lu Yinbing asked the question first.
Xia Yitong was startled and replied: "Uh, no, maybe two minutes, if I'm not busy."
"Will you read through the chat history and remember it by heart?"
"meeting."
"Will you check her social media profile every now and then to see if there's any new updates? If there's no new updates, will you just go through the old ones again?"
She? Xia Yitong caught this key word with her sharp ears. Who? Herself
"Mr. Lu..."
"Don't interrupt me, answer me whether you can do it or not." Lu Yinbing said excitedly.
"… meeting."
Xia Yitong was worried about her. Lu Yinbing's current state was really not right. She didn't want to hear sweet words at all, but wanted to verify something. What did she want to prove
"Lu Yinbing, I like you very much." She carefully revealed her feelings.
"I know." Lu Yinbing changed from lying on his side to lying on his back. He was silent for a long time and said, "I know." He paused for a while and said it again: "I know, you like me very much."
My voice is hoarse again.
Xia Yitong looked at the black screen at a loss: "Don't be like this, I'm worried about you."
She rested for a while, rubbed her face with both hands, climbed out of bed, and panted: "I will go back to Beijing now, you wait for me."
"Don't!" Lu Yinbing said suddenly.
That overwhelming feeling of guilt came back again. Lu Yinbing reached out, picked up her cell phone, and pointed the camera at herself. She saw that Xia Yitong's eyes were red.
Xia Yitong stared at her blankly.
Lu Yinbing sighed and said, "I'm sorry, I'm not used to it."
"What are you not used to?"
"I suddenly have this feeling of concern." Instead of hiding it, it's better to talk about everything openly to avoid tormenting both of them. She told Xia Yitong this afternoon that other people didn't feel sorry for her, but she did, and now she has hurt others like this. In her memory, Xia Yitong has never cried, and the few times she cried were all because of her.
"Teacher Lu, what are you doing?" Xia Yitong looked at the camera in shock as Lu Yinbing started to bang his head against the pillow.
"I reflect."
"After you finish what you are saying, reflect on it. I'm still waiting."
"Isn't your point wrong? Shouldn't you have advised me not to bump into him?" Lu Yinbing raised her head from the pillow, her long hair a little messy, and said in feigned anger, "Fake girlfriend."
Xia Yitong bared her teeth at her and smiled beautifully: "It doesn't hurt anyway."
When she was happy, Lu Yinbing was happy too. The atmosphere of the chat became much more relaxed unconsciously. Lu Yinbing sat up from the bed, changed the tablet, placed it on his legs, facing her face.
This was the first time that she was so frank in confessing her inner world. Lu Yinbing's fingers were hidden in the quilt outside the camera, twisted into a ball, and she didn't know where to start.
"Why… "
"Hmm?" Xia Yitong looked at her tenderly, and finally found the right opportunity to say "Hmm?" once, and thought that her "Hmm?" was very doting, but it was still a little worse than the time with Lu Yinbing.
"I..." Lu Yinbing glanced at her, lowered his eyes and smiled, "Ah, I can't say it."
"No rush, there's still one night left."
"Don't you have a magazine shoot tomorrow morning?"
"I am naturally beautiful, so it's okay for me to stay up late."
"You dare."
"I don't dare, but I can't go to sleep like this if you don't tell me." Xia Yitong laughed, "I can't sleep even if I go."
"So what did I say?"
"Go ahead."
"I..." Lu Yinbing wanted to laugh when she saw her face. She wanted to laugh even more when she thought about how pretentious she was. Dating was more tiring than studying philosophy for her.
"Go on, go on." Xia Yitong urged her while unable to stop laughing.
Laughter is contagious. The two of them laughed at their girlfriends in the video. Finally, they laughed enough. Lu Yinbing stared at Xia Yitong's collar on the screen and said weakly, "I almost broke the screen of my phone today."
"Hmm? Why?"
"I checked WeChat 23 times and Weibo 5 times. I spent an hour doing nothing. I plan to change the screen protector tomorrow."
"Don't you like playing with your phone?"
"I thought of what you thought." Lu Yinbing moved his gaze to her face, then back to her collar, and said resentfully.
Xia Yitong was caught off guard and hit by this straight ball. Her whole body went limp and she almost turned into a puddle of jelly, sliding down the head of the bed.