The orchid in front of the office door was in a state of decline, with its leaves sticky and drooping, looking listless. Lu Yinbing looked up from her Kindle. Today's book was Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse, a story about finding oneself. The protagonist of the story, Siddhartha, had always been outside her world and could not get involved.
She set her sights on the orchid, walked to the flowerpot, squatted down, and stared at its leaves intently.
In the office separated by a wall.
Doctor: "Are you still having hallucinations?"
Xia Yitong said: "No, I haven't seen it since I left here last time."
Doctor: "What about auditory hallucinations?"
Xia Yitong: "A little bit, but it doesn't affect my normal life. At first it was both during the day and at night, but now it only occurs at night and lasts for about an hour."
The doctor closed the pen cap and smiled faintly, "You can come here once every two weeks in the future to consolidate your experience. In fact, your initial choice to stop taking the medication was... well, how should I put it, a wise choice. Psychotropic drugs are highly addictive and are used to regulate nerves. You cannot stop taking them. If you stop taking them, you will easily relapse. Many mental patients suppress their condition by taking medication for life, which only treats the symptoms but not the root cause. And the ultimate goal is to treat this..."
The doctor pointed to his temple, "I've said before that it varies from person to person, and some people may have serious sequelae, such as slow movement, memory loss, etc. If you are an actor and have to take medicine to control your condition for the rest of your life, the consequences..."
The doctor shook his head, and the rest of the words were self-explanatory.
Xia Yitong's mind flashed with lightning, and she grasped something: "Lu Yinbing said that she was cured of depression by you, but did she not take medicine?"
The doctor raised his eyelids calmly and said, "It involves the patient's privacy. I'm sorry I can't tell you."
The doctor didn't say anything, and his expression couldn't reveal the truth, but Xia Yitong had already determined the answer. After hearing about the side effects, Lu Yinbing must not have taken any medicine and had to rely on herself to get through it. She couldn't help but curl her eyes. As her life and Lu Yinbing's lives intersected more and more, a very strange phenomenon also occurred. She worshipped Lu Yinbing's master when filming "Mei Qi", jumped on the steps that Lu Yinbing jumped, and ran on the paths she ran; she had no choice but to play the role that Lu Yinbing wanted to play; they even suffered from mental illnesses together, and were treated by the same doctor, but refused to take medicine and got through it.
She smiled, her eyes sparkling with joy from the bottom of her heart.
The doctor looked at her, opened the pen cap with his fingers, and then closed it. Through her eyes, he seemed to see Lu Yinbing a few years ago. Lu Yinbing also stopped taking the medicine after taking it for a few days. She was the type of person who had a strong reaction. She felt that her body and brain became very bad as soon as she took the medicine. After that, she resolutely decided to stop taking the medicine. The doctor firmly refused. Lu Yinbing had already had suicidal behavior, which meant that her condition was very serious. It was almost impossible for her to survive without drug treatment.
"I won't eat!" Lu Yinbing stood straight in front of the table, his face as haggard as a living ghost, but deep in his eyes there was a fire that refused to admit defeat, "I can't eat anymore! I'd rather not live than live like a useless person!"
"I can get through this. I can tie myself up. I will never commit suicide again. Doctor, doctor, please believe me."
She was so stubborn that the doctor had no other choice but to give her psychological counseling as much as possible, study all the information from ancient and modern times, and do his best to help her recover. As time went by, Lu Yinbing became a case he had to follow up every day. Watching her getting better day by day, it was like witnessing a miracle.
A year later, she had indeed recovered. She went from being pale and evasive to being radiant and bold. She was once again active under the shining spotlight, attracting everyone's attention.
The doctor remembered the first movie premiere after her recovery. Lu Yinbing gave him two tickets for the premiere so that he and his wife could watch it. The doctor had treated so many patients before, and when he saw Lu Yinbing smiling like a flower again, he almost couldn't hold back his tears.
We took a group photo in front of the huge movie poster, and the photo is now in the doctor's drawer.
The doctor raised his hand and stroked the lock of the drawer, looking far away, looking at something else through the door of the office...
"Thank you, doctor." Xia Yitong bowed deeply at the door, turned around and opened the door, asking the doctor to leave first. A dark shadow squatting at the door startled the two of them, and Xia Yitong blurted out, "Teacher Lu?"
Lu Yinbing patted his clothes and stood up, smiling and nodding at the doctor, then said to Xia Yitong: "I'm looking at the orchids, they seem a little wilted, maybe they didn't water them?"
The last sentence is again asked to the doctor.
The doctor also bent down and took a closer look: "Maybe. I'll ask someone to come and take a look later."
Lu Yinbing: "The New Year is coming soon, shall I treat you and my sister-in-law to a meal?"
The doctor said with some resentment: "My wife is on night duty today."
Outside of work, the doctor is also an ordinary husband, and he would also complain that his wife is too busy at work tonight and won't be home for dinner. Lu Yinbing said, "Then I'll treat you alone?"
The doctor shook his head: "No, I have another patient coming in half an hour. I just asked my assistant to order takeout for me."
Lu Yinbing smiled and said, "Then you are busy, we won't disturb you."
"Wait a minute," the doctor said, pulling out his phone from his pocket, "Shall we take a picture together?"
Lu Yinbing: “???”
The doctor said: "Keep it as a souvenir, big miracles and small miracles."
Both Big Miracle and Little Miracle smiled, holding hands, with the doctor standing beside them, leaving behind a precious photo.
Xia Yitong was in a very good mood on the way back, so good that Lu Yinbing found it abnormal. There was an FM song playing in the car, the volume was not turned up high, and Xia Yitong hummed along, with the tune going up several keys.
"The sky is gray as if it has cried. I am not freer after leaving you. The sour air can smell the distance between us. The heart-wrenching ending is like breathing and cannot be stopped..."
Lu Yinbing couldn't help but ask, "The doctor said you're cured?"
"I know we are both right, but we just forgot how to back off. The promises we made with great confidence were... gone by time." Xia Yitong's voice was cheerful, "The doctor said that we should come here once every two weeks in the future. Schizophrenia is not so easy to cure... To be continued in the most beautiful love memories..."
Lu Yinbing: "... You just said it's not that easy to recover, right?"
She wondered if there was something wrong with her ears, or if there was something wrong with Xia Yitong's brain.
Xia Yitong shook her head as the music played: "Yes, yes, the doctor said that we can only achieve basic recovery. Complete cure does not seem to exist... The sky is gray as if it has cried. After leaving you, I am not freer..."
Lu Yinbing: "Do you want to take medicine?"
Xia Yitong: "Smell the distance between us... No need, I have stopped for so long, what medicine should I take... The yellowed diary in the drawer has drained away the memories, that smile is summer, our past is forgotten clockwise..."
Lu Yinbing: "Will it relapse in the future?"
Xia Yitong: "Careless tears are superfluous... I don't know, maybe it's possible, but I don't think we need to worry too much. If enemies come, we will fight them. If water comes, we will block them with earth. You are always by my side, so what do I have to be afraid of? I will beat it every time it relapses... Huhuhaha, use the nunchakus. Huhuhaha, use the nunchakus. If I had the light skill to fly over eaves and walls, I would be upright and unyielding! Use the nunchakus quickly, hum, I will defend with my hand knife, hum, beautiful roundhouse kick! I was scared to death. I almost stepped on the accelerator out of excitement."
Lu Yinbing: “… … … …”
Xia Yitong's off-track song was brought back by the radio station. She shrugged excitedly and nodded slowly, turning the steering wheel skillfully: "I know that neither you nor I are wrong, but it will be easier to let go. To be continued in the most beautiful love memories. I know that neither you nor I are wrong, but we forgot how to back off. We made a promise with full confidence, but were -"
Lu Yinbing raised his hand and turned off the radio, and the music stopped abruptly.
Xia Yitong was stunned for a moment, and added silently: "... I wasted time. What happened?"
Lu Yinbing said expressionlessly, "Pull over."
It's really terrible that the other person is having a blast and she has no idea about it.
Xia Yitong drove forward for a distance and stopped by the road. Although confused, she still had a smile on her face. Lu Yinbing put his hand on the edge of the seat, unbuckled the seat belt with a "click", and put his hand directly on the steering wheel, which was equivalent to half-circling Xia Yitong in the seat: "Before you go home, can you explain to me why you are so abnormal all of a sudden?"
Xia Yitong: "What do you mean by abnormal?"
Lu Yinbing: "That's how you are now."
Xia Yitong: "I feel quite normal now." She deliberately pulled down the mirror in the car to look at herself. Her complexion was particularly good, her face was rosy and her eyes were shining.
Lu Yinbing poked her shoulder and said, "Tell me, why are you so happy? Tell me and I'll be happy too."
Xia Yitong: "Ah, you're talking about this."
She laughed to herself for a long time, and Lu Yinbing laughed so hard that he raised his hand to hit someone.
Xia Yitong quickly begged for mercy and asked, "Do you really want to know?"
Lu Yinbing: “Nonsense.”
"Okay, I'll tell you." Xia Yitong put her hand on the seat belt buckle and stared at her intently. Her eyes were so deep, as if hiding a world of affection. Lu Yinbing couldn't help but be attracted by her gaze, and for a moment she couldn't remember what she wanted to ask.
"I love you." The second "click" sounded, and Xia Yitong leaned over, held Lu Yinbing's wrist, pressed it on the side of her leg, and kissed her lips accurately in front of Lu Yinbing's wide-open eyes.
After a long time, Xia Yitong gasped slightly and let go of her. Both of their lips were moist. Lu Yinbing put his arm around Xia Yitong's neck, his eyes blurred, as if he hadn't come back to his senses yet: "You haven't..."
Didn’t she remember that they were talking about why Xia Yitong was so happy
"Because I love you." Xia Yitong interrupted her, looked into her eyes and said, "Nothing makes me happier than the fact that I love you."