When Du Ruo knocked on the door of the office, Deputy Director Yuan was making a phone call with a smile on his face: "Section Chief Wu, there will be an explanation for this matter! The press conference on this accident will be held tomorrow morning as usual, please feel free to trouble me."
He put down the phone and looked towards the door, frowning: "Is there something?"
Du Ruo walked to his desk and introduced himself: "Deputy Director Yuan, I'm Du Ruo, a member of Prime."
When Deputy Director Yuan heard this, his eyebrows frowned even more, and he became even more impatient: "You all come to harass me one by one, will I still work or not?"
"Since everyone has come, why can't the courtyard listen to our ideas?"
"What's your idea?" He slapped the table, "What's your idea when people are killed!"
Du Ruo was startled by him, and raised his voice: "That's everyone's responsibility too! Why blame him alone? The project failed and ruined the school's reputation in the field of science and technology. Blame it all on him, saying that he is conceited and won't listen Dissuasion is of course simple. But the reputation of the school is important, so is his future not important? He has won so many honors for the school, and now if something happens... destroy his future like this, isn't it too much?"
Deputy Director Yuan was furious: "It was because he was arrogant and aggressive and refused to listen to dissuasion. I thought he would not be promising, conceited and complacent, and arrogant! You say it is the responsibility of the team, well, whoever comes to me in the future will sign and take responsibility , All of them will be fired together with him!"
Her face turned red and pale, but she suddenly calmed down: "Deputy Director Yuan, no one has ever discouraged us."
"What?"
"I want to fire, all the professors, associate professors and tutors who guide us will be fired!" Her chest heaved, and she said every word, "Every project improvement is approved by the professor. They signed the feedback report. The project failed, the deputy team No one can get away with his death. If you insist on putting the responsibility on him alone, I..." She gritted her teeth,
"I will find a reporter and release all the internal records and reports of Prime. Let everyone see that all the progress is agreed by the whole team, as well as Professor Zhen Daoming, Professor Liang Wenbang, Professor Yang Changqing, Associate Professor Xu Yuan... They all agreed. If you want to finish it, everyone will finish it together. Let all the elite professors and students in the academy finish it together!"
"You!" He slapped the table and stood up, pointing at her nose, "They are all your teacher and your classmate!"
"I don't care! You can't force him to die! He just..." opened her mouth, her eyes were wet and she choked up, "That's good... you forced him like this, he didn't even think about going to court with you....Deputy Director Yuan , the college can’t do this! When the test drive was successful, he gave the school 20% of the shares without blinking an eye, saying that it should be given to his alma mater. But what about you, if you win the prize, you will be rewarded, and if you fail, you will get rid of it. You can’t do this!”
Deputy Director Yuan choked, panting with a dark face.
"I don't know if I can convince you. But..." She said with tears in her eyes, "Leave the words here. If the courtyard wants to destroy him, I will drag all the professors and students into the mess."
When Du Ruo came out of the office, she held onto the wall all of a sudden, her legs were so frightened that her legs went limp.
After returning to the dormitory, his face was even paler, and he sat on the chair with himself in his arms and kept shaking.
When He Huanhuan heard about it, he jumped up in a hurry: "You love without brains, you are crazy! What if your threat is useless, and the courtyard insists on punishing him and expels you together? You don't want to have a future if you don't study? His family There is a big business inheritance, how about you? He has a very good future, it's your turn to trade yours!"
"Stop talking!" Du Ruo screamed, clutching her head in fear and crying.
What else did Huanhuan want to say, Xia Nan said: "Don't say it!... If you have the skills, why don't you find more people to go to the BBS to see their petition posts!"
That night, Du Ruo was afraid, afraid, trembling.
What if she gets fired? How to go home to see mother
She stayed up all night, tense, until dawn.
When Xia Nan turned on the computer to watch the live broadcast of the school conference, she curled up on the bed, covered her ears with her fingers, and buried her head in the pillow. His own violent heartbeat was mixed with humming, covering all the sounds outside.
Until she faintly heard:
"...Procedurally everything works because of an accident. This is a failure of the whole school and lessons will be learned."
He Huanhuan screamed in surprise: "Du Ruo! Du Ruo!"
She let go of her finger slightly, and heard the reporter ask: "Will the project be stopped?"
"It needs to be observed for a period of time." The calm voice of the school spokesperson came, "There are always heartbreaking failures and setbacks on the road of scientific research, so success and achievement are especially rare. I hope young people will not be discouraged, don't lose heart , Get up and continue on the road. Your alma mater will always support you."
Du Ruo's lips were pale, trembling violently, tears poured out crazily, but she couldn't make any sound.
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The Prime No.2 turmoil has since come to an end.
In the first month, there were still people talking about it, wondering where Jing Ming would go. But he never showed up.
After more than a month, few people thought of him again.
Only Du Ruo still called him every day, and fell asleep in the voice of "Sorry, the user you called..." every day. Still send him a message, even if nothing happens.
She once sent a text message to Ming Yi: "Auntie, please contact Mr. Yan Ruoyu. Maybe Jing Ming will be willing to talk to him."
But Mingyi did not reply.
Autumn and winter come, and the dead leaves fall.
Jingming seemed to have disappeared from this world.
And Du Ruo's life finally calmed down, the teaching building, library, dormitory, dormitory, without waves, like a pool of stagnant water.
New Years passed in a flash.
In January, the cold wave has arrived, and there is heavy snow.
That night, when Du Ruo came out of the library, the sky was still snowing. She lowered her head, wrapped her mouth and nose with a scarf, and walked slowly to the dormitory building. The boots rustled on the white snow.
She walked back quietly all the way, went upstairs, and took the elevator.
The phone vibrated in his pocket, and the news came from He Huanhuan: "Is this Jingming?!"
Click on the picture, and there is a tall and thin man standing under the dead tree outside the dormitory building. He is wearing a black coat, a black baseball cap, a mask covering his face, and his shoulders are slightly arched.
It was just a vague figure in the night, but Du Ruo's heart was suddenly torn apart.
"Stop, stop!" But the elevator door closed.
She quickly pressed down on the second floor, anxious, rushed to the elevator room, the stairwell, and rushed upstairs against the crowd.
There was no one under the tree.
Her heart was also empty, and she ran to the middle of the road and looked around in a panic. Newsstands, couples, students, buildings... The silhouettes of buildings pass by like flowing water, without any scenery.
He Huanhuan ran over: "Just now I saw him walking behind you, but I didn't recognize—"
"What about people?" Du Ruo called out, "What about others?"
"Go over there!"
Du Ruo chased after him like crazy, his eyes were like those of a drowning man, he was scrambling for figures, not him, not him, not him. She ran to the end of the road without him.
She turned back in a panic: "Where are the others?"
Huanhuan was also anxious: "They were all there just now!"
"Why didn't you stop him? Why didn't you catch him! It's all your fault!" Du Ruo sat down on the roadside steps and burst into tears.
He Huanhuan was very anxious, and hurriedly touched her head: "Don't cry. I'll find it for you, I'll find it!"
On a winter night, snowflakes are flying, and the cold wind is like a knife.
With cold hands, Du Ruo kept calling the unreachable number, "I'm sorry, the user you called..."
Listening to the voice, she cried more and more heart-piercingly, her eyebrows, eyes, nose and mouth were all wrinkled together, she bowed her waist from crying, and could no longer straighten up.
On that cold winter night, she finally cried out all the heartache and pain of the past few months.
And behind the tree, the black and thin figure of the boy lingered, and finally, he turned and left, disappearing into the deep winter night.
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Du Ruo became quieter.
She stayed in the library longer and longer, leaving early and returning late every day. She went out before the dormitory people woke up; she came back only after everyone washed up at night.
Just waiting for the final exam to go back to my hometown. I don't plan to stay in school during the winter vacation. His shadow is everywhere in the school, and Prime's past is everywhere, and she is about to suffocate to death.
Such days lasted for more than two weeks.
One morning when she was reading in the library, she received a text message from Wan Ziang: "I just heard from Mr. Liang that Jingming is going abroad today."
Du Ruo was stunned in place.
In Beijing in January, everything is dying.
Outside the car window, the roadside of the airport expressway was covered in gray and decayed trees with bare branches, reflecting the hazy sky.
Jing Ming leaned on the back seat of the car, the gray sky outside the window reflected in his black eyes, like a dead pool, without ripples.
Maybe for a moment, I remembered the wish I made on New Year's Eve last year.
But for a year, he had nothing.
And the girl sitting next to him on New Year's Eve...
Hate himself for being too young.
Nothing can be guarded, nothing can be protected.
Mingyi gently squeezed his hand, but he didn't respond.
Arrive at the airport soon and stop at the departure level.
Jing Yuanshan and Ming Yi got out of the car, and driver Chen took off the luggage and opened the door for Jing Ming.
Jing Ming remained motionless.
Ming Yi: "Jing Ming, get out of the car."
He sat for a few more seconds before getting out of the car. Jing Yuanshan packed his luggage and walked towards the airport.
Jing Ming followed for a step or two, then stopped suddenly, his face became extremely ugly in an instant, and his chest heaved violently. He looked up at his parents, turned suddenly and strode towards the car, but only took two steps away before returning to the airport.
Back and forth like this, back and forth, as if something was tearing him apart.
The young man seemed to be trapped, unable to advance or retreat, suffering and anxious. His eyes were flushed, his lips were trembling, and he was scratching his hair vigorously, and a painful sob escaped from his teeth.
Ming Yi stepped forward immediately: "Jing Ming—"
Suddenly, the big boy who was 1.86 meters squatted down, hugged his head and burst into tears.
At the gate of the airport, people came and went, he ignored it, buried his head and cried bitterly, his thin and thin shoulders trembled, like a child who had suffered a lot of heartache and grievance.
After being suppressed for two months, this moment finally broke out.
"Jingming..." Mingyi reached out to touch his hair to comfort him, but in the next second, tears also fell from her eyes, she covered her eyes and turned around, sobbing silently.
Jing Yuanshan's eyes were red, he went to squat down, and patted his son's shoulder: "Don't hate yourself for being young, you will grow up one day. Only people who have fallen will wake up."
The boy just cried and shook his head.
"... I really want to see you. I'll let her see you off?"
The boy froze for a second, shook his head violently, and cried even harder.
Jing Yuanshan raised his head, his eyes were moist, and he let out a long sigh.
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It was freezing cold, and the north wind was howling.
Du Ruo sat in the empty stands, shivering all over from the cold, with her mobile phone in her pocket to keep warm, she was afraid of something. Finally, she took out her cell phone and dialed his number.
Hold your breath and wait for two seconds.
"Sorry, the user you called..."
Her heart sank,
"On the phone..."
Busy? !
He's calling her!
Du Ruo jumped up from the chair, hung up the phone, and waited quietly. One second, two seconds...there is no dialing.
She panicked and called back quickly.
After more than two months, he finally turned on the machine.
"Beep...beep..."
The other end has been delayed.
She knew that he must be holding a mobile phone at this moment.
"Beep...beep..." She held her breath.
Pick up the phone. It was very quiet, there was no sound at all.
"Hello?" she probed.
It was silent.
She whispered: "How are you... how? Are you okay?"
He still didn't answer.
"Speak!" She choked up slightly, almost begging.
After another few seconds of silence, he suddenly whispered:
"Chun'er."
Her heart trembled: "Huh?"
"Don't come to me." He said hoarsely, "I don't want to see you."
She gets it.
The cold wind blew by, her eyes were red, and she nodded obediently: "Yeah."
"Then..." she smiled slightly with tears in her eyes, "you have a good sleep on the plane, forget everything here, only remember your dream, go there, and start again." She burst into tears Lianlian, smiling and brushing away gently with his hand, said, "I wish you a bright future and a happy life."
He was silent: "Du Ruochun."
"Um?"
On the other side, the young man opened his lips, wanting to say something, but in the end there was only: "You too."
"A bright future and a happy life." He repeated and hung up the phone.
She was caught off guard, and before she could say anything more, the other end was completely dead.
In the parking lot, Jing Yuanshan and Ming Yi were waiting outside the car, looking at Jing Ming inside the car from time to time through the windshield.
I don't know what was said on the phone, but after putting down the phone, his whole body became quiet, as if something had died.
He sat in the car for a long time. When he got out of the car, the people were silent. He passed by them, pulled the suitcase, and said, "Let's go."
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A week later, Yang Changqing notified Du Ruo that both MIT and Berkeley had offered her.
MIT, Berkeley, one in the east and one in the west.
She chose Berkeley, dusted her heart, and returned him peace and tranquility.
After the final exam, the winter vacation is here.
When Du Ruo was packing her things in the dormitory, she accidentally found the book list he wrote to her back then, and the one hundred yuan. Suddenly thinking of that night, she felt that he was mean and disgusting. Now that I think about it, I realize how kind he is. Just because he saw her thin clothes, he gave her a bunch of money. That boy clearly has a very soft heart.
But she didn't understand then.
I understand now, but it's too late.
She said goodbye to her roommates. After going home for a while, I will go abroad. Everyone was very sad, but they didn't say much, for fear of touching the pain point. There are only blessings left, each cherished.
Before leaving school, Du Ruo went to Prime Lab. The seal was torn, and she opened the door to go in. The room was full of dust and deserted.
Wherever the eyes fell, there were eleven of them laughing and laughing or immersed in research everywhere.
Today, things are changing and people are changing, and there is a dead silence.
There was still a youthful atmosphere in the air, but those people were gone.
On the way here, many parents took their children on a tour of the campus and told them: Work hard, if you are admitted to this university, your future will be bright.
At this moment, she is standing in the top laboratory of this school, not knowing where their future lies.
Prime, what a beautiful meaning, the glory of life, the grandeur of life.
Once, their dreams were bright,
But it's like a song sang: Dreams make people high-spirited, dreams make people cry.
She passed by Jingming's desk, and accidentally found his notebook—his dream, which he didn't take away.
She put the book away and put it in her bag, and accidentally, a colorful bookmark fell out.
The three-color Ye Tuo landed on the dusty test bench.
She froze.
It was as if he saw that night a year ago in an instant. After he walked away, he found that she had disappeared, and went back to look for her strangely.
She took a deep breath, put away the leaves and memories restrainedly, calmly took the elevator downstairs, dragged the suitcase, and walked through the withered campus in winter.
But halfway there, the radio suddenly released an ethereal English song, which sounded particularly bleak in the cold winter.
Until I heard the sentence "saw it in Jesus, saw it in Superman (if you see a miracle, fly in the sky)"
She was startled suddenly, Jing Ming's cell phone rang. She couldn't understand back then, but now she can hear clearly,
"We're running on empty and leave it all in your hands
Now show me what you do
I'm listening to you"
In an instant, time went back to the late autumn of last year, when she was in his dormitory, Eva ran over to hit her cutely, and he saw that she was interested, so he gave her a VIP ticket for the robot competition.
I couldn't hold it anymore, and suddenly, memories appeared in front of me like a slideshow, and I couldn't hold it anymore.
He played games in the Internet cafe, afraid that she would be bored, so he turned on the computer for her; he thought she would not know how to use the karaoke machine, so he ordered songs for her; he heard that she went to the computer room, and bought her a computer; Add living expenses; see her thin clothes and think she has no money for the winter, so give her money; recommend books to her, and write course links for her.
Participate in the debate competition for her, smash the IMU for her, hate the teacher for her, and step on the balloon for her;
He ordered all her favorite dishes for his birthday, but she pissed him off; the first time his love affair was exposed, he ran downstairs to wait for her, but within a few days, they quarreled again because of the bracelet...
It was because she was sensitive and vulnerable, with low self-esteem, and because she hadn't grown fast enough to keep up with him.
But she thought that their days were still very long, that there was no rush, that they could take their time. Who ever thought that fate would come to an abrupt end. Not even a chance to say goodbye.
If she had known that she would part so soon, if she had known that the fate was so shallow, she would have worked harder. In this way, even if we separate now, it will not be so regretful. It won't be too late to leave any good memories, so they will be scattered.
In the winter when everything is withered, Du Ruo stops under the loudspeaker of the campus radio, with bare branches above his head and a gray sky. She had a heart-piercing pain, but she couldn't shed tears, as if she had no right to cry.
Just suddenly, regret floods in,
she couldn't believe it,
So far, she has never said a word to him personally: Jingming, I like you.
Not even once called his name: Jing Ming.
It was too late to tell him: You are such a good person.
You are so kind, so good that I often regret it. If I were not so young at the beginning, it would be fine.
In this way, in such a long time in the future, when I recall you, I will not cry with regret.
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"Volume 1: Ruo, Chun and Jingming"
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"Volume 2: Ruochun, He Jingming"
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six years later.
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