Small bridges, running water, river lights, fireworks...
Even though Ayao was standing in front of me and kissing me, I still felt unreal as if I was in a dream.
Is all this really not a dream
"I love you." I murmured.
I have a lot of things I want to say to him, but so far I can only say these three easy-to-understand words.
"I love you too." He said softly.
It is said that voice can make people pregnant. I thought it was nonsense at first, but at this moment, when I heard his voice, I felt inexplicably weak.
If it wasn't for him holding my waist, I'm afraid I'd be slumped on the ground now, right
I leaned softly against him, listening to his strong heartbeat, let out a satisfied sigh.
At the beginning, he was raised as a son, later as a brother, and finally became a husband...
What a trick!
I also can't remember when I fell in love with Yao.
It seems that after I realized that I was GAY, the content of the first erotic dream was related to this child.
That was the first time I watched GV, maybe because I was too excited, I dreamed about the plot in GV at night.
I dreamed that I was fucked, doggy style at the beginning, had no idea who was fucking me, just felt strangely satisfied.
Later, I changed positions, but I couldn't see what the person who fucked me looked like.
I realized that this was a dream, and I was very curious about what that person looked like.
Maybe this is the girl of his dreams
"Brother Yunfei, how can you be distracted at this time?"
I was terrified by this title, and then saw that man's face suddenly changed into that of A Yao.
OMG? ! What a strange dream this is!
I woke up suddenly, lying on the bed panting, unable to recover for a long time.
My bottom was so wet, it looked like I just had a real big fuck with someone.
Could it be that my dream lover is Yao
I feel like I might be crazy.
At that time, Ah Yao's height had just reached the position of my shoulders, and he was a child who hadn't grown up at all.
No matter how hungry and thirsty I am, I can't lay hands on a child, can I
And the rabbit doesn't eat the grass beside the nest. I watched this kid grow up, just like my own brother!
I calmed down for a while, and felt that I probably knew too few men, and I was around this child all day long, so I subconsciously substituted him into my dream.
With this in mind, I walked into the legendary gay bar for the first time in my life.
To be honest, the atmosphere there is not what I imagined.
There is no loud music, messy lights or random people.
If it weren't for the fact that there are no girls in the bar, this place would definitely be a holy place for dating!
"Is this your first time here?" the bartender said to me.
"I have been to other bars before, but the atmosphere is not as good." I said.
According to the experience of the rivers and lakes, you must not show that you are a newcomer in this kind of place. Only veterans can feel at home in this kind of place.
I sat at the bar and chatted with the bartender casually.
Although I didn't find someone who attracted my heart, the bartender and I had a good chat, as if we were old friends who hadn't seen each other for many years.
"A kid who came to the gay bar for the first time told me that he wanted to find a regular partner here. You hear how ridiculous this is." The bartender said while wiping his glass, "The person who came to this place Isn't it experienced? Dewy love is easy to find, and a constant companion... is difficult!"
Inexplicably, I felt an arrow hit my knee, but my face remained calm.
"If you're married, you can still get divorced, let alone same-sex?" I said.
"It's not easy for you to see through this truth." The bartender said, "How many people love it to death because they can't see it clearly, and come here in the middle of the night to drink and get drunk."
Now that I think about it, when the bartender told me this, he certainly didn't expect that I would be a frequent customer who would go to him to get drunk in the future, right
It is said that knowing is easier than doing, and this is true.
He obviously understands the truth, but every time he wants to let him let go of this fruitless unrequited love, he is always hesitant and keeps finding all kinds of lame excuses for himself.
I silently escorted him to and from school every day because I was afraid that he would be in danger. This child has such a poor safety awareness, what if he is kidnapped? What if you get hit by a car while crossing the road? What if you get entangled by a little gangster
A lie repeated a thousand times becomes the truth, I kept saying this to myself, and I gradually accepted it.
Until one day, I suddenly discovered that Ayao didn't go home directly after school, but chatted and laughed with a girl at the school gate, and later went to the printing shop together.
I felt so bad in my heart that I almost wanted to rush up and ask him why he didn't go home directly.
Could it be that he fell in love early
But it seems normal for classmates to borrow information from each other, maybe I'm too sensitive.
I tried my best to find an excuse for him, but I couldn't muster the courage to appear in front of him and ask him who that girl was.
It should be normal for the elder brother to care about the emotional state of the younger brother, right
Maybe after a while, this kid will come to me for advice on how to fall in love. After all, he has never kept anything from me since he was a child, and we always talk about everything.
Really... talk about everything
I suddenly realized that Ayao hadn't talked to me about his thoughts for a long time, and he always found excuses to refuse when I asked him out.
Did he notice something
I was in a restless mood and didn't sleep well all night.
Originally, I thought that the child would grow up too, and he would be able to protect himself well without having to follow him every day.
But guessing it was time for him to leave school, I still couldn't help going out, standing in the old place and watching him from afar.
This time he was still walking with the girl, who gave him a pack of biscuits.
Didn't I tell him not to eat food from strangers
This kid must have ignored my words!
The biscuits looked black, and I secretly prayed that the little girl would burn the biscuits, and Ah Yao would spit them out after taking a bite.
However, the picture I imagined did not happen. Ah Yao seemed to like the biscuits made by the girl very much. After eating, she nodded and smiled at her.
Is it amazing to make small biscuits? I can do that too!
At that time, it was not as convenient to look up recipes on the Internet as it is now. I could only ask someone for a rough idea, and then I bought the ingredients home and thought about it by myself.
It failed several times at first, either the batter was too watery or the texture was too dry.
I finally baked barely edible biscuits, and I excitedly showed them to Ah Yao to taste, but he looked disgusted.
"They make snacks, you are poison | medicine." He said.
To be honest, the biscuits I made didn't look very good, but he didn't even want to take a bite.
I was very bitter in my heart, but I joked with a smile on my face, saying that he forgot his friends after seeing sex.
He had a bad face when he heard this, and said that he and that girl were just classmates who had a good relationship, and told me not to talk nonsense.
Is it really nonsense? If it's nonsense, why is he so nervous
He was probably afraid that I would tell the truth, so he told his parents about his puppy love.
Don't we even have this little trust between us
After that day, I seldom went to see him anymore, I hang out with Zhang Yan and his group all day, and occasionally go to the bar to get drunk and dream.
Ah Yao seldom contacted me proactively, even if we met on the road, it was just a few polite greetings.
I thought that the fate between us came to an end like this, and we would go our separate ways from now on. Unexpectedly, I suddenly received a postcard from him in the spring of a certain year.
He said that when he was watching the cherry blossoms, he suddenly remembered the scene when I took him to Yuyuantan when he was a child. He missed that time very much and the Arctic Ocean soda I bought for him... There is no Arctic Ocean soda in Japan, and there is no one to accompany him to watch the cherry blossoms.
He didn't say a word about inviting me to Japan to find him, but I looked at the little card he sent and cried and laughed, laughed and cried.
I thought I had forgotten him, but the other party just sighed casually, and I couldn't restrain my longing anymore.
I would love to meet him...
immediately! immediately!
When I calmed down, I was already standing at an unfamiliar foreign airport, and the people around me were speaking a language I couldn't understand.
Fortunately, the translation software is powerful. Although I don't know any foreign language, I still managed to find Haruka's residence in Japan.
To be honest, I almost didn't recognize him at first sight.
This child has always looked like a teenager in my impression, but this time when we meet again, he is even taller than me.
In a trance, I felt that he perfectly matched the image of the man in my dream.
"Ayao." I couldn't help but call out to him.
He froze, then quickened his pace, as if he wanted to pretend he didn't know me, but I grabbed him.
"I haven't seen you for such a long time, did you forget me, brother?" I tried my best to keep myself calm, but my voice was still a little choked.
I finally... saw him again...
Later, he explained to me that it wasn't that he didn't recognize me, but that he felt a bit ashamed of his current appearance, and was afraid that I would laugh at him.
"You didn't tell me earlier if you wanted to come, at least let me clean up the house." He complained.
His room really needed to be tidied up, it was messy everywhere, comics and magazines were piled up on the floor, and there were posters of anime characters on the wall.
Is he completely freeing himself after living by himself
For some reason, I was suddenly a little happy.
Although Ah Yao didn't take the initiative to confess, I finally have the qualification to help him keep the secret again.
During those few days in Japan, our relationship seemed to be back to when we were young. The only difference was that I used to take him around and tell him that this was delicious and that was fun. Now our roles have been completely reversed. .
He said I haven't changed at all, but I think he has changed a lot.
It seemed like I had gone from a little boy who needed my care to a full-fledged male all at once.
The feeling of heartbeat became more and more obvious, and I can be sure that I fell in love with him.
But the deeper the love, the more terrified I became.
He treats me like a brother, but I want him to fuck me
Just thinking about it makes me feel like a disgusting pervert.
Ayao is the only son in the family, Uncle Feng and Aunt Feng treat me well, how can I let them cut off their children and grandchildren
And this child is also a straight man... In the future, he will definitely meet a girl I like and get married and have children. All I can do is help him assist, and then smile and wish him happiness.
I never thought that I would break Ayao off. The reason why I always flirt with him intentionally or unintentionally is entirely out of selfishness.
Anyway, he will be someone else's in the future, so why not leave some good memories for yourself now, so that you can savor them slowly when you are alone in the future.
Ah Yao is very slow, and most of the time he is completely unaware that I am flirting with him.
I told him that I was so scared watching horror movies that I couldn't close my eyes if he didn't sleep with me. He actually came to sleep with me with his pillow in his arms, and patted me gently, telling me not to be afraid.
The person I like is lying next to me, how can I fall asleep
I don't know what I was thinking at the time, turned over and rolled into his quilt.
I felt my heart was beating too fast, and my whole body was trembling slightly from tension and excitement.
"Don't be afraid, I'm here." I heard him comfort me softly.
I don’t know if you have ever listened to the late-night radio station. His voice at that time was like the MC on the radio station, which tickled my heart.
I don't know where I got the courage to actually reach out and hug him.
"Did you have a nightmare?" I heard him ask.
I didn't speak, just quietly feeling the warmth of embracing him.
Maybe this posture made him uncomfortable, this guy hesitated for a moment, and pushed me aside.
In order not to make him suspicious, I was obediently pushed away by him.
But for some reason, I always feel empty inside.
So I rolled over and clung to him again like a drowning man clinging to driftwood on the sea.
He tried to move, but I wouldn't budge.
Only this time, let me hug you a little longer...
I don't know if Ayao heard my heart, he suddenly sighed, then stopped moving, and only gently woke me up when the sky was about to dawn.
"Hey, go back to your own place and sleep, can you return the quilt to me?" There was helplessness in his tone.
I suddenly felt a little jealous of the person who will marry him in the future, where can I find such a good-tempered person!
I opened my eyes and stared at him blankly, eyes full of affection.
"Wake up? Hurry up and give me a quilt, I'm about to freeze like a dog." He said while reaching for the quilt I had covered, "This quilt has been left uncovered all night, it's chilly...you're afraid of the cold , or cover my quilt."
I couldn't help but kiss him on the cheek.
"That's great." I sighed.
If I could do this a few more times, I would probably die without regret.
A Yao's expression was a little dazed in shock, as if he didn't quite understand why I kissed him suddenly. He was quick to put it all down to my sleepiness, though.
Sleepy? I didn't sleep all night!
He was always curious about my little secret, and I even had the urge to tell him everything.
I want to tell him I'm gay, I want to tell him I love him!
Fortunately, reason overcame sensibility, and I didn't say anything in the end.
In fact, if my dad hadn't insisted on forcing me to get married that day, I probably wouldn't let them know that I like men in my life!
The word homosexual...is sickening just thinking about it.
I think the biggest mistake I made in my life was that I drank too much that day and asked Ah Yao to find me in a gay bar.
This child has always had a good memory, and he will definitely find it again if he goes to the place he has been to.
Sure enough, the day I came out to my family, he found me.
I don't remember exactly what I said, except that I told him a lot.
I was afraid that I would confess my love to him without knowing it, so I didn't dare to look at him directly for a few days, and even started to alienate him intentionally.
I'm afraid that one day he will suddenly realize that I've been flirting with him and think I'm a disgusting pervert.
Even the brother I watched and grew up can do it, what is it if it is not a pervert
"No matter what you become, the fact that you are my childhood will not change in any way."
A Yao's words seemed to give me a shot in the arm and let me regain my confidence in life.
I suddenly felt that I couldn't go on like this.
A Yao has his life, and I have mine.
I can't drag him down because of my selfishness!
There is nothing wrong with what he said... My existence has affected him to fall in love.
I was on the taping of "Super Designer" trying to get out of his life, but he kept pushing.
I'm a little lost on what he meant.
Is he using me as a kid? Or take me as the object of pursuit
That day he deliberately gave me the legendary "lost wine" and kissed me.
I thought he wanted to have an in-depth communication with me. Although I was a little shocked, I didn't refuse, but he left without looking back.
I think he is probably testing me
Apparently, I didn't pass his test... He wouldn't even give me a spare look.
For the new round of challenge, the model I choose is still his rumored girlfriend.
It is my original sin to fall in love with him, so if I treat his future girlfriend better, can I redeem my sin
Having said that, I originally hated that little girl named Wen Miao a little bit, but after getting in touch with her a few times, I feel that this little girl is not bad.
She doesn't look ugly, and her personality is pure, much better than those coquettish sluts outside.
Anyway, there will be someone else without her. If A Yao is with her, I can't accept it...
The little girl seemed to trust me very much, and she always asked me something related to Ayao, and I almost answered every question.
"Little brother, you know the boss very well." The little girl once inadvertently said with emotion, "You won't always have a crush on him, right?"
Is it so obvious that I have a crush on him that even unrelated passers-by can already see it
My heart was sour, but I still raised a smile and denied it: "How could it be? We are all men..."
"It's easier to have true love between people of the same sex." The little girl said, "I think you two are quite suitable."
I pursed my lips, turned my back to adjust my mood, and then picked up a lipstick from the dressing table.
"Your makeup is out, let me fix it for you."
The little girl opened her mouth obediently, like a cute porcelain doll.
At this moment, I suddenly felt a chill behind my back. I turned my head to look, and it turned out that I was standing not far away and looking at this coldly.
I feel a little uncomfortable.
He's never shown me this cold face before...
"What are you doing?" He said sourly.
"Put on lipstick." I said, "Don't worry, the sun is shining in broad daylight, with so many people watching here, I won't do anything to your little girlfriend."
He didn't speak, but glanced at Wen Miao.
I felt Wen Miao shudder.
This guy really doesn't know how to fall in love... How many times have I told him that a girl is a delicate flower and needs to be held and cared for in his hands.
I wanted to teach him some love lessons, but he didn't seem to bother listening to my nonsense.
Think about it too, what qualifications does a homosexual who has been single until now have the right to tell others about the "Love Sutra"
Having said that, I am really a duplicity person.
Obviously I have already agreed to bless Ah Yao, but when I heard that Uncle Feng announced the marriage news, I still felt dark in front of my eyes.
All this is too fast, I have not prepared enough!
Desperately, I went to the vending machine to buy a drink, but when I turned around, I accidentally bumped into someone and poured the drink all over him.
"I'm so sorry..."
"Why are you so out of your mind? Are you too tired?" the other party asked.
It's Ah Yao's voice! How could he appear here
I raised my head in surprise and was speechless for a while.
I don't know what to say to him.
Say congratulations
Sorry, I can't be that generous yet.
"Did you get the flowers I sent you this morning?" he asked.
flower? Of course I received...
But what is that? A loser's consolation prize
Although I like him, I like him so much that I don't even have any dignity, but I'm not so humble!
I don't need him to pity me!
Back in the room, I recalled how he was at a loss in the corridor just now, as if a big stone was blocked in his chest, which made me unable to breathe.
I even had the illusion that he might not know it.
But if he didn't say anything, would Uncle Feng say that
Now the whole world knows that he has a fiancée, but as his child, I am still kept in the dark.
Does he think I'm the type to pester me
To be honest, I didn't have any passion to create, but the competition was still going on, and I had to go into the workshop.
I feel like I'm doomed to lose this time, because no matter what I do, I'm absent-minded, and all I can think about is Yao.
Thinking about it, I even had auditory hallucinations.
I seem to hear the Yuan Devouring Beast meowing.
"Look! There's a little yellow cat!" I heard a girl shout.
Everyone stopped what they were doing and gathered around to tease the cat.
I didn't get close, but subconsciously called out "Essence Devouring Beast".
The little thing has a bit of a conscience, and immediately recognized my voice, quickly ran to me, and climbed up along my trouser legs.
I haven't seen it in just a few weeks, and the Yuan Devourer has gained a lot of weight, almost knocking down my pants.
I quickly reached out and hugged it in my arms.
How did the little guy appear here? Ah Yao brought it here
I told the program team a lie, and went to A Yao's room to look for him with the Devouring Beast, but there was no response after knocking on the door for a long time.
Is he not in the house
I suddenly panicked, and quickly took out my cell phone and called him.
The prompt sounded several times, and when I wanted to hang up and dial again, the call was connected.
"Hello?"
He sounded a little tired, and his breath was a little unsteady.
Is something wrong
I asked where he was and he said he was in the yard.
What are you doing in the yard this late at night
I hurried to look for him in the yard. This guy was sitting on the bridge with his legs crossed like a poor little boy, looking up at the sky at a forty-five-degree angle.
I thought something was wrong with him, but I didn't expect him to confess his love to me.
I don't know how to answer.
Reason tells me that I should refuse, but sensibility makes me agree to the other party.
I have been secretly in love with him for so long, and now that he has finally confessed his love to me, I have no hesitation!
I opened my mouth, just about to agree, when I suddenly thought of my parents, and then his parents.
I have already been expelled from the house, so I can't let Ah Yao end up like me.
"I... can give you a chance." I said.
I felt like my words were like a shameless Bichi, but Ayao seemed very happy, with a smile on his eyes and eyebrows.
A Yao is usually called a big boss, and he has almost no weaknesses, except that he is as naive as a child in the matter of feelings, and he is willing to believe what others say.
Sometimes I worry that this child will be deceived into doubting his life!
Although I promised to give Ah Yao a chance, I didn't take this matter to heart at first.
In my opinion, this child is just a whim, and he will definitely forget about it when he gets busy after a while.
Which young man doesn't like to play? It's better for him to come to me than to those messy people outside.
As it turned out, I was wrong, the kid was serious.
He not only clarified the rumors on the Internet, rectified various CPs, but also dragged me to confess to my family...
I was in a daze until the moment I walked in the door.
Obviously, the two of us should sing together, but from the beginning to the end, it was only Ah Yao who was performing a one-man show with all his strength.
He took all the blame on himself, and when my dad was about to hit me, he even rushed up and punched me hard.
I don't understand why he did this, he said it was because he loves me.
Because he loves me, he doesn't want me to be hurt a little...
He doesn't want me to get hurt, why should I want him to get hurt
In this way, I went to find Uncle Feng and my father again.
Even if they want to kill me, I have to tell the truth!
I told them that it was Yao who I liked first, and then told them the whole story of how I liked him.
I cried while talking, and finally broke down in tears.
I thought that such twisted and perverted emotions would usher in their stormy reprimand, but I didn't expect them to just sigh heavily.
Uncle Feng told me that in fact, Ayao's love for me is also sincere.
He told me the conversation between Ah Yao and him in the study that day, and I couldn't regain my senses for a long time after listening to it.
I didn't expect this child to have such deep feelings for me!
"You have already broken people, and it is not easy for us to break them back." Feng Shu said, "Live a good life, it is not easy for two people to be happy."
"If you dare to bully Ah Yao, be careful I'll take your skin off!" My dad was still blowing his beard and staring, but he obviously accepted the relationship between us.
With the consent of both parents, a big stone in my heart finally fell to the ground.
Originally, I planned to confess my love by bungee jumping, but at that time, there were so many people watching, I couldn't say what I wanted to say in the end.
Ayao accidentally discovered the confession message I left on his wall a long time ago, but that was me confessing at the beginning of the year, not the current me.
How should I confess now
With the advice of my parents, I chose the most straightforward method and confessed my love face to face on the day of the challenge.
To my surprise, Ayao actually wanted to go with me, and chose to confess on that day.
Both of our routines are basically exactly the same! It really deserves to be Fa Xiao who grew up together!
This is probably the most beautiful coincidence in the world, right
The author has something to say: By the way, do you still remember the "Four Loko" that Fengfeng bought at the convenience store
Today I made a can by myself, the smell of alcohol is really not strong, but it is easy to have the illusion of drunkenness, such as rapid heartbeat, dizzy head and so on
Hmm... the alcohol content is only 14%, but it feels like I drank two mouthfuls of Erguotou
SO [Key points] Girls must not drink Four Loko by mistake when they go out
If someone gives you this wine... Well, it's time for you to redefine this person's attributes