Jiang Cheng felt that his hand was warm, but when Gu Fei closed his eyes, a small teardrop from the corner of his eye slipped onto his fingertips, and he still felt the temperature.
A small warmth with Gu Fei's emotions.
At this moment, he felt as if someone was grabbing and twisting it in his heart, and it hurt.
He didn't say anything, and he didn't know what else to say. Gu Fei never showed his emotions. Even in front of him, he would try his best to control it.
This is the second time.
For the first time, he saw Gu Fei sinking at the bottom of the black river with his eyes closed.
The second time, he saw Gu Fei who was beaten down by separation and miss just like him.
He had nothing to say, as long as he spoke, he would definitely cry together with Gu Fei.
He can't cry now, he can't add heavier thoughts to Gu Fei, he just wants to hold Gu Fei so that he can feel his existence, alive, warm, in his arms.
Just like what he wanted, Gu Fei could actually hug him in his arms.
The bathroom was quiet, save for the low hum of the ventilator fan turning.
He couldn't hear the sound of Gu Fei's tears, but he could hear the heartbeat. Jiang Cheng didn't know whether the heartbeat was his imagination or real, nor did he know whether it was Gu Fei's or his own.
He closed his eyes, hugged Gu Fei tightly, and clung to Gu Fei's clothes, as if he wanted to seize a little bit of time that passed away.
Minute by second.
Time is a very nasty thing.
Lively and cool.
After an unknown amount of time, Gu Fei lowered his head and gently rubbed his shoulder twice: "It's alright, do you want to take a shower? Or do you want to come back after dinner and take a shower?"
"Ah?" Jiang Cheng didn't even have time to completely suppress the turmoil in his heart. Gu Fei's control over his emotions was at the level of a god.
Gu Fei had already patted his back lightly: "Are you going to take a shower now?"
"Come back and wash again," Jiang Cheng sniffed, "You need to wash your face, anyway, you won't be able to fall asleep if you don't wash before going to bed at night."
"En." Gu Fei let go of him, turned around and bent over to turn on the faucet.
After splashing a few handfuls of water on his face, and then wiping it dry, when he turned his head, Gu Fei had returned to his usual appearance.
"Do you want to take a bath?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"No, let's take a bath together at night," Gu Fei smiled, "Have a bath together."
Jiang Cheng tutted and smiled: "You are the most shameless person I have ever met in my life."
"It's a lifetime," Gu Fei said. "You will meet many people in the future, most of them."
"You are the most," Jiang Cheng squeezed him away, lowered his head and washed his face while saying, "The most handsome, the smartest, the coolest, the cutest, the most talented, the most… reluctant."
"Then I can only do the same." Gu Fei said.
"What?" Jiang Cheng's mind was still a little dull, and he didn't react immediately.
"Fuck you." Gu Fei said with a smile, turned around and walked out.
"Fuck off!" Jiang Cheng came back to his senses, "If you go up, you can go up! Who are you going to go up with!"
Gu Fei laughed for a long time, touched a cigarette, took it out, and stood by the window.
Not knowing what time it is now, Gu Fei was too lazy to take out his phone to look at it, but it was already dark outside the window.
When you look up, you can see the less obvious night, and when you look down, your eyes are full of bright, continuous lights and flashing neon, far and near.
"What are you looking at?" Jiang Cheng walked to his side and stood down.
"Look at the bustling metropolis." Gu Fei said.
"Well, after all, it's the capital," Jiang Cheng said. "If the steel mill is concerned, it will be completely dark by now."
"Yes," Gu Fei smiled, "the street lights are not on."
"Did you come here when you went out on a trip by yourself?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"No," Gu Fei shook his head, "If you hadn't come, I wouldn't necessarily come in my life."
"It will last forever," Jiang Cheng imitated him, "We will go to many places like this in the future, big cities, small cities, on the mountains, on the seaside, on the other side of the mountain, on the other side of the sea..."
Jiang Cheng was inexplicable in the middle of speaking, but he sang very smoothly.
"There's a group of Smurfs..." Gu Fei continued while laughing.
They changed their clothes and got ready to go to dinner.
After leaving the room, Jiang Cheng also ran to the door of Pan Zhi's room next door and knocked on the door, but no one responded.
"I'm definitely not in the room now," Gu Fei said, "I must be waiting in the lobby to scold us."
"What time is it?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"Don't dare to look at the phone," Gu Fei said, "I feel that Pan Zhi's table may be cancelled. How should we face him?"
"Face it calmly." Jiang Cheng clicked his tongue.
Pan Zhi sat bored in the lobby and played with his mobile phone. When they passed by, Pan Zhi was holding his mobile phone to take selfies as if no one else was there.
"Handsome guy." Jiang Cheng called him.
"Fuck," Pan Zhi stood up with a relieved expression, and then changed it to a difficult sentence, "No, are you two racing too much time? There's still a long night after dinner, so you have to be in a hurry. this time?"
"What do you mean?" Jiang Cheng was stunned.
"How expensive are the condoms in the room," Pan Zhi said while dialing the number with his mobile phone, "It's not a loss, it's good to buy a box after dinner..."
"Fuck?" Jiang Cheng turned his head to look at Gu Fei in shock.
"Face it straight." Gu Fei reminded him.
"Face it straight," Jiang Cheng turned his face and looked at Pan Zhi again, "We didn't..."
"Hey!" Pan Zhi called, "I made a reservation for a table today... Pan An, yes, I am... Don't cancel it! I'll go now if you want to cancel it! I just called and asked not to cancel!"
"My image is completely gone." Jiang Cheng said.
"What image do you want in front of your grandson?" Gu Fei smiled and put his arm on his shoulder.
"Sister!" Pan Zhi, who was still imposing just now, suddenly changed his tone, "Sister, don't cancel, I promise to go, I'll be there for ten minutes now, really, think of a way to let the guests at that table stop. Wait for a seat, I'm treating a guest here, a very important guest, it's about my face... "
Jiang Cheng and Gu Fei stood at the entrance of the hotel, watching the traffic on the road, waiting for Pan Zhi to tell the hotel receptionist to let the table they had already canceled for the guests who came to sit.
Two minutes later, Pan Zhiyi waved: "Hurry up, go there, right in front."
"Leave the table?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"Ten minutes," Pan Zhi looked at the time, "you two really test my social skills."
"We..." Jiang Cheng wanted to say that the two of us really didn't use condoms in the room, but after thinking about it, he didn't know how to explain why the two of them stayed in the room for so long, so he didn't speak any further.
"Wait for me." Pan Zhi suddenly ran into a flower shop on the side of the road.
When I came out again, I had a beautifully packaged rose in my hand.
"Why?" Jiang Cheng looked at him.
"It's not for you two." Pan Zhi said.
"You kneel down and beg me, I don't want it either." Jiang Cheng said.
"Don't kowtow." Gu Fei said.
"How could someone as unyielding as me kneel down and beg you!" After Pan Zhi finished speaking, he glared at Gu Fei, "You two are really a good match."
The restaurant is not far away. It is a Sichuan restaurant. The business is very hot. No wonder the table is cancelled as soon as it is out of date.
"How many gentlemen?" Yingbin asked with a smile.
"The person who booked the table is named Pan." Pan Zhi said.
"Mr. Pan, the table you booked is on the second floor, please come this way..." Pan Zhi interrupted the welcome before he finished speaking.
"Who answered the call when I called just now?" Pan Zhi asked.
"Our clerk at the front desk." Yingbin pointed to the side.
"The one who's calling?" Pan Zhi looked.
"Yes." Yingbin nodded.
"You guys go up first," Pan Zhi turned to look at Jiang Cheng, "I'll be there in a while."
"You..." Jiang Cheng glanced at the front desk, the little girl who was answering the phone with her head down was quite handsome, he sighed and looked at the welcoming guests, "Is it the second floor?"
"Yes, table number 35 on the second floor. There is a waiter on the second floor to take you there." Yingbin said.
When walking upstairs, Jiang Cheng glanced back again. Pan Zhi had already walked to the front desk, and stretched out the rose in his hand in front of the little girl who just answered the phone. The little girl was stunned for a moment, and Pan Zhi didn't know what to say. , the little girl suddenly smiled a little embarrassedly.
"Has he been like this all the time?" Gu Fei was also looking back, "It's just so smooth."
"Ah," Jiang Cheng laughed for a long time, "Junior high school is like this, it's very shameless."
"Don't learn from him." Gu Fei said seriously.
"You can't learn this," Jiang Cheng also said seriously. "This kind of skill was brought out of a mother's womb, and he has already lost his love in kindergarten."
"Shit." Gu Fei was happy.
Pan Zhi added the WeChat account of the girl at the front desk before going upstairs and sitting in front of them: "Have you ordered food yet?"
"Wait for you," Jiang Cheng said, "We won't."
"Did you see that little girl just now?" Pan Zhi took the menu and flipped through it. "It's very cute, and it's fun to talk, like a little bean."
Jiang Cheng and Gu Fei didn't speak, they looked at him together.
"Oh, that little girl is a woman." Pan Zhi said.
"I don't have the habit of staring at men wherever I go." Jiang Cheng took a sip of tea.
"I know that you two are dedicated," Pan Zhi sighed, "then we have to come across it. I can't find it anywhere, how can I come across the one I want to be dedicated, right?"
"It's so reasonable, I'm actually speechless." Jiang Cheng smiled.
"Isn't it, just him," Pan Zhi pointed at Gu Fei, "How far did you run before you met."
Jiang Cheng glanced at Gu Fei, but did not speak.
"However," Pan Zhi beckoned the waiter to come to order, "I am at least a little better than you now, I don't need to experience the pain of being separated, if I'm not serious, it won't be uncomfortable, I'd better be happy first and talk about it. ."
"It's not that you can't be serious if you don't want to be serious." Gu Fei said.
"Underestimate me?" Pan Zhi looked at him.
"Wait and see." Gu Fei circled his hand and put it on his eyes, looking at him.
When Pan Zhi would be "uncomfortable", Jiang Cheng didn't know.
He only knew that he had been suffering for a long time, from being vaguely uneasy to deliberately avoiding, then to panicking for a while, and finally to now.
He didn't want to go back to the time on the phone anymore, and he didn't want to see the time with his own eyes just tearing away the time together between him and Gu Fei.
After dinner, they went back to the room to take a shower, and they both leaned on the bed and watched TV.
Most of the time, he was silent, and occasionally he would say something unrelated to parting.
In the end, Gu Fei turned off the TV and lights, Jiang Cheng lay down, rolled over and embraced him, put his legs on him, and closed his eyes.
Maybe because they hadn't slept the night before, they both fell asleep soon after the lights were turned off.
When he opened his eyes in the morning, Jiang Cheng was even a little annoyed, feeling that the night was over.
"Pan Zhi said that there is breakfast, so it can be brought to the room," Gu Fei said, "Do you want to eat now? If you want to eat, I will call the waiter to bring it over?"
"En." Jiang Cheng rubbed against him.
"It's time to go to report after eating, just stroll over there." Gu Fei said again.
"Ah." Jiang Cheng replied with his eyes closed.
The school is very close to the hotel, so Pan Zhi didn't follow him when he checked in. He checked out of the room and went back to his school. Before leaving, he confessed, "Gu Fei's car tomorrow morning, right? The subway entrance is over there. Just take the subway."
"En." Gu Fei nodded.
"I won't give you away," Pan Zhi said. "You two don't take it too seriously, and you will have a holiday for more than half a month."
"You go quickly." Jiang Cheng said.
"Scumbag." Pan Zhi said.
"Let's go, man, I don't know the date." Jiang Cheng smiled.
After Pan Zhi turned and walked away, he sighed softly.
In his mind, "Gu Fei will go back the day after tomorrow", Pan Zhi's words "tomorrow morning" made his heart tremble.
It's not the day after tomorrow, it's tomorrow, and it's tomorrow morning.
Starting tomorrow morning, he will be alone, in this strange city, in a strange crowd.
Jiang Cheng didn't speak much, and Gu Fei couldn't find anything to talk about, so he could only be silent.
It didn't take long to walk along the road to R University, Gu Fei was suddenly a little nervous, and suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.
He rarely felt that way, but now he really felt it.
There were a lot of new students and parents who came to report, and everyone had joy and pride written on their faces. Like Jiang Cheng, they were all kinds of academic tyrants.
Gu Fei glanced at Jiang Cheng, Jiang Cheng’s face was calm, his feelings in his heart were definitely different from his own, this was where he wanted to start a new life, a first-class school, a top-notch major.
Jiang Cheng was his pride, and it was also the source of his faint panic.
"Go over there and ask how to report." Jiang Cheng said.
"En." Gu Fei nodded and followed behind him through the crowd.
The front of the building of the Law School was very lively. There were tables under the awning, and many volunteers were answering the questions for the freshmen. There were various welcome display boards next to them, and many freshmen took pictures in front of the display boards.
Gu Fei did not follow Jiang Cheng to the table, he stood outside the crowd and looked at Jiang Cheng.
Soon a girl brought Jiang Cheng to the table next to him. Jiang Cheng turned around and looked over as he walked, Gu Fei raised his hand.
Jiang Cheng waved at him and motioned for him to go over.
"Are you reporting here?" Gu Fei walked up to him.
"Well," Jiang Cheng nodded, "It's quite a lot of things, the ID card notification admission ticket... After you get the registration card, you can go through the rest of the formalities."
"En." Gu Fei looked around at the people around him.
"Don't leave me too far," Jiang Cheng said in a low voice as he took out his belongings from his bag, "Don't exceed five steps."
"What's wrong?" Gu Fei smiled.
"Not much," Jiang Cheng said, "Seeing you makes me feel at ease."
"Okay." Gu Fei squeezed on his shoulder.
Jiang Cheng turned around and continued to go through the formalities. Gu Fei stood behind him and watched. Every time he moved, Gu Fei followed.
Information verification, enrollment registration, payment of fees, and being carried by volunteers, these procedures were carried out very quickly and smoothly. In the end, Jiang Cheng walked up to him with a pile of things: "Help me get it."
Receipts, campus cards, student ID cards, school badges... There are also invitation cards for some clubs, college promotional hand cards, etc. There are a lot of things, Gu Fei put them all in a separate compartment in the bag: "Now what? ?"
"Go to the dormitory, the dormitory is on the first floor, it's pretty good, you don't need to climb the stairs," Jiang Cheng smiled, "The senior will take it over in a while."
"Can I go in?" Gu Fei asked.
"Yes, you usually have to swipe your card. These days, if you have a parent, you can enter." Jiang Cheng looked at him, "You are my parent."
Gu Fei did not speak, but smiled.
A senior who was probably a volunteer came over, along with a few other boys and their parents.
"Jiang Cheng," the senior called Jiang Cheng, "Let's go, I'll take you to the dormitory."
"Okay." Jiang Cheng responded.
A few of them were undergraduate boys, and they started chatting after a few steps, where did they come from, how many points, etc. Jiang Cheng didn’t talk much, and the other few chatted very lively.
"Hey?" A boy looked at Gu Fei, "Let's get to know you, my name is Zhang Ping, how about you? Where are you from?"
"I... am not a freshman." Gu Fei suddenly felt a little embarrassed.
"Senior?" Zhang Ping asked again.
"My friend," Jiang Cheng said, "accompany me here."
"Oh, your friend," Zhang Ping nodded with a smile, and asked again, "Which school is it from?"
Gu Fei didn’t know how to answer this question. He didn’t mind telling anyone about his school, but in their normal college, in front of a bunch of R University law school students, only Jiang Cheng knew it.
He suddenly didn't know how to deal with such a scene.
"Our hometown teacher," Jiang Cheng said, "he came with me this time."
"Ah, that's really a buddy." Zhang Ping said.
Jiang Cheng smiled and nodded, his footsteps slowed down, and he and Gu Fei slowly walked to the back of the group.
The senior took them to the dormitory building and found their dormitory by room number one by one before leaving.
The two of them entered Jiang Cheng's dormitory. It was said that the conditions of this dormitory building were relatively good, and it seemed that it was indeed good. They were all in a bed-down-table structure, with four people in one room.
Someone has arrived in the room, a boy and his parents are cleaning the table.
"Hello," Jiang Cheng greeted, "My name is Jiang Cheng."
"Zhao Ke," the boy turned his head and pointed to the bed by the window, "Where is your bed, I've cleaned it."
"Thank you." Jiang Cheng said.
"You're welcome." After Zhao Ke finished speaking, he looked towards Gu Fei again.
"I'm his friend." Gu Fei said.
"Oh," Zhao Ke nodded and said to the parents next to him, "I said I came here by myself, and they didn't let my parents follow along."
"We are traveling," his mother said. "Hello, you will be a dormitory from now on, take care of each other a little bit, don't fight if there is any conflict, just quarrel."
"...Oh." Jiang Cheng responded.
"Where's your luggage?" Zhao Ke asked.
"I'll only come to live tomorrow, I'll bring the things tomorrow." Jiang Cheng said.
"Oh." Zhao Ke continued to clean the table again.
After taking a look inside the dormitory, Gu Fei accompanies Jiang Cheng to walk around the dormitory building again, familiarizing himself with the environment.
"There is a supermarket," Jiang Cheng said, "it's quite convenient to buy food."
"Well," Gu Fei smiled, "the first reaction is to eat, and they don't sell big five flowers."
"Don't talk about big five flowers, I'm hungry..." Jiang Cheng pressed his stomach, "Let's go, let's eat something."
"Aren't you going around the school?" Gu Fei asked.
"Let's change it later, it's a lot of time, several years." Jiang Cheng said.
"En." Gu Fei nodded.
As he walked along the road to the school gate, Jiang Cheng kept looking around. Gu Fei could see that although Jiang Cheng was not in a very high mood, he was still excited and curious about this long-awaited campus.
Gu Fei has also been looking at it. This is where Jiang Cheng will stay for several years. Every time he glances at it, he remembers it more in his mind, and when he imagines Jiang Cheng’s life at school, it becomes more realistic.
It's just that every time he feels more, the faint panic in his heart also increases.
gap.
This kind of real gap in front of him was clearer than anything he had imagined before.
The heavy feeling in the old buildings that don't look very beautiful in the school, and the self-confidence in the bones of the seniors and sisters walking around, can clearly be felt.
Gu Fei began to feel a little down from the time he went through the formalities, Jiang Cheng could clearly feel that he was smiling less and less and speaking less and less.
Maybe it was because the separation was imminent, maybe it was because... Jiang Cheng suddenly regretted letting Gu Fei accompany him to school, and any reaction from Gu Fei would make him feel distressed.
He glanced at Gu Fei beside him, Gu Fei was turning his head not knowing what he was looking at.
"Boyfriend," Jiang Cheng lightly bumped him on the shoulder, "What would you like to eat?"
"Listen to my boyfriend." Gu Fei turned his head and smiled.
"I don't know either," Jiang Cheng took out his mobile phone, "Just do a search to see what's nearby, right?"
"Okay." Gu Fei nodded.
"Gu Fei," Jiang Cheng asked while flicking on his phone, "Can you tell me what you're thinking?"
"Huh?" Gu Fei was stunned.
"You're not happy, except because you have to leave tomorrow," Jiang Cheng stared at his phone, "What else?"
"...Yes." Gu Fei said.
"What is it?" Jiang Cheng turned his head to look at him.
Gu Fei was silent for a few seconds, then turned his head to look at him: "That Zhao Ke."
"Ah?" Jiang Cheng was stunned.
"He's very handsome." Gu Fei said.
"Who?" Jiang Cheng was still at a loss.
"Zhao Ke." Gu Fei said.
"Zhao Ke?" Jiang Cheng glared at him, "Damn it, who did you know in just a short while? Still handsome?"
"... I've convinced you," Gu Fei couldn't help laughing, "Brother Cheng, can you give your Xueba's brain to those 'useless things' to get some IQ? The classmates in your dormitory, Zhao Ke!"
"Fuck," Jiang Cheng still glared at him, "His name is Zhao Ke? I don't even know if I forgot or didn't remember at all!"
"Hurry up and remember it, or it's embarrassing that you won't remember people's names when you go tomorrow." Gu Fei said.
"Oh, Zhao Ke, Zhao Ke," Jiang Cheng thought for a while, "is he very handsome... To be honest, I didn't pay attention..."
Gu Fei smiled and sighed.
"Are you jealous in advance?" Jiang Cheng asked again.
"En." Gu Fei nodded.
"Fuck your boomerang." Jiang Cheng frowned.
"Be civilized, at least he's a student from a prestigious university." Gu Fei put his arms around his shoulder.
"I know what you're thinking. If you don't say anything, just hold it back. Anyway, you're just this guy," Jiang Cheng said, "but you remember my words."
"En." Gu Fei looked at him.
"I don't like that little broken city, and I don't look down on the people in that broken place in the steel mill," Jiang Cheng said, "but I still hate that place, that city, that steel mill, because I singled you out there. ."
Gu Fei did not speak.
"No matter where I am, I can still pick you out at a glance," Jiang Cheng said, "You are different from others, as I said before, you are different from everyone, even if you say it, I still You will meet a lot of people, but no matter how many people you meet, there will be no second Gu Fei."