When Gu Miao came out of the classroom, she walked quickly and pushed away a child who wanted to talk to her.
"Er Miao," Gu Fei, who was waiting for her outside, crouched down to stop her, "say goodbye to that little sister just now."
Gu Miao looked at him, Gu Fei should have understood what Gu Fei meant, but she didn't really want to implement his request.
"She wanted to talk to you, but you ignored her," Gu Fei said. "You don't have to like her, but you must be polite and don't push others."
Gu Miao turned around and waved at the kid who came over, then turned away with a cold face.
Gu Fei sighed, stood up and followed behind her.
The little girl is now reluctant to come to participate in group activities, and every time Gu Fei comes over, he has to tell her for a long time before he can bring her over.
Perhaps the more than ten children who participated this time were all too young. Although Gu Miao couldn't compare with her peers, she could understand many things. When she was in school, she was not completely unable to adapt.
Now these are only five or six years old or even younger children, and she can't play together.
But what to do
Gu Fei walked to the motorcycle, Gu Miao was already waiting with the skateboard in her arms.
"Are you hungry?" Gu Fei went over to wrap her scarf, pulled down her hat, put on a mask on her, and got on the motorcycle.
Gu Miao climbed onto the back seat and hugged his waist.
How to do it
Gu Fei put his helmet on and started the car. In Gu Miao's current state, participating in more group activities and interacting with people was the best way. Moreover, regardless of their level, this was the only place where Gu Miao could get help.
He had to miss class several times a week to send Gu Miao over. He didn't really want to go to class. After so many years, it was hard for him to calm down and study like other students, but after all, it was only because of Jiang Cheng. In the school he went to, he didn't want to be as messed up as before.
Moreover, Gu Miao's coming to receive rehabilitation training not only affected the class, but also took up his time to pick up the work, and he had to do many things at night.
Whether it is time or money, it will be a bit difficult.
He won't complain, he's come here for so many years, he always has a way to deal with it, as long as Gu Miao can make progress...
As long as Gu Miao can make progress.
But Gu Miao made no progress.
Having tasted so much disappointment and loss, it is really difficult for him to be as optimistic as Jiang Cheng.
When he returned to the store, Liu Li had already prepared the meal, and his mother was taking a picture of several dishes on the small table with her mobile phone.
Since the store was forcibly sold to Liu Li, the business has improved a lot. Liu Li is quite serious in his work. The most important thing is that he cooks more reliably than his mother, at least every day.
Gu Miao was quite satisfied with the dishes he cooked, and as soon as he entered the restaurant, he stood by the table and waited for the meal to start.
"Er Miao, you're blocking the camera," Mom held up the phone and saw that Gu Miao didn't move after speaking. She sighed and turned to the opposite side of Gu Miao to take a picture, "My daughter is quite photogenic, she looks good no matter how she takes pictures. ."
"Let's eat," Liu Li brought out the soup, "Da Fei is tired, go back to rest after eating."
"Not tired," Gu Fei patted Gu Miao's shoulder, "Er Miao go wash her hands."
Gu Miao walked to the backyard, Gu Fei followed behind her, and after seeing Gu Miao entering the kitchen, he didn't follow him any more and stood by the door watching.
Gu Miao doesn't have much problem with washing her hands and dishes now, and she basically doesn't scream anymore.
It's progress, yes.
But this progress has only appeared from the year my father died until now.
Gu Fei didn't even dare to think about how many years had passed in between.
hope.
Of course there is hope, but it's too far away.
When he took Gu Miao home after dinner, Jiang Cheng sent a message.
- have you finished eating
He also took a selfie, the angle is very obscure, still relying on the face, but the background can be seen, it was taken in the library of their high school.
At this time almost every day, Jiang Cheng would go to the library, read books and take notes, etc. Gu Fei didn’t quite know the specifics of what he spent there overnight.
All I know is that during this period of time, Jiang Cheng was very focused, just like he used to sit in front of his desk reviewing, he would not disturb Jiang Cheng.
But sometimes it's lonely.
Compared to Jiang Cheng, his nights would be a bit more leisurely, that is, editing and retouching pictures, various merchandise pictures, model pictures, for him, it was basically a streamlined job, he didn’t need to concentrate, and he wasn’t afraid of being disturbed.
But when he was free and wanted to send a message to Jiang Cheng, he was afraid that it would disturb him, and two days ago, Jiang Cheng had complained to him that a girl sitting next to him had her cell phone vibrating on the table every few minutes and it was annoying.
However, after the library closed at ten o'clock, Jiang Cheng would call him immediately.
"I'm exhausted today," Jiang Cheng said while yawning, "I didn't sleep at noon, and I couldn't keep my eyes open when I was halfway through my homework."
"Combining work and rest, Brother Cheng." Gu Fei said.
"It's easy, I went back to the dormitory at night and fell asleep," Jiang Cheng said, "Actually, it's not that I want to work hard, after all, there are so many things to do, read books, organize notes, write homework, and I will run out of time. ."
"It's not that I don't have time to eat big five flowers." Gu Fei smiled.
"I want to eat, but I passed by two barbecue restaurants when I was a tutor," Jiang Cheng tutted, "No, I can't say it, I'm hungry after I say it, and I don't have anything to eat when I go back to the dormitory."
"Would you like to buy something to eat?" Gu Fei asked.
"I won't buy it anymore," Jiang Cheng sighed, "I'm afraid of getting fat. You said that a horse will get fat even if he eats grass at night. Can I still eat meat all the time at night?"
Gu Fei smiled and said nothing.
Jiang Cheng chatted with him a few more times, and talked about the things that happened during the class during the day, whether it was funny or unpleasant, anyway, he would talk about it every day.
Gu Fei liked to hear him say this, he could imagine Jiang Cheng in school, he went to class, he went to the cafeteria, he went to the library, he didn't like that classmate, he and Zhao Ke were in the dormitory together to bully the other two with daughters classmates of friends...
Jiang Cheng's life was busy and stressful, but also very interesting.
The things he said and the people he came into contact with were very different from when he was in the steel mill. Gu Fei could feel that his mood was uplifted, and he was uplifted when he complained that he was too tired.
How good, this is the life Jiang Cheng should have.
Sometimes Jiang Cheng would also ask him how his school was, what his classmates were like, and what classes he was taking.
After he casually mentioned that there was a movie appreciation class, Jiang Cheng also recommended a few movies. The recommended words and analysis he said were of a higher level than the teacher they taught. Jiang Cheng didn’t take a movie appreciation class, but the school would show movies.
This is the gap, although there must be his "boyfriend is the best at everything" bonus, but this sense of distance still exists, it is not that you can find an excuse to comfort yourself and erase it.
He was not someone who talked too much, and only liked to talk when he was with Jiang Cheng, liked to tease Jiang Cheng, and liked to be poor with Jiang Cheng.
But now, as time went by, he could say less and less to Jiang Cheng, um ah ha ha, it was his most common way of answering.
"Er Miao," Gu Fei looked at Gu Miao who was standing in the room and refused to change clothes and go out, "We are going to play with the teacher."
Gu Miao leaned against the door frame of her bedroom and looked at him blankly.
"Go and change your clothes," Gu Fei said, "there will be a new game today, don't you want to play?"
Gu Miao still didn't respond.
"You don't like to play with other children, you can play with the teacher," Gu Fei said, "Last time the teacher said that he liked you very much and praised you for being smart."
Gu Miao turned her head away.
Today, Gu Miao's resistance was very serious. She understood Gu Fei's words, but she refused to give any response.
"Actually, it's okay if you don't go," Gu Fei said. "You want to let my brother know why? Do you not like those children?"
Gu Miao ignored him.
"Don't like the teacher?" Gu Fei asked again.
Gu Miao still ignored him.
"Er Miao," Gu Fei lowered his head and looked at the floor, "Big brother knows that you are not happy anymore, if you are not happy, big brother will also be unhappy, because big brother loves you, and you also feel bad for big brother, okay?"
"Don't go." Gu Miao finally spoke.
Still this sentence.
don't go.
Gu Fei closed his eyes.
Compared with those other children, Gu Miao's symptoms should be much lighter. Although she can't understand it well, she has ideas for many things.
Like now, right now.
don't go.
It was her idea.
Although she couldn't fully understand it, she must have understood that the brother Cheng, who was happily skateboarding with her every day, left and didn't show up for a long time.
She certainly couldn't understand the relationship between her elder brother and elder brother, but she would be aware of her elder brother's emotions.
Gu Fei raised his head and looked at Gu Miao.
Gu Miao is worried and afraid, and her brother will also leave.
don't go.
Brother will not go.
Brother is not going anywhere.
My brother will always be with you, right here.
If it was a year ago, Gu Fei would have used these words to answer her without thinking, to comfort her.
But now, he didn't speak.
He felt sorry for Gu Miao, but for the first time he did not follow her.
Gu Miao started screaming, clenching her fingers on the door frame and screaming.
Gu Fei hugged his head and closed his eyes.
Apart from Gu Miao's scream, there was no other sound in his ears, and his mind was blank.
After an unknown amount of time, there was a knock on the door from Gu Miao's scream, and Gu Fei slowly let go of the hand that had been holding his head.
"Er Miao!" A neighbor's voice came from outside the door, "Er Miao, are you alone at home? It's okay, my aunt can help you call your brother!"
This is the neighbor downstairs. Gu Miao often ate at her house when she had no place to eat before.
Gu Fei stood up and opened the door: "I'm at home."
"Are you all right? I don't usually call for so long." The aunt outside the door asked.
"Well, it's okay, I'll coax her later." Gu Fei said.
After closing the door, Gu Fei turned around and looked at Gu Miao who was still screaming, and walked slowly in front of her.
Gu Miao had been digging at the door frame, her fingertips had been pierced by the digging wood, and blood was oozing out.
"Er Miao." Gu Fei pulled her hand away.
Gu Miao did not resist, but the screaming did not stop.
Gu Fei grabbed her hand, but when he wanted to squat down, his legs were a little weak, and he knelt down on one leg before he supported it.
"Er Miao," he hugged Gu Miao and patted her on the back, "I'm sorry."
Gu Miao wrapped his arms around his neck, and the scream finally slowly subsided, and finally disappeared from Gu Fei's ears.
"You have a really good voice, Er Miao," Gu Fei said softly, "you haven't become hoarse after shouting for so long."
"Will there be a scar!" Jiang Cheng stared at Zhao Ke's hand nervously.
"It depends on your physique," Zhao Ke held a torn Band-Aid, "but I think there might be a way."
"What Daozi?" Jiang Cheng stared at him.
"There's still ink inside that can't be washed off," Zhao Ke pressed the Band-Aid to his forehead, "It will leave color after the epidermis heals."
"Yes," said Lu Shi, who was sitting at the back table staring at the computer, "and this black ink, it will change color in the future, it will become green."
"Just like your girlfriend's eyebrows, right?" Jiang Cheng said.
"My girlfriend does it semi-permanently and won't change color." Lu Shi turned his head.
"Oh." Jiang Cheng nodded and pressed the Band-Aid.
It hurts a little bit, and he doesn't know how the poking of the pen can be so powerful, probably because he is too sleepy, he fell asleep instantly and was a little energetic when he stabbed his head down, but he didn't wake up when the pen pierced, His head continued to go down following the inertia, and he woke up when the tip of the pen made a slit on his eyebrows along this momentum.
"Jiang Cheng, let me advise you," Zhao Ke said in a low voice after helping him put the Band-Aid on, "Mastering a skill doesn't come like this, it takes time, step by step."
"En." Jiang Cheng responded.
"You read those psychology books like this," Zhao Ke bent down and continued in a low voice, "I will ask you, do you understand what you mean? Do you understand the cases and treatment plans you read? Two cases that look the same, why use different treatment methods? A mental illness may have different manifestations, and different mental illnesses may also appear to have the same reaction... "
"Ah..." Jiang Cheng leaned back in his chair, "I know, I know."
"My sister is free next week, and I made an appointment for her," Zhao Ke said, "don't be in such a hurry."
"En," Jiang Cheng nodded, "Thank you."
He was really anxious, since he found out that Gu Miao went to participate in the rehabilitation effect this time was not very good, he was very anxious, Gu Fei told him not to blame everything on himself.
But it's a fact that he left, it's a fact that Gu Miao was very angry when he found out that he left, and it's a fact that he ignored him. He wanted to help Gu Fei, and he wanted Gu Miao to get better, but he couldn't accept it because he wanted to pull Gu Fei out. But it made Gu Fei fall into deeper helplessness and exhaustion, making Gu Miao, who should have made progress, start to retreat.
How much help Zhao Jin can do, and whether there is any way to do it, is unknown. He just wants to be more accurate in his description when discussing Gu Miao's problem, and what others say, he also hopes to himself. can be understood more clearly.
He just wanted to do everything he could.
He is usually very busy with his studies. In addition to his normal professional studies and tutoring work, he has to make time to read psychology things, which is indeed a bit tiring.
But he would.
Many people have this "I do" state, and so does Zhao Ke, who persuades himself earnestly, but in a different way.
I am willing to make time for you to learn more knowledge, and I am willing to join a knitting club with only two boys for you, in essence, it is basically the same.
-Any video available
Gu Fei sent a message.
Jiang Cheng hesitated for a moment, then took a look at the mirror next to him, the Band-Aid was a little obvious, but if it was torn off, the opening would not be invisible.
Hit the door frame.
That `s a deal.
He walked out of the dormitory with his mobile phone and sent a video request to Gu Fei.
Gu Fei picked it up quickly over there. When the faces of the two people appeared on the screen, Gu Fei's first sentence was: "What's wrong with your eyebrows?"
"It hit the door frame." Jiang Cheng said.
"...How could it hit the door frame?" Gu Fei was stunned, "Where is the dormitory door?"
"The door of the dormitory," Jiang Cheng smiled, "it just slammed into it."
"...Break it?" Gu Fei stretched out his hand.
This action made Jiang Cheng's heart soften into a ball. He smiled and said, "Are you trying to touch me?"
"Yeah," Gu Fei laughed, "Poke the screen once."
"It won't be long," Jiang Cheng thought for a while, "I'll go back on New Year's Day."
"Don't run away," Gu Fei said. "It's only three days, and it won't last for two days."
"You don't want to see me." Jiang Cheng clicked his tongue.
"I don't want to miss you that much," Gu Fei said, "It's hard to get used to it now, you come back for a while, I have to get used to it again."
"It's the same for me," Jiang Cheng laughed, "That's alright, let's hold on for a while, just in time to see if anyone invites me to dinner on New Year's Day."
"Huh?" Gu Fei was stunned for two seconds, and the corners of his mouth twitched, "Yo, yo yo."
"Let me tell you, maybe there is," Jiang Cheng whispered, "As far as our school has a public account with a confession wall, it's very funny, and it's all confessions."
"I have it for you, I want to invite you to dinner?" Gu Fei asked with a smile.
"Well," Jiang Cheng said, "I only knew that there was such a number when Zhao Ke told me that day."
R big confession wall.
Gu Fei felt that Jiang Cheng’s act of going to search immediately when he said that it was silly, but he still couldn’t hold back.
Originally, I just thought I wanted to go in and have a look. It could be considered to understand things related to my boyfriend's life. If I can't see anyone, I can also relieve my cravings when I see things related to him. I will feel that the distance is not that far.
But seeing Jiang Cheng's name at first sight was quite unexpected.
[Confession] I sit behind you every night, watching you lower your head, watch you raise your head, and turn your face to the back, until every word in front of me becomes you. Haven't looked back once a night!
Gu Fei smiled, it was quite funny.
Scrolling down again, after about two pages, I saw the meal.
[Confession] I have decided, I want to invite Jiang Cheng to dinner! Jiang Cheng of Law 1! Did you see it! My sister wants to invite you to dinner. I don’t know if you can eat spicy food. I hope you like spicy food!
[Confession] The weird sister above who wants to invite Jiang Cheng to dinner, I still have to talk about the first come, first served. I already said last week that I would like to invite you, but in order not to be embarrassed, we can invite you together... or If you change your goal, the classmate who is always with him is not bad, so please invite them all!
[Confession] So, the strange sisters above, do you want to confess or treat guests or have a dinner party
Gu Fei kept laughing and scrolled down. After turning a few pages, he couldn't laugh very much. He saw several content of boys' confessions to boys.
That blunt and candid tone, and everyone's no-fuss attitude, this relaxed feeling is completely different from the people around him.
Jiang Cheng was no longer as nervous because of his sexuality as he used to be, but he often faced it with a tough attitude like "it's none of your business", and this kind of really relaxed environment was the only environment in which he could really relax.
Gu Fei kept scrolling until there was no more content to display, and after confirming that no boys had confessed to Jiang Cheng on the dates that could be displayed, he put down the phone.
Lie down on the bed and let out a sigh of relief.
Why take a breath
Gu Fei thought he was quite funny...
"Can I call Zhang Dantong?" Zhao Ke was on the phone, and Jiang Cheng sat beside him and listened attentively, because the call was for Zhao Jin, and he asked for a specific time and place to meet, but Zhao Ke obviously couldn't find the point. .
Only today did Jiang Cheng know that his goddess was called Zhang Dantong, and only then did he realize that Zhang Dantong, who had seen N times on the wall, was his goddess.
In this way, Zhao Ke's situation is still very critical.
"Why didn't you call... You didn't call, so how do you know she wasn't going?" Zhao Ke was still struggling with the point of this digression. "You haven't seen each other for a long time. Don't you need to communicate with your girlfriends?"
"Zhao Ke," Jiang Cheng sighed, "Ke ah..."
"Why is it inappropriate today, today is Jiang Cheng wanting to ask you about his friend's sister's situation, and it's not a serious psychological consultation... You can't do it formally," Zhao Ke ignored Jiang Cheng, "and... yeah , I'm begging you to do things, I'm begging you for one thing, and I'm begging for two things, anyway, I've been begging you since I was a child..."
"Zhao Ke," Jiang Cheng couldn't help it. He took off Zhao Ke's cell phone and whispered, "Zhang Dantong, call me."
"What?" Zhao Ke looked at him.
"I'll help you ask her out." Jiang Cheng said.
"You?" Zhao Ke hesitated for three seconds, grabbed a notebook and quickly wrote a number.
"An appointment time and place to meet with your sister." Jiang Cheng patted his shoulder, took his mobile phone and went out.
Zhang Dantong answered the phone, and after Jiang Cheng briefly explained the reason for making the call, she couldn't stop laughing over there.
"That's why it's like this," Jiang Cheng said. "If you have time today, let's have a meal together. If you don't go, Zhao Ke and I won't be able to leave the dormitory door today."
"Okay, I'll call Zhao Jin," Zhang Dantong was still smiling, "see you later, you two are too funny."
When Jiang Cheng returned to the dormitory, Zhao Ke had finished the phone call, and when he saw him come in, he immediately stood up: "How is it? Did she scold you?"
"What kind of misunderstanding do you have about your goddess?" Jiang Cheng felt helpless, "She agreed, see you later."
"Really?" Zhao Ke laughed suddenly, and wanted to hug him when he came over.
Jiang Cheng quickly raised his arm: "It's enough to express thanks verbally."
"No thanks, we're even." Zhao Ke said.
"Oh, yes." Jiang Cheng nodded.
"Let's go," Zhao Ke said, "I made an appointment for steak. It's almost past now."
"En." Jiang Cheng went over and took his bag, and checked again to see if the card was in the bag.
For steak, with four people, the cash on him is definitely not enough.
Zhao Ke was a little excited, and when he pulled him to the place, there were still twenty minutes before the agreed time.
The two of them found a suitable booth for a conversation and sat down.
Zhao Ke was so overwhelmed that he couldn't speak. Jiang Cheng had been summarizing Gu Miao's situation all the time in his mind, and he couldn't even bother to speak. The two of them just kept looking at each other in silence until Zhao Ke raised his hand and waved it.
Jiang Cheng turned his head and saw two people came in through the door. The one in front was Zhao Jin, and the one behind was not Zhang Dantong, but a man.
"That's her senior." Zhao Ke said.
"Ah." Jiang Cheng didn't realize until he heard the word "senior". He had seen this man before.
The grassiest of the three school grasses.