Xu Xingzhi is a very friendly person, and it's easy to chat with him. If you don't want to be cold, just talk to him about the cat. You can meow and he can talk for three minutes.
For someone like Jiang Cheng, who was easily speechless and embarrassed to stay with strangers, a cat slave like Xu Xingzhi was very good.
"Now I have written down everything you said, I will sort it out when I go back, and I will contact you if I have any ideas," Xu Xingzhi said, "Actually, what we are doing now is very irregular, and it is easy to make mistakes... But let's do it first, You can tell me anything you think of."
"Okay," Jiang Cheng nodded, thinking about it and then hesitatingly opened his mouth, "Just… this fee… "
"Fee?" Xu Xingzhi looked at him.
"If it can be treated, the cost of the treatment... How much will it cost?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"Super expensive." Xu Xingzhi said.
"Ah." Jiang Cheng was stunned.
"Just kidding, if I can help, I won't charge you," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "but the cost of other treatments is definitely not low. I don't feel it for a day or two, and it's definitely not low after a long time."
"Oh," Jiang Cheng suddenly felt a lot of pressure, and his mind immediately began to spin at a high speed. The money for tutoring was definitely not enough. He had tuition fees and living expenses. How much, it seems that I need to find something else, but then the time will be very tight, he turned and asked, "Can you estimate it? I have to think about how to arrange the money... "
"Your friend's sister," Xu Xingzhi looked at him, "you pay?"
"Ah?" Jiang Cheng suddenly came back to his senses, "That... it's just... not, I..."
"But this is the next step to consider," Xu Xingzhi said, "Whether it can be treated, how to treat it, and to what extent it can be treated, all of these have to be done step by step. Don't think too much about it, just hold on to it if there is hope. 11 years old, and there is still life to come."
"En." Jiang Cheng responded.
Yes, if there is hope, you have to hold on to it, and there is still a lifetime behind.
This is not only Gu Miao's life, but also Gu Fei's life.
When he came out of the cafe, Jiang Cheng looked at the time, it was almost two hours.
"It took so long," Jiang Cheng said, "I'm really sorry."
"It's okay," Xu Xingzhi said, "I have nothing to do today. Go back to the dormitory."
"I'll take you out," Jiang Cheng said, "Are you going back to school? How?"
"I live next to the school, just walk back," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "No need to send it."
"I'll take you off." Jiang Cheng said.
Xu Xingzhi glanced at him: "Okay."
"Master has no one to accompany you all night," Jiang Cheng said, "Will I scratch you when I go back?"
"No, it's very elegant and doesn't usually stretch its claws," Xu Xingzhi said with a smile, "Usually in this case, it just ignores me and has to be coaxed."
"...Ah," Jiang Cheng laughed, the cat who stomped on his face without playing with him was still very elegant, "You are really caring."
"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, "there is no other place for a single dog's love."
Jiang Cheng smiled and didn't say a word. When he mentioned a single dog, his sense of pride came spontaneously. If he didn't control it, he would subconsciously want to abuse the dog.
This kind of behavior must be controlled, after all, it depends on the other party.
I was immersed in the emotion that I'm not a single dog, I have a boyfriend, hahahahahahahaha, and Jiang Cheng suddenly remembered what Xu Xingzhi said earlier.
"Your friend's sister, do you pay?"
Suddenly, he felt a little embarrassed. He wondered if Xu Xingzhi had thought of anything else. Although the people around him were generally calm and relaxed about this matter compared to the steel mill, Xu Xingzhi was just a new acquaintance. He still doesn't want to expose the person who has something he wants.
"Go back," Xu Xingzhi said as the two walked to the school gate, "I will tell you if I have any news here."
"Well, thank you." Jiang Cheng said.
Seeing Xu Xingzhi slowly strolling down the road, he turned around and went back to the dormitory.
Everyone in the dormitory is still in the library. Recently, everyone has started to prepare for the final exam. Apart from eating and sleeping, almost everyone is reading and reviewing books against the clock.
Jiang Cheng sat down at the table and looked at the neatly coded books. In addition to the professional books, there was also a stack of psychology books, including various case studies.
Let’s review first, Jiang Cheng sighed softly, when he read these books, he would feel anxious and powerless, how should he arrange the time, and how hard should he work so that he could not delay himself, but also be able to pull With Gu Fei, sometimes I don't dare to think about it.
He knew that Gu Fei would not agree with him. Gu Fei said a long time ago that he did not want anyone to "pay" for him. If he did this, he would definitely put pressure on Gu Fei.
He pinched his brows, forgetting that he didn't think about it for now. He didn't care about the things that couldn't be solved, and did the things in front of him first.
review.
"Er Miao," Gu Fei squatted in front of Gu Miao, "Brother asks you again, do you really want to go again?"
Gu Miao lowered her head.
"Look at brother," Gu Fei said, "Do you not want to go there to play anymore?"
Gu Miao raised his head, and Gu Fei repeated it again: "Did you think you don't want to go?"
Gu Miao nodded.
Gu Fei didn't say a word, looked at her for a long time and then patted her arm and stood up. He poured himself a glass of water, and after finishing it in one gulp, he said, "Okay, don't go."
Gu Miao immediately happily picked up the skateboard and waited to go out with him.
"If you don't go, brother will go to school in the afternoon," Gu Fei said. "You play by yourself, brother will have one class in the afternoon and come back after class, you don't have to wait for me, understand?"
Gu Miao nodded.
After riding the skateboard to the school with Gu Fei, Gu Miao happily stepped on the skateboard and rushed back.
Gu Fei looked up at the sky, sighed, and slowly walked into the school.
Gu Miao refused to go to rehabilitation. He had already tried twice. Gu Miao used two screams to show his determination. Gu Fei had no way to force her. Gu Miao’s more and more frequent screams made him physically and mentally exhausted. .
If you don't go, don't go.
In the morning, he went to the rehabilitation center and wanted to get the money back, but he didn't succeed. The other party said that it was a one-off payment, not a number of times, so there was no way to get the money back. can continue to participate.
According to Gu Fei's previous temper, this money must be taken back, and he will also get it back if he is foolish.
But this time he turned away without saying a word.
He didn't want to say another word.
He couldn't blame Gu Miao, he could only blame himself. The center had an experience class, which was charged by the number of times. You could try it a few times before deciding. He didn't let Gu Miao experience it first, because she had been there before and it looked pretty good.
Now, after paying so much money at one time, Gu Miao refused to go. Apart from feeling helpless, he didn't even have the strength to get angry.
"Gu Fei," the monitor found him in the classroom after class, "do you have time now?"
"En." Gu Fei responded while packing up his things.
"It's like this," said the monitor, "there's an event at school right now, you know?"
"I don't know." Gu Fei replied.
He really didn't know that except for a class, he would not stay in the school for an extra minute, and he had no contact with other students at all, not to mention any activities in the school, even if something happened in the class, he would Not necessarily know.
"You're too loner," the monitor said with a smile, "I don't even know about school activities."
"Say something." Gu Fei said.
"The school organized an activity where I wrote a song for the school," said the monitor, "I hope everyone will come and write for our school..."
"Not participating," Gu Fei interrupted him and stood up, "I don't have time, and I won't."
"How could it not, you are too modest," the monitor also stood up, "your classmates from No. 4 High School said that you can compose music, which is very good."
"Who said that?" Gu Fei said.
The squad leader quickly said, "That's it..."
"Just let someone come to me." Gu Fei said.
"...Gu Fei," the class leader sighed after being stunned, "Every class has people participating, and they all want to win glory for their class..."
"So I'm the only one in our class who can win glory?" Gu Fei said.
"It's boring to talk like this," the squad leader frowned. "If you want to, you can say no. Why do you say it so ugly?"
"I said at the beginning that I don't have time." Gu Fei walked out of the classroom after finishing his words.
The squad leader is actually a good person, an honest person who is also serious and responsible for the affairs of the class, but Gu Fei is not so irritable at the moment, even when he is not irritable, it is not much better.
In the past at No. 4 Middle School, all the activities he participated in, whether it was in school or class, whether it was competitions or meals, were all because of Jiang Cheng.
Without Jiang Cheng, he didn't want to participate in anything.
Without Jiang Cheng, he wouldn't even be able to attend this university.
Without Jiang Cheng... He took out his phone and checked the time, and suddenly he missed Jiang Cheng.
However, Jiang Cheng is not like him. There are many R classes, and now the final exam is approaching. Jiang Cheng has no time to chat with him at all. Before going to bed, he listened to Jiang Cheng yawning over there, chatting all the time. It was shortened, although Jiang Cheng was talking for most of the chat now, he listened.
When he reached the gate of the school, Gu Fei still sent a message, but he couldn't hold back.
- I have nothing but to tell you that I miss you suddenly
It only took about three seconds for this message to be sent, and before Gu Fei could put the phone back in his pocket, Jiang Cheng's call came.
"Aren't you in class?" Gu Fei answered the phone.
"There's no class now," Jiang Cheng said with a smile, "I'm just about to pack up and go to the library to soak in the evening."
"Aren't you going to eat?" Gu Fei asked.
"Eat, take turns with Zhao Ke to eat, and leave one person to occupy the seat," Jiang Cheng said, "What about you, no class?"
"Well, I'm ready to go back," Gu Fei said, "I'm going to shoot some night scenes at night."
"Where is the night scene?" Jiang Cheng immediately asked.
"When we were celebrating our birthdays, you put the fluorescent tiles there," Gu Fei said, "the grass is withering now, take pictures at dusk, and take pictures at night."
"I want to see it." Jiang Cheng said.
"I'll send it to you when I'm done shooting." Gu Fei smiled.
"Do you still have traffic?" Jiang Cheng asked, "I suddenly want to see you right now."
"Looking at the flow of the face, there is still some traffic," Gu Fei said.
"Fuck," Jiang Cheng laughed for a long time, "I'll just look at my face."
Gu Fei hung up the phone and sent a video request to go there.
When Jiang Cheng's face appeared on the screen, he suddenly felt a little distressed.
The two of them hadn’t had a video for a long time. Jiang Cheng had time to chat before going to bed at night. At that time, there was no way to make a video. It had been at least a month, and he hadn’t seen Jiang Cheng.
Jiang Cheng lost weight.
He was obviously thin, not because he was his boyfriend. Even if he looked at it from another person, he could see that Jiang Cheng was thin, his chin was pointed, and he was very tired.
"Why are you so thin?" Gu Fei frowned.
"Have you lost weight?" Jiang Cheng touched his face, "No, I'll go to the cafeteria tomorrow to weigh it, I don't feel anything."
"What do you eat every day?" Gu Fei asked, "You didn't lose as much weight as you did every day in your third year of high school. Didn't you say your school food is pretty good?"
"It's pretty good, and I eat meat three times in the morning and noon..." Jiang Cheng took a mirror out of the drawer, sat on the chair, turned around and leaned against the table, "I look in the mirror every day, and I don't think so. I feel thin, does this camera look thin?"
On the screen, you could see the books on Jiang Cheng’s desk, and the small bookshelf was full of rows, and Gu Fei saw at a glance that there was a book next to Jiang Cheng’s ear in the camera.
Psychology XXX, when he narrowed his eyes and wanted to see clearly again, Jiang Cheng put the phone close to his face, and suddenly only his face remained on the screen.
"Is this still thin?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"Slim," Gu Fei nodded, "Are you reviewing too hard? I see so many books on your bookshelf, are they all professional books?"
"Yeah, it's actually not bad," Jiang Cheng smiled, turning around and pointing the camera at the bookshelf, "It's only three and a half rows, mainly because there's still a lot of... information."
Jiang Cheng’s camera shook violently, and he seemed to have noticed something, and quickly pointed the camera at him again, but Gu Fei was almost certain. Although he still couldn’t see clearly at a glance, there were several Psychology books in a row. He still understood the word "psychology" in the treatment.
"Well," Gu Fei smiled and said softly, "Brother Cheng, pay attention to your body."
"Don't worry," Jiang Cheng said, "I'm running every morning now."
"I'm not saying that you don't exercise," Gu Fei said, "you review...you have to be restrained, don't work too hard, I'm not scaring you, you really lost a lot of weight."
"Understood." Jiang Cheng said with a smile, then brought the phone to his face again and kissed him.
"Don't worry about me." Gu Fei looked at him, the band-aid on his right eyebrow had been removed, because it was very close to the camera, a small scar could be seen.
No, this is not a scar, such a small scar should have healed long ago, and it is impossible to see it again.
Gu Ermofei stared at the trace for about two seconds, and had already judged it.
Jiang Cheng had the habit of turning his pen when he was reading, and most of the time he would rush the tip of the pen after turning it. This should have been stabbed by the tip of the pen, and that little path was the same as the one in the palm of his hand that had been pierced by the pen and has been preserved to this day. Ink dots are the same.
As for how the pen poked his eyebrows, Gu Ermofei didn't need to infer any more.
After hanging up the video, Gu Fei felt very uncomfortable.
When I rode the bike back against the cold wind, I felt a mess in my head.
Jiang Cheng showed him the class schedule. Although he couldn’t memorize all the classes, he was very clear that Jiang Cheng didn’t have any courses related to psychology.
Jiang Cheng was reading a psychology book for Gu Miao.
The moment he wanted to understand, Gu Fei couldn't describe how he felt.
He was afraid that Jiang Cheng would carry Gu Miao on his back, and he couldn't bear Jiang Cheng working so hard for him.
No one had ever done such a thing for him before, and the pressure that even his closest relatives could not share, Jiang Cheng now carried it silently.
He has no way to tell whether the sourness in his heart is moved, distressed, or helpless.
I just felt that the air around me was full of anxiety.
Gu Miao was in the store. Before Gu Fei went to the store, he went home and took his camera. Usually, if he didn't take pictures of Gu Miao, he rarely took her with him, but today he plans to take Gu Miao with him. .
He has been trying to make Gu Miao accept some changes during this time. For example, his brother no longer promises not to leave, and when he screams, he can no longer be comforted immediately.
Just the effect is not ideal.
He had wanted to let go for a while, so he would first make up for the cost of Gu Miao's rehabilitation.
But now, seeing Jiang Cheng's thin and pointed chin in just one month and the books on the bookshelf, he felt that he couldn't calm down again.
Jiang Cheng will definitely say that it doesn't matter, he is willing, he has no problem, he can do it.
But he didn't want to.
He can't accept a love life that doesn't even give him an easy one.
Gu Miao did not change, he and Jiang Cheng would never be able to get rid of this kind of life, and even if Jiang Cheng could hold on under this kind of pressure, what meaning would it have.
Why should Jiang Cheng bear the pressure in his life
"Er Miao," Gu Fei put the camera bag on the cashier, and called out to Gu Miao, who was still riding a skateboard at the door and jumping up the steps, "Would you like to take a photo with my brother?"
Gu Miao's head quickly got in through the crack of the door curtain and looked at him with bright eyes.
"It's such a cold day that you're sweating... hat, scarf," Gu Fei looked at her, "and gloves, too, it's windy, you'll catch a cold if you sweat outside."
Gu Miao entered the store, dressed according to his requirements, and then looked at him expectantly.
Maybe it's been too long since she took Gu Miao out to play, but now she is surprisingly obedient.
"Let's go." Gu Fei took the camera bag.
"Da Fei," Liu Li poked his head in from the backyard, "bring some vermicelli when you come back later."
"Isn't there one in the store?" Gu Fei turned around.
"She doesn't eat it," Liu Li pointed at Gu Miao, "I just asked her if she would eat vermicelli, she nodded, I showed her the vermicelli, and she just threw it to the ground in a tantrum."
"...I see," Gu Fei sighed, "I'll buy it later."
After walking out, he flicked on top of Gu Miao's head: "Er Miao."
Gu Miao raised her face and looked at him.
"You can't be rude to Uncle Liu," Gu Fei said. "You can't throw anything you don't want to eat on the ground, remember?"
Gu Miao nodded.
"Today is really good." Gu Fei sighed a little.
The road here was uneven, and Gu Miao couldn't keep stepping on the skateboard, so he followed him with the skateboard all the way.
When he got to the place where Jiang Cheng put the fluorescent bricks for him last time, there was a flat ground. Gu Miao immediately stood on the skateboard and slid forward.
It's been a long time since he came, and he only came here once after his birthday.
Standing here now, full of memories, that summer night, with the warm night wind, Jiang Cheng’s bright eyes and smile in the dark night.
"Follow the light and go get your present." Jiang Cheng's voice was particularly clear in his memory.
And that colorful light.
Gu Fei stood quietly.
Now there are no traces of their 18-year-old, and the scene in front of them returns to its usual desolation and desolation.
The paint on the abandoned fitness equipment that didn't completely fade was the only color in sight.
In addition, there are only dry grass, loess, and snow piled up on the roadside. Fortunately, there is still sunshine. The sun is not bad at the moment, and it covers all of this with a layer of warm color.
Gu Fei found a rock and sat down, took out the camera, installed the lens, raised the camera and slowly looked in front of him from the viewfinder.
A red shadow swept past the camera.
Today, Gu Miao was wearing a red down jacket, and when she jumped through the low-saturation scenery in front of her, she had a bright and full touch of glamour.
Gu Fei didn't have time to press the shutter, so he whistled.
Gu Miao responded quickly, and once again passed in front of him, he took two pictures.
"Er Miao is awesome!" He looked down at the camera screen with Gu Miao in the corner of his eyes, "As awesome as Peter Pan!"
Gu Miao was very excited. She hadn't come out to take pictures with her brother for a long time, and now she was praised again. She stepped on the skateboard and swayed back and forth in front of Gu Fei.
"My eyes made you dazzled," Gu Fei said with a smile, "you go there..."
Before Gu Fei finished speaking, just as he was about to raise his head, Gu Miao swept past like a gust of wind, reached out and took the camera from his hand.
"Er Miao!" Gu Fei called her and jumped up, the camera was too heavy, Gu Miao couldn't hold it steady like this, "Stop!"
Gu Miao was too excited, probably because she hadn't looked at her at the moment, she was a little anxious.
But Gu Fei's words didn't have much effect. Gu Miao, who was in his excited little world, stepped on the skateboard without stopping, dashed forward to the side of the road, and turned around again.
It was too late for Gu Fei to chase after him. He watched the camera slip from Gu Miao's hand and smashed the camera down on the ground.
"Gu Miao!" He roared.