Maybe it was the shock from the camera falling to the ground, maybe it was the first time Gu Fei shouted her full name, maybe both.
Gu Miao fell off the skateboard and sat on the ground, widening her eyes in horror.
"How many times have I said that!" Gu Fei walked in front of her, and no longer wanted to check the damage to the camera, the anger that could not be suppressed was rising up in his body little by little, "Don't do this! "
Gu Miao did not respond, and still stared at him with wide eyes.
"Why can't you remember!" Gu Fei shouted again, "Why can't you remember!"
silence.
Gu Miao's endless silence made him feel breathless, like being locked in a silent space for a long time, he could almost hear the sound of his blood flowing.
"Why!" Gu Fei yelled at her.
This sound almost used all his strength, and Gu Miao could be seen shaking violently.
He had never roared so hoarsely in his life, let alone roaring Gu Miao.
Desperate rage broke through his last line of defense.
For so many years from childhood to adulthood, in the face of his own life, patience and control have become his habit, isolating himself from the crowd.
And at this moment, the suppressed emotions were no longer controlled by reason, he wanted to roar, he wanted to shout, he wanted to smash something violently, and he wanted to tear it apart.
Why
"Why!" Gu Fei could hear his almost broken roar.
But not enough, not enough.
The anger and unwillingness, helplessness and despair smothered in his body were like a trapped beast, roaring and rampaging wildly like crazy.
"Is it my fault! Is it my fault!" Gu Fei roared, "You have become like this! I have become like this! Is it my fault!"
"What's wrong with me! Why should I bear this! Why!" Gu Fei glared at Gu Miao, "Tell me Gu Miao! Why! Why do I have to live like this! Why!"
"Whose fault is it! Whose fault is it!" Gu Fei felt like he was about to explode, he turned around and kicked the half brick on the ground ruthlessly.
The shattered bricks flew out in all directions.
"Why me!" Gu Fei roared and continued to kick the broken bricks on the ground, "Why! Why!"
Gu Miao, who had been stunned stiffly behind her, screamed.
"Ah—" Gu Fei turned around and shouted at her, "Ah—"
Gu Miao sat on the ground, hugged her knees, closed her eyes hard, and let out a sharp cry.
"Shout! Shout! Ah-" Gu Fei roared, "I want to shout too! Shout! Brother accompany you to shout! Ah-"
"You are also tutoring today?" Zhao Ke looked at Jiang Cheng who was about to go out with his bag on his back, "Isn't your tutoring on weekends?"
"Her mother introduced me to another classmate of hers. After school on Friday and Monday and Saturday morning," Jiang Cheng stuffed a thermos cup with hot chocolate into his bag, "Let's go, take a seat for me at night, I can Come back, it's not too far."
Zhao Ke did not speak, Jiang Cheng waved at him and ran out of the dormitory.
There was no time to eat, so he bought two fried chicken legs and gnawed on them on the way, plus a cup of chocolate, and it was almost the same.
Gu Fei said he had lost weight. Actually, he knew that he had lost weight, but he didn't expect it to be obvious enough that Gu Fei could see it at a glance.
Gee.
He was going to start having a late-night snack, but he wasn't too hungry at night, but if he didn't gain weight, his boyfriend would definitely be worried.
Giving supplementary lessons to children is not difficult for Jiang Cheng, but the annoying thing is that children are quite individual, and a person who is only a year or two older comes to provide supplementary lessons.
Today this is, with a face full of dissatisfaction, do you think you must be better than me? Going to the R major does not mean how powerful you are, you can handle the sea tactics.
Jiang Cheng had no choice but to be more arrogant than him, using the sentence "Just pick and choose from all your textbooks and materials. If you can't do it, I'll leave. If you do it, shut up."
When I came out of this child's house, the time was quite right, and I was able to go to the library in time.
On the way back to school, he received a call from Xu Xingzhi.
"I have a few cases here, which are somewhat similar to my sister's situation. I'll go look for you later," Xu Xingzhi said. "Look at it, and I'll learn more about it. By the way, let me know what I think."
"Okay," Jiang Cheng replied immediately, "Are all these cases effective in treatment?"
"There are some that are not effective. Treatment is a long-term process," Xu Xingzhi said. "These cases are not exactly the same as your sister's situation, but there are some details that may give you an intuitive understanding of your sister's condition."
"Yeah," Jiang Cheng nodded, "I'm going to school right now, I'll wait for you at the door."
Jiang Cheng hung up the phone and quickened his pace.
Xu Xingzhi should be willing to help. During this time, Xu Xingzhi contacted him a lot and asked about a lot of things. After meeting today, if he can be sure that he can help, then he can mention it to Gu Fei.
If Gu Miao can make progress...
Also has no effect.
Jiang Cheng’s steps paused, if it didn’t work, how much of a blow would it be to Gu Fei, he suddenly didn’t dare to think about it.
But soon he shook his head again. During this time, he had been reading various psychology books. Gu Miao's situation was not the most serious, whether it was in terms of the degree of self-closure or the ability to perceive the outside world.
Gu Miao's biggest problem is that she has never received systematic treatment, and she doesn't even have an accurate judgment on the cause of her condition. She may have missed the best stage of treatment, but it will definitely not be ineffective.
His appearance and his departure will stimulate Gu Miao, which is the best proof.
When Jiang Cheng arrived at the school gate, Xu Xingzhi was already standing there, the scarf covering half of his face.
"I'm sorry," Jiang Cheng ran over, "How long have you been here? Be cold!"
"Two minutes," Xu Xingzhi looked at him and pulled the scarf down, "Did you go out to play?"
"There's no time, tutor," Jiang Cheng smiled, "Have you eaten yet?"
"No, will you invite me to eat?" Xu Xingzhi said.
"Well, I invite you," Jiang Cheng said, "I didn't eat either."
"That's good," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "Let's go to the cafeteria..."
"No, no, go over there," Jiang Cheng pointed to the front, "I want to eat big meat pie, Zhao Ke said that there is a new one opened in front, and now there is a discount to buy one get one free."
"Okay." Xu Xingzhi nodded.
Jiang Cheng took a few steps and then stopped. He turned to look at him: "I forgot to ask you what you want to eat. If you want to eat, you can eat what you want."
"Pie." Xu Xingzhi said.
This pie is not bad, there are many kinds of fillings, and it can complement the pie from Wang Xu's family. After he bit the filling, he took a picture and sent it to Gu Fei.
-The stuffing that the Nine Days family doesn't have! Go back and sell secret recipes to him during the new year, haha!
Gu Fei didn't reply to him, he checked the time, he was probably eating or accompanying Gu Miao.
"That," Although he felt that he should talk about it after dinner, Jiang Cheng was still a little anxious, "Let me look at those cases now?"
Xu Xingzhi smiled, took out a folder from his bag and handed it to him: "I have printed it out."
"Thank you." Jiang Cheng took the folder, feeling a little excited.
There was a thick stack of documents in the folder. He roughly flipped through it and estimated that there were more than a dozen cases, including autism and post-traumatic stress disorder.
"My sister's performance doesn't seem to be a single type now," Xu Xingzhi said while eating, "If I can see her in person, I can judge based on her specific reaction, including her situation before and after her injury, her living environment, Relationships with family members, relationships with strangers, and reactions to all kinds of things can only be judged by seeing them.”
"Well, I'll discuss it with my friend," Jiang Cheng nodded, hesitating after thinking about it, "Just his sister... Can you help? Are you sure?"
"What?" Xu Xingzhi laughed, "I've come to this point, if I can't help you, I won't tell you this."
Jiang Cheng was excited for a while, and almost stood up: "Thank you! Thank you, senior!"
"You're welcome," Xu Xingzhi said, "do you dare to tell your friend after confirming with me, for fear that he will be disappointed?"
"... Hmm," Jiang Cheng felt a little embarrassed, "My friend... He really worked hard, and I was really afraid that he would be disappointed again."
"It seems to be a very important friend." Xu Xingzhi looked at him with his fingers on his forehead.
"Yes," Jiang Cheng cleared his throat, "very important, very important."
"Understood." Xu Xingzhi nodded.
Jiang Cheng returned to his senses and glanced at him quickly. There was a smile in Xu Xingzhi's eyes. There was nothing else in this smile, only a very simple "Oh, I understand".
Probably really understood, Jiang Cheng sighed in his heart, and suddenly felt that he would be seen through at any time when dealing with these psychology majors, not to mention that he seemed to be too obvious.
"However," Jiang Cheng felt a little uneasy after drinking two sips of soup, "How can I bring her here?"
"You don't need to bring it here," Xu Xingzhi said. "You can talk to your friends. I can go there during the winter vacation."
"Really?" Jiang Cheng felt that he almost couldn't control his eyebrows, and the raising of his eyebrows probably almost reached his forehead.
"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, "really, I also have my own considerations. In my sister's situation, based on the information you have provided so far, the treatment is meaningful, and I have never been in contact with a case like my sister."
"Thank you." Jiang Cheng didn't know what to say.
"You... seem to have lost a lot of weight?" Xu Xingzhi looked at him, "the last time I saw you, it seemed that the chin was not so sharp."
"Ah," Jiang Cheng pinched his chin, "It seems that hyaluronic acid is still useful? Can it be seen that it is sharp?"
"Yeah," Xu Xingzhi smiled after being stunned, "don't put so much pressure on yourself, money matters can always be solved."
Jiang Cheng didn't feel embarrassed that he seemed to be seen through once again, he just smiled: "It's okay, many of my classmates also take tutors."
"Money is the next step," Xu Xingzhi said, "you are now with your man..."
Jiang Cheng was stunned for a moment, the male character Xu Xingzhi was not complete, and he quickly continued to speak with a calm expression on his face without even stammering: "Communicate well with your friends, the trust and cooperation of your family will be important to the treatment. It is very important, like my sister's treatment, if the family does not cooperate, it will not continue."
"Oh," Jiang Cheng looked at him, "En."
Xu Xingzhi smiled: "If you don't understand anything, just ask me at any time."
"En." Jiang Cheng continued to respond.
The psychology expert who seemed to be able to see through everything snorted.
For some reason, he suddenly wanted to laugh a little.
He didn't mind being seen by Xu Xingzhi. He didn't know each other before, and he's known each other for a while now. Xu Xingzhi always gave him a feeling of trust, and he would relax quickly even if he was embarrassed when they were together.
Therefore, Xu Xingzhi's slid mouth, which was covered up quietly, made him relax suddenly.
It's good, you'll know it when you know it. After all, he ran around for Gu Fei's sake, and it would be too tiring to cover it up.
"This pie is not bad," Xu Xingzhi rubbed his stomach as he walked out of the store, "I'll invite you to eat when I come back next time."
"Okay," Jiang Cheng smiled, "If you go over there during the winter vacation, I have a pie shop that I can take you to eat. It's definitely super delicious."
"Okay." Xu Xingzhi smiled.
This meal didn't take too long. After separating from Xu Xingzhi at the school gate, Jiang Cheng went straight to the library holding the folder.
"I thought you weren't coming, I told others that you had diarrhea," Zhao Ke whispered, "It's embarrassing to occupy this place."
"I'm sorry," Jiang Cheng said in a low voice as he sat down, "I'll treat you to a late-night snack later."
"Why did I go to you?" Zhao Ke asked, "Isn't the tutoring only one hour?"
"Xu Xingzhi came to find me and chatted for a while," Jiang Cheng said, "He promised to help my friend and sister."
"Really? That's great," Zhao Ke said, "but I didn't expect him to agree so quickly."
"Huh?" Jiang Cheng tilted his head.
"He's very difficult to talk to," Zhao Ke said. "Usually if you want to find him for psychological counseling or something, he will introduce him to others. My sister is still so far away."
"He said that my sister's case is rather special." Jiang Cheng said.
"His boss is so good, and special cases are not uncommon." Zhao Ke said.
"Then..." Jiang Cheng was suddenly a little confused after he said that, looking at Zhao Ke.
Zhao Ke also looked at him.
Jiang Cheng felt that at this moment, both of them suddenly became thoughtful.
"You..." When Zhao Ke wanted to continue, the classmate who was reading next to him tapped on the table.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." They both apologized to the person at the same time, quickly ended the topic, lowered their heads and started to read.
After the library was closed, Jiang Cheng invited Zhao Ke out for a late night snack. He ate chicken wings and Zhao Ke ate fried scorpions.
"How on earth are you able to eat this thing?" Jiang Cheng never understood.
Zhao Ke handed a string of scorpions to his mouth: "You should solve this kind of thing through practice."
"I don't need to solve this puzzle." Jiang Cheng avoided it.
When he returned to the dormitory after eating, Jiang Cheng took out his mobile phone and glanced at it. As soon as he came out of the library, he sent Gu Fei a message, but now that the supper was finished, Gu Fei did not reply to him either. Up to now, Gu Fei has never contacted him.
This has never been the case.
Is something wrong
too busy
Fell asleep
Jiang Cheng hesitated whether to make a phone call, but stared at the phone for a long time without dialing.
If it was before, he would not hesitate, but recently he always feels that Gu Fei is under a lot of pressure, or is he under too much pressure? I am always afraid that the time to call is not right.
Will it affect Gu Fei's work schedule
Will it affect Gu Fei playing with Gu Miao
Will it disturb Gu Fei's sleep
"You and your boyfriend," Zhao Ke glanced at him, "did you tell Xu Xingzhi?"
"Huh?" Jiang Cheng turned his head.
Looking at each other again, the thoughtful atmosphere of the library reappeared.
"He..." No one interrupted this time, so Jiang Cheng asked: "Xu Xingzhi... is that?"
"Yeah." Zhao Ke responded.
"Fuck me?" Jiang Cheng was stunned, "How do you know?"
"I thought he was in a relationship with Zhao Jin before," Zhao Ke said, "I asked, his sexuality is not a secret."
"...Why didn't you say it at first?" Jiang Cheng was surprised.
"It's none of my business. Why should I talk about this?" Zhao Ke looked at him. "He treats my sister, but it's not a blind date with you."
"Ah, yes." Jiang Cheng was still a little bit confused.
"Did you tell him that is your boyfriend's sister?" Zhao Ke asked.
"No," Jiang Cheng said, "but I guess he... sees it."
"Oh." Zhao Ke didn't say anything else.
Back in the dormitory, Lu Shi and Zhang Qiqi were still lying on the bed reading.
After Jiang Cheng put everything away, he took his mobile phone and walked out of the dormitory again, into the corridor.
He still wanted to give Gu Fei a call. After all, this was the first time that Gu Fei had not contacted him all day.
He glanced at the time. Normally, Gu Fei was not sleeping at this time, so he pressed the dial.
There was a long silence in the receiver, so long that he almost thought he had missed the dial.
Just as he was about to take a look, a voice came from the receiver.
"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later."
Jiang Cheng was stunned for a while, unable to connect
He hung up the phone and dialed again.
Still can't connect.
Gu Fei's cell phone is dead? Or is there a problem with your phone
He restarted his phone once, and dialed Gu Fei's number for the third time.
"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later."
What's going on here
Jiang Cheng suddenly felt a little uneasy, he hung up the phone with frown, opened WeChat, and clicked into Gu Fei's Moments.
The latest one is from last week. It is a photo of the sun rising between several old buildings and pulling out a long halo. It is accompanied by two words, good morning.
Below is the expression of a little sun that Jiang Cheng sent.
There was no problem in the circle of friends, Jiang Cheng suddenly didn't know what to do.
In theory, the phone is out of power, the phone is broken, the phone is in his pocket and hung in the cabinet, there may be a situation where it can't be connected for various reasons, but he doesn't know why, but at this moment he is very flustered.
Jiang Cheng stood in the corridor for five minutes, froze for a while, and dialed again several times, but nothing changed.
He pointed out Li Yan's name in the phone book, but after staring at it for a long time, he turned it off.
After a while, I clicked it again, and then turned it off again.
Li Yan and Gu Fei didn't live together again, and they didn't contact him every day. He might not know what happened to Gu Fei, and... It seemed a bit strange to call his friend just after not contacting Gu Fei for a day.
It wasn't until Zhao Ke stuck his head out of the dormitory to look at him that he lowered his head and sent another message to Gu Fei, then returned to the dormitory.
- Is there something wrong with the phone? I can't get through all the time. I have nothing to do tomorrow. You can call me.
"Da Fei!" Liu Li knocked on the door of the bedroom, "You come out, we have to talk."
Gu Fei didn't speak, leaned against the head of the bed and didn't move.
It was very dark in the room, and I didn't know what time it was, or whether it was yesterday, today, or tomorrow.
On the small sofa by the window was a small figure, Gu Miao who had rolled herself into a ball and hugged her legs.
I don't know how long it has been, it seems like it's not long, and it seems like it's been a lifetime, Gu Miao has been curling up in the corner of the sofa without eating or drinking.
Gu Fei couldn't describe his feelings.
He couldn't judge what kind of stimulation the roar brought to Gu Miao, but Gu Miao, who was trembling and screaming because of his roar, still refused to leave his room.
And Gu Fei didn't know what else to do.
Liu Li was very angry.
Gu Fei felt that he could understand him very well.
The younger sister was yelled back into her shell. When his mother questioned him, he pushed his mother to the ground again, and when Liu Li came up to stop him, he beat him.
He didn't know what was wrong with him.
This terrible violence seemed to be his best way of venting at that moment.
When he roared, when he raised his arms, he seemed to see the person who made him shudder when he heard footsteps.
At that moment he was confused and frightened.
He didn't know how long Liu Li had been knocking on the door, until the sound from outside the door became that of Li Yan, and he turned his head slightly.
"Da Fei," Li Yan said, "I'm not here to persuade you, I'm here to remind you."
Gu Fei looked at the door.
"It's been two days," Li Yan said, "Jiang Cheng hasn't been able to contact you for two days. You should at least give him a call. He is the only one who cares about you and doesn't know what's going on."
Jiang Cheng.
Gu Fei leaned back, his head against the wall.
Has it been two days
In the numb state, he suddenly felt distressed.
"I'm going in now," Li Yan said, "I'll pick the lock and go in. If you dare to do anything to me when I go in, I'll break up with you."
Gu Fei sat up straight with some difficulty.