After walking around the old dormitory area twice, neither of them spoke again.
Jiang Cheng didn't know what Gu Fei was thinking and how he felt. He himself felt that there were countless things he wanted to say, but when it came time to speak, he couldn't say anything, not even a single word.
What the two of them have gone through in the past month, they don't know each other, they can only judge from the face and state, Jiang Cheng can see that Gu Fei is not doing well.
"Go in and sit for a while," Gu Fei finally pointed to a small cake shop on the side of the road and said, "It's too windy."
Um. Jiang Cheng responded.
But no sound.
fuck! He quickly cleared his throat and hummed again.
There is a sound this time.
Is this a stress response? Jiang Cheng was really helpless, or was it a sequelae of stress? He just wanted to laugh when he heard it.
There was no one in the cake shop, Gu Fei bought two cups of hot milk tea and two cakes and put them on the small table by the window.
Jiang Cheng sat down. Just as he stretched out his hand to bring the milk tea in front of him, Gu Fei took the milk tea from his hand again: "I forgot to get angry, so don't drink the milk tea first, I'll go and ask for another..."
"No need," Jiang Cheng grabbed the sleeve of his jacket and tugged, "It's not that serious, don't bother."
Gu Fei hesitated for a while and sat down.
The two were in a daze with the straw in their mouth.
"Have you bought a new lens?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"En." Gu Fei nodded.
"Originally," Jiang Cheng bit the straw and tried to slow down his speech rate so as to make his voice less hoarse, "I want to call you first, but I don't know if I can get through, so..."
"I changed back to my old mobile phone," Gu Fei said softly, "I went to Pan Zhi and wanted to ask him where you are going on vacation, he..."
"Did you delete it?" Jiang Cheng smiled.
"Well," Gu Fei took a sip of milk tea and pushed the cake in front of him, "This... it's delicious, I tried it before when I bought it for Er Miao."
Jiang Cheng didn't speak, he took the cake and took a bite.
Didn't taste it.
He couldn't tell whether he was in a good or bad mood at the moment, just boring, very boring.
After forcibly eating the cake, Jiang Cheng wiped his mouth: "Let's... let's get down to business."
"Okay." Gu Fei said.
"I made my own decisions about this matter. I was afraid that you would be under pressure, so I never told you." Jiang Cheng took a sip of milk tea, "I just want to see if Er Miao's illness can be cured."
Gu Fei didn't speak, he lowered his head and turned the glass.
"I went to several hospitals and asked the doctors, and if Er Miao couldn't get there, there was nothing I could do," Jiang Cheng cleared his throat, "So I thought about reading the psychology book first, and then I told Zhao Ke about it. This thing…”
Jiang Cheng glanced at Gu Fei, and was a little worried that Gu Fei would be upset when others found out about this, but Gu Fei had no special reaction and kept his head down.
"Zhao Ke's sister, who happens to be a graduate student of clinical psychology at University B, introduced Xu Xingzhi to..." Jiang Cheng swallowed.
"Xu Xingzhi?" Gu Fei raised his head.
"That's it..." Jiang Cheng cleared his throat again, "That senior just now."
"En." Gu Fei nodded and stood up.
Jiang Cheng was stunned for a while, watching him go to the water dispenser next to him to pick up a glass of warm water and then sit back.
"Forget the water." Gu Fei put the water in front of him.
"Oh." Jiang Cheng took a few sips of water.
The water was still hot, and when the steam hit my face, it made my eyes feel a little hot.
"When you called that day..." Jiang Cheng said here, and suddenly recalled what Gu Fei said on the phone that day. Every sentence was like a needle, and it made his heart twitch for a while, although he knew what Gu Fei said. Thought, but he still stopped and slowed down, "I wanted to tell you, but I didn't have time."
"I'm sorry." Gu Fei said.
sorry. What Jiang Cheng didn't want to hear was this sentence.
Who is sorry for whom, he does not know, this is a matter of right and wrong, and it is impossible to distinguish between right and wrong.
"Xu Xingzhi is the only person who can come to see Ermiao and treat Ermiao," Jiang Cheng took another sip of hot water, "Although he hasn't graduated yet, he is a student who is highly valued by his tutor, so..."
Jiang Cheng bit his lip and raised his eyes to look at Gu Fei: "I want him to try it out and get in touch with Ermiao."
"En." Gu Fei also looked at him.
"This matter requires your consent and your cooperation," Jiang Cheng said with some difficulty, "If you feel... inappropriate..."
"Okay." Gu Fei said.
Jiang Cheng looked at him: "Do you agree? Are you willing to cooperate?"
"En." Gu Fei nodded.
Jiang Cheng didn't speak, he lowered his head and stared at the hot air coming out of the cup, and let out a light sigh of relief.
But then, the feeling of heat in the eyes reappeared, as if the breath exhaled some barrier in the body, and tears suddenly poured out.
He didn't even have time to react, and two large tears fell into the cup just like that.
I fuck it.
Jiang Cheng felt that he was simply saddened from the bottom of his heart, and had a strong desire to find out if he had undergone lacrimal gland surgery.
He had to keep his head down and wink desperately at the mouth of the cup.
"Brother Cheng," Gu Fei took out a tissue, hesitantly shoved it into his hand, "I remember everything you did, I really..."
When Gu Fei put the tissue in his hand, his fingertips touched his mouth.
Very light, almost imperceptible touch.
This is their only physical contact since October.
"Gu Fei," Jiang Cheng grabbed the paper and rubbed his eyes randomly a few times, then raised his head to look at him, "You know what? I don't want you to remember this, it's just because you remember it too clearly, that's why you're like this. of."
Gu Fei looked at him and said nothing.
"Before I came back, I felt that I had a lot to say," Jiang Cheng took a deep breath, leaned back in his chair, turned his head and looked at the empty street outside the window. He hadn't seen such a clean scene for a long time. The coldness can be seen in the emptiness, which makes people calm down slowly, "I'm a little excited now, so I can't say anything."
"Me too..." Gu Fei held the milk tea cup in his hand, and unconsciously kept drawing circles on the table, "Yes."
"Let's put other things aside for now," Jiang Cheng said, "Xu Xingzhi will stay for a few days, let him contact Ermiao first, judge her condition, see if there is any treatment plan, and How to continue treatment in the future."
"Well, good." Gu Fei nodded.
"I'm afraid Er Miao will have some resistance," Jiang Cheng turned back to look at Gu Fei, "You go back tonight and tell her first? See you tomorrow with big brother?"
"Well, I'll talk to her first." Gu Fei said.
Jiang Cheng looked at him, and actually wanted to ask, what happened to Gu Fei that day, why did he suddenly cut off contact and suddenly said "Forget it".
But in the end, he didn't ask, Gu Fei's scars were nothing more than his family members, and there was no need to open it up to make Gu Fei hurt again.
After coming out of the cake shop, the two of them went back in silence and walked to the downstairs of the rental room. Gu Fei said, "I will call you tomorrow?"
"En." Jiang Cheng responded.
"Then I... go back first," Gu Fei said, "Tomorrow... let's have a meal together?"
"En," Jiang Cheng nodded, "Then I'll go upstairs first."
Gu Fei turned around and left, Jiang Cheng stood there and didn’t move, looking at Gu Fei’s back, this back was still familiar to him, he could even remember the posture and pace of walking.
… Forget that for now.
Thinking too much and wanting to say too much, on the contrary, both of them were at a loss.
When he turned around and walked into the corridor, he saw Gu Fei turn his head in the corner of his light.
"Jiang Cheng, you are too boring," Zhao Jin said while nibbling on the ribs, "Don't tell me about your relationship before you come here."
"I... forgot." Jiang Cheng said.
"This is my treat," Zhao Jin took a sip of soup, "remember the days when I plunged into a pile of little gays."
"Sister," Pan Zhi looked at her and said sincerely, "I'm not, little gay."
"Oh," Zhao Jin also looked at him, "Is it a pity?"
"I..." Pan Zhi sighed, "Yes, yes."
Zhao Jin laughed for a long time: "Have you been here before? Take your sister out to play tomorrow. They are going to see her, so let's not cause trouble."
"No problem." Pan Zhi nodded immediately.
The hotel where Zhao Jin and Xu Xingzhi were staying was booked by Pan Zhi. After eating, Pan Zhi sent Zhao Jin to the hotel first, while Xu Xingzhi and Jiang Cheng continued to chat for a while at the hotel.
"That's about it. I'll probably talk to Gu Fei tomorrow," Xu Xingzhi said. "After the communication, I will contact Gu Miao. Is there any convenient place to talk around here?"
Jiang Cheng thought for a while: "Maybe it's at our school. There's a cafe that feels like it's going to close down. If it's a holiday, there's basically no one in it."
"That's ok," Xu Xingzhi smiled, "Go back and rest, your face is a little ugly."
"En." Jiang Cheng touched his face.
The weather was good today, there was no snow, and it was obvious early in the morning that the sun would come out today. Gu Fei stood at the door of the store smoking a cigarette, watching Gu Miao, who was riding his skateboard and flying by against the north wind.
He looked down at the time on his phone, it was a little early to call Jiang Cheng now.
He got up too early and didn't fall asleep all night. I don't know if it was because he was too upset or because he slept in the rental room for an afternoon yesterday.
If it wasn't for Jiang Cheng's sudden appearance, he might have been able to sleep until the night.
When he opened his eyes and saw what Jiang Cheng felt at that moment, he still felt like he was in a dream when he thought about it.
Jiang Cheng lost a lot of weight, and he no longer had the expression of "I'm the best" written all over his face in his memory.
His voice was also hoarse, and it was definitely not because he got angry. He used to eat barbecue for several days, and he might not get angry. He had known Jiang Cheng for so long, and he had never seen him get angry.
Is it because you are too tired, or because you are in a bad mood
Gu Fei leaned against the door and sighed, his mind was like an obsessive-compulsive disorder, and he repeatedly recalled every detail of the time from opening his eyes and seeing Jiang Cheng to when Jiang Cheng turned around and walked into the corridor.
Can't stop no matter what.
Jiang Cheng's self-control is pretty good, you can see it when you watch him review the sprint, but he doesn't control his emotions very well, and he doesn't hide himself a lot of the time.
When he watched Jiang Cheng try his best to control his emotions yesterday, he felt very distressed.
He wanted to say sorry, wanted to hug Jiang Cheng, and thought a lot, but in the end he could only sit there.
There was now a subtle sense of distance between him and Jiang Cheng, not only because of his phone call, but also because of the blank space that had never been in contact.
When the phone rang, Gu Fei was still staring at the snow in a trance. Liu Li, who came out to throw the trash, said, "Is your phone ringing?" before he came back to his senses.
The call was from Jiang Cheng. There was no Jiang Cheng’s number on the old mobile phone, but he could memorize Jiang Cheng’s number.
"I thought you haven't woken up yet," Gu Fei answered the phone, "I'm thinking of calling later."
"Just got up, I guess you already got up," Jiang Cheng's voice was still a little hoarse, "I'm going with Xu Xingzhi now, have you talked to Er Miao?"
"Well," Gu Fei said, "Tell her that Brother Cheng is coming over today, and a big brother is also coming to play with her."
"Is she willing to see me?" Jiang Cheng's voice trembled a little, he was probably going downstairs.
"I'm not sure," Gu Fei looked at Gu Miao in the distance. "She can't express her thoughts anyway. I think she's a little excited today, and she's still skateboarding in such a strong wind."
"Take a look at it later, if it doesn't work, I'll avoid it," Jiang Cheng said, "Is she afraid of cats?"
"I'm not afraid, why?" Gu Fei asked.
"Bring a very docile cat over to let her play," Jiang Cheng said, "and see if she likes it."
"En." Gu Fei responded.
"Then... I'll hang up first," Jiang Cheng said, "I'll be there soon."
"Okay." Gu Fei glanced at the intersection and hung up the phone.
For some reason, he suddenly felt a little nervous. Gu Fei hadn't felt this way for a long time.
I want to see Jiang Cheng.
He was also a little afraid to see Jiang Cheng.
When there was no Jiang Cheng at the intersection, he was a little anxious.
When he saw Jiang Cheng walking out of the corner, he quickly lifted the curtain and entered the store.
After standing facing the cashier for a while, he turned around again, lifted the curtain and walked out, his heart beating wildly.
Jiang Cheng and Xu Xingzhi walked over, Gu Fei greeted them, and nodded at them, "Good morning."
"Morning," Xu Xingzhi stretched out his hand, "I didn't have time to get to know each other well yesterday."
"Yesterday... I'm sorry," Gu Fei shook hands with him and looked back, "I asked her to come over."
"Well, is that the little girl over there?" Xu Xingzhi asked.
"Yes." Gu Fei nodded, then whistled.
Gu Miao over there immediately returned a whistle, then stepped on the skateboard to make an emergency stop, turned and slid over here.
"Do you usually call her that?" Xu Xingzhi asked with a smile.
"Yes, when she was skateboarding, she was so far away that she couldn't hear her," Gu Fei said.
"It's interesting," Xu Xingzhi smiled and looked at Gu Miao who was sliding towards them, "It's very beautiful, little sister."
"Thank you." Gu Fei also smiled.
Jiang Cheng was a little nervous. Although he had always held out hope for everything and refused to give up, he kept telling himself that Gu Miao would make progress.
But when Gu Miao stepped on the skateboard and approached them meter by meter, he became nervous.
Gu Miao is not the key to solving the problem between him and Gu Fei.
But Gu Miao was a tie that Gu Fei couldn't let go of.
He was afraid that Gu Fei would be disappointed.
He was suddenly very scared, what kind of abyss Gu Fei would face if Gu Miao really didn't make progress in the end.
Gu Miao was very close to them, and he could already see the excited expression on Gu Miao's face.
"Er Miao," Gu Fei crouched down, reached out and gestured to Gu Miao, "Slow down."
Gu Miao's speed slowed down. When the skateboard rushed in front of them, she stepped on the board and stopped. When she jumped off the skateboard, she picked up her toes and pinched the skateboard under her arm.
"Brother Cheng is back." Gu Fei said.
Gu Miao's gaze went beyond Gu Fei and landed on Jiang Cheng.
Jiang Cheng smiled and bent down: "Er Miao."
Gu Miao looked at him and did not respond.
Jiang Cheng snapped his fingers and gave her a thumbs up.
Gu Miao hugged the skateboard, and after a while, she raised her hand, snapped her fingers, and then gave a thumbs up.
"That's great," Jiang Cheng almost burst into tears at this moment, "Er Miao is awesome!"
Gu Fei looked back at him.
Jiang Cheng smiled, and Gu Fei twitched the corner of his mouth: "She still misses you very much."
"En." Jiang Cheng nodded.
"Er Miao, this is Uncle Xu... Brother," Gu Fei pointed at Xu Xingzhi, "Brother Xu, say hello to Brother Xu."
Xu Xingzhi had been standing by and watching, Jiang Cheng knew that he was observing the way of communication between Gu Fei and Gu Miao and Gu Miao's reaction.
Gu Miao bowed at him holding the skateboard, Xu Xingzhi smiled and squatted down: "Hello."
Gu Miao seemed a little dazed, looking at him without responding.
"Is this your skateboard?" Xu Xingzhi pointed to the skateboard she was holding.
Gu Miao looked down at the skateboard, and Xu Xingzhi said, "How did you play?"
Gu Miao glanced at him, turned around and put the skateboard on the ground, stepped up with one foot, the head of the board was tilted up, and she looked back at Xu Xingzhi.
Jiang Cheng saw in her eyes the kind of provocative little eyes that Gu Miao had seen when he skated with him before.
"Then what?" Xu Xingzhi asked.
Gu Miao also stepped on the skateboard with the other leg, leaned her body, and rushed forward on this slope.
"Can she usually communicate with people like this?" Xu Xingzhi asked Gu Fei.
"Not necessarily," Gu Fei said. "It's half and half. Sometimes I get nervous and unhappy, and it's not going to work."
"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, stood up, and looked at Jiang Cheng, "Then let's go to... the cafe you mentioned?"
"Then let's go." Jiang Cheng said.
Gu Miao stepped on the skateboard in front, and Xu Xingzhi kept looking at her.
Gu Fei walked beside Xu Xingzhi, and Jiang Cheng followed behind with the cat bag.
He was a little hesitant, should he just walk behind him, go up and walk side by side with Gu Fei, or side by side with Xu Xingzhi
This kind of inexplicable sudden embarrassment made him very depressed.
Gu Fei seemed to have a similar feeling to him. Jiang Cheng saw him turn his head a few times, looked back with his peripheral vision, his steps slowed down a bit, and then accelerated again.
"That," Gu Fei finally turned around, "Is there a cat in the bag?"
"Well, it's called Fat Sheep," Jiang Cheng lifted the cat bag, "it's the senior's cat."
"Look at Gu Miao's reaction to small animals in a while. My cat is very close, like a dog, so it's more suitable for contact with children." Xu Xingzhi said.
"My neighbor raised rabbits when I was a child," Gu Fei said. "She quite likes it. Now the only animal that can draw is rabbits."
"Let me see what she drew today," Xu Xingzhi said, "what she wrote or drew is fine."
"Okay." Gu Fei nodded.
After walking a few steps, he turned around again: "Shall I take it?"
"...No." Jiang Cheng said.
Xu Xingzhi didn't know if it was intentional or not, he took out his mobile phone, and while looking at it, he quickened his pace and walked in front of them.
Gu Fei took a step slower, Jiang Cheng went up and walked alongside him.
"Brother Cheng," Gu Fei whispered, "this treatment... how is the cost calculated?"
"He's helping," Jiang Cheng said, "this time, I'm just contacting him first to see what Ermiao's problem is. There's no charge. If he gets treatment later, he won't charge any fees, just need to have some examinations and so on. Yes, and those of rehabilitation, those costs should still be affordable."
"En." Gu Fei nodded.
Jiang Cheng didn't say that he could help with the cost, he didn't want Gu Fei to feel any pressure anymore, and it wasn't time to discuss the cost in detail.
"Have you taken jobs during the holidays?" Jiang Cheng asked.
"Take it, Ding Zhuxin has a job," Gu Fei said, "but it can be dismissed for a few days."
"It shouldn't be necessary, it won't last a whole day," Jiang Cheng smiled, "It won't affect it."
The two of them didn't speak anymore, and walked down the road to the school.
The two of them had walked this road countless times, walking, driving a motorcycle, driving a small steamed bun, and riding a bicycle. The trip they took today was the one that impressed Jiang Cheng the most.
Every step is full of flavors.
There is really no one in the cafe, not only no one, but there is nothing else to order except coffee, a very dedicated cafe.
So they asked for coffee and a glass of milk for Gu Miao.
Xu Xingzhi wanted to chat with Gu Fei first, so Jiang Cheng took Gu Miao and sat down at the table next to him.
"It's called Fat Sheep," Jiang Cheng pulled the cat bag away and pointed at Gu Miao, "Er Miao, do you think its fur looks like a rabbit?"
Gu Miao's eyes lit up when he saw the fat sheep in the bag.
"You can touch it, Ermiao." Gu Fei said.
Gu Miao hesitated for a moment, then stretched out her hand. Before she could put her hand into the cat bag, the fat sheep stretched out its paw and placed it in her palm.
Gu Miao turned her head abruptly and looked at Gu Fei excitedly.
"It likes you very much," Xu Xingzhi said, "do you want to play with it?"
Gu Miao didn't speak, just turned his head, slumped on the table, and leaned in front of the cat bag, staring at the fat sheep.
Jiang Cheng breathed a sigh of relief, just like Gu Miao, he had a faint surprise in his heart.
It can be seen that Gu Miao likes the fat sheep very much, and when the fat sheep rubs against her face, she has been touching the fat sheep.
Xu Xingzhi and Gu Fei sat down at a table away from each other.
Jiang Cheng couldn't quite hear what they were talking about, but he could almost guess what Xu Xingzhi wanted to know. Judging from the psychological knowledge that he had packed into his brain during this semester and had not yet fully digested it, it should touch Gu Fei. The unwilling to mention the past.
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